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-'' V you fool! Why did you jump?! Why V, why!?'' - Jin asked in angry helplessness.

V laughed weakly. -'' Y-you sound like me, Jinnie...when you do something stupid.''

Jin leans down next to the blond man. -'' Are you hurt V? Can you stand? Can you walk?''

-'' N-no...'' - V said with a grimace. He whined quietly.

Jin groans and runs his hands through his hair. -'' Why did you jump?''

-'' I wanted to fly. To be free.''

-'' Dammit, V, you cannot fly!'' – Jin said brusquely.

-'' Why? '' - V asks with a chuckle. -'' Because it's a fantastic dream?''

-'' Because you don't have wings or fairy's magic dust to fly, that's why!''

V's shoulders shook slightly in a silent laugh.

-'' Oh, but I should have wings, Jin.'' – V said, raising his eyes to look at his other half. – '' It's you that keeping me from having ones.''

-'' Me?'' - Jin was taken aback, blinking in confusion. -'' How can I stop you?''

-'' You refuse me, you run from me...'' - V's chin wobbles and he is near to tears. Jin never saw that before, it was so strange. V's voice was still strong though. -'' You refuse yourself, you run from your path and you make both of us suffer.''

-'' I...I don't...I don't run...'' – Jin stutter defensively.

-'' Yes, you do!'' - V spoke with passion, even though the pain was coursing through his body, he was hunching forward, holding his chest. His silken stripped robe slipped a bit, so Jin saw V's back. His eyes widened.

-'' V...'' - He reached and yanked V's robe, exposing his back. – '' What is this?''

Jin was watching V's scars on his shoulder blades. There were two, on the place where wings usually would be. -'' Y-your...scars...are they...are they wings?''

V snorts sadly. -'' Obviously, they are not, you darling idiot. You refuse to give me mine, remember?''

All of this was too much for Jin who just shook his head, not understanding. -'' How can I give you wings?''

That annoyed V. -'' For fuck sake, Jin! Use your head a little... all those sighs along the way...'' - He points weakly around him. -'' What did the Butterfly man tell you? You have to stop running from yourself, Jin!'' - He grips Jin's shirt and leans in. -'' You have to stop being afraid and jump!''

Jin growled, yanking back, almost pulling V forward. -'' I did jump and it led me here!'' – He shouted.

V was leaning on the ground now, eyes blazing hotly with fury. -'' No you weren't! You jumped but you cling to everything on your path to stop the fall!'' 

-'' Well of course I don't want to fall and kill myself!''

V began to laugh, clutching his stomach and hissing in pain at the same time. -'' That's funny coming from you, Jin.''

Jin shot him a glare. -'' Shut up, V! You know what I meant!''

-'' Acceptance, Jin... you have to accept who you are...all of you, isn't that what a Butterfly man said?'' – V looked at him tiredly. – '' The only way for you to move on...for us to move on is...if... '' - V's voice wavered and he sighed. – '' You have to accept me...'' - V said and then huffed and smiled sarcastically, changing his tone from gentle to mocking in a second. -'' Who are we kidding, Jin!? You keep running away from me for years, calling me and then shoving me away when things get slightly better. For years I've been trying to get close to you, to stand by you, to help you, but the only thing you did was to run and fell from one shit into another.''

V's face suddenly contorted into a painful grimace and he started to cry. Jin jumped at the change.

-'' V! Where does it hurt? Why do you cry, V? Tell me!'' – Jin watched him worryingly. He reached to touch V, but he jerked away.

-'' Don't touch me! Why do you care?!'' - He shouts, his icy blue eyes glaring wetly, tears falling down his cheek. His voice was full of pain, accusatory, frustrated almost. -'' You never cared about me! You always hated me and kept running away! Don't play that you care now, Jin. I am tired of fighting with you...tired of chasing you and trying to convince you to live.'' - His voice was cracking. -'' I'm done! Go! Go and kill yourself, you stupid fool! Go and be done with it!'' - He pushed Jin away, but it was so weak that Jin barely swayed a little. He never saw V in this state, and he was in shock.

