When our encore performance concluded, we bowed to our fans and said goodbye before going backstage to gather our things. Along the way we were stopped several times and asked questions or told to do ageyo or something else. Like always I obliged and did what I was asked.

    By the time we had finally made it back to the van all thoughts of Minji had left my mind. At least, until I got on my phone. Every article on every social media sight was about "The Monster Rookie MJ." She had quickly taken over music charts and even made it into the top three songs on all music shows. Her popularity was huge.

    I scanned a few of the articles and saw she had signed with a small unknown company with only a few other artists I had never heard of. To say the least, she was the one keeping her company afloat right now.

    I sighed and dug my headphones out of my pocket. After I plugged them into my phone I pulled up Minji's album and clicked play. This was probably one of the worst decisions I had made that day.

    The whole album was beautiful. It started off sad and heartbreaking. Most of the songs were about unrequited love or the sadness of falling out of love. I listened to them and felt her sadness and it became my sadness for those few minutes.

    Just when I thought the album was over one last song started to play and it was completely different from everything else. It started with an acoustic guitar playing by itself and I recognized Minji's beautiful playing. I smiled happy to finally hear the real Minji.

    A piano picked up after that and a beautiful song formed. I was enjoying the music and then Minji started to sing. Her voice seemed to hold all the happiness she had ever known. It was like the song itself was sunshine. It made the listener feel warm inside.

    Listening to the lyrics I realized the song was about someone's first love. She sang about all the happy experiences that came with being in love for the first time. Butterflies in your stomach, first dates, and awkward moments. The song was cute and full of love.

    The chorus started and I immediately paused when I heard the lyrics.

Because you're the sugar in my life. The only sweetness in my day. The only one that makes me smile through the pain.

I smiled at the cheesiness of her lyrics but at the same time I felt a sadness in my heart. I looked at my phone and saw the title of the song and I knew that I had already made the connection but wanted to deny it. The title of the song was Sugar the original stage name Minji had recommended to me. I tried to deny that the song was for me but just then Namjoon tapped my shoulder from the seat behind me and handed me his phone.

I looked at the article pulled up on his phone and saw the headline. "MJ says Sugar is about past love." A few seconds later it finally sunk in that I couldn't deny reality, no matter how much I wanted too.

I continued to read the article but one quote stood out to me. "I named the song Sugar because my first love was sweet and kind and reminded me of sugar. He also helped me through a lot of tough times and made my life a lot sweeter."

I gave Namjoon his phone back and he looked at me with a worried expression.

    "I'm fine. I promise." I looked away from Namjoon and focused on the buildings passing by outside through the window.

    When we finally reached our dorm we all got out and quickly headed upstairs to maybe get some sleep. Well, that's what I hoped for but living with six other guys means sleep is a luxury I can't afford.

    The first thing everyone did when they got in the dorm was head into the kitchen. I rolled my eyes at them and headed into my room that I shared with Seokjin. I was honestly not in the mood to try and be a normal human so I decided to get some sleep. As soon as I finished changing clothes I headed towards my bed but then I heard music being blasted from someone else's room and and a video game being played too. I just sighed and layed down on my bed knowing I would never be able to fall asleep.

    Three songs and a bunch of yelling later I was still awake when someone knocked on my door. I sighed and sat up on my bed. "Come in."

    Namjoon opened the door and walked in. "Yoongi, I need to talk to you."

    I made room for him on my bed and motioned for him to sit down. "What is it?"

    "I know we're not that close but I wanted to see if you were okay." Namjoon ran a hand through his hair before continuing. "I know that seeing Minji had to be hard for you and I figured I was one of the only people who would understand what you're going through."

    I smiled at Namjoon's awkwardness. "You know you don't have to comfort me. I'm a grown man, I can take care of myself."

    "I know you can take care of yourself it's just that I don't think you understand what's actually happening." I looked at Namjoon like he was insane and he just sighed. "Hyung, you love Minji but you're not admitting it to yourself."

    "I think you're delusional Namjoon. I let go of my love for her on the day of our debut." Namjoon smiled sadly at me.

    "But you didn't." I opened my mouth to try and deny him but he quickly cut me off. "You wouldn't have screamed at Seokjin today the way you did if you didn't still love her. You wouldn't have helped her out today and protected her like you did if you didn't still love her. You wouldn't have had that sad look on your face when you read that article I showed you if you didn't still love her. Hyung, you can deny it all you want but you still love Minji. And if you don't listen to your heart this time she's going to disappear again."

    Namjoon got up after his long speech and left, leaving me in my room alone to think about what he had said.

    I thought about everything but I still couldn't believe that I loved Minji anymore. I hadn't seen, or heard from her since my debut when I said goodbye to her at the bus stop and that day when she got on that bus I decided to forget about her. Plus it wouldn't matter if I did still love her because we didn't have only ourselves to think about any more. I had fans who loved me and so did Minji. Our lives weren't our own anymore so love wouldn't matter.

    Eventually I fell asleep thinking about Minji.

    A few hours later I was woken up by the sound of my phone ringing. I looked at the caller ID and it said PD-nim. I quickly sat up and answered the phone.

"Hello?"

"Yoongi I need you to come over to the company immediately. I need to talk to you about something." Pd-nim never said much more than this whenever he called so I had already started getting ready by the time he finished talking.

"I'll be there in a few minutes." I hung up the phone and finished getting ready.

A little while later I walked into the company and headed to PD-nim's office. I knocked on the door and waited for an answer.

"Come in." PD-nim said and I walked in closing the door behind me.

When I looked up at PD-nim's office I had to stop myself from screaming. Sitting in one of the chairs in front of PD-nim's desk was Minji.

"Yoongi, sit down. I have something I need to talk to you and Minji about."