Paranoid - Lauv

Today is New Years Eve.

And Jimin is still locked in that computer room, not seeing anyone besides Taehyung and Jeongguk around the clock, sometimes bringing him food or water but other than that the couple has not let anyone inside to see him or even catch a fucking glimpse. Even when they would have to leave, Taehyung would lock the door, and he only has the key to it.

Even when Yeosang would ask what were they doing to him, the two refused to answer, only responding back with quiet looks to just not get involved.

As if it were that easy not to.

All Yeosang could hear through that door is constant gun shots, screaming, and a lot of slamming and banging of tables. The whole crew literally has had to stop him many times from chain sawing through the door to get inside because those screams were from Jimin, and it sounded so painful to sit through calmly and not want to get him out of there.

As stupid as it is, him and Jimin are a team.

They're a team now, and Jimin counted on him to keep him safe.

He can't let him down more than he already has.

However he wasn't alone on who showed a bit of a concern to the situation. Hwanwoong and Wooyoung would ask Jeongguk or Taehyung whenever one of them would leave the room -to get either more bullets or straps- about him; even Ten as well and that says a lot considering he despises the two males with a passionate distaste.

They wouldn't respond to them either, but would call over Woosung to either attend Jimin if something were to grow uncontrollable for them to handle. Whenever he would get out of the room he would be bombard with questions immediately, to which he did the same in remaining quiet and avoiding it.

No doubts the powerful couple have mentioned a threat in order to keep him silent, to which it worked wonders because he obeyed.

Ten was obviously not okay with it, still incredibly pissed that he remains being 'Jeongguk's little bitch' as he phrases it.

They have not been talking since then, let alone sleeping in the same room together.

Ten holds grudges, heavy grudges, so it will take a lot more than just a sway of soft words to get him to soften up again.

Despite Jeongguk and Taehyung being in charge of hosting the celebration, it's not until later on tonight where it begins, so they have been in this warehouse all day in that room. However the boss did order everyone else to get ready and for Hwanwoong to check in the location of the party along with Lisa. They knew better than to send Yeosang because he would definitely not leave, so he's been here, sitting on the floor besides the door while wearing his suit and have his hair adjusted for the event.

He wasn't going to go, not at all, but this is the least he could do for his parents after what they're doing to help Jimin.

They don't have to, yet here they are.

Cleaning up his son's mistakes.

That's a lot considering how busy people they are.

Everyone here is already dressed up for the occasion, moving around the warehouse to strap up just in case or do the final remaining touches on their hair or suit. Soobin is checking that all the cars and motorcycles they're going to use to leave is set up with gas and have enough turbo just in case they have to leave in a hurry. Wooyoung is giving everyone small weapons in case they need it, Felix is also giving them bow ties or regular ties with hidden cameras that will capture an facials from people in case they need it for later, Ten and Woosung are..... Separated. Woosung is going through some analysis on the tablet while Ten is pre-gaming with wine, swaying around the warehouse with his perky attitude to hide his pain.

Everyone is busy in their own world, doing their own thing of preparation.

While Yeosang worries.

And worries.

And worries more.

He hasn't heard of anything inside the room for a long time now, thinking it's either that now Jimin is officially dead or the walls became sound proof.

Whatever it was, Yeosang wouldn't stop wrapping his head around it.

It's so annoying.

He hates how much control Jimin has gained over his head. It's not even the type of control that's cringing like in those cliché films, but it's the type that's just..... Fuck, it's hard to even explain.

It's like they understand well their boundaries, what they should and shouldn't cross. Yeosang is the weapon and Jimin is the shield, or vice versa when it comes to it. Despite the rocky relationship, Yeosang trusts Jimin to not be a stupid wimp and take care of himself when he has his back turned.

They just click, in a verse none healthy way.

They got each other's back when no one else did, in their most hardest moments of running and hiding.

There's just..... No other way to explain this.... Feeling.

It's driving Yeosang insane.

"So are you planning on just sitting there all day or wait until your parents scold you for being too clingy?"

The familiar voice was like an instant trance that made Yeosang fix his eyes up, unable to fight against it before his gazs met a familiar eye staring back at him. There's no sense of emotion glittering behind it, as per usual, but he did appear very formal unlike his usual attire.

His silver hair is actually done and brushed away from his face, able to have a better grasp to how classy his facial features actually are. It makes his eyepatch pop more, even if they are sparkling as it is. His suit looks expensive as it is, even with a golden cummerbund wrapped around his waist and the ivory colored poet's blouse under his black blazer.

There's this thing about Taemin that's so captivating, and it's his style as though he's living in the medieval era. Obviously it's modernized but he always likes to wear those casual poet's shirts as though he's some pirate from the past. It's unique, true to his himself and his personality, makes him much more intriguing.

