Dean's P-O-V

My already aching head was about to burst as the annoying alarm buzzed for the 20 th time, at least. I didn't know what was the time. And the plain reason was I didn't want to. I was too lazy or too sleepy to get off my bed.

My eyes were still too heavy to open and my head hurt so much to bear the pain if being lifted. I drank too much last night. I remember my time at the bar. It's my ill habit that I forgot how much I gulp everything I tend to think something too deeply. And great! I almost forgot what I was thinking. I pressed my forehead with my thumb at the right places. I even remember bumping to something and slightly hurting my left knee while I was busy watching something that was pretty surprising. But, I don't remember what though.

I fell down going through deep embarrassment, of course, none to which I might have realized at that point. Perhaps, I might have shown them my  ID card that reads my name, profession and residence and a cooler person might have helped me get to my place as usual. After that
.........blank.................

I subconsciously turned around stretching my hands on my bed only to feel it being softer than before. My nose brushed against the sheet and I inhaled the scent deeply.

Wait! That's nothing like my bed. And the smell says it's..

I jolted opening my eyes wide in shock. I looked around at my surroundings and yeah, it was Becky's room and currently, I was laying in her soft comfy bed.

Wait! I slept here last night? When? Why? Did Becky get me here? Or..

I sat up slowly dealing with my aching head.

My eyes fell on the bed stand. There was a strip of advil with a glass of water.

I guess Becky kept it. I smiled at her care towards me. What will I do if I had to leave without this care? I don't know.

I walked out to realize Becky must've left.

Ugh! I don't even remember when we spoke eye to eye the last time. I don't even remember if we spoke last night! She seems so busy these days. But, what made me more sad was that even amidst her schedule, she could still find some time for certain people while she couldn't do it for me.

I sighed. I took a shower and the breakfast that Becky kept for me.

I opened the Shield website. The results were out and I was happy to know about Bayley. The girl is indeed hardworking. She deserved to be at the top.

I guess the students already went crazy over the subject selection. Many would be waiting outside my chamber as well. Can't keep them waiting. Got to go.

I went down, took the car and started for the hospital.

***

After three hours, two rounds to the ward and discussion with 14 students about their specialization, I was tired. Moreover, I don't know what's wrong with Becky, she wasn't receiving my calls.

After thinking for a while, I decided to walk to her cabin and see things myself. But, what heard from outside was she had few students talking to her. I waited for 5 long minutes and then, two girls and a boy came out.

Finally!

The students gave me smiles and I returned. And then I pushed the door hard and walked inside without bothering to or too impatient to knock.

'Hey! Who's th...?' a surprised Becky almost attempted to spring up from her seat but then she saw it was me and her expressions changed.

'Dean! You scared me!' Becky said placing her hand on her chest. 'Who pushes a door that hard?'

'Probably a person you've been ignoring for ages now..' I said sarcastically before sitting on the chair across her.

Becky frowned. 'You're wrong if you feel I was ignoring you.' she said. 'I was just busy okay and you were still asleep when I came out.' she said getting out a file and pen within her talks.

'And that's for just today Becks. What about yesterday, or maybe the day before? You've been doing double and triple shifts all the way just to avoid me!' I couldn't hold it any longer. 'I mean, seriously, you've been acting weird since the Christmas! For god sake, what's wrong with you Becky? You aren't even telling a thing to me! That isn't how best friends act!' I burst out my emotions.

I could say Becky was affected. I knew the look on her face. But, she smartly avoided my gaze and looked aside.

'There's nothing like that Dean. Besides, I waited a lot for you the night before yesterday but I guess you had a bigger job to do.' she said writing something on a notepad. Her tone wasn't a normal one and a taunt was visible within her words.

I knew she was referring to my stay at Renee's place. But, doesn't she understand anything?

