A/N: This is a sad chapter so hold on to your tissues/handkerchiefs and listen to to Lewis Capaldi 's Someone you loved as you read.

CARL

"Carlito it was a mistake. I didn't intend for it to happen...I don't know what I was thinking." He started talking. He reached out for my hand and as soon as he touched me, my body recoiled.

Suddenly, his touch made me sick to the stomach. I needed to vomit and get some air because being in the same room with him right now was suffocating. So, I got up from my seat and started walking away.

"Carlito, I know that I fucked up big time.. I'm sorry...please." He was following me, trying to convince me to pardon him after what I had witnessed. His voice drowned in the background as questions fogged my mind.

Why did he do it? Wasn't I enough? Did he ever love me? Or was I just something that he used and finally got tired of? Has he been cheating on me this entire time? How long has this been going on? Has our relationship been a lie this whole time?

As soon as I arrived outside, the fresh night air rushed to my lungs, snuffing out the asphyxiation.

The night sky was adorned with a constellation of stars that twinkled, bringing light to the dark sky. It was beautiful to watch how such little cosmic elements shone so gracefully in the dark. Gazing at the stars was hypnotizing and calming at the same time.

I wanted to gaze at the constellation the whole night and forget everything that I saw in there.

I wanted to pretend that my boyfriend didn't cheat on me because he promised never to hurt me. He had promised to always love me. Then why did he do this to me?

"Baby, I'm sorry. Please." He started wiping off my tears using the pad of his thumb.

"Don't you touch me!" I hissed, slapping his hands away. Tears licked their way down my cheeks as I glared at him. His green eyes that I was so in love with were clouded with guilt and a little bit of tears.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you, Carlito."

"Then why did you do it Gavin?" I fired the question, hopeful that his answer would un-break my heart.

"I don't know. I swear it just happened...and I realized as soon as it happened that I had made a mistake." He explained, in a trembling voice.

"So you don't know how your dick ended up in her pussy? Is that what you are trying to say Gavin?" Anger and pain were surging through me, numbing my senses.

"Carlito...I...am sorry. I'm really sorry." He was sobbing.

"Sorry that you fucked her or sorry that I found out about it?" I hurled, not at all affected by his tears.

"I wanted to tell you but...I was scared that you wouldn't understand. I was terrified that I would lose you." He opened up, fear swimming in his eyes that I had found hypnotizing once.

"It's too late because you lost me the moment you decided to break my heart. Tell me, how many more secrets are you keeping from me Gavin? How long have you been cheating on me?" I was yelling at this point, anger overpowering my voice. A few people had gathered near the scene, witnessing the incident unfold but I didn't give a shit.

"Carlito can we talk somewhere private?" He mumbled, grabbing my arm.

"Why? Are you scared of people finding out that you are a cheater?" I yelled louder then turned to the crowd, "This guy here is my boyfriend and guess what? He fucking cheated on me with a girl!" I announced to them, triggering shocked gasps and murmurs in the small crowd.

"Carlito..." He hissed, his jaw clenching as rage pooled in his eyes. Anyone would be scared and intimidated by the look he was giving me but not me. I couldn't care less if he starts shooting lasers with his eyes.

"I gave him everything. Even came out of the closet, because of him. And then the first chance he gets, he decides to cheat on me? How the fuck is that fair?" I continued addressing the crowd who sent apologetic looks my way.

"Honey, dump his ass because he doesn't deserve you." A girl in the crowd yelled and based on the murmurs, the rest agreed.

"Castrate him because that's what I would do." Another proposed.

My gaze shifted to Gavin who looked like he was about to explode. I have never seen him this angry.

"I don't ever want to see or hear from you Gavin. Whatever we had is over and done." I ripped the band aid off, the words stabbing my heart and causing it to bleed. I never thought a day would come when I would end things with him.

But here I am. Doing the most difficult thing I have ever had to do(apart from coming out of the closet).

"No. You can't do this Carlito." He seethed, tears brimming in his eyes.

"I just did. What did you think? That you'd get away with breaking my heart? You were fucking mistaken. Good bye, Gavin." I spat then started walking away towards the car. Suddenly, I felt a hand grab my wrist.

"Stop! Where do you think you are taking me?" I yelled as he dragged me to God knows where. He was walking really fast and my short strides couldn't keep up. He ignored my yells and continued walking while dragging me along. He suddenly came to a halt in a deserted park, sorrounded with trees.

"Why did you bring me here?" I fired the question at him.

