A/N just a warning there will be implied at some point self harm, anxiety, depression etc. Also, another thing to note is that here will be having regression in it. Where a person regressed to a younger age. Just thought I put this in here that you guys know this.
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By now almost a month went by or that was what he guessed. His inner clock still was not up to date and it wasn't too surprising with him being out in space. This month had been harsh and he was sure that he was thinner yet his muscles were still there.

With his training, it was not surprising. Richard was thin and the reason was that he just couldn't eat well. His stomach was not liking the stress that was caused and he knew that signs that what he had was coming with having anxiety, depression, fear of meeting new people, distressed even worse than probably his Dad had.

Sometimes heck he even was sounding and acting younger. This was something that had to do with everything that was going on. Lucky for him Lotor seemed not to mind it and in times where he was younger, he treated him more like a child. As some people tend to regress in situations like this.

At least he wasn't in times like this forced to train. The male was actually kinder to him. Either way, he was getting more used to this all. It was something that he could not change and he wanted nothing more than to leave this place, but he knew it was not possible.

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Lotor really was a big jerk and he could feel his mood darkening as he saw how he manipulated others. The male was cunning and making others trust him, but he never would. Not even when he was in his child's mindset could he trust him too much.

Because he knows that the male could harm him and he really wasn't wanting this. At least so far he had not been forced to do something like killing or harming others. It was one thing that he was relieved about. But he wasn't blinded, knowing that at one point he would have to do what Lotor wants him to do.

As for this person, he was just another paw. After all, there had been a reason for this harsh training. One thing was clear that he would have to do what Lotor wants even when he hated it. Making his fear that he would be forced to do these horrendous things that his father would never approve of.

A conflict was what he felt and he feared that his family and friends would never accept him. That they would reject and the worst of all he feared that Wally would leave him. This was making him even more depressed and he was sure that there would be no way that he would able to continue on.

He missed his home and the people that he knew, heck even Joker -in a messed up the way he missed. Dick would not even care to see Joker right now that was how much he wanted to see a familiar face. Maybe he was lucky and meeting at least Shiro.

The male was someone he felt by now closer. He would be the Dad in a group and maybe this was why he always had been at ease towards the other. All he hoped that he would at some point meet Shiro again. When he has done he would probably never let go of the male.

His thought process stopped as he heard a female mention that they were followed by lions. It was confusing to him as he had no clue who they were or why they followed but also hope bloomed into him. Maybe just maybe these guys were the good ones.

From what he could tell of Lotor's expression he knew that they must be enemies and this made him their allies. Maybe he could even find a way to get into contact with them. That was something that he could do as Lotor now trusted him enough.

Now that he thought of it, he heard him mutter about Voltron, and from what he knew they were the once defeating Zarkon. This alone had made him feel hope that he could somehow find a way to get with them. Yet he knew that he would have to wait for the right moment.

These people were rescuing and helping others and that was what made him know that they must be the good guys. Maybe this was why he decided that he would semi trust them, even when they were strangers to him.

"Um Lo-Lo, can I join you" His voice was shy yet timid and he knew that the male would accept him helping out.

As he used the nickname that he used whenever he was in his regressed mindset. It was a cute one and he was the only one who had been allowed to call him this.

"That was what I was planning. It will be a test trial to see how well you will do. Be ready Richard." The tone was strict yet he could see the eyes soften and he hated this.

"Okay.."

That was all that had been saying before he followed Lotor to a second ship. He entered and making sure that he would find them and helping these people. Maybe even ask them to find Wally and rescuing him. With this on his mind, he started to fly outside of the bigger space ship.

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Tinkering the commissioner was way too easy and he even managed to help the lion ships to his surprise. How he had no idea and for him, it was not mattering. He needed to be in contact with them even when it would get him into trouble. This alone made him feel slightly regressing, without him wanting to.

"Hai uh here speaks Ri-Richard. I uh... um wa-wanted to warn you that Lo-Lo is trying to get to you...I just need help. Like, have bestie outside locked and used by the Galra names Wally West a-and he's having red hear and freckles. Oh, he's like me an earthling and really has green bright eyes." He rambled and cursing himself for being like this.

The silence made him swallow and feeling anxious that they would attack him. Why wouldn't he? He explained that he was with Lotor. Heck, his ship was a Galra one. But it came not to an attack but a female voice answering.

"Hello there Richard, it's kind of strange that you contact us. Either way, I am Allura the princess of Altrea and we can't just trust you without a very good reason. After all, you are with Lotor." The tone was harsh and suspicion was making him wanting nothing more than feeling him slipping more into his childish mindset.

"Bu-But Lu-Lu: I wa-was kidnapped fro-from earth la-like my bestie was..." By now his voice sounded more childish as well as fear underlying it and he knew better than trusting other people. Maybe this had been a mistake, contacting them.

"Oi don't scare him anymore. Even a moron can tell that he really is risking his head with contacting us Allura and he's from the earth so more than ever a reason to trust him as he had been kidnapped." A new stranger was heard and it was sounding scolding yet friendly and he felt a bit more at ease as it sounded like the stranger meant it. "Oh and names Lance and how did you end up getting kidnapped?"

Whoever this was reminded him kind of Timbo. It was leading for him to feel his heart pain at the thought.

"You Babo (Moron) don't just ask something like this. It's bad enough that he got forced to be with Lotor and he sounds terrified." Another stranger snapped and making him wince but also feeling a slight smile twitch up. This person reminded him of Dami.

Oh his little brother who was as snappish and emo. But then there came to comment that was muttered under the breath of the first person that sounded distinctly like: stupid mullet head. Which would be something that both Timbo or Jay would say.

He could imagine that this stranger was as emo as Dami is. Just realizing how familiar they were made him feel a bit more familiar and that was what he wanted and needed. But he couldn't help that he was still wary of them.

"Um...dun wanna tell ba-but I really hate it but won't be able to escape. Just please promise me to rescue and help Walls he could be in a situation like this. Oh and tell him that I am sorry and that he should never change is the goofball. In exchange will help whenever we meet, promise on the hero code."

Sadly that was all that he could say before it was cut off by Lotor and his ship unintentionally bumping into the other one making it possible for them to escape. Let's just say that he got his familiar punishment...

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When he was let back out he felt awful and wanted nothing more than someone cuddle with him. Or anything that would tell him that he was forgiven and that he was not going to get back there. Like the last time, Lotor reassured him. Yet he never got a hug or anything like this after he was going back out of the room.

Then he was left alone in his room and he curled himself into a ball trying not to think about what had happened. It was really horrible to have this keep on happening. At some point, he got contacted by an organization called Blade of Mamora.

They were also trying to help to stop the Galra that were doing these horrible things. It was one thing that made him know that they were on the sides of Voltron. But he couldn't help but feel still wary of them.

One of the spies even gave him a communicator that he could contact someone of their people. That he was able to help give him something to do. It helped him and he also got in contact with Kolivan who is the leader of this group.

He was someone who he still couldn't trust too much but enough to get information to them. There was nothing to lose any longer so he might as well do something to sabotage Lotor. Kolivan was astonished about his skill of getting information.

Thinking about Kolivan made him realize how alone he was here. There was no one that could give him some affection. Heck, not even Lotor was doing it often. The only time was when he was needed to have someone to hug him.

But it was forced and he hated himself that after a while he relaxed and enjoying the touch. This person was after all the one who had harmed him. This was a mess and to make this even worse they ended up getting the comet. A really bad thing as he had the feeling that Lotor would use this for something.

At least now that Lotor was in a better mood his room was not locked anymore. Yet he couldn't help but feel his homesickness hit harder now.