'I'd beg to replace your bigger job with responsibility Becks. Renee is my patient and as you can understand, she isn't a normal person like you and me. And when I didn't pick her constant calls while she tried to apologize for kissing me out of nowhere the Christmas night, she couldn't take the burden of guilt and attempted to kill herself!' I explained. 'Would you have stayed still if she were your patient?' I asked.

Becky looked at me with a look of surprise. There was a change evident in her mood.

'I understand your responsibility Dean but you could have at least informed me about that! I mean, why did I have to learn things from Seth upon calling you.' she said restlessly. 'I understand you were busy with your responsibility towards Renee but don't you have any responsibility towards me too?' she asked in a cracking voice.

Now, that stopped my heart for a little.

Of course, Becky is my responsibility, the biggest perhaps and I really can't afford to see her hurt.

I felt Becky wipe her eyes before the tears could feel her eyes and my heart clenched immediately.

'Uhm.. I got a vase for you from the fare yesterday!' I said to lighten up her mood and going off the topic. 'It was really classy and I thought...'

Becky looked at me surprised even though there wasn't anything to be surprised about in it. 'You.. You didn't have to Dean. It's really fine.' she said looking down towards the notepad.

'And since when you started telling me what I can get for you and what not?' I retaliated feeling a little annoyed on her sudden superficiality.

Becky looked up at my annoyed face and couldn't help but smile. '...and you're sure Renee would be okay with that?' she asked and I didn't know the reason for her sudden question.

'You're crazy Becks!' I burst out loud. 'What has Renee got to do with this? She's just someone who happened to be there with me at the moment!'

Becky scoffed. 'Yeah, only the second person who happened to be with you in a fair and hopefully, you had a great time with her too.' she said getting up from the chair and walking to the small shelf beside.

What the hell is she talking about?

Wait! The second person who.. God! Is she mad because I went to the fair with someone other than her?

That's so childish......but I love this...!

'Mhm.. Is someone jealous?' I asked getting up from the chair myself. I tried hard to hide the playful smile on my face.

Becky looked at me as if she was caught off guard. 'What? Wha.. What are you talking about Dean? Why should..should I be jealous? It's.. It's entirely upto you who you want to go to the fair with. I'm not at all jealous..' she said avoiding my eyes the entire time. 'Besides.. I was too busy..'

'..busy drinking coffee with Randy?' I asked taking the chance as I walked near her and placing my hand on the shelf she stood for.

Becky's eyes widened and this time she looked at my eyes with a frown.

'Dean, it wasn't like..'

'It's okay Becks.' I scoffed. 'As you said, it's entirely upto you who you want to go to a coffee with.' I said repeating exactly what she said trying to give her a hint of how I felt.

Becky sighed closing the shelf. 'Dean, why are you doing this?' she asked in a frustrated tone.

'That's right Becky. Why are you doing this? We were all fine and happy for all these years and suddenly.. things started changing.' I said expressing my own frustration. 'Why Becky? Why is this happening?' I asked grabbing hold of her shoulders.

Becky bit her lips and by the nature of her eyes, I knew she was getting emotional. 'I don't know Dean. I'm just feeling so scared, you know. I feel like I'm going to lose everything I have.' she whispered the last part looking into my eyes as a tears formed in her own eyes. 'I feel I'm going to lose...'

'Hushhh..' I cut her off by placing my finger on her lips. 'No. You aren't Becky. You know you won't.' I assured what I wanted to say and I knew she understood that really well. 'I've missed walking beside you in the fair, I missed your silly bargains, I missed getting annoyed about your fascinations of crockery. I missed everything Becky. Renee can never fill that and neither can anyone in the world.' I assured cupping her face.

Becky smiled through her tears. 'Really?' she asked.

'Really Becks.' I said with a smile.

Becky giggled. 'Then just to let you know, I didn't go on a coffee with Randy. We just seem to meet in the cafeteria by coincidence and then he asked if he could join me. That was all.' she explained as if she needed to.

