Shehnaaz looked outside the window with sidharth standing beside her. Their faces were getting cold with the cold breeze. Shehnaaz folded her arms over her chest and spoke looking outside...

Inn teen saalon mein m kabhi ghar nhi gyi. vo jagah, vo city mujhe achhe nhi lag rhe the. infact mujhe apne hi shehar se nafrat si hone lgi thi. vahan mera ghar hai. maine apni ab tak ki life bitayi hai vahan lekin abhi mujhe vo jagah bilkul bhi achhi nhi lag rhi thi. m vapis nhi jana chahti thi vahan. mujhe bas akele rehna tha kahin.....sabse door kyunki tum paas nhi the. tum door the. tumhare paas jana tha lekin jaa nhi skti thi aur jo paas the unke paas jane ka man nhi tha. i know m sab ko hurt kar rhi thi, sab ko pareshan kar rhi thi yahan akele reh kar, un sab se door reh kar lekin m nhi reh skti thi sab k sath jab tum akele the. tum mujhse door the, hum sab se door the. tumhe dard m akela chhod kar m sab k sath khush nhi reh skti thi. tum vahan takleef m the,dard m the, akele the to m kaise yahan khush rehti. mera dil to tumhare paas tha na to vo takleef m tha kyunki tum takleef m the aur m vo takleef feel karti thi. Akele rehne m bhut takleef hoti thi lekin un sab k beech rehne se bhi tumhari yaad to nhi jaa skti thi. tumhe to nhi bhool skti thi. family k samne, friends k samne khush ek fake smile k sath nhi reh skti thi m aur apna dard kisi ko dikhana nhi chahti thi kyunki usse sirf m un sab to bhi dard deti aur kuchh nhi. Isiliye, iss jagah ko apni duniya bna liya. Ek aisi duniya jisme sirf m thi aur mera dard, vo dard jo tumse juda tha aur vo dard jisse mujhe khud hi sehna tha. lekin kam se kam iss chhote se ghar m mujhe khush hone ka jhootha dikhava to nhi krna padh rha tha. Iss ghar ne mere vo teen saal dekhe hain sidharth. jab mujhe har pal aisa lagta tha k agle pal tak m jee nhi paungi dard se par Iss jagah ne mujhe teen saal tak bacha kar bhi rakha hai. Iss shehar ne, iss ghar ne mera itna dard dekha hai k ab iss jagah se dil jud gya hai. Meri takleef dekhne k sath sath mujhe vo takleef sehan krne ki himmat bhi di hai. Kabhi nhi pta tha k tumhare bina jeena itna difficult hoga k jeene ka man hi nhi krega.

Saying she took a long breath looking outside. Sidharth was just looking at her realising what their lives had been turned into last three years. How much they both had suffered without each other. With each passing moment he was realising the intensity of her love more and more. He was realising more and more that how much she had loved him to go through the pain. He was feeling so much loved at that moment. He was realising how much their hearts had been connected to each other that they couldn't bear the other one in pain, that they could feel each other's pain, that they had such strong feelings for each other he never thought in his life that he could have for someone. She lived alone for three years because he was away from his people. She lived alone because he wasn't there with her. She was in pain because he was in pain. All those realisations were making his heartbeats fast by each passing moment. He was just looking at her drawing in the new realisations. They both had realised their feelings for each other long before but he never knew that the intensity of their love would be at such an extent that it would just blow his mind. He was getting so overwhelmed with the realisations that he wasn't able to control his emotions. Not able to control he was hold her wrist and pulled her into himself and wrapped his arms around her as tight as he could.

He just wanted to feel her as close into himself as he could. He wasn't understanding what was happening to him but he was so overwhelmed with emotions. He wanted to listen her heart beats to calm himself down. His eyes were closed feeling her. The realisation that she had lived alone for three years just because of him made his more and more tight on her. He was completely crushing her into himself. Realising her pain, her sufferings he was trying to hide her into himself to take away her pain. He wanted to protect her by hiding her in his strong protective arms. He just wanted to keep her close to himself. He completely forgot about his own pain, his problems, his sufferings. At that moment, he just knew one thing that they both couldn't be away from each other. They both couldn't live without each other. He realised that they both had become parts of each other that now they couldn't live without each other. He didn't know what future holds for them but he knew now that being away from each other would only lead them to their end.