"Because I want you to listen to me. I have heard all that you've said and now it's my turn to talk." He barked, his voice echoing in the trees. He took several calming breaths while pacing back and forth in front of me.

"Gavin, there's nothing that you're gonna say that'll make me forgive you." I blurted.

"Carlito, I don't expect you to forgive me. But at least hear me out. I know that I fucked up big time. I don't know what I was thinking...fucking her. It meant nothing because you are the only one that I love." He was trying to convince me and doing a pretty shitty job at it.

"I don't think you know the meaning of that word Gavin because if you did then you wouldn't have cheated on me." I stated, my voice breaking once more. I didn't wanna cry again but looks like my lachrymal glands didn't get the freaking memo.

"And I'm sorry for hurting you...like that. But please don't end things... don't end what we have." He collapsed on his knees and started begging while sobbing.

"What we have is a lie...Gavin and it ended the moment I realized what a cheater you are."

"Haven't you ever made a mistake? Why are you ending things just because of one mistake that I made?" He inquired, getting up on his feet.

"Putting salt in tea instead of sugar, that is a mistake that can be forgiven. But cheating on a boy that you claim to love? That's a crime. An unforgivable crime, Gavin." I explained it to him.

"And I already said that I'm sorry Carlito. How many more times should I apologize? What should I do for you to forgive me?"

"Honestly, I don't think I ever will. What I need right now is to be far away from you. I need to think...to clear my head...to heal from this." I retorted then started walking away.

"So you are just going to leave, like that? You promised to never leave me, remember?" He spoke, compelling me to halt in my tracks.

"Are you seriously gonna talk about promises right now Gavin? Okay, let's talk promises." I pointed out, a sarcastic laugh departing my lips as I turned to face him.

"Gavin you promised to love me. To always make me happy. You promised to never hurt me and yet here we fucking are. Do you know how it felt seeing that video of you fucking her? I thought that someone was pulling a prank on me. Because I knew that you would never cheat...or hurt me like that. After all, you love me, right? How stupid of me to trust you and give you my heart. I should have listened to my instincts and stayed the hell away. I should have never allowed you into my life...then maybe my heart would still be whole." I opened up, fresh tears sluicing down my cheeks as mucus slithered from my nostrils. My whole being was shaking and it felt like I would pass out from the heartbreak.

"I'm really sorry." He mumbled, cupping my face in his large warm hands. I wanted to believe that he was sorry. Wanted to hug him and tell him that he was forgiven but I just couldn't.

I couldn't bring myself to trust him after what he'd done.

"I just wanna know how many people have you cheated on me with. And how long you have been cheating on me." The words fled out of my throat which was sore from all the sobbing.

"She's the only one I swear. And why would you think that there are others? Don't you trust me at all, Carlito?" He inquired, hurt flashing in his eyes.

"I used to trust you. But not anymore. Not after tonight." I spilled, meaning every word.

"What can I do to earn your trust once more? Please tell me." He pleaded.

"There's nothing you can do to fix the trust that you just broke." I sobbed, sniffling in the process.

"Carlito, I never meant to hurt you..I promise." He whispered, brushing away my tears using the rough, warm pads of his thumbs.

"Then why did you do it? Was I never enough? I mean was it the sex? Didn't you like it? Is that why you decided to fuck her?" Insecurities started creeping in my mind. The fear that maybe I was the problem in this relationship. Maybe I was a bad boyfriend who couldn't even satisfy him in bed. Maybe that's why he decided to do what he did.

"No. No. That's not it. You were never the problem, Carlito." He assured.

"Then please make me understand why you would cheat on me. And please don't give me, it was a mistake, bull shit." I rejoined, deep down hoping that his reasons would be valid.

"I am the problem Carlito. I've always been. And today proved it. I thought that you were enough...that we were enough but all it took was one moment of weakness to jump back into my old ways. I tried to change for you...to be better for you...but I failed. I'm really sorry Carlito..." He confessed, his voice quivering with emotions. I wanted to kiss him and tell him that I forgive him but I just couldn't bring myself to do it.

It was so hard to forgive him for something as awful as this. What if he repeats the very same thing in future? Will I be able to handle it? No. My heart has been broken already. I can't go through this again. I won't be strong enough to overcome the anguish.

"I'm sorry Gavin but I can't unsee everything that I just saw tonight. I can't forgive you."

"Please. I'll change. I'll be better. I'll do better. Please Carlito..." He dropped back on his knees, begging while crying.

"I can't take that risk." I spoke, the broken pieces of heart, turning to ice.