And yes, I needed the explanation.

A felt a little relieved, a lot actually but I didn't want to show that.

'Okay then, let's not talk about the past and have some coffee ourselves. What say?' I asked stroking her cheek with a smile.

Becky smiled. 'Great idea. I was getting stressed anyway.' she said stretching her arms.

'Mhm.. Me too.' I said readjusting my lab coat.

Becky smiled and walked to the sink to see herself in a mirror. I watched her open her purse and..

Wait! Why is she taking out the lipstick and foundation? She's just coming with me for God sake! Doesn't have to get ready for that!

'Becks, you always look beautiful in your natural way, you know that.' I informed as she was applying something on her face.

'Mhm.. Good to know Ambrose.' she said. 'I'll keep it short.' she said and just what I feared, she took three long minutes to finish the whole process of face.

Ugh! She's acting like she's going out in a date and has got an impression to make while getting ready for her special guy.

I shook my head. That's the reason I hate going out with girls and see, even my best friends is becoming like them now.

'Keeping short..' I said sarcastically with a yawn making Becky chuckle.

'Just a minute Deano.' she said picking a mascara and eyeliners and something else meant for the eyes and yeah, enough is enough..

'No way!' I objected rushing towards her in an attempt to snatch the eyeliner away from her hand but my steps halted as my eyes fell on something else.

My eyes widened in disbelief as it spotted the small hickey on her neck. Something jumped inside my heart.

Who gave her a hickey?

Did she...?

Was it Randy?

It seemed a fresh one, not older than 24 hours. I remembered Renee saying Becky was there with Randy but Becky said they just met coincidentally. But..

'Dean, I'm done.' I felt the nudge on my arm as Becky spoke with excitement.

'Huh?' I could ask still engrossed in confusing thoughts.

Becky frowned. 'I said you must be happy that I'm finally done.' she smiled doing a small flip on her hairs only to get my focus back on the love bite on her neck.

'Aah.. Yeah, let's.. Let's go.' I said struggling with both my thoughts and words.

'Let's go.' she said locking her arms with me with full enthusiasm.

I nodded quietly as we walked out of her chamber.

Becky's P-O-V

Finally! I was really happy!

After several days, Dean and I are finally going to sit and have coffee, just us, no outside distractions.

I guess I was wrong about Dean getting over me. I guess he missed me as much as I missed him. Renee is just one of his patients and he feels responsible for her. That's it.

As much as I tried to convince myself the last part, a tiny fear still played within me. Why? How? For what? Don't know.

I tried shrugging it off and did my makeup as fast as possible. Dean hates when I'm late. But, today, for some reasons I just wanted to get ready for it, I wanted to look good.

I sensed Dean rushing towards me as I picked up my eyeliners.

Shit! Is he gonna snatch it away. Oops! Hurry up Becks!

I looked at the mirror drawing my eyes but to my disbelief, Dean stopped. I felt a little confused and even wanted to catch where Dean's eyes were but then I thought, Dean stopping was good for me any way. Let's continue with the eyeliner.

I completed it with all my excitement, informed Dean I was done.

But, to my surprise, the same excitement lacked in Dean's expressions. He was looking at me but was engrossed in some deep thought, as if he was out of this world.

'Dean! I'm done.' I nudged him once again somewhat shaking him and making him realize that he was still a part of this earth.

'Huh?' Dean responded but was still into the trance.

I frowned. 'I said you must be happy that I'm finally done.' I said flipping my hairs in victory teasing him that he couldn't stop me from that. But, to my disbelief he just looked at me for a split second and looked away.

What's wrong with him? I threw him a suspicious glare. And..

'Aah.. Yeah, let's.. Let's go.' he said somehow realizing that he needed to say something. Still! I'm relieved.

I smiled locking my arms with his. He nodded and I pushed open the door of my chamber making my way towards the cafeteria with Dean beside me one of my happiest moods.

