Shivay woke up to another blissful morning, his wife lying beside him with a charming smile adorning her face. Since the day they have got the best news of their life, she was glowing and was so very happy. Dropping a sloppy kiss over her cheeks Shivay rested his palm above her belly. He saw her smile broaden as she caressed his palm and opened her eyes.

"Good morning husband" she wished returning his kiss back.

He intertwined their fingers and sat up leaning over the headrest. Damn, he is so excited to see her belly form a bump and doctor has said that it still has a month. How he wished to rush the time. Anika too got up and sat beside him, keeping her head over his shoulder she silently stroked his arm. He kissed over her head and made her look at him. She was smiling as he was doing too. An unknown feeling of contentment engulfed them.

"Feeling nauseating?" he asked.

The care in his eyes melted her yet again in his love. She nodded no and kissed their intertwined fingers. He placed his palm over her belly, very firmly and looked into her eyes. She placed her hand above his and stared back.

"I so wished mom and dad were here" she said.

She missed her mother-in-law and father-in-law really much who were away on a business trip for a month, leaving Shivay with her to take care. The enormous mansion seemed so silent without her mother-in-law's scolding. She missed their little family time at evening when the total of four members sat together and played ludo, chess or cards. She specifically missed that how her mother-in-law used to tease Shivay disclosing his embarrassing secrets of childhood in front of her. Shivay noticed that how her eyes moistened and her look seemed distant. He perfectly knows when this happens.

"Missing mom and dad right? So your mister perfect will cook the special dish of mom only for you" she blinked her eyes and smiled listening to him.

He is indeed her mister perfect.

"But Shivay I will help you" her eyes twinkled as she suggested.

"Not at all, I don't want to get scolded by that biased woman who always thinks that her own son is behind her lovely, sweet and cute daughter-in-law" she giggled listening to him.

Ohh how he always gets cornered, as according to him, when her mother-in-law and father-in-law treats her like their own daughter and him like their daughter's husband. She kissed him over his cheek again smilingly.

"Don't get jealous, I know I am super special" she with attitude commented and easily passed a smirk.

"That you are wife" saying so he pulled her up in his arms and went inside the bathroom.

After having their special hot water bath together, Shivay made her wear her clothes and himself dressed up in casuals. No work weekend he has planned apart from the doctor's appointment they have that day. He prepared their food while she sat over the counter and munched over biscuits passing random comments over his cooking skills. She remembered the first month of their marriage, he cooked well and she cooked well too and so much fight they used to have to prove whose cooked food is best. Well, in laughter and sadness their love marriage really worked out well. Three years and three months have passed and they still have that essence of falling in love alive in them. The best feeling for Shivay was when he planned the biggest surprise for his wife on their third anniversary and in turn got surprised listening to the best news of her pregnancy.

"So what name did you decide for our daughter?" Shivay asked.

He so so love daughters'.

"He will be our son and his name will be Ansh" she took another bite of healthy bread pizza prepared by her husband.

"And if it turns out to be daughter then we will name her Anisha" he said having his bite.

They laughed in unison and got ready to visit the gynaecologist. As usual she wanted to drive but taking care of her health condition he very politely denied and took the driver's seat. They reached the hospital soon and got done with the appointment. Smilingly Anika came out of the ward and informed Shivay that the baby is fine. Kissing her over her head Shivay led her towards their car. They decided to pick up groceries on their way back because Anika hated the idea of shopping groceries online. As planned they got down in front of a mall and parked their car. After choosing the groceries Anika came out because she was feeling suffocated inside and was walking towards their car when few boys on a motorbike came and pushed her while making fun. She looked healthier, and that was the point of their taunt.

"Aunty" she heard someone calling her as such as those boys laughed and returned back pushing her again and resulting in to her fall this time.

"Anika" Shivay called aloud and ran towards her throwing up the packets in air; she lied on the middle of the road in the pool of blood.

"Anika please open your eyes, please open your eyes" he shook her but her eyes remained close.

"Anika get up please. You-you cannot leave me and go like this, get up" he screamed aloud and cried.

Few minutes passed and lastly when she didn't respond at all, he pulled her up in his arms and rushed her to the hospital. Tears blurred his vision and his heartbeats fastened. Folding his hands he continuously prayed to god, for his Anika, for their baby and then noticed a doctor coming out of the ICU.

"How is she? How is my baby? Please say something doctor" he stood folding his hands in front of the doctor.

The doctor bent her head and nodded no. He was taken aback; she can't leave him alone like that. No she can't. Their morning moments flashed in front of his eyes.

"She lost the baby dear and got fainted due to shock" the doctor took a pause and eyed him, Shivay's posture was stiff.

