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Mingyu woke up first. His muscles were painfully sore, but he was content, happy even. He sighed deeply, exhaling it long and deep through his nose. His eyes fell on the gorgeous blond man, sleeping next to him and he felt warmth and love. He knew he was not supposed to feel this way, but it was impossible not to love Jin, especially after the sex they had. He was helplessly in love, but to Jin, he was just a darling tool, a toy he loved to use for his own needs. Not to sound too rough, Mingyu had to admit that Jin gave more than he took, as Mingyu was always thoroughly satisfied, discovering each time new ways of pleasure and resilience, prolonging the need further and longer than he thought possible.

Jin would change completely during the sex like he was another person. The adorable and silly man Jimin and the rest of the group adore, would disappear completely when his lust is aroused. Only Mingyu now knew how deep and serious Jin could really be. He was fascinated with him.

Fuck I sound like a fucking teen girl in love. Mingyu thought with disgust, but his brows cleared as his eyes ran across Jin's features.

-'' Beautiful.'' – He murmured quietly as he ran his fingers lightly on Jin's arm.

Jin shifted slightly but didn't wake up. His pouting mouth made a slight munching sound like he was eating in his sleep and Mingyu had to bite his lip from the ever-growing feeling in his chest. Jin was so bloody adorable and all Mingyu wanted at that moment was to hug him tightly and drown him with his kisses. He wished he could tell him how much he loves him and for Jin to return the feelings. For the first time, Mingyu like the idea of being in a real relationship with the man. He usually dated women and from time to time, he had sex with men, but Jin...Jin was the only one to whom he felt such attraction and emotions...it was crazy as hell.

The erotic stories that surrounded Jin were true, Mingyu now knew. He also knew that Jin never returned to his old sex partners. There is a reason why they're called "one night stands" and Jin followed that rule thoroughly....and yet, there he was, in Mingyu's bed...again. His heart flutter at that single thought, allowing himself a slight hope that maybe, just maybe, Jin would choose to stay with him.

He kept tracing Jin's flawless body with his fingertips, admiring every curve, every mole, allowing his fingertips to get as much as he could of Jin's skin, without waking him up. He knew that Jin would get up and leave and Mingyu didn't want that. No...he truly didn't. He turned slightly to check the clock on his phone, it was 5:42 am...still too early and his eyelids were still heavy, so Mingyu curled near Jin, careful not to wake him, enjoying his heat and falling back into sleep.

Jin woke up around seven, stretching all of his limbs lazily, yawning. He tried blinking a few times, before he rubbed his eyes and run his hand through his hair, slightly tugging at it, enjoying the sensation on his scalp. He became aware of the body lying next to him. He smiled fondly and tilted his head to the left. There he was, sleeping soundly on his stomach between white linen sheets. Jin's chest heaved at the sight.

He admired him for a few seconds, feeling the familiar twitch in his groin. His body was waking up, ready to play. Jin smiled wickedly and got up from bed. He went to the bathroom to pee and wash his face and his neck. Refreshed slightly, he returned to sleeping Mingyu. He pulled at the duvet carefully, exposing Mingyu's lower part of his body.

So, Mingyu got up sometime in the night and put on some briefs...huh...naughty boy. Jin thought, smirking. The sight of Mingyu aroused Jin. He was ready to enjoy his body again. He didn't feel this desire for a long time, because he usually got bored after the first time, but Mingyu was something else. He enjoyed being in bed with him, which was new.

Jin placed his plump lips on Mingyu's lower back, kissing and licking along the spine. He straddled him, kissing the nape of the man's neck, when he felt the press of Mingyu's ass on his groin, followed by a low moan.

-'' Good morning.''  – Jin whispered in his ear, making Mingyu shiver and murmur.

-'' Good morning, gorgeous. Aaah....'' – He hissed from pleasure when Jin bit him on his shoulder. He felt Jin pressing his cock on his sore ass.

-'' You know that my ass didn't heal from last night right?'' - Mingyu murmurs, his voice muffled by the pillow.

Jin chuckled. - ''Mine is not better either...''

-'' Then why are you teasing my p-poor butt with that, aah....'' – He moaned when Jin pressed himself on him heavily, creating the friction of his clothed dick with the mattress. – '' Fuck, Jin, why do you always m-make me so horny?''

-'' Because you can't get enough of me...'' - Jin smiled, but Mingyu grew suddenly serious. He shifted, as he was about to turn, causing Jin to stop grinding his hips on him and move slightly so Mingyu could turn on his back.