***

'Let's sit there.' I asked Dean pointing to a corner table as we entered the Shield ground floor cafeteria. Dean nodded and followed me. We always prefer that table because it's far from the rest and that ensures a little privacy for us too.

There were several students and visitors in the cafeteria and I could already hear them talking about us. It happens every time me and Dean walk in together. It makes us laugh.

We sat across each other relaxing. But, amidst the relaxation, I can still sense a weird discomfort in Dean. What's wrong with him?

'So, it's quite full today!' Dean said looking around pretending to be normal but I was his best friend for 20 years and I knew better.

'Yes, it is..just like your head full of secret thoughts for last few minutes.' I said sarcastically.

Dean frowned. 'What? No. It's.. It's not that Becks, it's just...'

'Would you tell me what is it or should I use other ways?' I asked raising my eyebrows in a blackmailing tone.

Dean looked at me surprised and chuckled. 'Oh my God! That look could kill people Becks!' he said holding his hand on his chest.

'So, if you don't want to get killrd, tell me what's wrong with you.' I said rolling my eyes with demand.

'Jeez.. It's nothing othing Becks. I'm fine.' he said with a smile. 'It's just..'

'.. Just that you are missing Renee, eh?' I teased testing him.

Dean gave me a frowned look of annoyance.

'Ugh! Why do you drag that poor girl into everything these days? It's just us right now. Of course, no. I'm not even close to thinking about her. Happy?' he said annoyed impatiently.

Well, that makes me feel good..

I chuckled at his impatience. 'Relax Dean, I was just joking.' I said. 'Come on, now. What do want to order?' I asked passing him the menu.

'Mocha. You?' Dean said not taking a single second.

'Same as you.' I replied.

*****

'...and then she almost believed I was her mother and even wanted to come home with me. Can you believe it?' I laughed sharing one of my patient's tales with him.

Dean too, laughed loud. 'You could have just brought the kid with you to our place.' he said sipping into his coffee.

I chuckled. 'No thanks. One kid is enough for me to handle.' I said rolling my eyes at him.

Dean frowned. 'Wait! Who you call kid?' he asked with a fake angry face.

'Who else! Someone who's taking almost half an hour to drink a simple coffee!' I teased holding my hand across the table and ruffling his hairs playfully.

It was time for Dean to roll his eyes. 'Very funny! Guess who needs to lay down on my lap every time she is stressed.'

'...still way better someone who starts wailing because I didn't prepare his favorite food for three long days.' I charged back.

'...and what about the person who hides behind my back every time she watches a horror movie!' Dean challenged.

'...are you forgetting someone who gets drunk losing all his senses after a stupid girl breaks it with him and I have to pick him up from whichever bar he decides to end up in?' I retaliated but as I said that Dean's eyes widened as if he just realized something.

'Aah Becks, I got drunk last night too, right?' he asked making my heart thump a little as my mind traveled to last night when I discovered his drunken state laying beside me, slurring and doing things I never thought he would.

Before I knew, a shiver ran down my spine as I recalled the intense kisses he showered on my neck last night.

I looked at Dean again who was still searching for his answers.

Oh dear! It seems he doesn't remember a thing about it. And there's no way I'm going to utter that either. It would make things awkward for no reason.

'Becky...'

'Uhm.. Yeah..' I tried to make up. '.. you were a little drunk and..'

'..and how did I wake up in your bed? Did you..?

Don't even go there Deano.

'No. No..' I chuckled nervously. 'Actually, you were drunk and uhm.. You were scared. So, you said..'

Don't ever try to leave me again..

I gasped innerly as I remembered him whispering against my ear.

It was definitely for Renee. She truly to kill herself and Dean was scared for her. That would be it. And I guess  he mistakenly took me as Renee.. That's right.

'What did I say?' Dean asked curiously raising his eyebrows.

'Uhm.. That you were feeling scared and you wanted to sleep beside me.' I lied.

