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The past several months were happy for Jin. Mingyu and he spend a hell of a lot of time together and Jin didn't mind. He could almost say that he enjoyed honesty. No one was really surprised of seeing them together. Both Hoseok and Jimin were shipping them from the beginning, only Kyungsoo held his silence and observed things seriously. Yoongi smiled gently every time Mingyu talked about Jin or when Jin mentioned Mingyu when they talk about new gossip. Yoongi was glad for having friends like this and a man that he loved. It made his sentence more bearable, even though the doctors did help him and Dr Jung, Jin's childhood Noona, made sure to bring him extra biscuits that Yoongi liked whenever she would visit him. She was cool and helpful and Yoongi loved to talk with her. She would often sneak into his room when her shift ends to laugh with Jimin and him. She was funny, goofy, quick-witted and smart and Jimin adored her.

He often whined about how much he wished to have an older sister like her. Sometimes Jin would be there and they would go together for lunch, dinner or coffee. Yoongi wished he could go with them, but eight months already passed fast and Yoongi willed himself to be patient until his sentence is over. Afterwards, there is community service, but Yoongi welcomed it since that would mean him going out for a change.

Yoongi couldn't complain though. After the shit he pulled off, he was lucky that everything ended the way it was. He would be forever grateful to Jin and Hoseok who pulled him out and Mingyu who fought for the lighter punishment with all of his might and then managed to secure him this place and allow his Jiminie to visit whenever he pleased and that was every day for most of the day and Yoongi was happy. He truly was.

Talking with his assigned Doctor Choi and Mei, helped Yoongi a lot to understand his mind and pretty soon he was very much interested in studying human psychology and what causes depression and its victims to commit suicide. He could speak from that perspective rather well, but he still wanted to know what was the cause of most of them, so he asked Mei to bring him some books to read, which she did, helping him with his studies along the way when she had time, especially because she thought that minds who constantly study and expand its knowledge never allow emotions to take a toll on someone's life. 

Most of the time Jimin would be with them, working on something his own, but most surprisingly Hoseok was there too, studying with Yoongi. He was interested in psychology, so he also liked to talk to Mei often.

Yoongi knew it though, that it was Hoseok's crush towards the young Doctor that drew him to educate himself more profoundly than a simple desire to expand his own knowledge, but Yoongi loved his company nevertheless. She, however, saw him simply as a bright and funny young man and was oblivious to his highly controlled flirtations.

-'' I need to take things slow you know...to make her know me better.'' – Hoseok said to Yoongi one day when the two were alone. – '' She is different from the others...she is funny and smart and beautiful and...wow...I've never known anyone like her before. I really do like her.''

-'' Hoseokie, I don't think she feels the same way, bud.''  – Yoongi said sorrowfully, but Hoseok was optimistic as always.

-'' No, no, no it's clear that she likes me.''

-'' As a cool and funny dongsaeng yes, maybe as a friend, but not as a potential date.'' - Yoongi insisted.

Hoseok smiled, raising his index finger. -'' Not yet, but I still had to unleash full power of J-Hope's charm. Remember I'm their Hope.'' – He grins widely, his joyful aura literally shining out of him, making him ethereal.

-'' Jesus.'' – Yoongi groaned, covering his face in a powerless laugh. – '' But she likes Jin you silly pabo.''

-'' Of course, she does...she knows him forever and Jin is handsome, I give him that, but Jin is currently dating my cousin, so I believe he is out of the equation.''

Yoongi shakes his head. -'' I won't be so sure. Jin play's on both sides, you know that...''

-'' Oh, I do, but I don't believe the two would fit right, won't you agree?'' – Hoseok asked, gazing at Yoongi.

-'' Well...they are both certainly busy...'' - Yoongi started, but was cut by Hoseok.

-'' There...you see...they won't match, but I on the other hand...'' - He pointed at himself and smiled, wriggling his eyebrows smugly that Yoongi had to throw his pillow at him.

-'' Please spare me your Hoseok charm...but yeah...It would be interesting if she falls on such an adoring and energizing fool as you.''

Hoseok smiled and couldn't help at adding.

-'' Wait until she has a taste of little Hope. Once you do Hope, you never lose hope.''

-'' Oh my fucking God! Get out!'' – Yoongi shouted while Hoseok roared with laughter.

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Mei however loved spending her time with Jin and even though the two often joked teasingly and she caught herself staring at Jin's profile and features far too often, she denied herself the feelings that grew in her heart and simply stayed his friend. Jin not wanting to spoil their friendship kept respecting and liking her as his Noona, so the old friendship blossomed.

