Everybody thinks I am fortunate,
But only one thought I am worth saving for..

I'm Ziba Nathan Bo and this is my story..

When I was five years old,  I met an old man whom I further called Ama.  He said I am precious because I was destined to save my people one day.

I came from a village where life was not easy. The old man brought me out of  that place with my family. He gave me wealth and possession.  A mansion,  cars and materials that I and my family were enjoying. 

I love my life,  I have everything and my family are happy. 

While I am enjoying the life the old man had brought to me,  I am also in training of how to become a saviour.  One day I will offer my life for the  freedom of my people,  as  been told always by Ama.

Ama is good,  he cares so much. That's why,  I am so willing to do what I am destined with.

Until one day I met Hose Petto,  we're same age.  We became good friends.  He told me a story about a Saviour named Jesus. 

At first,  I realized that the story was like mine.  But then,  we're different.  Hose said,  he is the only way for everybody's freedom. The salvation everybody was looking for.

I disagreed,  I became angry to him.  Ama said that I will save my people.

Hose also told me that I needed Him,  the Saviour Jesus.  That I will never accept.

I never told Ama about it because I don't want him to changed his mind when he heard another Saviour.

The time has come,  Ama set a night for celebration because tomorrow I am saving my people.  I was so happy,  everybody was praising me.  They said they awe me so much..

I slept that night after the celebration because I don't know why I am too sleepy.

I woke up riding a track the next day.  It's so dark inside.  I'm feeling pained beneath my stomach.  It feels like there's something heavy burried inside.

I said "hello?  Is anybody there? "

But no one answered.  I guest I am alone.  I never become scared because I know Ama will always be there for me.

The track stopped,  the door of the track opened and two armed men send me to the crowd.  Everybody was busy.  I was left there by the two armed men,  wondering why I was being sent there.

Ama told me who are the enemies.  And I am able to meet them.  I don't know what did they done to my people.  But Ama hate them so I am also. 

I don't expect to meet Hose again,  this time I proved him that I was the chosen one to save my people.  His face soften,  I am so proud that he already realized. 

But he hugged me and he begins crying..

I wonder why of a sudden, he started speaking and say these to me..

"Oh my friend,  am I way too late?.  Why did you let yourself being fooled?.. Oh,  I am grieving for your soul,  I am afraid you'll experience eternal death in the sea of fire if you will not change your mind.. Wake up and see the truth.  You're 'the sleeper cell' used to detroy innocent people. You're not a saviour as you think,  the bomb implant in your body will explode soon,  look at the crowd you will be destroying their lives,  is that what savior does?  Is that what you want?  To die with guilt and unforgiven?? My friend help yourself,  there's still another way if you want to save them.. "

At first I was hesitant to believe him and do what he advise.  I was being trained to be like this.. But Hose explained everything..  I don't like what he was saying... But...

I realized I wasn't born to save, I was born to destroy my people. The destiny that Ama set for me.. That the praising of men offers to me are their plea to stopped this cruelty.

My helper is my abuser. The man I trusted so much was the planner of my inescapable nightmare..

Hose was right,  I should had believed him earlier.  I also cried infront of him.  He hugged me tight and comforted me.  He wiped my tears away which I never understand. 

"Take heart Ziba,  it is never too late for you.. Repent and ask the Lord to forgive you.  Submit your life to Him.  And let the Holy spirit lives in you.  Accept Him and you'll have peace and rest.  He is your only hope now.  ."

I followed Hose's advise.. I surrendered my life to Jesus.  Then suddenly my heartaches disappeared. My sadness turns to joy.  I received peace and rest.  Then I know He was the true Saviour.

I said my final goodbye to Hose. He sent me with a smile plastered on his face. 

My suffering doesn't end there.  Ama pursue me because for the first time I go against his will.  I run away,  not because I can still save my life but because I want to do something for my people.  I hid myself far from the crowd and where Ama cannot find me.  I hugged myself through the darkness,  I prayed for my family,  friends and for my people. 

In any seconds now,  I know it will be my end.  An end I never choose myself.

But I know that I will not die with guilt or unforgiven.

I will die with hope that the place I am going was better than what Ama had given me. 

I am ' the sleeper cell' no more..

And I will die with dignity.. Thanks to Jesus,  and to my friend Hose..

(Boooghssk!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

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