Misty

It's been a week now dating ash and I've become so much closer to him. But there were problems already.

He had doubts.

Ash could see how hurt Serena had become. I felt guilty too. We both liked him though and it was fair for him to choose.

Or maybe I should have gave up and let her have him.

After class today he had ignored me. Frustrated I chased after him.

"Ash please just talk to me tell me the truth!" I cried out holding onto his arm.

"Misty I don't know if I made the right choice I feel so bad for Serena and it makes it hard to be happy with you I .. I need a break" he finally said.

I looked down my eyes covered by my hair. "Ok" I said in defeat. He walked away and as I stared at him walking away I began to sing.

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Feelings used but I'm still missing you and I can't see the end of this just wanna feel your kiss against my lips

And now all this time is passing by but I just can't seem to tell you why it hurts me every time I see you realize how much I need you

I walked out of the school to the forest nearby and continued to imagine his perfect face. Oh how perfect we were. But were we really?

I hate you I love you I hate that I love you don't want to but I can't seem to put nobody else above you I hate you I love you I hate that I want you you want her you need her and I'll never be her

I made it all the way home and I began to look in the mirror. Had I not been enough? Serena had a nicer personality nicer hair, of course he made a mistake choosing me.

What about all the times you would pick me up and we'd just drive around until we found a place to stay and waste the day away we do nothing but it was okay with me

They say it's not good to spend all my time thinking about you so late at night but I can't stop once I start it's like an avalanche thoughts coming and I just wanna hold your hand

Hold your breath I'm going under not coming up till this night is over until this is night is over

I hate you I love you I hate that I love you don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you I hate you I love you I hate that I want you you want her you need her and I'll never be her

All alone I watch you watch her like she's the only girl you've ever see you don't care you never did you don't give a damn about me yeah all alone I watch you watch her she's the only thing you ever see how is it you never notice that you were slowly killing me

I hate you I love you I hate that I love you don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you I hate you I love you I hate that I want you you want her you need her and I'll never be her

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I laid in bed thinking too much about it. He wanted her who am I to stop him?

Serena

"Serena I need to talk to you" turning around I clutched onto my bag already recognizing the voice.

"Hey ash what's up?" I asked pretending things were normal.

"Serena I was wrong I want you!" He said. My eyes got wide.

"No way your with Misty!" I started to walk away but he held onto my hand.

"Not anymore I need to know if I made the right decision" he said.

I thought for a long time but finally I gave in.

"One date"

May

"She's like any other girl" the words stung.

Was I really hearing this?

"May is just another girl who likes me I'm all yours Brianna" he continued.

My eyes weld up with tears.

How could I be so dumb to love him? We weren't anything.

"Well are your friends said you guys were hanging out" she said crossing her arms.

Why am I still listening to this?

I wish I never came near the outside of the school.

Stupid drew. He always changes around his football player friends.

"They don't know about us your real to me" I've heard enough.

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(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
So much for my happy ending
(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
So much for my happy ending
(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
(Oh-oh)

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread (breakable thread)

I thought about the night where I laid on his chest. I felt so safe. I continued singing in the empty halls.

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted (that I wanted)
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it (we lost it)
All of the memories so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
So much for my happy ending
(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
(Oh-oh, oh-oh)

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say (know what they say)
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they (but so are they)
But they don't know me
Do they even know you? (even know you?)
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do (all the shit that you do)

I looked out through a huge window at the football players practicing. I crossed my arms and continued making my way while singing.

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted (that I wanted)
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it (we lost it)
And all of the memories so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything that I wanted (that I wanted)
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it (we lost it)
And all of the memories so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
So much for my happy ending
(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
So much for my happy ending
(Oh-oh, oh-oh)
(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh)

Suddenly the bell rang and swarms of other students walked in the halls.

I drowned with them.

Dawn

"This is you chance go get him!" Leaf pushed me.

"What no way I'll look creepy!" I made an excuse.

"Come on girl do it!" Making one less push I was right next to Paul.

He looked away from his book and took a glance at me. His expression never changed.

Quickly I looked away feeling my face grow hot.

"Uhm! Would you mind if I asked what your reading it looks interesting!" I stammered out.

His mouth opened a little in shock.

"You like Magnus chase?" He asked.

I had no idea what it was but I rolled with it.

"Oh yeah duh it's like my favorite!" He stared at me for a while before he handed me the book and walked away.

Did I say something wrong?

"So score a number?" I jumped not expecting leaf to be here that quick.

"Don't scare me like that and no mission defeat" I dragged my hands down loosely my beanie tipping over a little.

"He seems like a geek" she said while pondering with a hand under chin.

"That's it!" My body shot up standing straight now her being the one jumping.

"I'm going to become a nerd!"

Leaf

Dawn ran off leaving me in shock when I felt a hand wrap around me.

Turning quickly I met those gorgeous eyes of Garry. Who I still regretfully was in love with.