The sudden pull made her realise that he was emotional...too emotional. She could feel his fast heart beats as her face was on his chest. His uneven breaths made her realise that she needed to calm him down. She just wrapped her arms around him and slowly slide her one hand in his hair from back and started messaging them softly with her fingers trying to relax him and her other hand was rubbing his back slowly. Feeling her touch in his hair, he was calming slowly. His grip on her was getting normal. His uneven breaths were getting normal slowly. Within few minutes, he was calm but was still holding her close to himself. Realising that he was calm, shehnaaz placed a kiss on his chest. Every time she kissed his heart had just made his heart skip a beat. Feeling her kiss he again tightened his hold on her waist. She slowly tried to come out of his grip but he didn't let her. A smile came on her face and sighing she called him lovingly- sidharth...... listening her he slowly opened his eyes and loosened his grip on her. Keeping his one hand on her waist, he placed his other hand on her right cheek and looked at her. She was already looking at him. He just placed his lips on her forehead trying to convey his feelings to her that how much respect he has for her love for himself, how much loved he just felt. Feeling his lips on her skin, she just closed her eyes. It was a long soft kiss which was enough for both of them to understand the emotions of each other.

Looking at each other, they just smiled. A smile was enough to assure each other that they were fine, they will be fine. Holding her hand sidharth took her towards the bed. He just set on the bed resting his back against headboard and made her sit in between his legs resting her back against his chest. He wrapped his both arms around her and held her both hands in his. She smiled and got relaxed completely loosening herself into him. After the silence of few moments, she spoke.....

Zoya, keerat, shefali, asim, vikas aur kushal inn sab ko veerji ne vapis Mumbai bhej diya tha. M nhi gyi thi unke sath. M sirf exams dene k liye Mumbai gyi aur tumhe pta hai jab bhi mumbai gyi maa hamesha thi mere liye. Unhone hamesha mujhe samjhaya k jo bhi hua uss m meri koi galti nhi thi. mujhe itna pyaar diya jab bhi m mumbai gyi. Aur papa....papa ne bhi har baar mere sir par pyaar se hath rakha jab bhi m vahan gyi. Maa bhut pyaari hain sidharth.....said shehnaaz with a smile on her face while playing with his fingers. The moment he heard her calling his mother as 'Maa' he felt himself the most blessed person on this earth. He felt he couldn't be more happy than this. Her calling his mother maa with so much love had just filled his heart with contentment. He couldn't see her face as she was facing her back to him but he could feel the smile which came on her lips while saying maa. His eyes got moist with the overwhelming emotions and he just pulled her more into himself and placed his lips on her cheek bending towards her side. He let his lips linger on her skin making her cheek wet. He slowly brushed his lips a little down on her cheek and then pressed his lips just at the corner of her lips making her breath uneven. Closing her eyes she gripped his hand which was wrapped around her stomach. The intensity of a simple cheek kiss made her heart beats fast. After few seconds, he moved a little back and kissed her hair lovingly calming her down. Remembering the last thing she told him,this time sidharth spoke....

Tum mumbai m kyun nhi rhi shehnaaz? Tumhe college jana chahiye tha. U wanted to join civil services na? To aise kyun complete ki apni graduation? U should have gone to college? That would have been much beneficial for you. said sidharth. he had always seen her being so sincere towards her studies. Then why did she compromised with her studies? He didn't understand that. Hearing his questions and seeing his concern for her future brought a smile on her face.

Sidharth mujhe bhi hamesha se yahi lgta tha k when i will join civil services na that day would be the happiest day of my life. mujhe lagta tha k jab m bhi papa k jaise ek I.A.S. officer ban jaungi that would be the happiest moment in my life lekin aisa kabhi tha hi nhi. Maine vo spna apna papa ko dekh kar banaya tha lekin vo meri khushi kabhi thi hi nhi. hamesha se studies, studies, studies bas yahi to karti thi m aur shayad issi liye man m baith gya tha k bhut saari study krke upsc clear krna hi sab kuchh hai lekin jab m yahan rhi akele. sab cheezon se door tab mujhe realise hua k ek government officer ki post lena meri khushi kabhi thi hi nhi. Shayad ek I.A.S officer ban ne se mujhe success mil jati m but kabhi khushi nhi milti. vo meri life nhi hai sidharth. Ye jante hue bhi k m kabhi khush nhi reh paati vo post lekar bhi to m kisi aur ka chance nhi kharab krna chahti thi. ho skta hai k koi mujhse zyadan deserving ko vo post mile jo sach m khush ho usse. M khushi kabhi un sab m thi hi nhi.