V, on other hand, was crying now. -'' I will not stop you! I will die with you and finally, we would be at peace.''  – V clutched at his heart and screamed in frustration, in pain, in anger... He finally broke, all the masks fell and Jin saw the naked soul full of scars and pain. The glorious lion, his blond demon was crushed and broken in front of him. 

Jin felt a pang of guilt and a surge of pain. He did this. He did this to him. He kept running away from him and all this time V needed him, he needed his wings to be free. Jin thought of all of those times V saved him and helped him, trying to make him stronger and wiser and Jin acted like a child. He pushed him...he hated him, he was afraid of him, because he didn't understand him. He didn't understand that deep mysterious part of himself because he was too afraid to grow up...to let go. He was too afraid to accept V, his other half...his Yang to his Yin.

-'' Why did you lie to me, V?'' - He asks instead. He needed to know, finally, now when everything was at an end. -'' Why did you pretend to be Tae? Why didn't you tell me the truth? Tell me please, for fuck sake, help me understand you! Help me put together all the puzzle pieces.'' - He reaches for V's arm. He wanted to shake him, clung to him. -'' Please V, help me finally understand. Please.''

V stopped crying, willing himself to stop shaking. He was tired, so tired. The silence between them grew for several minutes, although Jin thought that time has no place here. It could be ages or mere seconds, for all that matter, but Jin waited patiently. He was watching V fighting with his own tears and with his own pain. It was heartbreaking to see him like this all broken...and it hurt Jin even more that he was the one causing that.

-'' You were at the weird place back then, Jinnie.'' - V finally spoke, raising his eyes to look at Jin again.

-'' When they made you get rid of me the first time, you placed yourself even deeper into your fantasy. Your body was refusing meds... your mind fought them... I fought them. But every time I came near you, you would freak out and reach for the meds again... they made you foggy and sleepy. So I took another approach... I pretend to be Taehyung...but not the old one, the one you wanted, but the new one, the one you needed. I had no idea how easy it would it be...how lonely you were...''

Jin listened in silence, his own tears falling down his cheeks. He was lonely back then. He still is now.

-'' After a while, I grew tired... it seems you will never get out of your shell... so I had to pull you out... and I did.'' - V brushed his tears graciously with the back of his hand, as only he could. He looked gorgeous even when crying.

-'' I pushed you into the darkness and let you fight for your life.'' - He continued. - '' And you did...you changed... one part of your consciousness that was sleeping was now awake and you embraced the difference...the change... you were still afraid, but glowing... that's when you met Hwan...I didn't like him, but I knew you needed something to wake you up completely and he did just that. You ignored my presence every time I would approach you.''

-'' I don't remember you from back then.'' – Jin said quietly and V chuckled.

-'' Of course not, you were in love...your mind was fed up with endorphins and I couldn't do shit...but after he left you, I came back... and then you tried to kill yourself...you sweet bloody idiot, like I would allow that...'' -  He looks at him gently and stroke Jin's rosy hair, trailing his fingers down his ear, to his neck.

Jin shudders pleasantly at the touch. -'' Fuck...why does it feel so real when you are not?'' – He wondered, closing his eyes. 

V laughed gently. -'' Because you doing that to yourself.'' - He says softly, eyebrows slightly arching. -'' See?''

Jin became aware of his own hand trailing down his chin in a tickling sensation. He snatched it, like it was on fire, burning him and jerked to look at V with wide eyes. -'' Why are you doing this to me? All that time? You... you made me do those things... I...'' - More tears came rushing from his eyes and he bit his lip to stop them from spilling even more.

-'' Ah, my love.'' - V spoke. -'' I'm not doing anything... it is you who push me away... and you who crave for me...I exist because you made me.'' - He caresses Jin's cheek again. It felt so bloody real. -'' I am here because you need me.'' - He tilts his head. -'' Jinnie why do you fight this?''