Jin sat back on Mingyu's front, holding himself in his arms on each side of Mingyu's head. He looked down, eyes roaming at black haired man, who was returning the look back. He was about to kiss him when Mingyu spoke.

-'' That's true Jin Hyung, I can't get enough.''  – The way he said it made Jin pause. Mingyu sighed deeply, placing his hands on Jin's thighs, and stroking them.

-'' Hyung...you...you are something entirely different from anything I've been used to.'' - Mingyu admits a bit wearily, not sure if it's a good idea to say it and risk a chance of ruin it, or get everything off his chest and accept whatever faith is in store for him. He licks his lips before continuing. -'' The way you move, speak, fuck, everything is new to me...different. You confuse and delight me on so many different levels. Every time I'm hanging out with you, I never know what to expect.''

-'' What do you mean?'' – Jin frowns at that.

-'' You are constantly changing Hyung, you are never the same.'' - Mingyu squeezed Jin's thighs, trying to organize his thoughts properly. -'' You act one way with me and another with the rest of the group.''

Jin chuckles. -'' I don't fuck the rest of the group, Mingyu.'' – He said, cocking an eyebrow, trying to figure out where does this conversation leads.

-'' I know that and I'm glad honestly because I hate the idea of sharing you with them...''

There is something in this mild possession that triggered Jin's annoyance. His brow arched even further. -'' You hate the idea?'' - He asks incredulously. - '' Mingyu, I'm not yours, I never was.'' – He says seriously, the desire for sex evaporating as quickly as it came. He prepared to move away from the man, but Mingyu grabbed him by the thighs tighter. 

 -'' Hyung, please...'' - Mingyu spoke a bit panicked. -'' I'm sorry, I know...just...just let me speak, I need to.''

Jin sighed deeply. -'' Alright, go on...''

The man gulped hard, his chest vibrating from anxiousness. -'' I'm in love with you, Hyung.''

Jin groaned, running his hand through his hair again. - '' Dammit, Mingyu...that's why I don't come back to the ones I slept with.'' - He said that so quietly that Mingyu barely caught it.

-'' Is it...'' - Mingyu begin, but his voice almost got lost in the surge of emotion in his throat, choking him. - '' Is it so bad to love me, Hyung?''

Jin looked at him again, feeling the heaviness in his chest as he watched Mingyu's eyes fill with tears. -'' Fuck, Mingyu, don't cry, please...''

The man wipes his face with his hands. -'' I am sorry. ''– He tries to make a weak joke. – '' I am not the one who cries often... I'm usually the one looking at them pitifully just like you do at me now.''

Jin bends down, kissing him full on the lips, catching Mingyu off guard. He cupped his face between his palms and licked Mingyu's lips, which parted, inviting Jin in. They kissed for the briefest of seconds, before Jin pulled back slightly, resting his forehead on Mingyu's, both men slightly out of breath.

-'' Mingyu... I am not in a healthy place... now...to be in a relationship. There is so much stuff going on in my life that I need to deal with, and you...you are a distraction. Sweet, hot, mind-blowing distraction.'' - Jin says honestly, which only makes Mingyu's heart squeeze tighter in pain. - '' I enjoy being with you. You make me feel great and I want always to satisfy your sexual needs because that's the only thing I can do, Mingyu. I cannot give you what you need emotionally and I cannot be your boyfriend... I will just hurt you if I try. Trust me, I would... not intentionally, but people that I dare to love, tend to get hurt and I don't want that to happen to you.''

Mingyu's chin wobbled. -'' It won't Hyung...''

Jin stopped Mingyu from talking by placing a finger on Mingyu's mouth. -'' It will... you don't understand... people have been hurt and I can't risk it... I won't risk it. And even if I'm willing to bet the odds, it's not so easy to reach something I've been hiding behind a thick wall. So please...please Mingyu...'' - Jin begged. -'' Don't ask for that, I cannot give you that. I can be your friend that you fuck from time to time, but nothing more.'' - He stares him deeply in the eyes and Mingyu felt that Jin could see to his soul. 

-''  If you can accept that, that's great, because I really enjoy our erotic games, but if you can't then this...'' - Jin points between them. -'' Will never happen again and we will be simply friends, if you still chose to be that, that is...''