That's what caught more Yeosang's eyes about him, but now is not the time to think or eye gawk over Taemin's beauty.

Yeosang only rolls his eyes and moves his gaze to the ground, gulping thickly when Taemin took the initiative to sit beside him on the floor. The other didn't say anything, only sits there as he watches everyone along with Yeosang, moving, doing their own things while they remained seated.

Watching the world move, while they stay stuck in the same time.

Almost as though as if it froze.

The young Spawn didn't see it that way. He only kept thinking of so many chaotic thoughts, feelings he's never felt before in his life until now. He's never felt this bone chilling worry for anyone, or this constant over analysis of not being able to sit still or know anything. He always knows things, that's why he's usually never worried because he simply knows everything is going to be okay somehow.

Right now, he doesn't know if Jimin is going to be okay.

His experience is vastly different from what Jeongguk went through, and Yeosang fears that Jimin will always live in this dark oblivion of not knowing or accepting what he's done.

Maybe that's why Yeosang is more sensitive when it comes to Jimin, he's innocent. Sure he's killed someone as a kid, but he was just a child! He probably just wanted to beat him to teach him a lesson, not let it get to the extent that it did. That could traumatize anyone at that age! And the other time he did it for self defense because they were going to kill him.

He was just a college student, fucking a lot, and getting good grades in his classes. Now that he's associated Yeosang, he's dragged into this too. Even if Yeosang locks him up in the most secure location in the world, he's never going to be safe.

Now it's too late to hold onto the guilt.

Jimin is involved in this, and he now needs to learn how to survive on his own. He's no longer innocent to this world, and Yeosang should stop treating him as though he is.

So that means.... He's going to have to start being more open about his life...

Which means telling him the truth.

Yeosang has never told him what his parents do for business or anything at all. All he knows is that his parents runs a business, and they're insanely intimidated and respect, lastly that people are looking for Yeosang as well.

That's the thing about Jimin that Yeosang likes and it's that he doesn't question it so much. Anyone would be demanding for answers by now, and of course Jimin did after Yeosang's first kill but he's smart. Yeosang told him to not pry, that if whatever happens goes out because of him than Yeosang will drag him along too.

There's no way Jimin is afraid of the truth, but perhaps he prefers giving Yeosang his privacy to deal whatever the fuck he's dealing with. This is when Jimin's selfishness comes into play, and on rare occasions that it's something Yeosang is grateful for. At the end of the day, Jimin only cares about himself and his own safety, and he does not care about anything else besides that.

So why is Yeosang going to waste his time going down family history if the only thing Jimin is going to worry about is if he's going to survive another day? But now things are different, and maybe before Yeosang wouldn't have considered giving Jimin an explanation but now he needs it.

He needs to know exactly what he's involved in because it's something he can't face it alone.

For his mental health more to say.

That's why Yeosang has the Phoenix crew, not just as his groupie of friends to do reckless shit, but also as a support system if he ever breaks or if anyone in general ever break.

Jimin needs that now.

More than ever.

"Are you seeing what I'm seeing?"

Yeosang fixes his eyes from the ground and to his surroundings, still seeing everyone doing their own thing but now finishing up to leave soon.

So he perks an eyebrow, "People breathing?"

Clearly this earned a nudge from Taemin's shoulder, clearly not amused to Yeosang's sarcastic commentary, "No, the world moving before your eyes meanwhile you're just sitting down. Time is passing by and realize how time is still going. With or without you, so you can stay here and resonate the fact that your traumatized lover is probably moving along with time in recovering, or stay back to only have a tough time catching up."

Out of all people, Yeosang did not expect for Taemin to be the one to give him a word or two about his behavior. After their thing, they don't really speak to one another, as you all could see or probably tell, so Yeosang was not expecting for Taemin to be one reaching out now.

Yeosang did break his heart, but guess some people are suckers for the heartbreakers.

He can speak for himself because he is a sucker..... Nevermind.

However he can see from where Taemin is coming from, and it's true. Yeosang has so much to do and has to go to the event to prepare for his parents as they finish up here, but meanwhile he's here sulking like an idiot.

He should be doing more.

So with a heavy sigh he closes his eyes and leans his head back against the wall, "I just.... Didn't want this to happen."

"Things happen in life that sometimes is out of our control," Taemin says back quietly, making Yeosang face him, "But what matters is how you handle it and let it affect you. It's easy to give up when things get hard or blame yourself, but it's preferable thinking what can you do to make it easier."

Yeosang didn't know what to say.

He was so awestruck by Taemin's words that he couldn't form any words. It's not surprising really that Taemin has this type of mindset, he always has this type of perspective on life that makes it feel reliable. It always feels as though he had all the answers to the questions of the world.