He cups Jin's face, thumbs rubbing gently at the skin there. Jin thought he lost his mind completely, that he is dreaming...that all of this was a nightmare, but V looked and felt so bloody real to Jin.

-'' Jinnie...'' - V said carefully. – ''Why do you fight me?'' - He leans closer, their faces were close now. -'' Let me in... let me be with you.''

Jin sniffed and panted heavily, like fighting for breath. His heart was beating too fast. He was on the brink of panic, but V's pain-stricken face stopped Jin from breaking.

The blond man spoke sadly. -'' When you feel the pain I feel pain, Jinnie...I am you...''

And Jin knew he was right. He knew it all along, V was him, and he was V. He sighs deeply, nodding. -'' You are part of me...'' - He brushed V's tears with his palm. - '' I can't seem to get rid of you.''

V shook his head. -'' No, Jinnie... I am part of you, but I'm not you yet... let me in...let me be one with you...please. It's the only way we won't suffer anymore...the only way we would be satisfied and happy in the end...please, Jinnie, don't fight me anymore...please.''

V was crying again. His forehead pressed with Jin's, while his long slender fingers caressed Jin's face as they kneeled in front of one another. Their breaths were mingled and they felt each other's pain and suffering.

-'' I am scared V. I fought so...so fucking hard...'' - Jin shook while he spoke those words and V started kissing his cheeks, nose, eyes, chin, lips and the rest of his face with small feathery kisses. -'' I am tired... so tired, V...''

-'' Let go, Jinnie... give yourself to me... let me be the one with you...'' - V urged with newfound passion, as he pepper Jin's face with small pecks.

-'' How V? How to do it? I don't know how...''

V hugged him, straddling Jin's thighs as he kissed Jin deep in the mouth. When they separated, Jin murmurs breathlessly. -'' You feel so real...fuck...'' - He licks into V's mouth, and they were kissing again. The sobs came at the same time, stopping the kiss and Jin buried his face in V's neck. -'' I am insane...you don't exist... you are not real... you are just a figment of my Imagination...everybody says so.''

At those words, V started rolling his hips on Jin's groin making him gasp and raising his teary eyes to stare fearfully at V's. -'' Jinnie...you are mine...and I am yours...you made me...and I made you... give yourself to me completely, not just your body, but your heart and your mind...give in to me, so that I can give everything I am to you. I love you, I always did... you are my life, Jinnie.''  – He kissed him again, with more passion and love than he ever did before.

- '' I do not exist without you.'' – He whispered into Jin's mouth with so much conviction and love that Jin was speechless. His arms drew V closer as he stared into his icy blue eyes, which for the first time didn't seem cold, but warm and full of sincere emotion. Jin knew at that moment that he loves him...that he always loved him deeply...that he loves himself. V was always a part of him. He always gave Jin the courage he was lacking. He could always feel him...felt his presence...but only after Tae died, did Jin give him the body. Only then was he able to see him in flesh...only then did he give him the face. Jin cringed at how many times he pushed him away, bruised him and shoved him...of how many times he hurt V, out of fear, ignorance and anger.

-'' I am sorry...'' - Jin mumbled and V's brows furrowed in confusion. Jin continued. -'' I am sorry for everything you've been through...for everything you have to withstand, because of me... for me...everything... I am sorry V... Forgive me.''

V's features grew gentle and he brushed his tears away, smiling lovingly. Jin never saw V so vulnerable, his heart ached. He wanted to protect him, to hug him. Him! V! The bloody monster he cursed at so many times...that cold-blooded bastard who played with his life so many times, but in truth, V only was trying to help him, to make him stronger, more resilient. After he crumpled into pieces, V did his utmost best to put him back together. And each time, Jin was failing him, repeating his old mistakes, causing V to take over and save his ass from his own life...to save them both. No wonder he seemed cold all the time.

