I had made it through the week. It was finally friday. Nathan was picking me up from school. I hadn't had any other fights from axel and his sidekicks. They actually had to hand write me a 3 page apology (Each). I took them home with me today after forgetting them in my locker. I read axels in the car. His mostly consisted of apologizing for beating me up and acting the way he did. And the other 2 i read when home consisted of apologizing for not stepping in to stop it and for encouraging the situation when it was happening. For reading 3 pages front and back it took a good 30 minutes. Nathan was proud of me still but i felt discouraged. I still hadn't accomplished what i wanted. I decided today i would talk to him about meeting with a T doctor.

Dinner came around and i finally got a chance to sit down with nathan when he wasn't filing paperwork or being a big company man. As we sat down to eat i started speaking.

"Umm... Nathan so i wanted to talk to you about future things; it doesn't have to be right this week, but i was hoping sometime before christmas time." i said slowly scared of his reaction when i mention it (thanks to moms love *Hint my sarcasm*).

"Okay and what's that?" he said after sipping his drink.

"I wanted to think about maybe talking to a T doctor. Maybe getting that started?" i said flinching back, scared he was going to reject the idea. I knew he wouldn't but i didn't know what he was thinking when i said it.

"Yea we could do that. I can call them monday when they open up and see about setting that up. Would that be to early for you, we can wait if you want?" he said smiling over at me.

"No, that's perfect." i said getting excited and hugging him. I wanted this so much, i've wanted this since i first came out as Max. i finished my dinner with absolute serenity and happiness of what was to come.

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As 9 O'Clock rolled around Nathan and i sat down for TV time. He had finally finished his paper work and other things that he had to do. It was nice to be able to sit down and actually enjoy spending time with him. For 6 years i barely saw him. Yea we would drive to meet up and stuff here and there but most of the time it was him doctoring me up or him talking about his business. He never mentioned his house; hints while i was so amazed when we pulled up to it when i moved.

He was my only (living) sibling so he was all i had. Most of my uncles or aunts were not in my life and the ones who were have already passed over to the afterlife, if there was a afterlife. We continued binging grey's anatomy now i'm S9-E06. It was intriguing and i learned a few medical terms i felt like after watching it so much i could insert a chest tube myself at this point i had seen it been done so many times. I also could identify a tumour on the scans before the actors pointed it out. I also could identify codes, Like code blue or code black; and other codes that they called. I could also identify what sectioned they worked in by their clothing whether it was peds, cardio, or other sections. They were fascinating.

After we finished S9-E12 we stopped as it was now midnight. Nathan decided he was heading to bed as he had to be up at 8 to be at work by 10 for a meeting with the boards. He was always at meetings tho so it didn't phase me anymore. Most days i wouldn't hear from him till 3 or 4 in the afternoon talking about he'd be home for dinner and not show up till 7 or 8 after i had already ate at 6. It didn't bother me tho, hes a busy man trying to keep a company running. I don't think i could ever do it but i might try to join his company after high school.

I sat watching different things here or there till about 2AM before i finally decided it was time to hit the hay, or in other words go to bed. I walked up to my room and got in my bed. I checked my phone as i forgot i had it for the last 5-6 hours. I had no messages but someone added me on snapchat. It said added by search. That had me intrigued as i hadn't gave my snap out. I added them back and said hey. They quickly opened it and replied a hey back. I looked at their name. D-Man49. Okay then. I asked where they got my snap from. They said it was in their "people you may know" but his screen wouldn't let him click add so he had to manually type it. We talked for a good hour. I learned he went to my school last year but had graduated. He was now in the community college. He said he had seen me on campus a few times and knew i hadn't been there before, after seeing a picture of me and said he visited the school to talk to some old teachers he admired and asked who i was and recognized the name on his people you may know list.

After our long session of snaps and texts we decided to lay down. He had class in 5 hours and i had to do some homework tomorrow i had fallen behind on. I had 2 chapters in our english book, a math assignment of 12 questions, and 25 biology terms. We was given 5 terms a day during the week and had to turn it in monday morning so i always waited till the weekend and used my notes to fill them out. Only shitty part is we had to but it in alphabetical order so we had to learn how to do that, and if you messed up every term from that one down was wrong. I had failed my first one not being told that because the teacher didn't seem to mention it. He let me redo it but it still sucks. I had finally found a website last week that helped tho it would alphabetize them and all i would have to do is write it down and find the definitions.

I plugged my phone in and wrote a sticky note reminded to do my homework sticking it to my door where i would see it leaving my room. I then removed my binder, layed down turning my music on, black out my screen and turning my led lights on. And after all that i finally drifted off to sleep around 3:30 AM.