Aur rhi baat Mumbai jane ki to vahan kaise jaati m sidharth. Uss jagah se agar mera dil juda bhi tha to sirf tumhari vajah se. Jab se vahan gyi thi tum hamesha the mere sath,mere paas. Tumhare sath judi moments thi vahan lekin tum nhi the to kaise jaati vahan. Tumhare bina nhi reh skti thi m uss shehar m said shehnaaz. Every time she was revealing a part of her life, he was seeing himself only in that part. Her whole three years were his only. Every part of those three years of her life was revealing one thing only- Her Love For Him. This was the only thing he could see in those parts of her live, that was the only feeling he could feel. Realisations were making him numb for moments. The conclusion of all the realisations was that she had made him her everything. she had made him her part. she had made him her life forever and the feeling he was feeling, the emotions he was feeling at that moment couldn't be described in words. Realising that he wasn't saying anything, she turned back and saw him lost somewhere. She kept her palm on his cheek softly bringing him back from his thoughts and he looked at her. Looking into his eyes she spoke softly...

Kya hua sidharth.....kahan kho gye the tum.....tum theek ho na.....he was just looking at her and then gave her a smile and kissed her forehead gently assuring her that he was fine. He was feeling so many emotions inside. He wanted to express his emotions to her but he wasn't able to find words to express what he was feeling at that moment so he just kissed her forehead assuring her and she smiled back seeing his smile. Suddenly she remembered something and got up from the bed making sidharth confuse. Before he could ask anything, she hold his hand trying to make him got up from the bed and spoke....

sidharth...mujhe tumhe kuchh dikhana hai mere sath chlo..... sidharth was confused but without asking anything he just walked outside the room along with her. She took a key from one of the drawer of kitchen and went towards the back door of the small hall. Opening the door she led themselves outside. The backyard was beautiful.

The only thing sidharth could see around was the beauty of nature which really attracted him. The early morning was making it more fresh. The flowers around were covered with the snow but their fragrance was all in the air. The freash cold breeze was hitting them but they were enjoying that. The place was so admirable and he was totally busy in admiring the beautiful view when shehnaaz again hold his hand leading him further towards outside. They were walking along side the white wooden railing covered with flowers again.

Sidharth was completely lost in the pure nature looking around like an excited kid when shehnaaz opened a small wooden gate leading them further outside.

The more they were walking further, the view was getting more beautiful. Opening the door she led him towards a beautiful small white coloured hut.

It was a small hut which she had bought with the money she got from her exhibitions. It was an old simple wooden hut which she had transformed totally into her liking. This small hut was very close to her heart. There were two hearts made with flowers and leavs which had made herself. The flowers at the entrance were enhancing it's beauty. Shehnaaz looked at sidharth who was busy in looking at the hut and the surroundings. It was just natura all around which made the place so calm and peaceful. Feeling her gaze on himself sidharth looked at her. Both looked into each other's eyes and shehnaaz gave a warm smile to him which he reciprocated with a bright smile. Holding his hand she went towards the door of the hut and leaving his hand she opened the lock with the key she had in her hand. Pushing the door complete open she again hold his hand and walked inside along with him. The sight just amused him. He wasn't expecting something like that it that small hut. Their were beautiful paintings all around. The walls had paintings hanging on them.

The room was looking beautiful with the beautiful paintings. There was a single sofa in the room placed near the wall covered with paintings.

He was looking at all the paintings keenly. The paintings looked same as almost all the paintings had flowers only but looking at them keenly he could see the different beauty of each painting. Three walls were covered with flower painting but the fourth wall had completely different paintings which attracted him so much. The wall had just three paintings but all the three paintings were looking interesting.

He was observing the paintings keenly and third painting caught his full attention. He liked the painting with just a look. It was beautiful. He couldn't take his eyes off the painting. Shehaaz was just standing there observing him. She was noticing his every reaction and she knew he liked the painting which had a beautiful girl and a handsome boy having a beautiful moment. The girl was looking at the boy shyly and the boy was looking at her intensely which was a beautiful scene. After admiring the painting for good time, sidharth looked beside to find shehnaaz and she was standing there already looking at him. Again looking at the picture sidharth asked...

shehnaaz tumne ye painting kahan se purchase ki.....she just smiled listening him. he was still looking at the picture admiring it and she was looking at him admiring him. Not getting the answer he again looked at her and found her staring at him lost in him. He smiled looking at her and then hold her hand bring her back in her senses.

shehnaaz m tumse puchh rha tha k ye painting kahan se li tumne. I really liked it. It is beautiful. Tumne kisi exhibition se li hai kya?Iska artist kon hai? Ispar kisi ka naam bhi nhi likha hua. Sidharth again find her not responding and spoke- bolo na shehnaaz....kisne banai hai ye painting.

Shehnaaz just looked at him. He was looking at her for an answer. She looking into his eyes and spoke....

Maine banayi hai ye painting sidharth.

Note....

Today was my exam so abhi just got little time to jldi jldi likha hai. please ignore the mistakes and do tell me how was the chapter. Will wait for the response.

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