Dakota’s POV

THIS WILL BE DOKATOS POV OF EVERYTHING FROM WHEN MAX RAN OUT THERE WILL BE THE SCENE OF MAX’S ATTEMPT ON SUICIDE SO IF THAT WILL BOTHER YOU PLEASE SKIP I WILL PUT A LESS DETAILED RECAP ON THE NEXT CHAPTER! I ALSO WANT TO PUT THE SUICIDE HOTELINE NUMBER FOR ANYONE WHO NEEDS IT. PLEASE CALL THEM IF YOU EVER NEED TO : 1-(800)-273-8255

I had been thinking of max since he left. I felt so bad for making him feel like a lesser person that what he really was. Maybe I can go see him tomorrow. I kept calling and texting. I just wanted to know he was okay for the night. I eventually gave up, ill go over there tomorrow if I need to.

When I went over there it was 7pm. I had football practice today. But when i got there his brother answered the door, his face immediately went sour. “Yes dakota.” His voice stern. “I came to apologize to max. I don't hate him I don't Ipromise. It just scared me because I’ve only dated guys who were born as boys. I never really met someone who changed their gender, let alone, kissed one. So it was just a surprise. I do love Max. I do. And I just need to talk to him. 30 minutes is all I’m asking for.” I pleaded, I had to make sure he was okay and make up for what I did. 

“Fine. I haven’t checked on him but the butler said he’s up early this morning. I've been working on papers that needed  reviewed last week.” He said, “and I’m sure you know where the room is but the butler can show you the way.” The butler reminded me what doors and how many down. I thanked him that way while he went through some other doors. When i got up there i knocked, no answer. I cracked it and called out his name, still no answer. When i opened the door I didn’t see him in there. I checked his closet and then went to the bathroom and knocked. I called his name and there was no answer. When i opened the door i got the shock of my life… max was on the floor. A razor in one hand and blood dripped all over the floor. I immediately felt for a pulse. It was faint. “NATHAN! NATHAN MAX NEEDS HELP PLEASE HE'S BLEEDING OUT!” I screamed as i reached in my pocket and called an ambulance. Nathan was freaking out so bad I immediately kept checking his pulse. When i heard the sirens i picked max up. I didn’t care about my shirt Max needed me. I rushed out there before they could even open the back doors. I they jumped in and I handed his body over and hopped in. Nathan said he would be there when he could and that if max came to to call. They shut the doors and turned the sirens on and immediately drove off to the emergency health care rooms. When we got there they pulled he needles from his vitals out and rushed him through i ran to open doors and called people to move. Once we got to the main double doors they told me i wasn't allowed back until later. I nurse came out and showed me to where i could sit and when they would call me back. They asked for information on max and contact information. I gave them my number as a second emergency contact since they needed one if they couldn’t reach nathan. 

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I sat there since we got here I was so hungry but I didn’t want to leave. My phone also died I hadn’t really seen a charging port and I didn’t want to go find one somewhere just Incase they needed me or I didn’t want to leave it somewhere so someone didn’t walk off with it. I don't have a lot of money as it is to repay for one. Well i mean technically I had 4,000 in the bank and 500 on me in my wallet but that’s for emergencies and things that are super important. I ask told the nurse I would come back in a bit I just needed to walk around a bit since I felt stiff. She said okay and handed me a watch that would buzz when i was needed. I thanked her and started walking around the hospital.

I had walked through some doors up and down elevators and everywhere else and I came upon a door with a sign on it saying free hugs. Oddly weird for a hospital since it kind of sounded like something a kidnapper would say but I knocked anyways out of curiosity. I heard a small faint voice say to come in so I opened it. Inside was an old man. Very fragile looking and his room decorated as if he lived there. “I saw your free hug sign.” I said pointing my thumb at the door over my shoulder. He chuckled and held his arms out so i came and gave him a hug. He gave good hugs honestly. When we pulled apart i looked around. None of the other rooms i saw looked like this and he wasn't hooked to anything he just sat in the bed and even had a wooden rocking by the window with 4 stacks of books all ranging in size from small but thick or tall and skinny or even tall and thick or skinny and small. They all had different sizes and post-it notes sticking out of certain pages. “So why are you here? You don't look sick to me?” He nodded his head. “I’m not sick. A couple of years ago my family came and dropped me off for a yearly check up i always get just to make sure this old body of mine is properly working. And they said they were going to go park the car and come back in. I got done with my appointment. It only took 1 hour and when i came out I couldn’t find them. I had the nurse check and she couldn’t either. I didn’t know any contact information because my wife knew all of it I didn’t. So I waited and waited and waited but no one showed up for me. When i started falling asleep they asked if i wanted a bed to lay in and that if they came back they would call me down. I gratefully accepted it and since then i have been here. After about a month they brought me some lights and different things to do. I got some books to read and i always order breakfast and dinner, they said those are free. They check up on me occasionally. I also have a nurses button just Incase. And i also have a vibration necklace that if it seems I fell it will ring them and i can just click the button for a false ring.” He said fidgeting with his necklace.

“Oh I’m so sorry, that must be awful.” We talked for a while and he explained that he missed his family dearly. I would assume so too I miss mine but I also have to be here for max. He started yawning. “I'll let you get some sleep you seem tired i am too, here have this tho.” I handed him 50 dollars. “Ill come visit more often since i now your here. Give you someone to talk to. And here’s my cell number you can call me if you ever want to get out and walk around or something okay?” He smiled so big accepting both and giving me a big hug. He was crying with a smile. “Thank you young sir.” I gave him one last hug and helped him with his covers. He set the money in this drawer with a watch, a wallet and 2 gold rings. He sat my number on top of it all. I waved goodbye and shut his door. I headed to a vending machine and decided a small snack wouldn’t hurt. I got a cracker, ham, and cheese lunch able and an orange gatorade. It was good. I also got a crunch bar with it.

I got back to the waiting room and the nurse waved. I waved back. I sat on their couch they had. I propped my feet up and leaned back waiting. Max please wake up I can't lose you. I need to make things right again.

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“Dakota?” I heard a nurse call. I haven’t slept yet but i stood up. “Yes? Is it max?” She giggled. “Yes and I got a confirmation that your allowed visitation rights by a Nathan?”  “His guardian.” I responded. She waved me over and I followed her down the hall. She stopped at a door and allowed me to go in. When I opened the door, he didn’t even look as he powered off the tv. He looked shocked. Like he didn’t expect me to be the one who saved him. “I can explain.” I said. 

okay so im going to stop this chapter here and pick back up as dakota in the next chapter with his speech about everything so i hope y’all enjoyed. Please remember to vote and comment and call the suicide hotline at the top of this chapter if you ever have thoughts of suicide. I care about everyone’s well being