Next Morning.....

5:00a.m.

Sidharth was all ready to go. He came out of the room and went downstairs. Everyone was sleeping. No body knew that he would go that early. He didn't want to disturb anyone so silently walked out of the mansion. He was walking outside busy in his thoughts when his eyes catched something unexpected. Shehnaaz was standing there leaning on one of the cars parked outside. She was looking the cutest like always wearing..........

Sidharth looked at her and a thought came in his mind that she was the cutest girl of the world. The thought brought a smile on his face which he covered instantly with his poker face. Then his thought again went on her. What was she doing there. He didn't expect her to be there. That means she knew he was going that early. He walked towards her with the same expression less face. Shehnaaz looked at him and a beautiful smile came on her lips. Sidharth stood infront of her and seeing her beautiful smile his heart skipped a beat. How beautiful she looked with that pretty smile on her face and that smile was for him made his heart beat fast. Her smile was his sukoon. He could die for her one smile. She was the only reason, his heart was beating. She was the only one for whom his heart was beating. Realising that he was again melting in her, he controlled himself and asked her in a harsh voice....

sid- tum yahan kya kar rhi ho......asked sidharth trying hard to be harsh with his words and he got successful. His words hurt her again. She felt pain in her heart again. But she wasn't going to back off listening his harsh words. She knew he himself gets hurt hurting her. He himself feels bad making her sad with his harsh words. Controlling her emotions she spoke looking into his eyes..........

sana- tumhara intzaar kar rhi thi..... her answer was enough to melt him, to make him weak again. Her words were full of emotions which were making him loose his control but he knew if he did, there would be no come back. He had to control his emotions.

sid- tum andar jao......itni thand m yahan kyun khadi ho.....mujhe bhi jana hai to tum jao andar......he again said harshly without looking at her.

sana- m to tumhara intzaar kar rhi thi....tumhare sath jane k liye.......

Listening her he instantly looked at her shocked. what was she thinking that she was going with him.....no....not at all....she couldn't go with him. He couldn't take her with himself. He instantly spoke.....

sid- tumhe kisne kaha k tum mere sath jaa rhi ho.....chup chap andar jao aur mujhe bhi jane do........

sana- to maine kab roka hai sidharth tumhe jane se lekin m bhi tumhare sath jaungi.....

sid- nhi tum nhi jaogi mere sath aur chup chap andar jao....said sidharth in angry voice. His rude behaviour was hurting her badly but she didn't want to be weak. She couldn't. She needed to know what was going inside him. why was he behaving like that.

sana- kyun sidharth....kyun nhi jaun m tumhare sath....m jaungi sidharth......tum nhi rok skte mujhe tumhare sath jaane se.....she spoke in a little loud voice. sidharth was getting irritated now. why couldn't she listen to him. why she had to make it more difficult for him. He didn't want to hurt her but she wasn't listening to him making him angry.

Sidharth hold her shoulders pulling her towards himself harshly. He was hurting her but his anger was making him hurt her. He wanted to protect her, he wanted to keep her away from himself for her safety but she was making it difficult for him.

Sidharth hold her shoulders more harshly making her hiss in pain and spoke angerily- tumhe samjh kyun nhi aata....tum nhi jaa skti mere sath......ek baar m samjh nhi aata tumhe.....itni ziddi kab se ho gyi tum.........kyun mujhe majboor kar rhi ho k m....... he stopped in between seeing the tears in her eyes. Her tears were his weakness. he couldn't see tears in her eyes but he was helpless...he couldn't drag her with himself....his life was changed now.......how would he make her understand that she needed to go away from him when her single tear pierces his heart. His heart ached every time she cried, cried because of him.

Tears started rolling down her eyes seeing his harsh behaviour. Her sidharth never hurt her. He never made her cry but now he was hurting her, giving her pain, making her cry. Her heart was aching with his behaviour. She didn't want to fall weak but her tears were not in her control. Her pain was coming out in those tears. Sidharth's heart ached seeing her in tears and that too just because of him. He clised his eyes not able to see her in pain. He knew he was melting in her again but he just couldn't control. He loosened his grip on her shoulders and pulled her to himself crushing her in his chest. She wrapped her arms around him crying in his chest. That was the only thing she wanted always.....to be in his arms always. His arms were her home. Her sukoon was in his arms only. She closed her eyes and heard his heart beat silently crying. Sidharth too closed his eyes holding her tightly close to himself. She was his life, his jaan. How much he tried but he couldn't hurt her. He couldn't give her pain nor could he see her in pain. His life was completely messed up. So many things were there about him which his family was unknown to. His life had changed in those three years. He wanted her to be away from him but wasn't able to do so. Their hearts were so deeply connected to each other that it they couldn't see each other in pain. How much he would try but he wouldn't be able to push her away from himself nor she would go away from him.