'What? Scared!' Dean chuckled. 'Drunken thoughts I tell you..' he laughed hard.

'Ye..Yeah..' I nodded pretty nervously.

'Anyway, did I do anything crazier last night?' Dean asked leaning towards me playfully and that of course, made my heart jump again. Now, what can I tell him?

'Nah.. Just the same slurs. That's it.' I lied and Dean chuckled. 'Aww! Sometimes I feel sorry about what what you go through every time I return drunk.' Dean laughed.

Of course.

'But.. Becks..uhh..can you ask you something?' Dean asked clearing his voice looking a bit serious all of a sudden.

'Like you ever needed my permission to ask.' I said giving him a duh look. Dvd qq

Dean scoffed taking the final sip of his coffee. So.. ' he leaned a little towards me. 'I was just wondering, are you seeing anyone lately? I mean....anyone special..uhh..you know what I mean?' Dean asked with a little hesitation evident in his tone.

I was taken aback. I frowned at his sudden question. I've never hidden aspect of my life from Dean, not even the tiniest. How could he even think I could be with someone without telling him?

'Dean, are you serious?' I burst. 'You know very well that if there was someone I'd have told you even before I knew myself.' I said getting a little hyper.

'Becky, look, I understand and it's not..'

'No. You don't. You said you were wondering.. You know when they say wondering. When they've no idea about the person. But, I'm your best fucking friend. How could you even think I'd hide things from you. Does that mean you stopped trusting me?' I said feeling offended.

Dean shook his head surrendering. 'Becks, no no.. I'm not distrusting you. Why are you hyper? Jeez! People might listen.' he said looking around. 'Besides, I was just wondering.. That's it..' he said defensively.

I threw him another glare. Indeed, we are in a public place. God! I don't know why I burst so loud. That's embarrassing. Okay, cool down Becks. That's right. But just as I started cooling down, I remembered something else.

'Why were you asking me about seeing anyone anyway?' I asked raising my eyebrows.

Well, if Dean was nervous about my loud tantrums, till now, he just turned pale after I asked this question.

'Ahh.. No. Just nothing..uhm.. I was uhh curious and..'

'Curious about my relationships!' I cross questioned, getting Dean more into the mess.

I love doing this.

He seemed restless now. 'No. It was just the mark on your n..I mean the mark on your calender.'

'What are you talking about?' I asked getting confused myself.

'I mean, the date, you remember new year is coming.' Dean said pulling in a smile. 'So, I thought we should celebrate it differently this time and uhh.. That's the reason I asked you if you had anyone expecting you on that day..uhh.. That's it.' Dean exhaled as if he just won the war.

New year! How can I forget that? But, what surprised me was that Dean is the one to propose a celebration..for the first time in his life. Wow!

'Well, someone's too eager this time? Why? Did Seth and Roman not call you in the boy's hangout this time?' I teased.

Dean rolled his eyes. 'Shut up Becks! Just because it's always you, doesn't mean I can't ever propose a celebration! Besides, we can always tag Seth along because I don't think Roman would leave his pregnant fiancée alone this time.' Dean shrugged.

'No way! No extras means no Seth.' I declared definitely. 'Besides, I don't want my new year ruined by silly distractions.'

Dean scoffed. 'Why do you hate the poor guy so much?' he asked. 'He's a  really cool guy..'

'..with zero sense of time, place and people.' I completed.

Dean frowned. 'Well, got to give that to you..' he burst out laughing and I couldn't help but join.

I want just the two of us.

'So what place?' Dean asked.

'uhm.. The hill side at day and the big bash at the night.' I proposed excitedly.

'Done.' Dean said. 'It's just two days. Can't wait Becks.' he said with a smile.

'Me too.' I said squeezing his hand on the table.

****

'Okay and tell me anywhere you face a problem, okay..' I told Alexa as she attempted to leave.