-'' Jinnie...'' - V asked insecurely. Jin was shaken to the core by the vulnerability of V's voice. – ''If you had a way out now, would...would you escape from me again?''

Jin saw the fear and sadness in V's eyes and his own heart was crushed. V was afraid that Jin will try to escape him again, to shove him back to leave him, like he always did.

-'' I would never run away from you again.'' – Jin said and he meant it.

Love and devotion towards his blond demon shook Jin to the core. He wanted to hug him until the end of time...he wants to love that strange piece of his own soul...forever. V was the piece of his soul...the part of his character...the entity in his mind...V is Jin...and Jin is V...Jin knew that now.

-'' I love you, V.'' – He whispered into the young man's mouth, ghosting their lips inches from the kiss. V smiled a wonderful smile. He reminded him of Tae, but for the first time, V was more important than his dear late friend. V was his priority, his muse, his energy, and his strength. V was important to Jin...very much so!

-'' We are one, V. You... you are mine, only mine...and I'm yours...'' – Jin said again and kissed V deeply, sensually with all the love he ever felt. V groaned something between the moan and sob, losing himself in Jin's arms.

Jin saw himself in front of the mirror, looking at his own reflection, while he still felt V's hands around his neck and his kisses on his lips. It was like he was at the two places at the same time.

-'' I love you, V...'' - Jin said again and V look at him lovingly caressing Jin's face with gentleness.

V reached to kiss him at the same time Jin's image in the mirror did. Jin was expecting a cold and smooth touch of the glass, but something wet and warm caressed his lips instead.

-'' You love yourself, Jinnie.'' – V said, biting Jin's lower lip between his teeth. – ''You are beautiful, you always were. How can't you see that? '' - He kissed Jin's plump lips over and over, trailing his kisses down Jin's neck, licking it, making Jin moan.

-'' I do...'' - Jin said breathlessly. - ''You are me, more than you know.''

The way this was said sent shivers down V's spine and he gasped, his heart drumming wildly as he kissed Jin's lips hungrily. He could feel it...the change...the final step. Like the caterpillar's transformation into a butterfly. He will soon fly...he will soon be free in his really wonderful form. V was ecstatic.

V screamed in sudden pain, clutching at Jin's back, burying his face in the crook of Jin's neck. A pair of sharp black wings started growing from the cuts on V's shoulder blades.

V cried out through gritted teeth. Jin held him on his thighs, closer, speaking gentle and encouraging words to his ear.

-'' It will be over soon...'' - Jin murmurs. -'' Hold on, V...Hold on...''

V let out one of the loudest blood-chilling shrieks that Jin has ever heard. Huge midnight black wings were huge. They sprang out of V and spread in all of their might. Jin was awestruck. It was beautiful.

At the same time that he was hugging him, Jin was observing himself in the mirror. His face was drained of blood, skin white as V's now. He was so fragile at this moment, so empty. He felt a small crack on his cheekbone and he sucks on his breath. The crack only grew bigger as V got stronger.

V was watching him now. His ice-blue eyes grew brown, like Jin's. His skin got a rosy blush and he felt more alive than he ever did before.

He looked at Jin's inner crumbling. Jin was like a statue deep inside. All of his insecurities and fears were breaking. Jin was breaking...involving...changing...

-'' Let go, Jinnie...'' - V was whispering encouragingly. -'' Let go...and be reborn again...let go...''

A small butterfly came suddenly into view. Jin saw him before...it was one from the Butterfly Man's cape. He was the purest white with black spots. Like Yin - Yang itself. He was wonderful. Jin wanted to touch him, so he offered his finger for the butterfly to land on.

Jin was admiring the butterfly on his finger and at the same time he felt V's gaze bore deeper and deeper into his soul, attaching himself, moulding, adapting. V was in his mind, his heart and his soul now. Jin could feel it. He felt the change coming.

Suddenly the butterfly flew away and Jin's hand cracked along his wrist, falling off.