Mingyu's mind was in turmoil. On one hand, he loved Jin, he wants him, to have a relationship, to move in together, to enjoy being with him every day. His heart ached for that. On the other hand, he would lose him and he was afraid of the pain that would cause. He could continue to be his friend with awesome benefits, no emotional strings attached or he could lose him for good.

Or you can make him slowly fall for you. His mind supplies. Give him what he needs, be there when he needs comfort, someone to talk to, someone to hug, someone to fuck and he will come around. The thought lighten up suddenly in Mingyu's brain and he quickly examined all the implications.

-'' I...'' - He began carefully. -'' I don't want to lose you Hyung.'' - He grips Jin's wrists to keep him close. -'' You are important to me. I love this...this thing we have and I wish it will continue even more.'' 

-'' It can't continue if you fail to understand what I meant just now.'' – Jin said and Mingyu quickly went to assure him.

-'' No, no...I understood...I just want this to continue some more, not just from time to time, but....more... if...if I can't have you emotionally then...then I want to enjoy your body more frequently.''

Jin eyed him. -'' Wouldn't that be even more difficult for you?''

Mingyu shook his head, smiling. -'' No, because at least one of my cravings will be satisfied and I'm planning to use this gorgeous body of yours in so many ways.''

Jin saw a playful gleam in Mingyu's eyes and he relaxed a little. They were on the good track now and Jin had had enough of talking.

-'' Shall I oblige you then?'' – Jin asked and Mingyu buckled his hips to meet Jin's.

-'' I'll take that as yes.'' - Jin smiled mischeviously.

They kissed passionately again, hands roaming each other's bodies, grinding their hips together until they both were dripping. Jin moved so he could take off Mingyu's underwear. He did it slowly, teasing Mingyu.

-'' Fuck Hyung... t-touch me.'' – Mingyu moaned and Jin straddled his hips again, pressing their throbbing erections together, creating the friction they both needed. Mingyu pulled Jin for a kiss, rolling his hips and moaning in Jin's mouth.

Jin sat back up, taking their cocks together in his hands and pumping them fast and tight. Mingyu arched his back at the feeling, running his hands up and down Jin's thighs. The room became hot, echoing their painting grunts and moans. The sheen of sweat was shown on both of their bodies.

-'' Fuck, I'm close...'' - Jin breathed.

-'' Oh, Hyung you look so fucking sexy...'' - Mingyu growled, buckling his hips even more into Jin's hand.

-'' Fuck...fuck... Aaah...fuck!'' – Jin yelled as he released in his own hand, covering Mingyu's dick with his cum. He removed himself and continued stroking Mingyu, who was at the edge.

He bent down, placing his mouth above Mingyu's dick, while still jerking him off and said.

-'' Let me taste you... come on...cum for Hyung...'' - He then wrapped his lips around Mingyu's dick and suck hard.

-'' Jesus fucking Christ!!!!'' – Mingyu screamed, spurting his seed deep into Jin's mouth. 

It took them a few moments to calm down, as they were lying next to each other. Jin intertwined their fingers together, enjoying the closeness.

Would it be so wrong to be in a relationship with Mingyu? Jin thought, carefully examining this. Isn't he already hanging out with him most of the time? The sex is excellent. He is a great guy...then why? Why does he feel this dislike towards the idea? Is it because he is, deep down, in love with V? Or because he feels that no one could replace Namjoon in his heart? Different thoughts rummaged through Jin's brain that he completely forgot about Mingyu for the moment.

His phone buzzed and he reached out to take it. It was his manager Key, calling him for a meeting later today. He typed back and then turned to look at Mingyu, who was gazing at him lovingly. He raised their still-intertwined fingers and kissed Mingyu's hand.

-'' I have to go...'' - Jin let go of him and rose from the bed, reaching for his clothes. – ''My manager just texted me about some new campaign for the Givenchy. The meeting is today and I have to be there. It will be a great opportunity to enter the French market. ''

He pulled his pants on and put on his shirt, fiddling with buttons.

-'' Here, let me do it.'' – Mingyu said and sat on the edge of the bed, reaching for Jin as he walked towards him. Mingyu carefully fasten the buttons and tucked the shirt in Jin's pants, before he fasten them as well. He grabbed Jin's ass and pull him closer, resting his chin on Jin's stomach.

-'' Don't work too much and visit me again...soon.''

Jin touched his cheek, grasping his chin in his palm as he leaned down to kiss him deeply.

Mingyu broke the kiss. – '' Fuck Hyung, you will make me hard again.'' – He murmured and Jin chuckled.