Sidharth rubbed her back to calm her as she was crying silently in his chest. He was caressing her hair lovingly. Both were standing holding each other close. Sidharth didn't speak anything. He was just comforting her caressing her hair. Their hearts were beating in rythm. After few moments, shehnaaz was calmed. She slowly looked up to his face still holding him tightly as if he would go away from her any moment. Sidharth also looked at her face. Her eyes were red and swollen, tears strains on her cheeks and hair were messed up and some hair flicks were
stuck on her lips. Sidharth removed the hair flicks from her lips touching her lips with his fingers sending shivers in her body. She closed her eyes feeling his touch. Sidharth wiped her tears with his fingers and cupped her face lovingly. He kissed her forehead and then her both eyes trying to sooth her pain. She opened her eyes and looked into his eyes. She could see love for herself in his deep intense eyes but his eyes were showing pain too which she wasn't able to understand that what was happening with him. He wanted to keep her close to himself but he was pushing her away. She was standing holding his jacket in her fists. Sidharth looked into her eyes and he could see how much he was hurting her.

sid- shehnaaz meri baat samjhne ki koshish kro........m tumhe hurt nhi krna chahta.......please chli jao yahan se........mujhe jana hai....... he spoke lovingly trying to make her understand.

Shehnaaz kept her palm on his cheek softly and spoke looking into his eyes- to kyun hurt kar rhe ho sidharth.......kun door jaa rhe ho mujhse.....maine bhut intzaar kiya hai tumhara......aur ab tumhe khud se door nhi jane de skti.......tumhe jahan bhi jana hai jao lekin mujhe apne sath lekar jao sidharth.....nhi reh skti tumhare bina ek pal bhi.....aur tum to poore do din k liye jaa rhe ho to kaise rhungi m........her eyes again got filled with tears while saying this.

Sidharth closed his eyes listening her confession. She never expressed her feelings so openly to him before. This was the first time she was confessing that she couldn't live away from him. Sidharth's heart skipped a beat realising how deeply she was in love with him. It was getting more difficult for him to go away from her but he knew if he didn't go away from her,it wouldn't be good for her. He wanted to break her heart so that she could easily go away from him but his own heart didn't allow him to do so. His heart wasn't allowing him to break her heart. He somehow wanted to make her understand to go away from him so that she wouldn't have to go through a heart break. He wanted to keep her away from pain. He opened his eyes and caressed her cheeks with his thumbs.

sid looked into her eyes and spoke in his softest voice - shehnaaz mujhe jana hoga baby.......m tumhe apne sath nhi le ja sakta.......tum mere sath nhi reh skti shehnaaz......m chahta hoon tum mujhse door rho......khud par focus kro....apni life par focus kro.......meri life badal chuki hai shehnaaz......m tumhe hurt nhi krna chahta aur agar tumhe meri vajah se kabhi bhi kuchh ho gya to m jee nhi paunga......isliye please meri baat samjhne ki koshish kro.....mujhse door chli jao shehnaaz..... please baby door chli jao mujhse....... his voice cracked at the end as he was so overwhelmed with the emotions and touched his forehead with her's and tear fell from his eyes showing his helplessness.

Tears were flowing Continuously from her eyes. How dare he asked her to go away from him. how could he even think of going away from her. How could he think that she would oblige him to go away from him. No. she wouldn't do that. never. how could she go away from him when he was her life. how could she go away from him when she waited for him for three years. how could she go away from him when he was the only reason of her every breath. No she wouldn't let him do that. She would never go away from him nor she would let him go. she loved him with all her heart and she knew he too loved her as much as she did. she could see pain in his eyes so how could she go away from him. She wanted him to share everything with her whatever was going inside him and here he was pushing her away. She was getting angry now. how could he decide for both of them. how could he himself take the decision of her life. what had changed in his life. why couldn't he just tell her and where was he going that he couldn't take her with him.

She hold his jacket in her fists harshly and looked at him with anger in her eyes. tears were still flowing from her red swollen eyes - ye kya bol rhe ho sidharth......... kyun door jana chahte ho mujhse.....kyun mujhe khud se door krna chahte ho aur tum kahan jaa rhe ho sidharth jo mujhe sath nhi lekr jaa skte...kyun kar rhe ho aisa...bhut takleef ho rhi hai sidharth....
mat kro aisa.....aur kahan jaa rhe ho tum...mujhe jaan na hai sidharth.....btao mujhe kahan jaa rhe ho.......she asked him angerily pulling him towards herself.

Sidharth was amused seeing her anger. The emotion of anger was never that strong in her. She never got angry on anyone. She had always peace in her heart. But now her heart was not at peace. Her heart wasn't at peace for complete three years so how could she be calm now. He was the only one person who could bring her every emotion out. He had the power to bring her all the emotions out. But now listening her, he himself was getting angry as she wasn't listening him. It was getting difficult for him to go now. Every time he was melting in her, every time he was loosing the control on himself infront of her love, seeing her love for himself, feeling her love. Why couldn't she just go away from him. His heart wasn't allowing him to break her heart as the pain would be unbearable for her and for him too. She had to understand for her better life.

sidharth also hold her shoulders harshly and spoke in extreme anger - nhi bata skta kahan jaa rha hoon....aur naa hi btana chahta hoon....aur tum mere sath nhi aaogi....samjhi tum.....chli jao mujhse door shehnaaz......just go away.....varna bhut takleef hogi tumhe...isliye tumhare liye behtar hai....mujhse door rho aur mujhe bhi khud se door jaane do........ pushing her harshly away from himself...he went away from there leaving her behind in extreme pain.......

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