'Sure Professor. Thanks a lot.' Alexa said with a smile before walking out of the class.

It always feels good to be with my students. I kinda see myself in them. Those days in the Med school, the academic worries, bunking the class and hanging with Dean in the Department of Psychology or sometimes, it would be just Dean coming to my Department. Of course, at times, Roman and Seth would come along with him.

At times, the boys would take me out to smoke the pots alongside the then girlfriends of Dean and Seth. Of course, Seth never smoked. Dean was almost addicted and I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw their girlfriends take the smokes like a pro. I was mad at Dean who never allowed me to have one and out of curiosity, one day, even I took a piece from Roman's. But Dean was legitimately pissed. His burst so much that both Roman and he had to say sorry hundred times and the smoking class was over ever since and yeah, Dean broke up with that girl soon after. As for Seth, of course, the idiot laughed the whole time Dean shouted on us and dumped the smoker girl soon after Dean.

Of course, now that I know what the thing was I thank the moment that made the boys stop the practice within a month of beginning it.

But, I don't understand why Dean didn't want me to smoke it while he thought it was okay for him. Just because I was a girl? But, he didn't have a problem when his girlfriend did that!

God! He's overprotective when it comes to me...but that's why I love him, my best friend.

I walked out of the class with the book in my hand. I was tired today. Back to back three classes alongside the OPD schedule. Thankfully, it's over now.

I sighed running my fingers on my hairs as I walked.

'Tired?' I heard a familiar voice from behind. I smiled looking back.

'Of course. How do you expect me to be after a huge OPD schedule followed by three back to back classes?' I said.

Randy smiled walking to my position.

'Well, poor you then.' he said.

'Yeah right, I guess it's just poor me.' I chuckled. Randy scoffed.

'So, are you leaving now?' He asked as we walked at the same pace.

'You don't expect me to stay longer, do you?' I said giving him an annoyed look.

Randy chuckled. 'Oh no! I won't dare to. In fact, I was leaving too. So, may be we can have some coffee on the way?' he asked with an expecting smile.

I gave it a small thought and.. 'I would have loved to Randy but right now, I'm a little tired my friend.' I said with an excusing smile.

It was quite evident that the smile on Randy's face dropped slightly but he somehow held it on. 'Oh..uh..never mind Becky. We'll catch up some other day.' he said.

I nodded.

Soon, we reached the parking.

'Okay then, bye. I'll see you tomorrow.' I said walking near my car.

Randy smiled hesitantly and opened his mouth to say something but he closed it instantly. When he opened his mouth, he just said..

'Yeah, bye. I'll see you tomorrow too.' he said with a forced smile and moved slowly towards his own car.

Why do I feel he wanted to say something more?

I shrugged off the thought and got inside my car. I started the keys and..wait! Is something wrong? I started the car again and this time too, it just showed it's strength for mere seconds.

Fuck it!

I walked out to check on the tires and then walked behind to see the other things.

Shit! It's a burning smell. Few wires were exhausted, I guess.

I think I should call a mechanic. There's no way this car is moving from here. But, let me go home first. I can send the mechanic in here any time later.

'Fucking hell!' I kicked the tires in frustration. I was too tired to walk.

I guess I should give Dean a call. I only hope he's not busy.

Just then I heard a car start and come my way..

'Someone needs help?' the glasses dropped showing Randy's face.

That's embarrassing!

'What else!' I sighed. 'My car ditched me and now I'm calling Dean for help.' I said feeling disgusted.

Randy scoffed. 'You're sure you want Dean to skip whatever he's doing and come pick you up? I mean, isn't there a better option?' he asked with a smirk.

I shook my head with a smile if my own. 'And I guess you don't live in the doctor's apartment in here!' I added giving him a raised eyebrow.

'Doesn't mean I can't waste a little bit of my car gas for doing favor to a pretty woman like you.' Randy said with a shrug.

Well.. I definitely blushed at that.

