Chapter 31: Understand it
The two reached the house at the break of sunset after a car ride that lasted so long in the eyes of the Chief. He felt trapped in his thoughts for fifteen minutes, which in reality, felt like hours and hours to dread telling Jungkook. Jimin had no other choice, breaking his heart to save Jungkook seemed like the only way he could go. The younger happily ran out of the car and waited for Jimin at the porch while he began to unlock the front door. Deciding to wait for the love of his life to walk in with him.
Jungkook kept looking back at his king with a huge smile pressed onto the silent prince's face. He was excited to walk in with Jimin and be able to hug him, kiss him and most importantly, cuddle with him in each other's arms. It should be noted that Jungkook always waited for the end of the day to come home and hug Jimin close and have the older kiss him happily. However, something felt off towards the love of his life. Jimin seemed a bit closed off and silent. Let alone, he ignored Jungkook's signs in the car.
Jungkook waited until Jimin stepped onto the porch. He walked up to him and grabbed his hand happily as they walked together into the house. "So... Jungkook.. What would you like to eat?" Jimin asked. Trying not to touch onto the subject since he wanted the boy to eat first before telling him. Jimin figured if he was to tell Jungkook now, Jungkook would get too sad to even eat anything.
Jungkook walked in happily and turned around to face Jimin with a big smile. 'I want pizza' the boy signed as Jimin couldn't help but to chuckle and nod his head. 'A big box of it!' The younger continued as Jimin smiled at the boy. Watching him sign once more with his bright smile. 'Then we cuddle and kiss!' Jungkook continued to sign and gesture while the older took a moment before his smile faded. He knew after this, there would be no kisses or cuddles. Only dead silence and soft sobs coming from Jungkook if Jimin was to break his heart.
"Let's order the pizza then..." Jimin stated as Jungkook stood there with his head tilted in concern. Not sure if the older read that part of his sign. Jimin walked over to the couch and stood in front of it as he dropped down and took out his phone to place an order without even calling. Just as Jimin was placing his order, Jungkook approached him and climbed over his lap while he kept his eyes locked on his lover with gleam only showing within his big and round eyes.
"What is it, Jungkook..?" Jimin asked as Jungkook smiled again and wrapped his arms around the older's neck and laid his head down next to Jimin's head. The younger wanted time with Jimin after a long day... But, he never thought of it being his last. Jungkook pressed his lips against Jimin's cheek and kept kissing him while he was ordering the pizza. "Ah, stop it Jungkook, I can't see!" Jimin laughed. He grew to hate how much this would hurt him. Yet, this was better than seeing his silent prince dead instead of living. Just the road to breaking Jungkook's heart for his safety stretched so far now.
After Jimin ordered the pizza, he locked his phone and set it down while the younger finally had his chance to kiss Jimin. Jungkook leaned in and tried to kiss Jimin, but the older placed his index finger over his lip and made the silent prince look confused once again. "Not now, my silent prince." Jimin said as Jungkook pouted. The reason why Jimin chose to do this was because he couldn't get close to Jungkook. If he did, he wouldn't be able to bring himself to tell Jungkook they couldn't be together like this.
The younger pouted and rose his hands to sign to Jimin while the older read out loud. "No one.. Is.. Here.." Jimin read out for Jungkook while the younger nodded his head and cupped Jimin's face and looked at him. Mouthing the words 'different.' The older rose his hand up to Jungkook's face and looked down at his lips. "Different...? I'm not acting different, my prince. Your king is just... stressed out..." Jimin told his prince while Jungkook pulled a smile and leaned in to give Jimin a quick kiss on the lips.
'Tell me.' Jungkook signed. Wanting to know what was on Jimin's mind. However, the older refrained from showing Jungkook any other sign of something on his mind.
"Nothing. I'm only... Stressed about the fact that my best friend could be the lead for hurting Namjoon. But evidence is a must..." Jimin stated while Jungkook softly kissed his lips. Wanting Jimin all for himself for at least one part of his long day of hard work. Jimin kissed the younger back and rested his hands down on the waist of his lover. Trying to throw back the whole fact that tomorrow, they won't kiss each other this close again. "Jungkook... No matter what I do, will you still love me?" Jimin wondered while Jungkook nodded his head. "What if I break your heart?"
'I'll still love you.' The boy signed and laid his head on Jimin's shoulder while his hands found their way to wrap around the older to hold him close. At that very moment, Jimin felt like breaking down into tears... He knew the younger would feel different after the whole situation and may never associate the word 'love' in any sentence including Jimin's name.