-'' We don't want that now, do we?'' – He asked and Mingyu raised one eyebrow.

-'' Well, I'm not the one who needs to go Hyung. I manage my own work whenever it suits me.''

-'' You mean you just tell Kyungsoo what you want him to do and he does all the rest?'' – Jin teased and Mingyu squeezed his ass even more, making Jin whine. -'' Let go of my ass you bloody teaser.''

-'' I'm not the one who teases Hyung.'' – Mingyu's said with a calm voice.

Jin grunted, taking Mingyu's hands off of him, but before he could move away, he was jerked back on the bed, back pressed on the mattress and Mingyu hovering above him.

-'' Mingyu, what the fuck...''

Mingyu just grinned, rolling his hips on Jin's hips harshly, making Jin squirm. It felt so damn good that it made Jin moan so sexily.

-'' Mingyu. Don't... I don't have enough time.''

-'' I don't fucking care, Hyung. I want you. I need to be inside you!'' – Mingyu said and connected their lips together, tongue and all.

He palmed Jin through his jeans and Jin spread his legs instinctively, the arousal stirring. He had no time for this, he had to go. Why does he have to do this now? They had such a good time, why spoil it now?

Don't pretend that you don't like it! The small voice in his head spoke and he suddenly imagined V, smiling at him wickedly. The sudden memory hit Jin faster than ever.

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-'' You are not ready for this world Jin! You are not ready to face it alone!'' – V was humming, walking to and fro on the rooftop.

Jin was a crying mess. Hwan left him. He fucking left him. Tae left him as well, he threw himself from the fucking bridge. Why everyone he loves has to leave him? In all the pain and suffering, he forgot to take his pills for several days, causing his mind to reach the darkest depths again.

-'' You need me. Jin, you need me... stop taking those damn pills! You cannot live normally without me! Look at you! You are a mess!''

Jin sniffled and took a huge gulp of his father's finest whiskey, which was kept for special occasions and guests. V grabbed the bottle and took a huge swig, his eyes blazing in the darkness. He emptied the bottle, and roared in satisfaction, throwing the bottle into the near wall, causing it to break into pieces. V looked like a lion. His blond hair was a little longer than before and dishevelled. He looked even more extraordinary with each return. It seems to Jin that whenever he made him go away, V would find a way to reappear again and again, stronger and more splendid than before.

He reached Jin and kissed him, showing his tongue inside Jin's mouth. He felt V's tongue swirling around his own and he grunted. V's hands gripped at his hair as he tilted his head to deepen the kiss even more, bringing Jin closer to his chest. The kiss ended suddenly as it started. V placed his forehead on Jin's and smiled wickedly.

-'' Jinnie, I will help you forget that idiot in no time.''

There is a sudden burst of colour in the sky. Both V and Jin looked up, only to see fireworks. A wide smile spread on V's face and he reminded Jin of Cheshire cat again. He stood on his feet and walked towards the edge of the roof. He looked so animated, so pure at that moment. Jin was marvelling at how he could look so innocent and so wicked at the same time.

Jin wasn't ready. He wasn't ready to be manipulated by V again. V was never this strong. The pull Jin felt towards V was huge. It was not as before.

-'' Look Jinnie! Isn't it wonderful?'' – V's eyes shined with awe. He raised his hands up high and screamed from the bottom of his lungs, looking at the sky. Jin heard his rumbling laughter, he was happy, like never before, but Jin wasn't. Jin was far, far away from happy.

-'' It is.'' – Jin agreed in a monotone voice, not caring really. His eyes fell on the broken bottle. One tip especially looked sharp enough. He reached his hand to pick it up, careful not to move his body too much, so V wouldn't suspect what he was about to do. His hand grasped at the end when the thoughts hit him.

He is not easy to kill... but I am.

Jin slowly, but firmly cut deep into one of his wrists. A sharp hiss escaped his lips but was muffled by the fireworks, as the warm blood rushed from his cut veins. He switched the glass in his wounded hand, barely holding it, so he could cut his other wrist as well. It wasn't deep as the first one, but Jin felt blood oozing from it as well.

Soon, it will be over...the pain will stop...I'll find peace. He thought.

He felt power leaving his body and he became sleepy. V turned with a smile towards Jin, only to scream in shock seeing Jin in a small puddle of his own blood.

-'' Jin no!!! Jinnie!! What have you done!?? Jinnie!!''

V grabbed his wrists and start yelling something at him, but Jin didn't hear. He was losing his consciousness. His sight started to darken until he felt nothing else.

