NOTE: For a better reading, when I point out during the chapter, listen to "The Heart Wants What It Wants" by Selena Gomez ;)

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Pov Lauren

I brought my hands to the sash that tied the robe, and without taking my eyes off Camila's, I let it fall at our feet. Camila looked deep into my eyes in such an intense way that I could feel weak. I didn't know if this was right, I would just do what I really wanted tonight.

-If you don't want, I'll stop. - I said, leaning in to inhale slowly the skin of her neck.

She had such a nice scent, a sweet mixture with the freshness of who had just gotten out of the shower. I kissed her neck and placed my hands on her waist, squeezing it hard and pulling her body against mine.

-Do you want this, Camila? - I whispered to her who closed her eyes when she felt my lips in her skin - Be mine tonight. Tell me, do you want this?

-Yes... I do. - Camila whispered almost in a moan.

I traveled up the line of her spine with one of my hands, until I arrived at her neck, where delicately I laced my fingers in her dark locks pulling her face towards mine. I pinned Camila's naked body against the cold wall, making the woman gasp when she felt my body pressed against hers.

-I know you do, you don't need to say anything else. Just feel. - I whispered slowly and sensually in her ear.

I pulled on her hair, leaving her neck at the mercy of my mouth, that moved over it with lingering kisses and prolonged sucks. Her skin was so smooth, and sensitive that the redness made itself visible right away. I could feel the hair on her body stand on end in the exact moment my tongue slid over her pulse point with certain pressure.

Camila dragged her small hands down my back, digging her nails on the wet fabric of my blouse, while I traveled with the kisses from her neck to her earlobe, which I sucked in a hurry. The brunette gasped with want, letting out an almost moan that left me completely wet.

-Take this off now. - the woman whispered lost in desire.

I smirked at Camila, who stared at me with those hot brown and so familiar eyes.

-Take it off for me, Cabello.

Camila didn't stand on ceremony, she brought her hands to the buttons of my blouse and undid them one by one, without taking her eyes off mine. When she finished, the woman traveled her hands up to my shoulders slowly removing the fabric off my body, admiring every naked part of my body. I felt hot, on fire under her gaze loaded with lust.

Skillfully all my clothes went to the floor, leaving us completely naked in that dark room. The night's penumbra left her so sexy, highlighting her sinuous curves under the little light that the luminaires offered.

I kissed her mouth intensely, and Camila corresponded the same way. She parted her lips allowing passage for my tongue that slid over hers with hunger. We fought a battle to see who dominated and I won. Fuck, she was such a good kisser. Her hands moved up and down hurriedly, pressing my body against hers. I swiftly guided the woman to the small bed of that room.

I threw the brunette's body on the soft bed harshly. I stared at it, asking God for that not to be a dream, because if it was I didn't want to wake up until I made that woman cum. I crawled over her, fitting our bodies in such a perfect way that I couldn't help the hoarse moan that escaped through my lips.

We exchanged intense and hot gazes, it was amazing the connection we kept through them. I kissed her oh-so delicate lips, and trailed from her neck to the valley of her perky breasts. Camila gasped when she felt my mouth around her nipple. I sucked them with an immense want that made the woman moan, tightening her fingers between my hair in supplication.

-Oh God, Lauren! Please. - Camila moaned, leaning forward, offering me more of her body.

I didn't speak, just continued my ministrations. Sliding my tongue over her soft skin, nibbling on her nipple, while the other hand massaged the other with a certain roughness that made the brunette writhe. I was hungry, hungry for her body that for so long hid from me. I left Camila's breasts reddish and extremely sensitive, to go down to her smooth stomach, distributing kisses and bites all over it.

-You are so marvelous, Miss Cabello. I won't be able to ever stop. - I spoke between kisses.

The women writhed almost in supplication for the kisses to go down to where her pleasure would be more intense. However that wasn't yet the right time. I continued with the same rhythm, I didn't want that moment to be a pure sexual act. For some unknown reason, I felt that it was something important.

I traveled my lips from her stomach until reaching her wet center. Camila had an amazing scent, so feminine. God! I would lose myself a thousand and one times in the body of that woman. I kissed slowly her inner thighs, biting the area softly . Camila sat up on her elbows, staring at me almost angrily for such delay. Under her eyes I smirked, savoring her divinely delicious taste.

