It's dark, It's loud. I'm waiting for my name to be called.

After a moment that felt like an eternity, I hear it.

"And now, cheer for our new idol! Kiyuki!"

I run to the stage, I keep a false smile during all the concert. They keep cheering for the facade I'm showing them.

When it's finally over, I head to the backstage of the scene. My manager come to me.

"Congrats for your first concert! You did well."

"Thanks." I don't really care, I just go in my dressing room. I hear footsteps coming to me.

"Hello mother."

"Kiyuki! You did great!" She stopped calling me by my name, her too, only care about Kiyuki the idol.

"Thanks."

"You'll be a great idol. You need to be, since I couldn't be one."

I don't really care about the idol world. The only thing I want is to play with my guitar, but I barely have time to play it now.

Being an idol has nothing to do with music, I'm just a pretty face for someone else's music.

"Yes mother."

"I will show your father that I'm better than him."

They're both horrible, they never cared for me. My father left my mother when she was pregnant, she became pregnant at 16 and couldn't chase her dream of being an idol.

"I need to rest now."

"Oh! I understand, rest well, Kiyuki."

Why can't she call me by my name like before? I look at me in the mirror. Is Kiyuki better than me?

I woke up, I don't remember falling asleep. It's 3am, the concert is over now.

I can't sleep anymore, so I roam around, I see two girls trying to enter a room.

I recognize one of them, she's a popular idol. But I've never seen the other.

"Hey you!" The popular idol point at me, I don't want any troubles.

"Yes?"

"You won't tell anyone you saw us, right?"

"No, I don't even know what you're doing."

"I'm Haru, but you maybe know me as Kiyohime." Yeah, it's the top idol of the agency.

The other girl was focused on lock picking. She saw me and start introducing herself.

"I'm Emiko, my stage name is Aki. I'm new like you, so I hope we'll get along well.

I don't really care about them, so I just go.

"Hey! What's your name?"

"You can call me Fuyuko."

"I hope we'll get along well too, Fuyuko"

It's the first time in a month I heard someone say my name, since my mother found Kiyuki she can't stop talking about it.

"I hope so, too." I don't know if I mean it, but it's not so bad to have friends, I guess.

The days pass, I see Emiko and Haru often. They're nice. Haru is a big Idol and teaches lots of stuffs to Emiko and me.

We decided to hang out together for lunch today.

On the way to the roof, we see a girl introducing her to everyone.

"Hello! I'm Rinka, but you can call me Mion. I'm a new idol here"

I don't really care to be honest, but Emiko seem happy.

"Hello, I'm Emiko and this is Haru and Fuyuko."

"It's nice to meet you all! I'll go now, I have a lot of people to meet."

After we got to the roof of the agency, we talked for a long time about multiples things.

"I got in the top 5 idols of the agency! I'm so happy!" Emiko is very happy of that, she worked hard for it.

"I'm glad for you, I hope you don't exhaust yourself."

"I don't, do not worry." I'm really happy for her, but when I turned around, I saw that Haru didn't felt as good.

"Are you okay, Haru?"

"Oh, yeah, of course. It's good for you, Emiko, but you have to do a lot to surpass me."

"I'll do my best for it." Emiko said those words as a joke, but I see it hurt Haru. She's still the top idol here, why does she feel bad?

"Excuse me, I'll need to go." Haru said before leaving. I'm worried about her.

"It must be stressful to try to stay to the top."

I agree with Emiko, It's not something easy. I'm not a high placed idol, but even I get tired of it sometimes.

After a few days, Haru became more distant with Emiko, I decided to talk about it with Haru.

"You can't ignore Emiko like that."

"I don't, I'm just busy."

"I know but... She wants to see you more."

"I'll try, I have some free time. We could hang out together?" I'm very happy, I get my phone to call Emiko.

"Emiko will be so happy!"

"Wait, why don't we go, just the two of us?" Isn't Emiko our friend, it makes me so lost.

"I don't understand, why not go with Emiko?"

"There's something I must admit, I never really felt close with Emiko, but you feel special for me."

"Oh, I didn't know. But why me?"

"It's just like that, love can't be decided."

Love? She... Loves me? Being in relationships is prohibited in the agency... But it's the first time someone loves me.

"I don't know, we shouldn't."

She gets closer to me, a part of me want to push her away, and another want to get closer.

"Fuyuko, I love you."

I can't resist to these words and I hug her, she then kisses me.

She slowly removed my clothes, I'm scared and don't want to continue.

"Can we stop, please?"

"But we only started."

She holds my head in her boobs, they're soft and big.

I don't remember what happened, when I woke up I was half naked and Haru too. She's taking a picture of us.

"What happened?" My heart is racing, I try to cover myself as much as I can.

"It's just a memory of a precious moment I had with my girlfriend."

Girlfriend? It all happened so fast. I'm not ready for that.

Suddenly, the door of the dressing room opens. It's Emiko, I don't really know how to act. I didn't want her to know like that.

I feel so lost and distressed, but the word she said were even worse.

"No... Haru have you... Cheated on me?"

Were they... together? I expected Haru to explain, but instead she held me in her arms.

"I love Fuyuko now, now I realize I never loved you."

Emiko is in tears and run away, I try to follow her, but Haru stops me.

"I didn't know, you two were together!"

I feel disgusted by Haru, but then she holds me on her chest again. I feel safe here.

"I love you a lot, you're the one I want now."

I know it's wrong. I really do. But I can't resist her at all.

The day after I try to search for Emiko, she doesn't answer her calls. I'll tell her I stopped seeing Haru.

I want to keep her as my friend, I searched almost everywhere. Then I saw it. In the training room.

She's alone, in the middle of the room. Tears start to flow on my face, I must have screamed since Haru came and saw it too.

Emiko's body, with a rope around her neck, dangling from the ceiling.

"She won't interfere between us now."

A week ago, they both were my friends. Now one is dead and the other scares me.