She was especially useful in helping Jin discover some of his forgotten past. Even though the patient's documents were strictly hidden from the public, to protect the patient, Mei promised she would try to make some inquiries back at home and try to locate Dr Bhang, if it was possible.

V hasn't shown up yet. Jin tried to call him and left countless messages, but V didn't answer. He was ignoring him, Jin knew, Seen messages were proof enough. The huge apartment of theirs felt lonely without V in it, so Jin spent most of his nights at Mingyu's, making the young man happier than ever. Jin still didn't love him, but he loved spending time with him, enjoying their domesticated life quite well. Not the mention that sex was only getting better as they got to know each other better.

One night, however, Jin went home to pack some clothes he needed for a business trip. He had a fashion show in Osaka. His plane is set to leave tomorrow morning. The light buzz of his phone jerked him from his packing. He saw it was Noona and quickly answered.

-'' Hey, Noona, what's up?''

-'' Jinnie, where are you?'' - Her voice was wavering a bit. 

Jin frowns. -'' I'm at my apartment. Is everything alright?'' – He asked, suddenly worried. Mei didn't sound cheerful at all.

-'' Can I drop by for a few seconds?'' –She asked and Jin was seriously worried now.

-'' Noona, of course, you can. Are you alright? Where are you? I'll come to pick you up.''

-'' No! No, I'm fine. I'm in my car, driving towards you.'' - She sniffs. Was she crying? -''  I have something to give you...something I've found...it's important.'' – She said, her voice shaking a bit.

-'' What is it? Is it about my past?'' - Jin asked, feeling icy daggers in his stomach.

-'' You'll see... I'll be here in...in ten minutes.'' 

-'' O-okay...I'm waiting for you.''

Indeed she came soon enough. Her face was sad, and Jin was right, she's been crying before.

-'' Noona! What's wrong?'' – He asked when she threw herself in his arms, hugging him tightly.

-'' Oh, Jinnie, I'm so sorry.'' - She cried for a few moments, but managed to compose herself slightly, brushing at her eyes. She looks at him. -'' I've found your Doctor Bhang. He passed away last year, but I talked with the new Doctor who took all of his old cases. It took a while, but I managed to pull off my Doctor's card, saying that you are my patient and that I need the history of your illness from when you were back in the hospital. It wasn't easy, but I finally got it.''

-'' Got what, Noona?'' – Jin asked anxious.

-'' Your file, Jinnie...It...it says everything here.'' – She pulled the file out of her bag and handed it over to Jin. -'' I'm going home...it's....it's best if you read it alone, Jinnie. Give me a call if you need me. I'll come right away, okay?'' - She says, cupping Jin's cheek.

His face was worried, eyes round with fear. -'' Is it that bad? Is that why you have been crying?'' - He asked.

Her chin wobbled. -'' No...maybe...it's just... there are the transcripts of your sessions and...some mentions Tae and what happened...and what you've been through and I...'' -She stops to stop a whimper that was about to come out. -'' I haven't read it all. I just scanned through to see if that was it, I swear, but it was just too much.''

Jin hugged her again closely. She cried in his chest and he patted her hair. The strange anxiety started to grip him and suddenly he didn't want to know what was in that file. She drew back, brushing her tears. She drew his face closer so she could kiss his cheek and then she left, leaving Jin with the "Pandora's box" itself.

Jin remembered that he always wanted to know what Doctor Bhang wrote in his little notebook and he hoped that at least some of his observations ended up in the file he was holding. He tossed the file on his bed and walked around the room nervously. He turned suddenly and exited the room only to return a few moments later with a bottle of whiskey. He didn't bother to bring the glass, knowing he would probably need more than one.

He took a swig and sat on the floor, leaning on his bed. His clothes were tossed everywhere. Some fell down on the floor, next to the open suitcase. Jin gave himself some more time, postponing the inevitable pain. Plucking up some courage he reached for the file and opened it up.

There was Jin's picture and his personal info on the first page. He was sixteen when he was charged in the hospital. Jin read through reports, transcripts, and medication prescriptions and with each he felt cold sweat erupting from his skin and he started quivering, eyes moving fast through the text.

-'' V.'' - Jin breathed. The flashback kicked in harshly, leaving Jin breathless.

