"Sidharth aaj jo bhi kuchh hua uske baad mere man m ek dar baith gya hai" said shehnaaz as she kept her face on his chest taking a deep breath.

"Bol na baby, kya dar hai tujhe" said sidharth rubbing her back lightly. Keeping her hand on his face she looked deep into his eyes.

"Sidharth vo kuchh ghanton ne mujhe ek baat ka ehsaas krva diya hai k life ka kuchh bharosa nhi. Kuchh pta nhi kab kya ho jaye. Humari zindagi kitni der ki hai ye hume nhi pta..." said shehnaaz but was interrupted by a restless sidharth.

"Shehnaaz kya bol rhi hai. Aisi baatein kyun kar rhi hai baby" said sidharth restlessly. His arms wrapped around her waist tightly pulling her into himself as much as he could. He didn't like what she was saying. It was something which was developing an unknown fear inside him. He didn't want her to continue further but she wanted to share what was she feeling.

"Sidharth please, mere man mai jo bhi hai, mai batana chahti hoon" said shehnaaz kissing his chest making him take a deep breath. He didn't say anything and she took it as a sign to continue.

" Sidharth hume nhi pta k humari zindagi mai aage kya hoga. Hume nhi pta k humare future mai kya likha hai. Tumhe pta hai jab mai uss kamre mai band thi na jab mai bilkul akeli thi vahan to mere man m ye khayal aane lge the k agar mai tumse dubara kabhi mil hi nhi payi. Mujhe pta tha tum mujhe dhoondh loge. mujhe kuchh nhi hone doge lekin phir bhi kismat kab dhokha de jaye kise pta. uss time mere man mai yahi tha k agar aaj mujhe kuchh ho gya to m tumhe kabhi dekh nhi paungi, kabhi tumse mil nhi paungi, kabhi bhi aise tumhare paas, tumhari baahon mai...." she felt difficult to breath as a loud sob left her mouth making sidharth tightening his hold over her. He never realised that his eyes were moist. Moist enough to let tears flow down them but he kept a good hold on himself seeing her getting too emotional. He just kept rubbing her back.

"Kabhi zindagi main ye nhi socha tha k agar mujhe kuchh ho gya kabhi to kya hoga lekin abhi sochti hoon na to dar lagta hai kyunki phir tumse door jana padega aur vo mai nhi chahti sidharth aur tumhe kuchh.....m soch bhi nhi skti " said shehnaaz. Her voice was becoming heavy making sidharth to bite his lips to control himself. Her every word was making his heart ache. He just couldn't imagine his life without her. He couldn't even think. Never..

" Humari saansein kitni der chalengi ye kisi ko nhi pta hota sidharth. vo to sirf waheguru g ko hi pta hai lekin m apni har ek saans tumhare sath lena chahti hoon sidharth. pta nhi kab kya ho jaye. Isiliye mujhe ab bas tumhare sath rehna hai humesha, tumhare paas, tumhari baahon. Tumse ek pal k liye bhi door nhi rehna ab mujhe...nhi rehna hai sidharth" saying she digged her face completely into his chest breathing heavily as her tears kept flowing making his shirt wet.

Sidharth was holding her into himself as tightly as he could. Her each word filled his heart with a weird restlessness. She was true. We don't know what future holds for us. Sometimes so many things happens in our life which we could never think, which never wanted or which we just couldn't digest but we even couldn't do anything to stop those things. Some things we just can't control and that's the ultimate truth.

He just couldn't even think of her being away from him. He couldn't imagine his life without her. She had become an inseparable part of his life which he couldn't live without. She had his heart. He couldn't think anything happening to his heart, his life. He just didn't want even to think but those thoughts had made their way in his mind just like her. Remembering today's incident he felt a fear erupting inside him. A fear of loosing his life. What if he would have never been able to find her, to get her back ? What would have he done? He just couldn't even think.

"Naaz kyun aisi baatein kar rhi hai baby. kuchh nhi hoga. Aisa kuchh nhi hoga suna tune" said sidharth a little loud but the helplessness in his voice could be easily felt by his naaz.

"Lekin sach ko koi nhi badl sakta na sidharth" said shehnaaz digging her face more into his chest kissing him there. Now she just want to be a part of him for always. She didn't want to be away from him even for a moment.