...

Jin gasped loudly as his mind rushed back to the present moment. Mingyu stopped his advances and was starring at Jin worryingly.

-'' Hyung? Are you alright?''

Jin moved him gently from himself and rose up from the bed, still feeling shaky. He tried to kill himself because of V. What the fuck?! Why? What past he and V had? He had to find out. He needs to talk to him. He needs to make him sit down and talk or Jin will lose it again. This is too much, too fucking much.

-''Hyung?'' – He felt Mingyu's hand on his shoulder and turned to see Mingyu's wide eyes observing him carefully.

-'' I am fine Mingyu...I just...remembered something that I need to...'' - Jin ran his hand through his hair. -'' I got to go.'' 

He was looking like a zombie and Mingyu was slightly afraid. Jin pecked Mingyu on the lips and took his jacket, heading towards the door.

-'' I'll call you later.'' – And with that, he left, leaving Mingyu completely confused and hurt. He knew he crossed the line with his last attempt to make Jin stay a bit longer. He couldn't go against his heart, no matter how much he tried, but to leave just like this...it was too much for Mingyu to handle right now. He was hurt and his heart ached. He hated himself for falling so easily and making himself vulnerable again, but at the same time, he was glad to have had all of this with Jin. He had to get his shit straight. He went to take a cold shower, dressing when his phone rang. He saw it was Hoseok and he picked it up.

-'' What do you need, Hobi?''

-'' What?! No hello, my favourite cousin. Good to hear you, how are you?'' - Came a joyful voice.

-'' Hoseok.'' – Mingyu took an annoying breath and spoke. – '' You are my only cousin... besides I'm not in the mood. What do you need?''

-'' Aish...no one seems to be in the good mood these days.'' – Hoseok grunted. – '' I wanted to ask you if you would like to come with me to visit Yoongi Hyung.''

Mingyu throws himself on his bed, inhaling Jin's scent from his pillow. He felt his heart clench.

-'' Umm, Hyung? Are you there?'' - Hoseok asked, confused.

Realizing that he must have been silent for some moments, he quickly sat up and replied.

-'' No...I'm not in the good mood today and I don't want to share bad vibes with Yoongi. I'll visit him some other time.'' - He answered. He didn't lie, he really didn't feel well.

-'' Okay.'' - Hoseok said carefully. -'' Are you ok? You really do sound off. Do you need me? Can I get you something?''

-'' No, Hobi, thank you, I'll be fine.'' - Mingyu forced himself to smile so his voice will sound slightly better and more positive. -'' I just got up on the wrong side I guess...I will be fine later on, I'm sure.''

-'' Okay...but if you change your mind, just give me a call alright.''

Mingyu smiled for real this time. Hoseok always had a huge heart and that is one of the many things he liked about him. -'' I will...''

-'' Good.'' - He could feel the other man smiling when he says that. -'' Talk to you later, Hyung.''

-'' Yeah, bye.''

He hung up and tossed his phone somewhere on the bed behind him.

Why did he react this way?  He thought. Did I annoy him that much? He was racking his mind to figure out what he did wrong. No...it's something else...he was freaked out. He concludes. Maybe he remembered something, Jimin did mention he has trouble remembering his past.

Mingyu was confused, deep in his thoughts, when his phone buzzed again. He groaned and reached for it. It was Kyungsoo this time, asking him to meet him over breakfast so they could discuss work and the club. He must have had some difficulties that he could not deal with alone. Mingyu sighed, typing a quick reply and raising up from the bed, his thoughts drifting towards Jin again.

He typed a quick message to him: "Hyung, I miss you already...and I'm sorry if I cause you discomfort. Forgive me..." He pressed send, hoping that Jin would understand.

His phone buzzed again.

"Don't worry about it, it's not you...I'll see you later to finish what we started..."

The grin on Mingyu's face was very wide as he read Jin's message. He typed: "I can't wait..." and only after he clicked send, did he curse himself for seeming so eager.

-'' Get a grip on yourself Mingyu, you acting a fool and no one likes fools.'' – He said to his own reflection in the mirror and then winked at himself. -'' There... the boy is back on his tracks... let's makes some fun today, shall we? Oh yes, we will!''

He laugh at himself one more time, before he grabbed his jacket, his phone, wallet and his car keys, put on his shoes and went out to see Kyungsoo.

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I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I throw in a little bit of everything. Stay tuned for more 💖