Max's POV
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**SUICIDE ATTEMPT AND THOUGHTS ARE SCATTERED THROUGHOUT THIS CHAPTER. VIEWER/READER discretion DISCRETION IS ADVISED. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. PLEASE DONT READ IF IT WILL TRIGGER YOU. I CARE ABOUT EVERYONES MENTAL HEALTH**

I got home at 2a.m. I softly opened the door but of course my no luck kicked in and the only time i wanted to sneak in the dog had to be down stairs. It started barking. More bad luck kicked in and the one who checked why had to be my brother. He had a robe wrapped around him with a pair of socks on his feet.

"Why are you home so late its like 2 am. What happened to being at Dakota's?" When he said dakotas name i broke down and started crying again. He quickly responded and pulled me into a hug. He walked me to the living room, shutting the door so it was just us and the dog. I sat on the big chair and the puppy hopped up and filled In the extra space. I pulled my legs up so i was sitting with them and the dog in the corner it instantly went to sleep. He went into another room and came ack out with a pair of shorts on and no shirt. He sat on his knees leaning against the side of the couch, "what happened, Max" he got comfy knowing it was probably gonna be a long story since it made me leave.

By the Time i was done explaining everything from earlier in the week skipping around until this morning I started adding more detail and definitely all details i could provide about when we kissed and after that; i was pretty much a blubbering mess with tears pouring from my eyes. My brother's eyes were watery. He knew how much the hate gives me. He came over and i stood up and he engulfed me in a hug. "Ill talk to him tomorrow and see what he says and if he really does hate you I'll switch your classes so you don't have to see him okay?" My brother said kissing my cheek. All i could do was nod and yawn. "Go lay down you've had a long walk and need the sleep."

He walked me to my room and sat on the edge of my bed as he told me goodnight. He stood up and headed for the door, "-Nathan" i whispered. He turned around "yes max?" "Could you stay here just until i fall asleep, and help me with my binder; i think one of the clips are jammed." I said fidgeting under my shirt with the stupid clasps. He walked over and lifted my shirt just enough to see the clasps but nothing else. When he finally got it off one was broken. I frowned and just threw it in the hamper. I had others.

I lowered my shirt back and layed down with my back to him and he crawled in and pulled me against him. He would do this when i was younger and he would tell me everything was going to be okay when I had my night terrors. I quickly drifted off knowing my big brother had me safe.

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I woke up the next day feeling drained and numb. I felt arms around me and looked down. I noticed it was Nathan's. I removed his arms slowly and crept off to take my morning showers. I had little energy but i knew i had to. I had a feeling of depression and suicide. I kept trying to push the thoughts back. I couldn't go back to that. I was stronger than that Max's. I had to make sure I never did anything like that again no matter how strong the temptation was at that moment looking at my set of 2 3 blade razor for face hair and other hair in other areas.

I came back out and Nathan was gone. He probably woke up and went off to his room to get ready. When I walked into the kitchen the maid set fresh pancakes and strawberry's down with a bottle of whip cream. I loved this. Nathan arrived next. He had wet hair and a pair of sweats and a baggy t-shirt on. I was confused; i thought he had work today? He must of noticed my confusion, "i got told I don't need to come in today because the meeting got canceled. The man from burgs town had a family emergency and he's the main focus of the meeting. It would make sense having one without him." I just nodded and finished my plate before giving him a hug and going to my room. I felt depressed and didn't really feel like being with anyone at the moment.

I turned my phone on for the first time since I got home. I had 56 missed calls, 30 voicemails, and there was a 99+ on my message+ app. Once they all loaded i started with my missed calls. All were from Dakota, 29 of the voicemails was him the other was Dani. And i had A TON of messages from him and 5 from Dani. I read Dani's. She just was asking how I was doing and asked if I was okay since I hadn't responded yet like I normally would of. I was scared to open Dakota's. I clicked it open and there was a lot of them

Max I'm sorry please talk to me

Max I didn't mean to do that.. please

*4 missed calls*

Max please call me, i want to talk about it with you

Max, are you okay?

*missed call*

(And more)

I felt a tear trickled down my cheek. I couldn't do it. He hurt me so bad. I don't know how to feel. I gripped my wrist. I couldn't do it. I went into my bathroom and grabbed my razor and slid it across my wrists. 3 lines appeared dripping with blood. I did another. Another. Another. And more, and more. Soon both my arms were covered and i was laying against the wall slumped feeling dizzy. I started seeing black and then i saw nothing.

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I woke up and when i opened my eyes i was in a room with very dim lighting. When i looked around i saw i was in a hospital room. I looked down and i had 2 IV's in my arm 1 supplying clear liquid and the other looked like blood. Then i realized my arms. They where wrapped up with white pads and what looked like white fishnets material. I found the remote to the bed and pressed the large red nurse button. 1 minute later a woman in pink scrubs and some long blonde hair that was braided and still reached her but and it was some tight braids. I think they called it cornrows on media?

I was brought back to reality when she started taking out the cord to my IV to the red bag and adding another one in its spot. The other one was almost a black color and was low. She asked me how i was feeling and if i was experiencing any pain any where, etc. the normal doctoral questions. She then went on to say if I remember why i was here and how and then i had to say that i knew why but not how. Tho i could suppose it was my brother who found me. She told me she was going to get the person who brought me to come and see me since they had been waiting.

3 minutes later i heard the noise of my door open. I hadn't even looked when i pressed the power button on the remote to shut the tv off. When i looked over i was in the biggest shock of my life. Dakota was standing there. He had blood on an white t-shirt and looked scared... Did Dakota find me almost dead?

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