-Oh! God... - the brunette cried out when I gave one single suck on her wet center.

-Cry out to God, Camila, I'll only let you go when I'm exhausted.

I sucked her, with all the want I had in me. Camila writhed in a pleasurable way, arousing me in a colossal way. Her nails dragged over my shoulder until they combed through my hair, where she tugged, causing a pleasurable pain that only spurred me to continue. I held her thighs tightly, leaving the woman completely opened to me, to then take her clit between my lips. Camila arched her body, staring at me with an expression of pleasure that drove me crazy. I slid my tongue over her bundle of nerves and circled it incessantly. Feeling the good scent that emanated from that woman.

-You are delicious, Miss Cabello.

-Oh Lauren! Mmmm... - she whined.

I let go of one of her thighs, and trailed up my hands over her stomach until reaching one of her breasts, which I squeezed slowly, pinching one of her nipples between my fingers. The woman moaned instantly with so much desire that I felt weak. I could cum just by hearing her so suffered and at the same time pleasurable moans. Jesus, that was my end.

-I ne... ed more... please! - the brunette cried out in agony. Her hands time or another squeezed the skin of my shoulders.

With the tip of my fingers I separated her wet folds and licked slowly one, two, three times, and then massaged her clit leisurely. Camila's hands rested on the white sheets, her chest rose and fell in a short and heavy breathing.

-Tell me, do you want more? - I whispered to her.

Camila nodded quickly, without saying absolutely anything.

-Speak! Tell me what you want.

The brunette stared at me, her eyes were dark and hot. For a few moments she reminded me of Karla. But I wouldn't think about her now, it was Camila over there.

-Tell me! - I let out a small puff of air on her throbbing center.

-Oh God, fuck me, Lauren! Please...

I smiled involuntarily, hearing such words from a very sweet mouth was like walking on different paths. Camila Cabello could be as sexy as Karla. I slid my fingers, dipping into the damp center of that brunette, to then go back up to her swollen clit, where I massaged with certain pressure, that wouldn't be enough to make her cum. I saw her agony, her desperation to reach her peak, and I wouldn't torture her anymore. I dipped my index and middle finger inside that woman who opened her mouth in a perfect "O" when she felt me enter her.

-Lauren! - she whispered almost voiceless.

Camila bit her lip, bringing her hands that were on the sheets to her breasts. That would be the view of paradise if there were any. My fingers pumped in and out of her in an incessant speed, and to increase the intensity of her orgasm, I sucked her.

-Massage your breasts. - I ordered.

Camila was quick to start a fast and desperate massage on her small and perky breasts, while I fucked her in two ways. Her body moved uncontrollably, seeking more and more a stronger friction.

-Oh! Mmmm! Fuck!

I sucked her swollen clit without stopping, while my fingers pumped in and out hurriedly. Her body quickly started to tremble, she was starting to orgasm. I felt my fingers being crushed inside her, and the brunette started moaning louder, her body moved faster and desperately, but I didn't stop, I made her mine until I felt her cum douse my fingers, and I sucked the product of her climax clean off.

And that wouldn't be the end, I crawled over the panting woman and kissed her sweaty skin, until I reached her lips. I moved to the side bringing Camila's body on top of me, making her straddle me. That was the most beautiful view that I could have of that woman. Camila was completely naked, her hair was wild and brushed to only one side, her face had a daring expression. I could see on her neck reddish marks, covered by some beads of sweat that ran down the valley of her so delicious breasts.

I leaned forward until being able to look in her mysterious eyes. And with one hand I grabbed her hair and pulled her in, crashing my lips on hers in a fierce kiss. Our tongues almost fought to suck everything of each other. I descended my hands over her voluminous ass and moved her forward and backwards. She had understood my intention because in that exact moment she started to rub her body on mine slowly, causing an intense friction on my center.

I gasped, digging my nails on the brunette's back that sucked my earlobe with devotion. I could feel her breathless and heavy breathing in my ear, fuck, I was completely soaked wet, and Camila at each instant moved faster, grinding her center hard on mine.

-Ohh! - I cried out without meaning to.

My moan was enough to make her go faster. Her center grinded on mine, with such a delightful pressure, dripping the sweet liquid that emanated from her.

-Faster. - I spoke digging my nails in her ass.