Why can't I get over him?

I crossed my arms "what now Garry?"

"Hm well leafy you know I'm the player around here" I rolled my eyes.

"Oh whatever you jealous of my little stunt the other day" I mocked.

He tried playing it off cool "psh yeah right" I giggled at that. Garry was never one to hide his jealousy.

"Oh then I guess you don't care that I scored a date with Red" I left him shocked and walked away.

Later that night I went on my date with red. The whole time I could only imagine Garry.

He wasn't even here!

"Your so cute leaf" he said. I didn't feel my heart skip.

"Your quite handsome yourself red" I lied.

"The way Garry treated you leaf you don't deserve it" we walked through a cold snowy night. I stuffed my mouth in my scarf.

I know I don't deserve it but- I'm in love with someone awful.

The tears I hadn't let out started again.

"Leaf let me be the one that can make you feel happy" he finally said.

I stopped for a moment and thought.

"Ok"

Serena

"Haha no way!" I laughed at ash's joke.

"Yup" he replied drinking more hot chocolate.

"This is nice" I replied. Though I felt that pang in my chest. Something wasn't right.

I looked at the orange flowers in a vase and they reminded me of Misty.

Time stopped for me.

What was I doing? I'm letting a boy get between my friendship!

"Ash I can't do this! You love Misty I know it your just guilty" I yelled out.

"Maybe but I can't tell" he whispered looking down.

"I'm happy without you!" I yelled. Who was he to use me to make himself feel better?

Finally I walked out and into the deep snow.

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You keep me in your orbit
Well I know I'm a hard one to please

Give in too much importance
My love will have you fall to your knees
I'm telling this too often
No better than to bark up my tree
Just for you to fall and leave
Now I'd rather just watch you
Smoke and drink yeah

Steering clear of any headaches to start and if we're being honest I'd rather your body then half of your heart or jealous ridden comments

Like Why are you letting them feelings that I don't want
I never let him know too much he's getting too emotional

I'm better off without him
I'm better off being a wild one
On the rode a lot and I keep it 1000

Run and face it I'll never be ready for you
Ready for you
I swear my love is a curse make you head over shoes
Yeah head over shoes

Let's put those topics to bed and go *** on the roof just to say that we did

You keep insisting not listening your proposition I just dismiss them no offense yeah

Steering clear of any headaches to start and if we're being honest
I'd rather your body then half of your heart

Or jealous ridden comments like why are you letting in them feelings that I don't want

I never let him know too much he getting too emotional

I'm better off without him
I'm better off being a wild one
On the rode a lot and I keep it 1000

Yeah so I'm better off not being around ya

I'm better off without him I'm better off being a wild one on the rode a lot and I keep it 1000 so that I'm better off not being around ya

After walking and singing in the night I made it to Mistys.

Time to make things right.

Leaf

3 weeks into the relationship I was still lying to myself.

"Your amazing leaf" I don't care about being amazing to you.

I want to be amazing to Garry I thought.

Finally I couldn't take it.

"Red I don't feel it back I'm sorry" I got up from his bed where we had spent time cuddling off to my house not too far.

Once home I laid in bed and sang to myself.

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I know you hear me when I cry
I try to hold it in at night
While you're sleeping next to me
But it's your arms that I need this time (This time)
Look at the cards that we've been dealt
If you were anybody else
Probably wouldn't last a day
Heavy tears, a rain parade from hell (From hell)

Baby, you do it so well
You been so understanding, you been so good
And I'm puttin' you through more than one ever should
And I'm hating myself 'cause you don't want to
Admit that it hurts you

I know that it breaks your heart when I cry again
Over him, mmh
I know that it breaks your heart when I cry again
'Stead of ghostin' him

We'll get through this, we'll get past this, I'm a girl with
A whole lot of baggage
But I love you, we'll get past this, I'm a girl with
A whole lot of baggage, oh yeah

Though I wish he were here instead
Don't want that living in your head
He just comes to visit me
When I'm dreaming every now and then (And then)
And after all that we been through (And after all that we been through)
There's so much to look forward to
What was done and what was said
Leave it all here in this bed with you (With you)

Baby, you do it so well
You been so understanding, you been so good
And I'm puttin' you through more than one ever should
And I'm hating myself 'cause you don't want to
Admit that it hurts you, baby

I know that it breaks your heart when I cry again
Over him, mmh
I know that it breaks your heart when I cry again
'Stead of ghostin' him

We'll get through this, we'll get past this, I'm a girl with (Girl with)
A whole lot of baggage
But I love you (Love you), we'll get past this (Past this)
I'm a girl with a whole lot of baggage, yeah yeah

Finally ever since I first caught him cheating I put down my defense and let myself cry.

I've always tried to tough it out but not anymore.

I cried all my sorrows.

I learned to get to happiness we must let ourselves be sad. I needed time to heal on my own.