"Soon she will recover physically but the news of losing her baby may break her emotionally and you will have to take care of that dear" the doctor left after saying those words.

Shivay was at loss, he couldn't move and felt suffocated. So many incidents, their laughter, the first happiness after getting this news, their dreams, everything-everything just shattered. 'Ansh' and 'Anisha' came knocking down his memory. Her glowing face and that contended smile, nothing he could forget. He felt guilty, he felt guilty because he left her alone when his mother has already asked him to not even let her go away from in front of his eyes for even a second. But he failed; he failed in keeping the words of his mother. He failed in making her dream complete. The dream of them holding their baby in their hand and smiling for a family photograph with their parents behind them. He failed as a husband. As these thoughts clouded his mind his body went numb and he fell, crying like losing everything he had. The hopes inside him have died and he felt so lonely. He couldn't understand that how will he handle his wife when he was so broken. Tears failed to stop and he cried. Drawing his legs close to his chest he buried his head and cried when suddenly someone called out his name.

"Your wife is calling out for you sir" he saw a nurse standing in front of him.

Soon he wiped away his tears and stood up. Trying to behave as much normal as he could he nodded yes and then followed the nurse. Anika was lying over and her eyes twinkled as it met his. He walked closer and sat beside her holding her hand.

"Shivay" she softly took his name breaking his heart into zillions.

He just nodded while preparing himself to make her face the harsh truth of their life.

"Why am I feeling so empty from inside?" just like a baby she asked and placed her hand over her belly leaving his "you know when I opened my eyes and touched here" she pointed her belly and continued "I felt so alone, like that feeling of completeness like before wasn't there"

With every word she spoke his heart broke more. He wanted to cry but he couldn't and just waited.

"Our baby is fine right?" her eyes moistened but she tried hard not to lose her smile.

"Anika-we-lost-our-baby" Shivay looked down crumpling the bed sheet.

His voice sounded so broken and so hopeless. Anika already knew that after all she was the mother but her hopes and her faith over almighty didn't let her believe the same. But-but when he confessed she was crushed. It was as if someone has snatched away her soul. She slowly, very slowly slipped her hand between his and leaned back resting her head over the pillow. Closing her eyes she tried feeling like before, safe and secured around him when she wasn't carrying a baby but failed. She failed miserably as the thought of losing a pure soul haunted her, just because of her carelessness. Her eyes were close and tears trickled out getting lost in the jungle of her hair.

"I am responsible for this" she said more to herself to believe.

Shivay's head soon barged up and he stared at her. The smile that she still had after waking up has vanished. The glow on her face was snatched away and the happiness into her eyes has changed to tears. He felt like walls crushing him and daggers stabbing him. He held her hand and rested his forehead above letting his tears out. They cried, they cried in unison as they were laughing that morning.

"Everything will get fine Anika. We will make it fine together" he said.

"We lose our baby Shivay" and her silent sobs broke into tsunami of tears.

She was uncontrollable as she cried and cried. He didn't soothe her raising false hopes but just kept saying that gradually everything will get fine. After sometime she slept as he stroked her hair and sat beside her being her supporting system. The day passed.

"We will release her today. She is fine but just take her care and see that she doesn't break down like the previous day" the doctor prescribed few medicines.

Shivay returned back to her ward and saw her ready for the release. He purposely didn't take up the matter of her miscarriage and went close.

"Listen we will go back home and then we will have our special hot water bath" he said trying to sound as much jolly as it was possible.

She nodded and stared at him. She knew what is going inside him but just for her this man shadowed his emotions.

"Shivay I am there with you" she placed her hand over his chest and passed an understanding look.

"I know but it will take time" he held her hand and kissed staring back into her eyes.

So much they spoke through their eyes because words can't describe what they were feeling. Slowly she placed her head over his shoulder and looked front. They both were broken and just needed the other to feel complete. Their hopes and faiths were returning as they held each other with a silent promise of love and togetherness. He intertwined their fingers. Yes they lose their child but that taught them another phase of love. They felt protected, more than before because they were sure now that if one falls other is always there to hold back and support. They reached into their room and stared at the baby picture they have hanged for happiness. Silently taking that picture down they looked at each other and smiled, very faintly but promisingly. They rested their forehead together and closed their eyes again dreaming of a baby who will bring back all the happiness they lose this time. Their future lies together and someday their baby will be there too with them because he loved her and she loved him back, really very much.

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And here comes something which really broke my heart when I wrote it but as you all requested, I had to write it. I hope you feel the same set of emotions I felt as I penned it down. Waiting for all your feedbacks and love.

Love back to you all

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