Also highkey foreshadowing in this chapter ;)
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John's POV

33 missed calls from Peggy

I was super agitated from my last conversation with Peggy but it was Christmas in a week so I decided we needed to clear this up. Especially if we were all spending Christmas at the Schuyler household.

JohngleBells: meet me inside the cafe

PrancerDancerandPeggy: bring Alex

"Alex, I'm so sorry for saying what I said" Peggy brought us our hot chocolates. "Extra whipped cream and mini marshmallows by the way" she winked.

"I'm not offended by what you said per-say, but the fact you chose Maria over me, well pretty much the whole group" Alex sipped his hot chocolate.

"Well, to be fair, you would give up everything for John"

"That's cause I didn't rape anyone" I muttered and Alex tried to contain a smile.

(A/N sorry if some things are confusing I deleted two chapters)

"Ok well John and I forgive you Peggy, we'll always love you but you have to be careful who you love" Hercules was always the mom friend but when it came to Peggy, there was no out-mumming Alexander Hamilton.

"I'm dating her"

I spat out my hot chocolate.

"YOU'RE WHAT!? Peggy I don't think this will end up well" I raised an eyebrow.

"Peggy, you yourself say you aren't ready for sex and what if Maria does what she did to me, maybe even worse!" Alex knotted his eyebrows together in concern.

"Well I refuse to let Alex near you when you're with her. She is not in our friend group. She's your side friend" I glared.

"Guys, I'm an adult, chill" Peggy rolled her eyes, taking a chug of her drink.

"That's what Philip Miranda said, then he got shot" Sally laughed, ruffling my hair as she walked past.

"Too soon" Alex and I shook our heads jokingly.

1 week later

" JOHN GET UP" I woke up to a small body was jumping up and down and flopping on top of me. "IT'S MY FIRST CHRISTMAS" Alex screamed. I groaned and in response pushed him off.

"I'm not wearing a shirt" he smirked.

"And I'm up"

Alex laughed and we both grabbed our back packs and went over to Angelica and Eliza's dorm, where Lafayette, Hercules and Peggy were already waiting, ready to celebrate Christmas at the Schuyler Sisters' place.

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"Holy crap" Alex muttered as the Schuyler household came into view. It was a mansion, probably 7 times the size of any normal house. Peggy unlocked the front door to show white marble walls and carpeted gray floors with decorations everywhere. I was always pretty close to the Schuyler family, well their mother loved me but the father, not so much. Peggy wasn't out to her father yet, for a very good reason.

"Well, make yourselves at home, we have 9 guest bedrooms so Hercules, laf, you choose one and Alex, John you get another one, we'll sleep in our own rooms" Eliza smiled, turning on the heating system.

"Or we could all sleep in that huge spare lounge? It's carpeted, there's a cinema tv, tons of space, plus lets all be little kids again pleaseeeeee" Peggy begged.

We all just cocked our heads.

"I'll pay for all the junk food"

We all cheered and made our way to their actual lounge where the Christmas tree was, and placed all the presents for each other under the tree.

"John come on we'll go to Coles, you all get ready for cHristmasss" Alex shouted.

(A/N Coles is an Australian Supermarket btw I'm not bothered to find American stuff lol)

Alex and I drove to Coles with Peggy's credit card, filling up the grocery cart with all kinds of junk food and sodas.

"Ok. Coca Cola. Check. Chili chips. Check. More chips. Check. M n ms. Check. Skittles. Check. Popcorn. Check. Nutella. Check. Soda. Check" Alex was checking all sorts of junk food off the list.

" diabetes. Check" I mocked him.

"Have I ever told you that I love....."

"I love you too" I said.

"I was going to say Nutella but meh, I guess I love you too" he laughed

"Goofball" I kissed him. "now let's get back so we can eat this junk food and have sex."

We got back to the house, carrying 7 shopping bags, threw them at everyone and quickly ran up to our room. We were all staying at the Schuyler's until uni started again so we had to get settled in a little.

Alex pulled off his shirt, forgetting his scars. I was mostly just staring at his chest because damn.

"Alex, baby, I know it's Christmas"

He smiled, nodding like a 4 year old.