"Shehnaaz chup bilkul chup. mujhe kuchh nhi sun na abhi. tun hamesha mere paas rhogi. mere sath rhogi. bss mujhe kuchh nhi sun na aur" said sidharth. His voice got heavy as aarush's face came in front of his eyes. He had never expected that aarush would leave him like this for always. He couldn't imagine that for his naaz. He just couldn't. Restless he just kept his one hand on her cheek making her look at him and the next moment he just placed his lips on hers. It was a sudden deep and passionate kiss making her startle. He started sucking her both lips together not letting her kiss him back. He was so restless and just kept kissing her harshly making her moan in his mouth.

He never realised when tears made their way down his eyes. Overwhelmed with the emotions he kept sucking her lips and soon starting biting them harshly as the tears kept flowing down his eyes. She felt his tears on her cheeks. Those tears made her stomach churn. She couldn't see her man crying. She tried to break the kiss but he was too passionate to leave her lips. She knew she couldn't stop him. Placing her hands on his cheek she started wiping his tears while he kept kissing her making her breathless. Realising he parted his lips from her and rest his forehead against hers.

"I can't live without you naaz. I just can't. You know na what u mean to me. To kyun aisa bolti ho naaz. Koi hume kabhi bhi alag nhi kar skta. Maut bhi nhi. Suna tumne. Agar maut aayegi bhi na to tumse pehle mujhe aay......"

"Sidhaaarth" she didn't let him complete the sentence as she placed her swollen lips on his again. Tears flow down her eyes. How could he say like that. She can't let anything happen to him. never. Pouring her love for him in the kiss she started sucking his lips just the way he did a moment ago. She was always a baby while kissing. She still had not learn kissing. But tonight she was kissing him like a perfect kisser making sidharth amused. He let her kiss him the way she wanted. This was the first time she was taking the lead. Her kiss, her lips on his were soothing the ache he was feeling in his heart. Her love which she was pouring in the kiss was giving him sukoon.

She kept sucking his lips passionately. But soon her kiss turned into a wild one as she started biting on his lips making him stunned. Slowly pushing herself more into him she kept clinging onto him making him lay back on the bed slowly and which he did willingly. Sitting on his torso she kept sucking his lips. Her kiss made him forgot all the negative thoughts,all the worries, all the restlessness he was feeling inside. He was loving the way his baby was kissing him today.

Soon she felt out of breath and tried to part her lips but sidharth didn't want to. He wanted her to kiss him more. He so wanted to kiss her passionately but was controlling him for herself. The position they were in wasn't helping him either. But he controlled himself and let her do whatever she wanted to do.

Parting her lips she completely leaned on him placing her lips on his neck making him gasp. Her lips on his skin made him digg his fingers in her waist tightly to control himself. The next moment he felt something wet on his neck and he knew she was crying.

"Shehnaaz don't" said sidharth softly but the dominance in his voice made her bite her on lips to stop her tears. He couldn't see her face but he could what was she doing.

"mat kar shehnaaz" said sidharth sternly making her pout as she rubbed her nose in his neck making him take deep breath. Rolling on his one side he made her lay beside him. She kept holding his shirt in her hands hiding her face into him. Sidharth held her face softly with his one hand and looking at her closed eyes he kissed them softly. Sucking all the tears from her cheeks he pecked her swollen lips lightly. She was looking beautiful with those red swollen lips. He felt an urge to kiss them again but controlled himself seeing their condition.

"Shehnaaz i don't want you to think about anything now. Jo bhi tere dimag main chal rha hai baby vo sab bhul jaa abhi k liye. Just sleep. Take rest" said sidharth kissing her forehead to whi h she just nodded her head. The kiss had made their hearts at peace. They were in sukoon being in each other's arms. They now didn't want to think about anything else. Just the feel of being in each other's arms was making them through all the negative thoughts away for now.

" Abhi sona hai kuchh nhi sochna hai. theek hai. m yahin hoon tere paas aur tere paas hi rhoonga hamesha. Abhi just relax kar" saying sidharth kissed her lips softly and covering them with the duvet he closed his eyes caressing her hair to make her sleep. Turning towards him totally she too kept her hand in his hair and started brushing his hair softly. Both made each other sleep in each other's arms with the sukoon which they could get with each other only.

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