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TW: mentions of rape
Reminder: do not listen to anything Alex says about how it's his fault for the rape, it's for he book and it is most definitely ALWAYS the rapists fault.

I'm so sorry for this sad chapter. Also sorry rape is mentioned, don't worry, by like the next 2 chapters it'll be out of the story

"Babe?" John pushed open the door to our room. "Awh no, honey please don't cry everything will be fine, I won't let Maria near you again" he said at the sight of me quietly sobbing at the edge of the bed.

"I'm sorry, I'm being so stupid" I mumbled, wiping tears away with my sleeve.

"Alex, listen to me" John pulled my shoulders softly so I was facing him and lifted my chin up with his fingers. "None of it is your fault. You were and are completely innocent and not at fault at all. Do not blame yourself for what happened, I know it's not easy to get over something as traumatic as that. I love you so much Lexi"

"I love you too" he wiped away some of my Tears with his thumbs and softly connected our lips before the doorbell rang.

"I'll get it" I rushed downstairs, John behind me.

"ELIZA WHAT THE FUCK" Angelica and Eliza were screaming at each other while Hercules and Laf were holding Peggy back from jumping on Eliza.

"Guys did you even hear the door?" I laughed. Everyone turned to the door, eyes wide.

"ALEX NO" Lafayette shrieked. I opened the door to see Maria Reynolds, pulling down on her shirt.

"Alex"
I stared at her my stomach felt like it had just been shot a million times and I heard John shriek as he pulled me out of the doorway and entered it himself.

"How the fuck do you know where we live?"

"My stupid ass girlfriend told me" Maria pointed at Eliza, who waved and smiled while everyone shook their heads. Eliza was nowhere near stupid but she sure was acting like she was right now.

"Sweet Jesus" Angelica and Hercules groaned.

"Maria!" Peggy smiled.

"Peggy!" Peggy stepped towards Maria but Eliza pulled her back and pushed her onto the couch.

"This is why I'm aromantic" Angelica mumbled.

"Just get out" John glared daggers at Maria.

"Angelica, look after your little sisters. You never know when they might die on you" she smirked at Hercules and slammed the door shut. Laf pulled back Hercules from running after her while John, Angelica and Peggy screamed at Eliza. After a few minutes of processing what was happening I was finally done with it.

"JUST SHUT UP" I screeched and everyone turned to stare at me. "HERCULES' SISTER JUST DIED! ELIZA IS DATING A RAPIST WHO CHEATED ON HER SISTER AND ELIZA IS ALSO BEING FUCKING STUPID. PEGGY WANTS THE PERSON WHO CHEATED ON HER AND RAPED HER BEST FRIEND BACK EVEN THOUGH SHE HAS A GIRLFRIEND, LAFAYETTE FEELS REJECTED BY HIS HUSBAND AND YET I AM THE ONE WHO JUST GOT CONFRONTED BY THE PERSON WHO RAPED ME AND JOHN AND I ARE THE ONLY SANE ONES. WHY DON'T WE LOOK AFTER HERCULES INSTEAD OF DEALING WITH PEGGY AND ELIZA'S STUPID GIRLFRIEND SHIT!?"

Eliza and Peggy looked down, realizing how stupid their actions were.

"AND ELIZA. IF YOU DATE MARIA I DON'T REALLY WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU ANYMORE. AND PEGGY. IF YOU KEEP CHASING AFTER HER THEN MAYBE I DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND EITHER"

"Alex-" Eliza started.

"No, you all fucked up. Big time. Get out of my house now" no one moved. "NOW" everyone besides John walked out the door, closing it softly as they left.

"Lex-"

"Don't talk to me John" I could see tears start to form in his eyes before I walked up the stairs, slamming and locking the study door behind me. I looked up from the floor to see decorations everywhere and the room filled with balloons and a banner hung above my desk that said 'Happy Birthday Alex.'

Nice to know he remembered

Peggy's POV

"Guys I feel like we forgot something" I muttered.

"I don't know, your brains maybe? Cause you didn't use them" Angelica spat, glaring at Eliza and I. I don't know what we were thinking.

"Let's just leave that all behind us ok? Pretend it never happened" I sighed and Eliza nodded.

"What's the date?" I turned to Laf who checked his phone.

"January eleve- shit" he muttered.

"Isn't January 8th their anniversary and 11th Alex's birthday? They didn't do anything on the 8th" Hercules said.

"Yes they did, we got them to come to Jade's grave. Shit" Eliza covered her face.

"We made them miss their five year anniversary so they would come to our dead sisters grave?" I screamed into my hands.

"YOU GUYS DID WHAT!?" Lafayette gasped. "John planned a fucking expensive whole day thing with Alex! It was so expensive and John spent 3 months planning it and they didn't even go to it!?"

"We missed Alex's birthday because of my sister's death and the person who raped him came over to his house because two of his best friends were fighting over her and then he lost those two friends" Hercules exhaled deeply, rubbing his face.

"So you're trying to tell me, that we made John ditch his expensive whole day celebration with Alex that he had been planning for three months because we wanted them to come with us to our sisters grave and we missed Alex's birthday which John also had a big plan for because Eliza and I are trying to get with the girl that raped him and then Eliza invited her over and then he unfriended us. Is that what you're trying to tell me?" I summarized what I had just heard and everyone hesitantly nodded. "Jesus Christ" I slid down the wall and hung my head back.

"We're shit friends" Eliza pulled out her phone and dialed Maria's number.

"No- Eliza!" I shrieked, jumping for the phone.

