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Chapter 21

„Oh my God. What is going on?" Kylie asked me when I stormed into her house unanounced with tears on my cheeks from crying my eyes out while speed driving here.

„Calm down and sit down." She said to me when I was pacing all around her living room sobbing.

„I remembered my baby." I said to her between my sobbs. I couldn't even catch my breath.

„What do you remember?" she asked coming to me caressing my hand to calm me. It was impossible to calm me. My heart was racing, my hands were shaking and my whole body was trembling.

„What is going on?" I heard Danny's worried voice but I wasnt't paying any attention to him.

„I remember how I was holding it right after the birth. I was holding it and caressing and kissing..."I replied to her. Her eyes full of worry.

„I was happy.... I was tired but really happy. I had my baby in my arms." I showed her my empty shaking hands. „Oh my God Kylie I have a child somewhere and I am not with him or her. I can't even remember it. I am not taking care of my child. I don't even know the gender of my own child. What does it look like? What age she or he is? I want to remeber Kylie! I really want to remember." I was telling her through my cries rolling down on the floor on my knees leaning on the sofa. She knealed down to me and wrapped her hands around me hugging me tightly.

„Sssh. I know Angie. I know you want to remember." She was trying to calm me with her hug.

„This is like a torcher. This pieces of my past are torchering me. Why I can't remember everything? I have to remember." I cryed on her shoulder trembling. I don't even remember how long we were in their living room. I hazily remember Kylies and Dannys worried faces and then I remember my doctor appearing in my line of vision and then I blacked out.

I woke up in the guest room of Dannys and Kylies house confused why I was there when the last nights events hit me.

„Hey." I heard Kylie. She was sitting on the chair in the corner of the room with a book in her hand. She stood up and came to sit on the bed next to me.

„How are you feeling?" she asked me softly her face full of worry.

I was thinking for a while to come up with an answer to that question but I couldn't express my feelings with words so I just shook my head.

„Don't worry. We will somehow figure all out okay?" she said reassuring me.

I looked at the window. It was sunny outside.

„It's 2pm. I guess the shot doctor gave you was pretty strong." She said and I looked at her ashamed.

„I am sorry." I said to her.

„You have nothing to apologize for." She said kindly. „God I would also had a nervous break down if I had to go through something like that. Believe me I am a mother. But we were worried. We had to call the doctor. You should go to see him later and talk about it." She said to me and I nodded.

„I know." I replied to her and we were silent for a while.

„I don't know if I can do this anymore." I said and she took my hand.

„You are not alone in this. You have me and Danny. And now you have Nicholas and Sofia too." She said and I grimaced.

„Oh my God. I stormed out of their house yesterday." I said looking at her terified.

„Well Nicholas was worried. He called me asking if you were here. You said something about not feeling well and then that you have to babysit Carl to him before leaving their house so I backed you up. I told him you were babysitting in the morning and then you didn't felt well and you took a nap, that is why you are not picking up your phone." She said. I placed my head into my hands in desperation.

„Angie, I think you should tell him. He is a great guy. He will understand." Kylie said and I groaned.

„I don't want him to know what is going on with me. I am not ready yet. I have to cope with it by myself first." I replied.

„As you wish." She said after a while of silence accepting my decision. I looked around the room and found my bag on the chair. I stood up and grabed my phone from it.

„What are you doing?" Kylie asked me confused while I was already dialing a number.

„I am calling Detective Martin. I need to know if he found something." I replied. I already told her everything about my stay in New York and about the new foundings Detective Martin made.

„I am sorry Miss Cooper. I hit the wall in the investigation. There was no sign of the boat anywhere near. The only thing I can imagine for it to disappear is that it probably crossed the border and that is a problem because my competences are only in this state."

„Thats it? Thats the end?" I asked him desperately.

„I am afraid I can't do anything else unless you would give me some more informations." He said.

„I wish I could." I sighed turning off the phone. I rolled onto the chair tears bluring my vision again.

„Hey." Kylie came to me immediately.

„The boat just disappeared. It probably crossed the state border. He can't investigate anymore." I said to her and she looked at me sadly. „The boat was the only clue we had. The only thing that could help me to find out who I am." I said.

„I wish I knew how to help you with this." Kylie said to me worried. „It is insane that after such a long time there are finally some new informations. We have to be positive we will find out more. With your memory coming back..." she said

„Yes it is coming back but not quickly enough." I said to her. „Making me crazy." I replied through my tears.

„Angie. You are already awake." Danny said walking into the room with Carl. „Look Carl your auntie is here." He said to him. Carl's face lid up with joy seeing me and he immediately run to me. I quickly brushed my tears off of my cheeks and opened my arms to him. I didn't wanted him to see me cry. He run into my arms immediately kissing me on my cheek making me to laugh.

„Hi baby." I hugged him. I saw Danny's and Kylie 's relieved faces. I knew they were worried about me.