Camila pushed me back on the bed, making me be completely lying down. The brunette boldly lifted one of my legs, fitting in between, leaving our centers totally glued. With one hand the woman supported herself on my thigh that was lifted and with the other supported herself on the bed. Thus beginning an intense grind on me.

I felt all my nerve endings vibrate. Camila rubbed on me with so much want, causing an intense pleasure that I never imagined feeling. She was divine, the brunette moved fast and incessantly, it was maddening.

-Oh Fuck! - she moaned.

I wouldn't last much longer, but she didn't stop. I could see her body sweat as she moved, my hands gripped tightly the bed sheets and time or another Camila's soft skin.

-Jesus, Ca... mila! You are so fucking amazing! I'm gonna cum at any mome...nt...

That room seemed smaller, the air was hot and heavy. A kind of frenzy hit my body, bringing vibrations from my core to the toes of my feet. I was writhing, forcing friction with Camila's drenched center that rubbed against mine amid so many moans.

-Lauren... I'm gonna cum. OH Fuck! - she said in desperation, making me cum violently.

I had lost control of my body, it moved fast seeking to satiate that devastating urge alongside her. I only felt the warm liquids gush slowly between us.

Camila lay down over me, her body was hot and sweaty. The woman fit her face in the crook of my neck, letting me feel her labored breathing. I wasn't different, my chest rose and fell panting.

-You are amazing, Miss Cabello... God... - I whispered with the little strength I had left in me.

She must be smiling, Camila in a sweet way peppered some kisses on my neck. Was this woman insatiable?

-If you tell me you want to continue, I'll think you are insatiable.

-I want to Lauren, and I want now. - she said slowly.

Could she be any more perfect? Camila went down with the kisses on my neck, where she gave small bites, to then go to my breasts. The brunette with her eyes locked on mine, sucked with so much devotion on one of my breasts. I closed my eyes, biting my lip. Saving inside me all the urge that I had to moan when I saw her do that. I squeezed my eyes and when I opened them I saw Karla.

Jesus! Karla?

I closed my eyes again to see Camila tasting me pleasurably. I was going mad! I shook my head. I didn't want to think about Karla anymore. Camila was amazing and even better than her, of this I had no doubt.

I brought my hands to Camila's slightly wavy hair, tugging on it hard, making her continue. I was so sensitive that I could cum with just that. But she had stopped. The brunette trailed down with wet kisses over my stomach, licking every part with want, until stopping over my center, where she delicately placed her lips, kissing lovingly.

I felt the urge to scream when her tongue moved over my swollen clit, fuck, it was such a mind-blowing feeling. She licked fast and without stopping.

-Hmm! Yeah... Suck, Camila, suck me.

I moaned with desire. Like a drug addict I depended on her touches, her mouth and the pleasure she provided me with. With the tip of her tongue she made circular movements on my bundle of nerves without stopping.

-Oh God, you want to drive me crazy.

I felt my body weak, and even like this I wanted more. And as if she knew the right time, Camila increased the pressure of her tongue, making me sit on my elbows to watch her. With the tip of her fingers she spread my slick folds and immersed the tip of her tongue inside me in an incessant thrusting, to then return her tongue over where I felt more pleasure.

-You are so tasty, Miss Jauregui. - she spoke provocatively.

It was too much for me, seeing Camila Cabello sucking me in the most sensual way was mind-blowing. And she even called me like that? It was enough to enter in a destructive orgasm. I arched my head back feeling my entire body tremble, and with hunger she sucked me hard.

-Oh! Oh! - I said tangling my fingers in her dark locks, forcing her head in that area.

And she didn't stand on ceremony, she sucked up to the last drop of my cum that gushed. Camila looked up, crawling over me to then kiss my lips, making me taste my own cum on her lips that moved over mine slowly. The brunette ended the kiss slowly, biting my lower lip, to then snuggle again in my arms.

I roamed my hands on her back in a soothing caress. I didn't know what to say in that moment, and I decided I wouldn't say anything. I would just let happen what was destined for both of us.

-If you keep doing that I'll fall asleep, Lauren. - Camila spoke sweetly.

I smiled and continued with the caress.

-Sleep, Camz. I'll be here when you wake up.

-Good Night, Miss Jauregui.

-Good Night, Miss Cabello. - I said smiling.

After a few minutes Camila's breathing calmed down, the room stayed in a complete silence. Leaving me only with the voice of my thoughts that begged for answers.

What would happen now?