"We're breaking up Maria" she said seriously into the phone.

"Oh cool, I'm in the middle of sex with Charles Lee but nice to know. Byeeee don't forget to block my number" I heard from the other line, before the call ended.

"That was easy" Eliza smiled. We all stared at the oblivious girl in shock.

"Let's just go apologize to John and Alex" I said, walking up to their apartment door. I peeked through to see John and Alex on the couch. Alex's had was resting across John's thighs while John braided the birthday boys hair and they laughed as Aladdin played in the background.

"I Love you John" Alex smiled.

"Love you too, sorry your birthday didn't go how I planned it, I've been planning it for months" John pouted. Eliza exhaled softly and tugged at some of her hair, obviously feeling bad.

"You spend months planning things like this! Like our anniversary! 3 months!? John you really don't have to" Alex laughed, tugging at a loose strand of John's hair.

"I do! You're my husband and I love you. It's just hard sometimes when we have to take care of our friends. Sometimes I feel like they're our kids. They have serious problems and we need to be there for them but we have to find some way we can do that without interfering with our plans! Like, what will happen when we adopt a child? We won't be able to miss our anniversary because the girls need to see their sister's grave, we'll have to miss it because we have a baby." John sighed and we all rested against the wall, ashamed of ourselves, but still eavesdropping.

"John, we've been together for five years and we've always wanted children but...."

"But what?" John asked, suddenly serious. Alex sat up and rested his head on his husbands shoulder and sighed.

"I know our friends having problems doesn't seem like that big of a thing but think about it. I had to retake my exams a month later because Lafayette made us fly to France with him, we've missed three anniversaries because the girls need us, we've missed your birthday once because Hercules had a panic attack about proposing to Laf, and then we missed my birthday because we had to plan herc and Lafayette's wedding... it just seems like we might not have time for a child, our fitness have so much on and we have jobs and- John, before you get mad-"

"NO TIME FOR A CHILD!?" John got up off the couch and pulled Alex up with him. "because our friends have problems? We can't have a child as a married couple because of our friends? Is that what you're saying?"

"John, I just- I have work as well-"

"Yeah, what's up with your work? You come home at like 10pm and leave at 7am. Why do you work so late!? What kind of job makes you work that late!?" John yelled.

"I don't know if I can tell you yet, I'll have to ask-"

"What do you m-"

"STOP CUTTING ME OFF AND LET ME EXPLAIN" Alex screamed, taking a step back from John. "I'm just worried we won't be there for our child. Our jobs, our friends, they're so time consuming and so is a child!"

"Are you cheating on me?" John crossed his arms and glared. "John what the hell? Stop jumping to conclusions! You can ask Peggy! She knows what job I do and why I might not be able to tell you and that's why I work late! Not because I'm cheating. You know I wouldn't even be able to cheat on you! I couldn't, I would never!"

"So you can tell Peggy but not me? You can tell the girl who brought the person who raped you into our lives and continued to try and get her back after they broke up even though she has a fucking girlfriend but you can't tell your husband?" My heart sunk to the bottom of my chest and the group stared at me. I knew John wouldn't mean to hurt me by saying that but it hurt and it only hurt because it was true I screwed everything up. I don't even like Maria anymore why did I cause all this random drama?

"Peggy helps with my job, she works at the same place! She has to know!" Alex retorted, glaring. "And you know I would choose you over anyone and anything in the whole world if I had to"

"Why don't you want a child then? With me, your husband?"

"I do! I want children more than you know! But we have to deal with all of our friends problems so much they may as well be our children! Everyday I get text upon text from our 5 best friends, with problems and I love them to death and will always help them as much as possible but I can't deal with their stuff as well as a child and work. And especially if you're going to be acting like..... this"

"What do you mean by this Alex?" Alex just looked away. "Alexander!"

"Shit guys maybe we shouldn't eavesdrop anymore, John never calls him Alexander" Angelica muttered, she tried to pull me up but I sharply yanked my hand away and we continued to listen.

"IF YOU KEEP ACTING LIKE, LIKE...... LIKE A DICK OK!? Right now, you're acting like a dick and I can't deal with that on top of my problems"

"Your problems? Alex, you don't have any problems, you know why? Because they're dead, like your whole family!" John's hands flew to his mouth and Alex stared at him, his angry expression fading. "Alexander I'm sorry I-"

"You're right. You're my husband, my family but of course, My whole family's dead which really explains why you're dead to me" Alex's cheeks were covered in tears and his voice was shaky but he still spoke with confidence.

"Alex!" John grabbed his husbands hand but Alex pulled out of his grip. "You have no right to be mad! You're the one who said we shouldn't have a family!"

"I never said that! John I want a family far more than you, I need one to replace the whole family I lost. At least you still have family"

"My family is a homophobic father who threw you out of a window! And what am I to you? How can you say you have no family when you have me!? Your husband! I thought we'd talked about our plans for a family"

" And I thought you were a good husband. We both thought wrong" Alex's eyes filled with even more tears and he walked over to the front door and pulled it open before we could move.

"Go find something to do with your lives" Alex spat at us through sobs and walked past us, down the hall.

"Alex please!" I ran after him.

"Don't touch me Margarita" he pushed me off him and continued to walk off.
"How could I do this?" I sobbed into my hands.

I looked back through the door of Alex and John's apartment to see John practically inhaling a Bottle of Sam Adams, leaning on the back of the couch.

John's POV

I knew you were mine
You said you were mine
I thought you were mine
Are you still mine?

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I'm so sorry
If you need, you can just shout at me.