Why do I feel mentally so broken? Like I can break at every second, and my body feels so heavy and weak, like my bones can get shattered in any second if I move a inch. Everytime when I move, my whole body trembles. I feel no good times coming.
I see everything in black and white...is that normal?

I know what the answer is...no.

Nothing is normal for me anymore.
Everything feels wrong,
I feel wrong.

I have deep scars that time still didn't healed after so much time, so it's a lie. Time doesn't heal wounds. They still feel so painfully.

Why did you left me? Why doesn't anybody love me? I dream almost every night, about a special someone, I feel in love with him the thousandth time.
With someone who's handsome and elegant, who's dancing with me every night and smiles at me. But still even I can't see his face, I know he has beautiful calm eyes and a gentle voice.
Where are you? Why aren't you by my side? Why did you left me? Please forgive me, come by my side and rescue me. Please, I can't take this cruel world anymore. Everyone hates me. I'm so afraid of the future.

I feel so lonely on this world. All alone, with no one who understands my pain. I'm afraid of everything. Anything can happen anytime. I'm afraid of what I'm capable of. Please God, end my miserable life. I feel so Paralyzed, I'm scared to live, but I'm scared to die...

I changed in the last years so much. When I look in the mirror I can't regonize myself anymore. I'm lost and it kills me. Where are my feelings? Where's the real me? Did it get so hurt that bad that it doesn't want to get healed anymore? I don't know honestly.

But I feel so tired keeping my hopes up, I'm tired of everything. Should I move on?

Oh man girl, I tought I knew you. But you know what you are? A snake, a fake cruel snake. If you only knew how much you damaged me.

But now, I'm here. Standing alone. Left behind. At the beginning. Again.

I feel so, weird. I can't explain it. I want it to stop.

Who am I? Why can't I let go? Am I sad? I think so.

I know, everybody leaves me after some time, but did you have to do this to me?

I. Fucking. Hate. You. FATHER!

How did you dare HUH!? Y-you ruined my life! W-why? Am I that useless and wasteful? Ya'll HAD to do this? Was it that fun to break me? Heh, next time I will know. How to defend myself, with breaking Ya'll.

At first I was sad seeing you go. But now I know it was meant to be..

I'm turning into a monster.
I can't hurt my sister, I should protect her! N-not become a threat. Aour father was enough for a lifetime for my siblings too! They have me as their sister, their parents figure, no one else..

I want back, back to him. I want him back, so so so damn badly, my love.... I just wanna see them once again, and hug them.

One. Last. Time.

Please forgive me, I'm so sorry. Forgive me my darling. Please. Please forgive me. I'm so so so sorry. It wasn't my intention leaving you, Akro. I don't wish anything more than wherever you are, that you're safe and sound.

But now after all this time if grieving..
I must do what I have to do ....

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A scream could be heard:" AARGH!!" it was Saras. Her chest was rising and lowering and eyes tearing. She started rubbing her forehead than her face while sighting.
She had another nightmare again, and she tried calming down.

"I-I know what to do. I-I KNOW WHERE IT IS!" She immediately reached for her walkie-talkie loudly, knowing Akro wasn't at home with her hearing him leaving early. She pressed the red button:" VANESSA! FINEAS! LUISA! I HAVE A IMPORTANT MESSAGE!! PLEASE ANSWER! OVER!"

She waited a few seconds impatiently:" PLEASE, SOMEBODY?! I GOT A IMPORTANT MESSAGE FROM ONE OF THE GODESSES!! I-" Suddenly something banged against the window.

Are that Oak and Isabelle? What are they doing so early here...?

She went to the window looking out, her eyes widened up surprised seeing her true and only siblings. Vanessa waved excitedly, while the hedgehog and the cheetah waited for her response impatiently.

She opened the window:" What are you doing here!?"
Her brother answered immediately:" We gotta go, We got-"
"Messages from the gods? *sight* And I tought I was early up." Laughed the cat embarrassed "I'll be soon ready!"

She went fastly to her wardrobe:" Ok let's see." Said she frustrated while searching for what she would take with her , knowing this will be a long dangerous trip. And maybe their last.

She packed everything she needed.

"Clothes? Check! Uh, jacked- check! Pens , paper and artblock, ehehee- check." She looked around and saw the two Ruby's laying on her bed glowing brightly with them feeling their " Oh that too!" As she touched them gently,
when she got suddenly a Flashback of Yesterday...

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"But He's right!! I make everywhere just pain and Chaos, maybe I wasn't meant to be a hero..." Answered Sara back
to the white Labrador.

They were now sitting next to a lake, with Azuro who invited her there to tell her something.

"What? Who said that!? That isn't true! You're-," Started he, Sara looked in his eyes discouraged " I-I, Y-you're one of the best heros I ever saw! Y-you're such a, a talented sweet cat!" Azuro took her hand " You're one of my best friends I ever had Sara." Sara started blushing.
Sara noticed as she looked back from their hands holding back into his eyes, that his eyes showed passion and a nostalgic familiar sparkle in them.

I-is he...?!

He took a deep breath in and started a sentence Sara will never forget:" Sara, since I met you I, I can't stop thinking about you. Everyday, all this years. Sara"

Yes he...does...

"Sara I was in love with you for a very long time. But now, I love somebody else. I hope you understand."

Saras eyes widened and she let her mouth slightly open:" Oh, but Azuro-" The Labrador let her hands go, she noticed a embarrassed and 'lost in toughts' face expression "Hey, hey. Azuro."

She leaned to him trying to get his attention:" And why didn't you told me that? *gasp* Was I mean to you?! D-did I hirt you??"

"What? No! You are the kindest person I ever met! I just were...shy. I didn't knew what to say or do. And when I saw Akro getting near to you and you both suddenly started speaking with each other, seeing your happy blushing face, I-I just couldn't." Ended he while rubbing his neck.

Sara felt very sorry for him, with her also who liked him for a while:" Azuro, I'm so sorry for that. To be honest, I also liked you for a while. But my heart belongs to Akro, I'm sorry."

"Oh, sure its fine-"

He stopped suddenly as she gave him a kiss on his cheek. He didn't expected it and iced in place. Sara started laughing:" Hey are you ok?"

"I uh, didn't expected that." Said he embarrassed and laughing at the same time. He than looked in her eyes:"But I liked it, Thank you Sara."

Sara started leaning to him again:" Soo~ who is the new lucky person that you like?~"

Azuro looked away while smiling and blushing at the same time:" Oh, heh, its a golden retriever. Her name is Jeila. She's," He stopped and looked at the cloudy sky "she's such a sweet person and extrovert person. I met her not so long ago. And I wanted to ask you how could I ask her out?"

Sara tought for a while:" Well, just be yourself. Ask her on, hmm, try ask her out on a date in a restaurant! Every girl like those."

"You think so?" Asked the white dog.

The grey cat responded:" Yup, or maybe for a more better date, ask her where you want to go! That is surely gonna work!" He pushed him playfully.

The labrador laughed while pushing gently back:"Thank you Sara! You're the best." Smiled he while blushing.

Sara blushed sadly too:" You're welcome. That's what are friends for. Right?"

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I will come back. I promise!
But if I don't, I hope you're having a wonderful life Azuro...

The cat looked back at the house:" I'm sorry Akro." Whispered she. And she ran to her siblings who were ahead already walking on a path to where the Ruby's where showing the way for the other two ones.

The story was far away for ending.

And it's up to you what ending is the true one...