I stared at the young woman who slept with a serene expression. God, what had I done? I was lost. With Camila things got out of my control, everything happened without me being able to stop. Maybe I didn't want to stop, maybe with her I forgot my obligations, and whom I had become. She had the power to leave me light, to make me smile easily, to make me remember what was really important. She had the power to break down all the walls I had built around me for protection. I felt fragile, and complete.

Can you understand? When you feel safe and fragile at the same time? Giving myself to that woman was like walking in unknown territory, facing the darkness in search of a goal that I didn't even know what it was.

Why did I feel so good with her? What did she have to make me feel like this? Was it her gentle way, her sweet voice, her mysterious eyes or her character? If I was to think about everything that attracted me in that woman I would only come to one conclusion, or on a better thought, I would come to a single doubt:

Could it be love?

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Pov Camila

I stretched feeling a good little pain that morning. The weather was cold, but the sun already invaded the room through each slit of the curtains, of that I was sure even with my eyes closed. The light bothered my eyes that were having trouble to open. I passed my hand over the soft mattress not feeling the woman beside me. God, had I fantasized about all of that?

-Lauren? - I asked sitting up in bed, not getting an answer.

-Are you here? - I asked again.

Everything was silent.

It wasn't possible, I was completely naked, covered only by the thin white sheet. She said she would be here when I woke up. Dammit Camila, what if she had left? What if she regretted it? No... It wasn't possible.

"Dammit, I'm so stupid!" - I exclaimed almost in despair.

-Thank you, have a nice day.

I heard a male voice in the direction of the door. I leaned over searching from where that voice came, to then see Lauren walking towards the bed with a small tray. I confess that certain relief took over me when I saw her there. She smiled beautifully. She was wearing wine color pants, and a high collar and long sleeves black blouse.

-Can I know where you got those clothes? - I asked with an accusing look, which made her laugh.

-The woman next door traded them for your clothes.

-You wouldn't. - I said throwing a pillow in her direction.

-If you keep trying to hit me I'll eat your breakfast too.

She said smiling, placing the small tray on the bed, pushing it in my direction.

-It's not one of the best, I make a much better breakfast. But this is all they had here.

Lauren spoke sitting next to me.

-Will I still discover your culinary skills? - I asked while grabbing the small cup with hot coffee.

Lauren looked at me with a smirk, without diverting her attention.

-Of course you will, Camz. You will see what else I'm good at.

I bit my lip, smiling.

-That was so cocky.

-Am I wrong, Miss Cabello? Or you don't think that I'm good at what I do?

Lauren asked suggestively. Making me smile like an idiot.

-I won't answer that. - I said taking a sip of the hot liquid.

Lauren inched closer, placing a small kiss on my shoulder, and another on my neck.

-Why?

Was I dreaming?

-Lauren... - I said embarrassed.

-I want to know, answer me. Am I or am I not good at what I do?

-What are you referring to? Can I know?

-Whatever you want to think, Miss Cabello.

"Well played." - I thought.

-You are good, Lauren, you are very good at everything you do.

Lauren let out an amused laugh, lying next to me.

-Thanks, but I already knew.

-Idiot! - I said giving a small slap on her leg.

The woman laughed, but soon stopped, leaving us in a complete silence. I felt one of her hands sliding slowly on my naked back, like she was drawing with her fingertips.

-You are full of marks. - Lauren whispered.

-I don't mind.

-No?

I shook my head.

-They say that when we get marked like this is because the other person was liking it a lot.

She opened a broad smile, expressing her green eyes that were so light this morning.

-Indeed. - she confirmed - The other person liked it a lot.

Lauren sat down again, distributing kisses on my back until arriving to my neck. I closed my eyes, just letting myself be carried away by her caresses. As much as I was feeling scared of what would happen after leaving there, I didn't want to stop. I didn't want to interrupt one of the few moments that life had provided me where I could breathe without worry.

-You did? - I asked.

-A lot. - the woman whispered in my ear, making all the hairs on my body stand on end.

Lauren was so good with caresses, her touches were soft and at the same time exciting. I turned to her who stared at me intensely, lowering her gaze down my body covered only by the sheet. Her iris was taking on a darker tone.

-Don't even think about it, we have to get out of here. I need clothes, Lauren.

-Why if you look so good without them?

-I do? Maybe I should go out like this on the street. What do you think? - I asked getting up from bed still wrapped in the sheet.