Jimin sat there as Jungkook held a smile on his face while they were on the couch together. The older kept thinking about these feelings and these beautiful smiles he'll never see after. This was enough to make Jimin raise his hand over Jungkook's cheek and caress it softly. Just when he trailed his hand down to Jungkook's neck, Jimin suddenly felt the younger's temperature rising like he was getting a little sick. But of course, Jimin didn't pay any attention to it since it could have been the boy just keeping warm around the older.
Soon, the pizza was delivered to the house and Jungkook pulled away to run up to the door like an excited child. Just thinking of eating the hot and melted cheese over the crisp bread of the pizza was enough to make Jungkook excited to eat. Jimin paid for the pizza before confirming the order so Jungkook took it upon himself to pick it up at the front door once it was delivered. Jungkook swung the door open and met with the delivery guy who handed Jungkook the two big boxes of pizza. Jungkook was surprised Jimin ordered two boxes and this left Jungkook to look back at Jimin. Wanting to laugh, but only a slight part of a giggle surfaced.
Jungkook accepted the boxes and set the pizza down on the living room coffee table as he innocently pointed to the Tv. Wanting to watch at least something as they ate together. "Would you like to watch a movie? Is that what it is?" Jimin asked and awaited Jungkook to nod his head as always. Jimin switched the flat screen tv on and placed on a random drama on to distract Jungkook for a while. Jimin sat on the couch while Jungkook sat on the floor and began to open one box of the big pizza. His eyes glistened as he covered his mouth to smile as he looked back at Jimin.
'You're spoiling me!' Jungkook signed as Jimin reached over and patted the younger's head with a fake smile that hid many tears. The younger was sitting on the floor as he patted onto the spot next to him so Jimin could sit down and eat with him. 'I can't finish this on my own.'
"I know you can't. Let's just eat for now." Jimin added and finally got up to sit next to Jungkook on the floor while they began to eat. For some odd reason, Jungkook's eyes slowly started to puff and his temperature was slowly rising. However, Jimin tossed the fact away. Thinking the younger was just hungry, so, Jimin sat next to Jungkook with the hot pizza in his hand. Staring at the boy and not even thinking of eating. Jimin took this as a moment to look at the boy even longer. Embracing the feeling of love as long as he could before smashing it into pieces. It wasn't done on purpose... Just the fact that he needed to protect his Jungkook. Taking it upon himself to break the boy's heart so he could stay unharmed and alive.
However, Jimin despised how he took good care of Jungkook before he could even touch onto the subject. This alone made it too difficult for him to say goodbye. Eventually, Jimin could see Jungkook finish up two whole pizzas before reaching his limit while Jimin, still didn't eat the first pizza he had in his hands. This only worried the younger while he dried his lips from the sauce of the pizza with the napkin spreaded onto the table.
'Not eating?' Jungkook gestured as Jimin set the pizza down and stood up. Not even taking one bite! Jungkook just knew there was something up now, he could only think that the stress was getting to the love of his life. Poisoning his lifestyle and ruining his appetite. 'You need a day off with me. We can stay together the whole day and sleep together.' Signed the younger while he stood up to look at the older. 'A day alone with me.'
"A day alone... with you. The one I love... The one I want to protect and care for..." Jimin said to himself as he looked at Jungkook slowly move in, wanting to have something more than a kiss. However, Jimin pushed Jungkook away gently. "Jungkook... No..." Jimin continued as Jungkook stepped back and looked at Jimin with a smile. Thinking it was a game. "Jungkook, this isn't a game! I need to talk to you and... This could hurt you in so many ways." Jimin warned Jungkook as the younger moved in and wrapped his arms around Jimin closing his eyes and throwing away the words Jimin just said through his other ear.
The older exhaled and felt Jungkook's grip tighten around his torso until Jimin knew he couldn't keep this in any longer. The longer he took to tell Jungkook, it was harming him and making it tough for him to speak now. How could he ever hurt Jungkook after such a romantic meal together? Smiling and communicating. Yet, Jimin wasn't eating because these thoughts were like bullets being shot through the same wound again and again.
"S-Stop and listen!" Jimin rose his voice and got a hold of the younger. Having his hands over Jungkook's shoulders to desperately speak to him. "Jungkook, my prince, my silent and gorgeous prince." Jimin said while Jungkook could see the tear flow from his boyfriend's eyes. Causing the silent prince to dry Jimin's tear and make a smile before Jimin brought out the truth. "Y-You know how much I want to protect you and love you... Right?" Jimin asked while Jungkook nodded again and dried Jimin's tears once more. "Ah, this isn't easy for me... You should understand when I say that loving you is putting you in danger."
At that moment, Jungkook's smile faded while something within him started to ache as Jimin finally moved in and gave him a tight hug. Taking a deep breath before he went underwater. "Jungkook..." Jimin exhaled and hugged him tighter. "We c-can't be together..."
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