'I guess.. Fine then. But, that definitely wasn't needed.' I said a little awkwardly.

'Ugh! Becky, now keep the formalities in check and hop in.' Randy smiled.

I smiled too and picked up my bag walked to Randy's car. Randy opened the door for me abdun I went in.

'Thanks a lot.' I said looking at Randy who started his car.

'I guess.. No.. Thank you Becky. At least, you are acknowledging me in some way.' he said with a smile

I chuckled. 'Shut up Randy! I always acknowledge you. Don't even try lying.'

Randy nodded with a smile. 'You know Becky, right now I really hate the fact that you live within the hospital area. I just wish you lived a little farther and we could ride a little more together.' he said looking at me hopelessly.

'Awww! Poor you!' I joked rolling my eyes.

'So, you think my feelings are a joke?' he asked suddenly taking me off guard. I looked at him surprised.

Feelings!

'Randy, what are you..?'

Randy sighed. 'I'm sorry Becky. I don't know didn't want to make you feel awkward. It's just that.. I.. I love spending time with you, seeing you, talking to you, listening to you..that's all.' he said.

He was right. I was feeling a little awkward now. My memories traveled to the night I helped him paint his house and while I was leaving, we were almost about to kiss.

My stomach churned in a strange feeling as I remembered that. It wasn't excitement or a romantic shyness. It was a fear..a weird one.

'We're here.' Randy's voice brought me back to earth. We covered the short distance in no time.

'Uh.. Yeah. We're here. Thanks Randy. I.. I really appreciate that.' I said acting as unaffected as possible.

Randy smiled halting his car. 'Just a second.' he said and before I knew walked out of the car and opened the door for me.

Well, that was pretty cool.

I smiled walking out. 'Thank you again, I guess.' I scoffed. '..and I'll see you tomorrow.' I said attempting to walk away.

'Can I see you day after tomorrow?' he asked suddenly.

'Huh?' I asked confused.

Randy took a deep breath. 'Well, let me put it this way.. Becky, I know it was really nice of you that you gave me a dance on the Christmas night. It was amazing. But, I've always regretted the fact that I couldn't make you trust me more.' he said with a sadness in his tone.

I shook my head to console him. 'Randy, it isn't like that. You are a good friend and..'

'...still I couldn't gain the trust to take you out on a date Becky.' he said said taking me aback.

'Becky, I know I'm not the best man on the planet but.. I just want one chance from you. Just one. O wanted to ask you the same the other day but.. You had someone in your chamber and you disconnected the call. I guess I have a long way to go.' he sighed in frustration.

I felt really bad for this guy now. I don't know if I could ever correspond to his feelings but all I knew was this guy was hurt.

I stepped closer and placed my hand on his arm.' Randy, it's not about trust. I trust you and that's the reason I agreed to help you sort your house and agreed to dance with you in a Christmas party or even take a ridd from you today. Bit, it's just that..'

'Just what Becky? Tell me, where do I lack? What do I have to do to gain your trust? Do I need to change anything about myself?' he said in a painful voice.

I looked at him pitifully. 'No Randy. You don't have to change anything for me. I trust you enough for that.'

Randy looked into my eyes. 'Then give me one chance Becky. Go out with me this new year. The 31st night. I promise we'll have a great time and I'll try anything to make up to your level.' he almost pleaded.

I gulped hard. I wish I could say yes to him but...

'Im sorry Randy but I already have plans for that day. Me and Dean are already working on it. So.. May be some other time.' I said looking into his eyes.

Randy's face fell completely. 'Owh.. Yeah, of course.' he scoffed. 'I understand Becky. I guess I have to wait longer.' he smiled. 'But, hey! No problem.' he said.

I chuckled. 'That's the spirit. I promise I'll go out with you some day very soon and yeah, we are going to have so much fun.' I said.

Randy smiled too as a sudden spark occurred in his blue eyes. 'We definitely will.' he said.