This is why Yeosang always relied to him. Even in his most vulnerable moments Taemin felt like his slap to reality, always has and clearly continues to be.

Even with their difference.

Yet as Yeosang captures his elegant features from this close up angle, he's left breathless really, in some strange way. He remembers those moments.... Perfectly well that they spent together. They were the perfect representation of a ride or die. They would defend and look after one another wordlessly, was the mind and heart to each other to which helped make wise decisions.

But not only those moments were what cruising Yeosang's mind, but also the more intimate ones. Being each other's firsts really has this sensitive knot that ties them together, very vulnerable and weak tie even if they didn't want it. Taemin ran towards it, meanwhile Yeosang ran away, pushed the only person who truly would take care of him away just because he was a stupid jerk.

And that's something he has to live with.

The door of the computer room swings open abruptly, tearing off the moment completely. For a second Yeosang has forgotten that his parents are still here, so when he saw Taehyung exiting out the room in his formal suit for the celebration later on tonight caught him by surprise, but he instantly scrambles to his feet.

"Father-"

Taehyung raises a hand, pausing the words in his lips as Jeongguk also emerges out of the room with his own formal suit as well. The two knew they would be here for a while so they already decided to come suited for the occasion to just leave for the celebration, but Yeosang was asleep during that process so he didn't even get a good look at them.

They still look powerful....

Always do.

Jeongguk was facing the ground but when he saw Yeosang's face, the younger didn't waste any time in bombarding with questions, "Is he okay? Is he even fucking alive? I heard so many gun shots and-"

He didn't notice the figure coming out of the room, not until he heard footsteps. Slowly Yeosang turns his head to see a silhouette stepping out of the shadows of darkness and into the light of the warehouse. Yeosang trails his eyes up slowly from the black dressed shoes, clean cut slacks that adjusted to perfect size, trailing up to the pretty adjusted the blazer to finally reach the face of the well suited body.

Every single cell in Yeosang's body froze, and he wasn't the only one with the same reaction.

Everyone else in the room froze, eyes all falling to the composed man that was once a shivering and screaming mess just yesterday. His facial features is completely monotone, expressionless and.... Cold. Not a muscle twitches on his face, not even his eyes flicker to any movements as he just looks ahead with now hands to his back in such a familiar way Yeosang does whenever his parents are speaking.

What... What happened-

"Don't be alarmed," Jeongguk says, noticing the look on his son's face, "While you were asleep, Park Jimin was given a proper bath and Taehyung brought this attire for him. He wanted to attend the celebration so we allowed it."

His words flew over past Yeosang's head, only focusing on Jimin. Now he's standing in front of him, "Jimin?"

The other male didn't batter an eye. He didn't even look like he's breathing as he continues to look ahead like a soldier, or a robot. He's so tense and expressionless that just didn't seem like.... Jimin.

He didn't seem like himself.

"Not to state the obvious but he's not okay," Taemin chimes in, his tone remaining as cold as Jeongguk's tone, glancing at Jimin and to the parents.

A slow nod perks Taehyung's head, shoving a hand inside the pocket of his pants, "Give it a while. He just had a.... Force of reality. Negative triggers aren't always the safest mentally, but it was our last resort to get him to remember. Just give him a moment to process but," He looks around the room and waves over to Woosung, the other man not wasting a second in approaching him, "Woosung will have to keep an eye on him at all times just in case."

This made Yeosang furrow his eyebrows, watching as Woosung approaches Jimin indifferently to his state as he analyzes and writes down what he observes, "What do you mean, just in case?"

"In case he goes psychotic mode, flashbacks and believes he's in that moment again or drug withdrawals," Jeongguk responds chipped, turning around, "Now are you done with these ridiculous questions or are you going accompany us to the celebration?"

Yeosang didn't even have the chance to respond because his fathers instantly walked away, leaving behind the results to their work.

Slowly he trails his eyes back to Jimin, who kept staring ahead with this lifeless glimpse in his eyes.

Almost as though the life has been completely sucked right out of him.

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A/N:
Wow..... Hopefully nothing bad will happen in this celebration...... Honestly I have no idea what may happen so whatever does happen, I will be equally as shocked with you guys haha

So I know there may be questions regarding Jimin's health, so next chapter will give a little more of an insider to what happened from his perspective.

I want you guys to keep in mind that apart from the trauma blockage he had, he also was drugged heavily. So for those who have triggers in relations to withdrawals, addiction, or addicting thoughts, I would recommend skipping the next chapter. You wouldn't miss anything, and it will be mentioned in a future chapter to sum up about what happened.

I PURPLE YOU ALL! <333