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-'' I don't know what you talking about doc! He is right here, sitting right next to you, grinning like a bloody Cheshire cat!'' – Jin pointed at V, who was indeed grinning widely at annoyed Jin. It was the second month since Jin showed some progress and started slowly responding to Dr Bhang's patient treatment.

-'' Is that what he is doing now, Seokjin?'' – Dr Bhang asked calmly.

-'' You have eyes, see for yourself!'' – Jin yelled. He was angry now. Dr Bhang made him look like a lunatic.

-'' But Seokjin, I can't, because no one else is in this room besides you and me.''

V laughed at that. Jin gritted his teeth, breathing in deeply through his nose in a poor attempt to calm himself.

-'' Look Doc, I know he is a bloody pestilence sometimes and that he doesn't respect you and causes a lot of trouble for you, but don't you think you going a bit too far as to ignore him this much?''

His words drew a protest from V. -'' Fuck you, Jin! '' – V yelled. Dr Bhang didn't even flinch.

Jin looked at angry V and said matter-of-factly. -'' But it's true, you don't respect him. You ignore him completely and I don't know why you do it V.

-'' He is an idiot!'' – V spat.

Jin knew that Dr Bhang is a good man who was trying to help both of them. Yes, he was boring sometimes, but he was friendly. Jin trusted him.

-'' No, he is not an idiot, V. He is trying to help your sorry ass and you don't make it any easier for him to do so, that's why you will be staying here forever.''

V laughed maliciously. -'' Oh, but Jinnie, wherever you go, I go, darling...''

-'' Shut up! You are not going anywhere with me. Now come to think of it, I don't even know why you are here! This is my session with Dr Bhang, not yours! Mine! Get out!''

All this time, Dr Bhang didn't speak a word. He just observed Jin with acute carefulness. Jin sensed his silence and turned towards him.

-'' Send him away! ''– Jin said, pointing a finger at V. 

Dr Bhang's eyes shifted to the place Jin was pointing at and then return to Jin again. - '' I can't do that Seokjin, only you can.''

Jin faltered slightly, but before he could ask, Dr Bhang continued. -'' You are the only one who could see him, Jin.'' – Jin gaped at him. He looked at V, who is now smiling widely, twirling his index finger in small circles near his right temple, mouthing a silent "Coocoo", before bursting out laughing. Jin blinked for a few moments. He knew the truth, he always knew.

-'' He is the figment of your imagination, Seokjin.'' – Dr Bhang continued. – ''You are the only one who can send him away. I can help you.''

V's head snapped towards Dr Bhang, eyes wide. -'' You shut the fuck up you old goat! He doesn't need your help!''

But Dr Bhang keeps smiling at Jin reassuringly. -'' Would you like that, Seokjin?''  - He asked again calmly and Jin caught himself nodding slightly.

-'' Yes, Doc... I think I would.''

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Jin gasped loudly, fighting for breath. No...no, no, no...it's not true...it's not true... Jin isn't insane! V is real, he is bloody real. Jin knows it. He felt him, oh so many times. The touches were real. His breath, his kisses, it's real...it's real...it's real. It's not true, fuck...no... how can it be....fuck... Jin yelled in his head, shaking violently, still gasping, he knew he was having a panic attack, he knew. Another flash surged in, stronger this time.

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-'' Don't you dare Jin! You need me! You need me to save your sorry ass!'' – V was yelling at Jin as he looked at the colourful pills in his hand.

-'' Those medications will help you to quiet your mind. You will no longer have headaches and...'' - Dr Bhang was speaking gently to Jin, but V's deep voice boomed in Jin's head.

- ''Jin! I warn you! Don't listen to this prick!''

-'' ...and you would no longer be able to hear...him.'' – Dr Bhang finished, putting a glass of water into Jin's hand.

-'' I will come back!'' – V gripped Jin's shirt and yanked him to face him. - ''You could never get rid of me so quickly, Jin!'' - Shutting his eyes in sudden pain from V's voice echoing in his head, Jin popped the meds into his mouth. V's voice suddenly changed. He was pleading.

-'' Jin... Jinnie, please...Don't do that... please... I am part of you, don't destroy me. You need me and I need you...'' - He was crying now. His beautiful face contorted in pain. - '' Jinnie...Jinnie don't! Please...Don't! You are not ready to leave me. Jinnie... please...no....''

Jin looked at V's beautiful young face. He will miss him, but deep down he knew it was the right thing to do. -'' Sorry, V. '' – Jin said and drank the whole glass of water, swallowing the meds.

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And there it is...the truth...stay tuned...💖