Jin didn't feel pain, he felt relief. His inner demons were breaking apart...turning to dust and Jin could feel a new strong feeling enveloping his entire being. He felt the burden lifted from his shoulders, from his soul. He felt freedom.

-'' I love you, Jinnie, I love you, fuck...thank you...thank you...'' - V was laughing and sobbing and Jin just hugged him closer, drawing him in as if he would absorb his entire being into himself. He felt a weird sensation. The one he never felt before and for the first time he was not afraid, he was ready. He welcomed it with open arms. He was sure. And with the last breath, his mind exploded into the wild colours of the universe. 

He could feel V's presence and hear his voice in his head as he was falling deeper and deeper...

-'' Hyung...''

...

-'' Hyung! Hyung are you awake? Hyung!''

Jin opened his eyes slightly, feeling the headache.

-'' Stop yelling...'' - Jin mumbled.

-'' Oh, thank God! Hyung, you scared me to death!''

Jin tensed instantly after hearing that voice. His body froze and went ice cold as he blinked at the face next to him.

-'' T-Tae?!''  – Jin choked, feeling a burn on the bridge of his nose, his eyes filling with tears. He sat quickly on his bed, pulling on the hospital cords and tubes of the IV in his arms and hugged his confused and now scared best friend.

-'' Hyung, what the... Hyung, I c-can't...b-breathe...'' - Tae was muffling as Jin squeezed the life out of him, crying into his shoulder. It was so good to see him again Jin wouldn't lie, but why? Why was this happening? Why does he see him again? Where is V? Why does he see Tae now?

-'' Tae...'' - Jin tried to speak again, but he failed. His throat was too dry. Why do I see you now? Are you just the figment of my imagination again? Why can't you be real, damn it, why? A thousand questions surged through Jin's mind now. What's going on? The last thing he remembered is that he was with V, taking the last step, letting go and now he is here. Was this another dream? Another illusion where Tae isn't dead? He felt alive in Jin's arms, but then, so did V. Jin wanted to scream from confusion.

Tae awkwardly patted Jin on his back, thoroughly scared now. At that moment the door from the hospital opened and Jin's mother entered. Seeing her son awake she screamed and ran towards the bed.

-'' Jinnie, darling! You are awake! Oh, thank God!''

Jin blinked at his mother, feeling like he was in a dream. Did he die? Or is this another dream? Tae took his chance to release himself from Jin's tight grasp and give his place to Jin's mother. Jin watched transfixed at his mother, while she kissed him on his cheeks and his brow.

-'' I'll go get the Doctor.'' – Tae said and ran from the room. Jin wanted to yell after him, but the voice didn't want to come out.

-'' Jinnie, darling, how are you feeling? It's alright, honey, you had an accident. You were hurt, but you are awake now, that's only that matter. You are awake... ''- She spoke with tears in her eyes, kissing and hugging her son.

Pretty soon, the door opened again and Jin's father stepped in, followed by Tae on his heels.

-'' Jin! Thank the Heavens.'' – He rushed to Jin's other side, hugging him and shaking. He tried to keep his tears from spilling out, feeling relief that his son was finally awake and fine. Jin stared at both of them, speechless. They were both hugging him. He suddenly felt so small and young. He didn't know what was happening. His eyes found Tae, who was standing at the end of Jin's bed.

-'' W-what...?'' - Jin started but coughed and Tae suddenly understood why. He rushed to his backpack on a nearby chair and took out his bottle of water. He opened the lid and offered Jin a drink. Jin gratefully took a small sip, and closed his eyes, enjoying the wetness of the water. He never realized how thirsty he was until now.

After a few small sips, he moved his head, still looking at Tae.

-'' W-what h-happened?'' – Jin said weekly. – ''Where...where am I?''

