I visited my spirit guide again yesterday. Sorry, I guess I should explain it. Basically when I was in yr11, our school brought in these mental health specialists who helped give us techniques to de-stress, during the Oh-so-stressful GCSEs (just wait until A level). Everything they did was very spiritual, which I was sceptical of to begin with, but I stuck with it because why not give it a try. One of the things they did with us in one of our last sessions, was help us find our spirit guide. Now I'm not gonna go through how to do it all now, but in a nutshell, a spirit guide can be an animal, or maybe even a person, who is there to guide you through your trials and tribulations. Of course, in reality it's just your brain coming up with all this stuff, but it still helps, for me at least, especially in my darkest times.

Anyway back to the point, I visited my spirit guide guide for the first time in a while yesterday. The first time I 'found my spirit guide', it was a snow leopard. A big, strong snow leopard who could protect me. This time, it was a rabbit. An adorable little wild grey rabbit. He came and sat in my arms, and just told me that it's ok, and that I could stay for as long as I need. I broke down. I started crying. I was a mess. I wanted to stay there forever. But I can't.

When I came out of it, I decided I needed something to remind me of him. When I went to those sessions back in yr11, they gave us clay to make our spirit guides. But since I didn't have the patience to make a clay rabbit, I made an origami one:

(It took me a while lol)

Later, I wanted to see him again so badly, so I did. But because I didn't really need to see him, it was harder to get deep enough into it. But it was still worth it. He gave me a little gem- jade- that I bought in Austria

(This one⤴️)
And said that I should keep it with me all the time, and if I need to connect with him quickly, I can just rub it or just fiddle with it and he'll be there. It's comforting. He's just so comforting. It's so nice to have him sitting in my arms, to pet him, him telling me it's ok. If you're wondering how he talks to me. It's kinda like telepathic I guess (like his mouth doesn't move, I just hear it). But yeah. I hope I get to see him more often from now on.