WHAT IF

what if for once
just for today
i want to be selfish

i know,
it would be difficult
but what if i'm greedy for this momentary short lived happiness

i know
that maybe tomorrow the strings that hold us tight might entangle in the mist of distance and miscommunication
and might even break
but why are the moments now lived seem more than enough?
fulflilling

or shall i want more?
beacuse you give me everything
and what if my source of sunlight it cut?
will i ever bloom again after winters?
or shall i never like anyone as much as i did you

or if i do,
will i not be seaching you in them?

i don't know that
you tell me
Over a coffee date

but all i know at this breath that im happy
and i shall not stop myself from doing anything which will cut this happiness

i might just learn to live thinking about them throughout my life

but above that i'll pray that the strings that held us tight,
somehow finds a way and unentangle itself...

one day

maybe

!

~Havanah