-'' You are at the hospital.'' - Taehyung spoke softly. -'' You were in a coma for the past two weeks. We were driving the bicycles, remember? The truck showed up out of nowhere. You tried to avoid it, but you ended up crashing down the cliff. You were lucky you stayed alive! I was never so scared in my entire life.'' - He placed his hand on Jin's ankle. -'' I thought I've lost you. It was terrible.''

Oh, Taehyung, if only you knew how terrible it truly is. Jin thought bitterly, his heart still thumping hard. 

-'' We were so worried, honey.'' – Jin's mother spoke. – ''We didn't know if you will wake up, I was so scared.'' – She cried and kissed his cheeks again.

Chaos in Jin's mind was overwhelming. Jin wanted to scream from confusion. He had so many questions, so many things he needed to know.

Suddenly he felt a strong comforting presence in his mind, calming his paranoia, and engulfing him in safety. His tensed body was slightly relaxed as he watched their worrying faces. Everything is alright, Jinnie. Everything is perfectly fine now. A sudden thought came to his mind. It wasn't his, but at the same time, it was. V. Jin thought suddenly and felt the love burning in his chest.

-'' What date it is?'' – Jin asked. He needed to know if any of it happened. He just had to.

-'' August 17th.'' – His father answered.

-'' What year?'' - Jin insisted.

All three of them look at each other in concern.

Jin wanted to growl. -'' Please, what year?'' - He repeats, more urgently.

-'' 2011, Hyung.'' - Tae answered. 

August 17th 2011. Jin grasped at that information. He dived into examining it from every side. Tae died on September 19th 2011. Sudden realization hit Jin and he nearly lost his mind. August 17th...Tae is still alive...the party never happened. None of that ever happened. What the bloody fuck?!!! How is this even possible? Everything that happened in Jin's life after Tae died was...was just a dream, a premonition? Oh, Jin shook now. His mind was spinning and he started to gasp for air.

-'' Jin! Son, it's alright.'' - His father grabbed him on his shoulder. -'' Calm down... take a deep breath... calm down son, everything is alright.'' 

Tae's eyes were round from fear. -'' What's wrong with him Mr Kim?'' – He asked and Jin felt his mother brushing his hair and talking quietly to him, trying to calm him down.

The presence in his brain spread warmth instantly. V...Jin called silently, but only silence remained. Suddenly the words of a Butterfly man started echoing in his brain.

The illusion exists only in the never-ending dream...

Jin's life, all of what he had been through...Namjoon, Mingyu...Tae, Yoongi, Jimin, Hoseok, Noona Mei, Jisung, Jungkook...all of them were an illusion? The illusion of the never-ending dream...does that mean his coma? They told him they weren't sure will he wake up or not...

...the spell is only broken by the acceptance of the truth. Did he only wake up because he acknowledged himself? He accepted all he is. He learned to love V, to love himself.

Fuck this shit...He felt familiar purring in his mind. V...Jin knew then that some of that wasn't a dream...but what if it was? He knew that on the day of that cursed party, Jin was still young and selfish. He cared about his needs first and didn't see what Tae wanted. Jin must have repeated the same words in his mind over and over again...if only he went with Tae that night. If only...but now...it seems it didn't happen yet... Tae was still here and Jin was still here, but changed, reborn. He knew things now. 

He felt and saw one part of destiny's many paths. He saw the worst one...of what might happen if he is not careful...an epiphany...the warning. His fear and bad judgment caused harm to far too many people, himself the most...but now it was different...it must be. If Tae stays alive, wouldn't Namjoon's parents also be here? Namjoon will never live with his horrid uncle. If Tae stays alive, Jin will never go to the psychiatric ward... will never do the things he did, and will never embarrass his father and himself as he did...he will never go to Japan and will never hit Kookie. Kookie will walk, he would be safe, Jin hoped. And Mingyu...and the rest of the guys...Will they ever meet? Will he ever be with them? V was with him after all....he is him now. Could everything happen only inside Jin's head, all the bad things, but could be all still true? Are they still true? 