"I don't understand why you won't forgive me. I'm trying here...the least you could do is try to forgive me." He demanded, arrogance seeping from his voice.

"You don't get to tell me what to do, Gavin. I have already made the decision. I'm breaking up with you and that's final." I declared then started walking away. This time hoping that he won't stop me.

"Wow. Okay. Fine. You're ending things just like that?"He yelled after me but I didn't stop. I kept walking away.

"What happened to fighting for each other? Huh? You're just gonna walk away without even fighting for us?" He continued yelling but I kept walking on, tears brimming in my sore eyes.

"You know what? Maybe you were just waiting for me to screw up so that you can break up with me and go to him, Lorena! You have always preferred him anyway. I was just a back up plan for you. He is the one you actually like." At the mention of his name, I suddenly came to a halt.

He did not just drag Lorenzo into his mess. Fucking no.

"See, all it took was a mention of his name and you stopped. You like that fucker and now that you have broken up with me, you are going straight into his arms! Well go fucking ahead. I don't give a shit." He was poking me, hoping to draw a reaction.

"I hope that he'll make you happy. That he'll at least fuck you better than I did. I know that's what you have wanted all along too." He declared, letting out a laugh at the end of his sentence.

My fists clenched, as he kept throwing disrespectful comments my way. I took several calming breaths then started walking towards him. I stood directly in front of him, my eyes fixed on him.

"Why did you come back? Come to judge me some more? Huh? I already apologized but you don't want to forgive me."

"Gavin, I was considering forgiving you but after everything you just said, I don't ever want anything to do with you."

"Really? Or are you just playing hard to get?" He inquired, closing the distance between us. Before I could protest, he grabbed me by the waist and forcefully planted his lips on mine.

Using all the strength I could muster, I pushed him off me and slapped him hard across the face. He touched his cheek, not believing that I had just slapped him.

"Don't you ever fucking kiss me again!" I hissed, pointing my index finger at him as anger cascaded through me.

"You shouldn't have done that..." He threatened, his tear infested eyes shimmering with fury.

"Up until now you have witnessed my love. It's time you experience what true hatred feels like. I am going to make you pay for the hurt you caused me. You think that cheating on me broke me, wait until you see what I'll do to you. I'll make you wish, you never hurt me." I declared, my thoughts darkening with each threat.

"And what is it you said about Lorenzo? That I always run to his arms? You are right. I run to him because he is kind and understanding. Someone that I should have chosen instead of you." I spat, making the anger in him to multiply. If anger was an explosive, Gavin would have already gone nuclear.

"You fucking deserve each other!" He barked, veins popping on the side of his head.

"Have a nice life, Gavin." I declared then walked away. He didn't try to stop me this time.

*****

I pulled up at the front of the house and got out of the car. I dragged my tired legs to the porch and was about to open the door when someone beat me to it. A woman dressed in nun's clothes walked through the door, her face red with fury.

Okay what in Pope's name? I thought, while staring at the pudgy nun descend the steps. She got into a car minutes later and drove off.

No sooner had I walked into the house than I was met by two women arguing at the top of their voices. My dad who was standing between them was trying to diffuse the situation. Honestly, I didn't have the energy to deal with their shit right now.

I already had the worst night and all I needed was a shower and a marathon of Julie and The Phantoms then later on cry till I fall asleep.

"Sobrino you're home." I was placing mom's car keys on the table when she called out. They had stopped arguing and the three of them were looking at me.

"Yes." I replied, my voice sounding hoarse. My eyes were sore and my head was aching terribly.

"How was the party? Did you have fun with your amigos?" She inquired.

"Honestly, it was terrible. The worst night of my fucking life." I cussed, not caring that both mom and dad were in the room.

"Oh no. What happened?" She asked, scurrying towards me. Concern was etched on her face.

"I just need a hug, tia." I declared and she seflessly reciprocated. I buried my face on her shoulder as fresh sobs absconded my trembling lips. She ran her hands along my back, mumbling comforting words to me.

"Todo va a salir bien, sobrino." She muttered, placing a peck on my hair as I sobbed on her shoulder.

No tia. Nothing is ever going to be okay after tonight.

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A/N

Who else is crying right now? Honestly I am. I was angry, hurt and going through a whole lot of emotions while drafting this chapter. Gavin and Carlito have broken up. I still can't believe it. But it has happened and now we gotta see how  they will both handle this break up. What do you think will happen next?

What are your thoughts on the chapter in general?