I spended the rest of the day with them at their house. Carl's presence cheered me up a little. They knew very well it would. Playing with Carl and spending the day with them and talk about everything with them was really therapeutic. This was not the first time I had a nervous break down because of my unknown baby. Altough I calmed down a bit my baby was still on my mind. The only thing I can do now is only wait for another memories to come back.

I stopped by at Nicholas's house the other day when leaving Kylies. Sofia was about to start the school tomorrow and this was her last day of summer holiday.

„Angie!" Sofia greeted me right at the entrance with a hug making me relieved I didn't ruin our relationship by storming out of their house with a lame excuse. I was worried she would hate me in which case they could clearly drive me straight into a madhouse.

„Hi baby." I greeted her enjoying her hug. I looked up and saw Nicholas appearing at the door too. He stood there silently, his hands folded in his pockets.

„I am sorry I disappeared so quickly the other night." I said to him trying to read his unreadable expression. Is he very mad?

„Are you feeling better?" He asked me.

„Slightly better." I nodded.

„Sofia why don't you go to change so we can go to the Riders club?" He asked her.

„Can Angie go with us?" she asked him and he hesitated.

„Of course she can. If she wants to." He replied and she looked up at me.

„Will you go with us?" she asked me.

„Sure." I replied and she happily run upstairs to change.

We were standing there looking at each other silently.

„I am really sorry." I said again.

„I know something is happening with you." He said making me nervous. „And I have a feeling it has something to do with those nightmares you are having." He said and I hesitated. I am not telling him.

„You are right. But I am sorry I can't talk about it. I really don't want to talk about it." I replied pleasingly hoping he will not want to know more.

„Ok then. I understand the feeling of not talking about some things. I also have some issues I don't want to talk about." He said sadly. „But I want you to know when you will be ready and whatever it is I am here." He said and a huge relief spread through me.

„Ok." I replied.

„Now come here. I didn't get a kiss from you." He said taking my hand and pulling me closer to him. I pressed my lips on his relieved he is not asking more questions. Happy being in his warm and safe arms after having a terrible days. Feeling at home in his embrace.

„Gosh I love you." I said without even thinking. Oh my god. He looked at me surprised. What the hell have I done? Why did I said it? Well I know why I said it. I do love him but I certainly didn't mean to tell him like this.

„I love you too." He replied smiling at me. What? My heart was beating like I was running a marathon. Did he really said that? He really loves me too.

„And I love both of you!" Sofia said surprising us by hugging both of us at the same time making us laugh. Even though I was missing my baby this two people who came to my life so unexpectadly were the best thing that could ever happen to me.

We had a beautiful day together at the riders club and later we took Sofia into cinema. She enjoyed the movie although we were kind of bored.

The other day we woke up pretty early as it was Sofias first day at school here in US.

„How are you feeling?" I asked her when we stopped infront of the school. My filming was starting in two hours so I had time to join them. Sofia bagged me to go with them as she wanted me to see her new school.

„I am nervous. What if I don't make any friends there." She said sadly.

„Don't worry mon ange. You will." Nicholas said to her.

„Heey here you are." Chloe greeted us at the parking lot.

„Hi Chloe. I didn't know you were going to be here." I hugged her.

„I couldn't miss my nieces first day at school here." She said kissing Sofia.

We all walked into the building. Nicholas had to sign some documents. He picked a private school for her. Very posh. All students were wearing the uniforms and at the parking lot, there were all sorts of luxurious cars. I don't know if it was a good idea for me to coming here. My presence was just getting them more attention which Sofia really didn't need right now. We came to the principals office. Nicholas and Sofia went inside while me and Chloe stayed waiting for them outside of the office.

„So do you like it here?" Chloe asked me.

„I don't know. I mean everything here is nice but all the kids from those rich families." I said looking at some children who certainly were acting spoiled.

„If I had a child I would probably place it into public school so it would learn how to appreciate things and be more grounded. Get along with normal kids to get an inside how people are living and that what we have is something really special and not everyone is fortunate enough to have it. And later if it was old enough it could make an own decision where it would like to attend school." I replied thinking about my own baby trying to not let the tears leave my eyes. Chloe looked at me surprised and confused.

„Funny thats what Laura was thinking too." She replied looking at me weirdly.

„Really?" I asked her surprised.

„She and Nicholas were arguing about that actually few weeks before she passed away. Sofia was about to go to school and they were thinking which one to choose. But he won that argument promising to Laura she will not be a spoiled brat and if she would be he himself would immediately place her into public school." She replied.

„Well I think Nicholas will not have a problem with Sofia. She is really good behaved girl. He did a great job." I said to her and she smiled to herself. „Yes he did." She said smiling.

„May I ask you something?" I said carefully.

„Go ahead." She replied.

„How did Laura died?"

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(P.S. Isn't little Carl cute?)