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She was gone. Just like that, Y/n was gone. The redcoats didn't stay to investigate the area; they were to surprised to find a woman soldier. I was mentally slapping myself for not doing something sooner.

I was currently lying in my hammock, listening to the sounds of crickets chirping outside my tent. I couldn't sleep. How could I when I knew that the British could be torturing her right now. They had said prison hulk. We knew all about those, even though no one had survived in one to tell us what the experience was like.

Everyone knew what had happened. Word spreads like wildfire when you're in a small army camp, where gossip isn't something you get everyday. I tossed and turned, trying to escape the abominable thoughts that stuck in my mind. It was as if I was stuck in a spiral, and there were some scary moments where I couldn't tell up from down. All I knew was that I was falling, falling to whatever my future was. If I even had a future. 

Maybe it was all a bad dream. Maybe I could wake up, and have a chance to start over. I would tell Y/n that I loved her. I could picture her face, smiling, lighting up my world like a candle lights up a dark room. That candle couldn't flicker out yet. It wasn't her time. She still had her whole life ahead of her. But deep inside, I knew the reality. I couldn't keep holing on to false hope.

Thanks to this war, she never got to experience what she could have. She never got to see us win. Yes, I was determined to win. Her death wouldn't be for nothing. She deserved the world, and if I couldn't give that to her, I'd at least give her the colonies. 

I couldn't believe she was dead yet. Although she was most definitely locked up, I couldn't believe that they killed her.

I wasn't at all tired, but soon I was captured by the dark hand of sleep, and pulled into a restless slumber.

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I was drifting out to sea on a boat. A small wooden rowboat. Everyone I had ever cared about  in my life stood on the shore, watching and waiting until I disappeared from the horizon. I scanned the crowed. Lafayette stood tall next to Hercules and Alex. I saw my mother and father, and all of my siblings, dead and alive. I choked back a sob, and continued to look. I saw the Schuylers, some old school and childhood friends, the man who runs the bar where I first met the closest friends I've ever had. I kept scanning and scanning, but there was no sign of Y/n. I just couldn't find her, no matter how hard I tried, she was nowhere to be seen.

I was debating whether to jump out and swim across the lake to get a closer look or not, when a glowing figure appeared on the other side of me. It was her. I couldn't believe it, and almost fell out of the boat. She was so close, then why wasn't I jumping towards her? 

Her glittery form shimmered as she turned to face me. "You have a choice." She said, her voice resonating through my head. At first I was confused. A choice? What did I have to choose?

Then realization hit me like a rock. She was right' I had to choose. I had to make a choice between my family, my friends, and my whole life, or her. Which did I love more?

I thought back to when I had first met Y/n. Before I was lonely in the world, even with friends. You don't have to be alone physically to feel lonely. When Y/n was introduced to my life, all that changed. I had a purpose in life (Unlike me). I had a reason to hold on and treasure each memory.

But the price was a hard one. I'd be leaving everything that I knew behind. My friends also made me feel excepted, and my family. Where do I even start with them? I loved them all to death. Could I really choose between the two?

I glanced at Y/n, glowing with light, and looking quite literally like a goddess, then, I looked at my family and friends, all rooting me on, and I did something I never imagined I would have to do since the moment I saw Y/n. 

I jumped.