"I want to talk about you self harming" his smile faded. "I know it's a sensitive subject but believe me, I understand more than you know" I squeezed his hands.

"You know, it's really hard to talk about this when you're shirtless and wearing tight sweat pants" he laughed looking me up and down.

"Alex" he just stared at me, not answering. "Alexander" his smile fell once again, I only called him Alexander when we were either fighting or having a serious talk,
"Do you love me?"

"John, I love you more than anything"

"Then why do you self harm? I obviously don't make you happy enough and if I don't then you should find someone who does. I just want you to be happy" tears welling in my eyes.

"John please stop, we're not breaking up. The reason I self harm is you make me too happy. Everyone leaves me. My mum, my dad, my brother, my cousin.....you left me. I don't want you to leave me again" Alex said quietly.

"I vow to never leave you again" I responded kissing him on the nose.

"Hey you want pre Christmas movie sex to make it all better?" Alex asked, smirking.

"Alex-"

"I'm shirtless and wearing sweat pants"

"Ok and I'm back" I said letting Alex push me back onto the bed and kiss me, grinding his hips into mine.

"Alex, you sure you're ok?"

"Only if it's with you"

Half an hour later our sweatpants were on the floor when our door opened. Alex swung the sheets over on top of us.

"Guys, give your gag reflexes a break and come down for lunch. We're going to start out Christmas movie marathon" Peggy rolled her eyes and folded her arms.

Alex rolled over and pulled the blanket up to his chest.

"I hate youuu god Peggy It was just getting good" Alex whined

"Just?" I laughed.

"I'm trying to make her feel bad it was good the whole time" he whispered.

"God. I'm glad I'm gay" she groaned. "Now get up" Peggy threw a pillow at us.

"I could totally make a sex joke right now" I smiled before Peggy chucked lion and turtle onsies at us.

(Still) John's POV

We walked downstairs hand in hand with our pillow pets.

The Schuyler's spare lounge had the softest carpet and was ginormous. By ginormous I mean it's the size of probably 5 adult bedrooms. The TV was practically a cinema screen.There were 7 pillows and blankets laid out on the floor in front of the TV, the chips all poured into bowls, plastic cups and soda bottles.

"Ok time for the grinch!" Peggy squealed inserting the disc into the player.

"Peggy you dragged me away from sex to watch the grinch?" I whined, Alex accidentally spat his drink out into his cup from laughter.

"Guess we don't need to watch the movie the grinch to find one, he's right in our lounge mon Ami" Lafayette joked.

We all lied down on our chests to watch the Christmas movie.

Alex's small frame was cuddled up into my chest, watching the movie, his eyes glistening. Eliza and Angelica next to Peggy, Peggy next to Alex and Lafayette and Hercules next to me.

"We've watched elf, the grinch, the Miranda documentary, nightmare before Christmas, home alone, gremlins, batman returns, home alone 2 and the little mermaid are we seriously going to now watch mean girls? It's 3am" I whined.

"Yessss come on John!" Peggy pleaded extending the 'come'.

"That's what she said" Eliza screamed, extending her arms waiting for the high fives.

"I'm gay!" I laughed.

"Correction, that's what Alex said" Hercules cheered.

"More like that's what I'm about to say" Alex grabbed my hand and pulled me upstairs while a collection of 'ooooooh's ' and 'ewwwwwwwwwws' were heard before Alex slammed the door closed.

"So"

"So" I replied.

Alex unzipped my onsie (A/N #SexyOnsieTime )

He pushed me up against the door and by then we were stripped down to, well, nothing.

"No you don't, I top" Alex laughed flipping us over on the bed.

"As If, loser" I giggled attempting to flip us back over but Alex started to kiss me on the neck.

1 hour later (yep I'm gonna be that person, no smut for you. Get yo self a bible and sit down)

"I'm in love with you" Alex mumbled into my collarbone.

"I'm in love with you more" I kissed the top of his head "obviously not as in love with grammar as you are with me"he smiled and we drifted off to sleep.

When I woke up, I heard the sound of sirens.

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OOH DAMN THAT CLIFFHANGER