Jin knew about Namjoon...he was real... Tae was here and Noona Mei, but the rest of them... Jin made mental note to check that as soon as he could. Could it be? Will he be so lucky? After everything, he's been through? Will he get a second chance to set things right? 

He felt the confirmation of his thoughts in his guts and the realization of everything hit him hard and he started to laugh. He laughed and cried at the same time. He reached for his parents, hugging them both and then held his hand for Tae to take, which he did, holding it tightly with both of his own.

-'' It's alright, Hyung. You are alright. You are safe now.''

The Doctor came into the room at that moment and they stood up to allow him to check on Jin. Jin ignored the doctor but kept looking at Tae. His heart swelled at the emotion he felt towards the boy. Tae...his Tae...safe and alive... Jin wanted to hug him, to protect him from any harm. He wanted to never let go of him.

The story that they told him was true. Jin was nearly hit by a truck and he did fly down the cliff with his bicycle, crashing and hitting his head badly. He was in a coma and now he was alright. The Doctor said that Jin has to stay in the hospital for a few days, to see if there is some damage, but he will be going home soon.

Everything that was happening in Jin's mind, while he was asleep was a dream....maybe a warning of some kind...of what will happen if he allows fear to take over and stop him from living his life. He felt V purring again, telling him he was safe...they were safe because Jin accepted his fate...he changed...

Jin felt Tae's fingers brushing his own hands as the quiet talk of Jin's parents with the Doctor filled the room.

He brushed Tae's hand with his own, feeling the closeness to the boy.

-'' Hyung. Are you alright?'' – He asked quietly, only for Jin to hear.

-'' I am now, TaeTae... I had... a terrible nightmare. In it I...'' - Jin paused, looking at his best friend and squeezing his hand a little harder. – '' I lost you and I was in so much pain.''

Tae pouts, his eyes sad. – '' But I'm here, Hyung. I will never leave you. I promise.'' – Tae said, shifting closer to Jin's side, wrapping one of his arms around Jin's shoulder. Jin gulped, pure emotion surged through his body and he felt like crying again. No, no more tears Seokjin, he told himself. No more tears...

After some time, the visiting hour was over and Tae and Jin's parents left with promises of coming back first thing in the morning. Feeling the need to take a shower, Jin slowly got out of bed. His legs hurt since his muscles went weak, but he gritted his teeth and went on with his plan. He didn't whine, he didn't cry anymore. He never felt more alert...more awake than now. Once he was finished, he returned to his room. Grateful that his father left Jin's favourite black hoodie, Jin put it on. He sat on the edge of his bed and looked through the window. The night was starry and a huge full Moon shined brightly.

-'' We'll be okay, V...all of us...we'll be okay.''  – Jin murmured for himself, his mouth spreading into a smirk.

And the gentle joyful purring answered him back...yes... everything will be okay.

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You didn't expect this right? I hope I didn't disappoint you. You should have known that I could never hurt our dear boys, Tae especially. He was always my favourite, my bias. When I started writing this story, I have this ending in mind, so all the cruel things in the middle were necessary for Jin's sake. I needed to brake him completely, so he could rise up again like a phoenix and accept his destiny...grow up and take responsibility. He was grateful at the end...although... I do believe that he curse me silently for making him a virgin again...but it's nothing that won't be taken care of...lol

I hope you like this end of Jin's transformation journey from caterpillar to gorgeous butterfly. It doesn't always mean physical, since Jin was always beautiful, but more of a mental change. Some people stay caged in their own fear of the future. Their bodies grow old, but their mind stays trapped in the past, not allowing them to move on...well...Jin is not one of them anymore. As for V, he exists...he is Jin... it represents Jin's adulthood, his strength. V was always Jin...he just have Tae's image because Jin missed him so much, which made him create this magnificent creature he was so afraid of, but it all turned out well now, didn't it?

I will write an epilogue to complete the story and give some happy ending, like a cherry on the top of the cake. Thank you for reading until the end.  I purple you 💖