-Don't even think about it, Miss Cabello. Your clothes are on the dresser.

-How did you get them?

-I have my contacts. - she spoke smugly.

-Mysterious.

-It's part of the charm.

-Are you charming me? - I asked playfully.

-How did you find out? Did you feel the potion inside the coffee?

I let out an amused laugh at her. Lauren sometimes was so different from what she really seemed to be.

-I did, you know? Be more careful next time.

-Or? What will you do, Miss Cabello?

-That's a secret.

I smiled at her and went into the bathroom. In a few minutes I took a hot shower, thinking of how good it was being being here with her. But until when would this last? I had already been hurt by Lauren, will that happen again?

"Don't think about it... Don't think." - I told myself several times, but it was in vain. And what if I got out of here right now and she said that she didn't want to continue this? That last night should be forgotten? Perhaps I couldn't bear it again. Perhaps I should take this attitude myself that sooner or later would happen.

I put on my clothes, drying my hair with the simple hairdryer that was there. I used a light makeup that I carried in my bag, and the sweet perfume. Everything should return to its normal, right?

I took a deep breath and left the small bathroom, staring at the woman who talked on the phone nonstop:

\   -Don't be inconvenient, Alfredo, I'm already going.

-Why are you so stubborn? If you want you can go, just leave a car for me.

-So you rather wait?

-Oh, very smart, thank you for bringing Alfred.

-Camila just got out of the bathroom. We'll talk later, thank you for helping me.   /

Lauren said hanging up the call. It was explained how she had gotten the clothes. As soon as she faced me, the woman smiled broadly.

-Ready to go back home, Camz? Alfred is waiting for us.

-Yes, of course. But I wanted to talk to you before we go.

-Does it need to be now, Camz? Alfred is already waiting for us since early. - she said while packing up her bag.

-I think so.

-Is there something wrong? - Lauren asked worriedly.

-I don't know. - I said walking towards the window - Lauren, let's not pretend that everything is normal, because it isn't.

-I'm not saying it is, Camila.

-This is wrong, what will people say? - I asked nervously.

-No one has anything to do with this.

-Don't speak as if there were no other people.

-To me there isn't, and to you? If you are committed to someone, you should've thought about that yesterday.

-I'm not committed to anyone.

-Then stop worrying, Camz. We are adults, and owners of our lives.

-What will we do now?

Lauren stared at me for a few seconds and then came closer, staying a few centimeters away from me. She transmitted me so much security with her words, I was lost in her eyes that stared at me so intensely.

-We'll do what you want to do.

-You can only be...

-Or what I want to do. - she interrupted me before kissing my lips.

Lauren pulled me slowly by the waist, uniting my body to hers in a tender way. Trailing her hands up my back, going up to my neck, pulling me until her lips pressed against mine. She kissed me slowly as if she wanted to show that she'll be there with me. After a few seconds, Lauren asked for entrance to deepen the kiss, and I granted her. I could feel her tongue snaking over mine skillfully. Tasting in every way possible that kiss, that I confess not want to end. But she slowly let go of my waist, stopping the kiss gradually, leaving our foreheads pressed together.

I slowly opened my eyes and I could see her green eyes like emeralds stare back at me. I was too weak to back away. That woman with a simple look made me lose my mind.

-I'm going mad, Lauren.

-Madness is sometimes the best medicine for a normal patient.

She smiled and pulled me towards her again, and so I let her, I let her kiss me once again. Last night I let her made me hers until she got tired from exhaustion. I wouldn't care about the after. Was it dangerous? Totally. But life had already been too unfair with me. A disappointment more or less wouldn't matter, right? What if in one of them we make it work? Life is made of daily choices, you have to take a chance. Have courage to face your fears and your obstacles. What would a life be without risks? A smooth sea where nothing would move, and you would remain intact and unhappy. Being with Lauren was like living in a sunny morning and at the same time suffer under a strong storm. All of a sudden everything could come crashing down and destroy everything, it was all so uncertain. But what was certain? Who can say what you should or shouldn't do?

Only you.

So don't think twice.

Do it.

Take a chance.

Live.

Life is too short to be wasted with fear or shyness. Don't let it pass right before your eyes. Seek what makes you feel good.

For me, in that moment, what made me feel good had a name and a surname:

Lauren Jauregui.