I smiled. 'Okay then.. Bye.'

'Bye Becky.' Randy said as I started walking towards the apartment gate.

*******

Dean's P-O-V

What's wrong with her? She called me and that disconnected.

Is she okay?

'Shall we call the next patient Sir?' my attendant called me.

'Uh.. Yeah. Yes.' I instructed. He nodded and soon, I felt the door open to see the most unexpected face.

'Renee!' I said surprised. She still had a few straps on her wrist though her smile said she had no paint left.

'Yes, didn't I have an appointment with you today?' she asked slowly walking inside.

'Ahh.. Yes but to be honest, I didn't expect you after..' my eyes fell on my assistant and I didn't want him to know what happened with Renee the other day.

I guess he understood the need of privacy and nodded to leave.

'I mean, I thought you were still recovering.' I said looking at Renee amazed.

Renee smiled. 'Let's just say I needed this appointment to ensure my complete recovery.' she said.

I smiled. 'Have a seat Renee. I hope you didn't drive with that hand!' I said pointing to her hand. I was kinda worried considering she, sometimes, takes her parents' car secretly and drives in.

'Thank you Dean.' Renee said taking the seat. 'And don't worry. Mom sent the driver with me today.' she said with a consoling smile.

She seemed a lot fresh and better today. I guess she's taking the medicines on time.

'Wow! Great! Quite honestly, I'm happy you're here. I really appreciate when my patients are serious about their treatment. Thank you Renee. Thanks for understanding.' I said being really happy.

Renee giggled. 'Now, don't make me blush Dean. I just did what I felt and then I realized, if you could do so much for my betterment, why can't I try the same!' she said and yes, I was impressed.

I smiled at her. 'Now, tell me, how has everything been so far?' I asked leaning towards her.

Renee smiled brushing her short blonde hairs behind her ears. 'Well, to be honest, things seemed a lot better after that day. I mean, you remember taking me to that fair?' she asked. I nodded.

'You know Dean, that was my first association with the public festivities in so many years and the way you introduced me with smaller yet happier things in that fair, I felt so replenished. I felt lively and Dean..' she looked into my eyes. 'I felt like I've got a reason to live in this world now.' she spoke I'm a lower voice.

My heart flattered. It was like a moment of triumph. It was for the first time that Renee didn't start the conversation with her academics abdun it's the first time that she smiled without recalling her constricted past.

'That's great Renee. I'm happy I could make you feel so. And..uhh..I assume you're taking the medicines on time, right?' I asked making another prescription for her. I guess I should do more social therapies with her from now.

Renee's eyes widened a little and for a moment, even I expected a negative answer but..

'Of course Dean. How can I forget them when you asked me so many times to take them on time. Dean, I want to have the life of a normal girl. I want happiness, I want to have fun in small things, I want to laugh, I want to sing, I want to dance and I want to love.' she said looking deep into my eyes. 'And for that..' she whispered.. 'I'll do anything you ask me to.' she smiled.

Relief washed through my body. 'I'm proud of you Renee. I really am. But, what about the tree house. Did you visit it any time soon?' I intentionally brought in the topic to check her reaction. Renee's face changed the expressions.

'Tree house..the models, No.. No Dean.. I.. I haven't been there in a while. Oh! My poor babies!' she said crying, like she suddenly remembered about them.

Shit!

I guess she's not totally over them. I guess I should continue with the diversion therapy but I got to be sure of one more thing. The people with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder have a tendency to shift and pass their obsession to another object upon careless diversion. So, I got to make sure that once she's over her obsession for academics, she won't form a illogical obsession for something else.

'Oh no.. It.. It has been a week, Dean. My Dad must've forgotten to turn off the lights too. It must be dark right there.' Renee said. 'Thank God, you reminded me. You see, no one else thinks about them. It's just you and me.' she said and I saw a drop of tear roll down her eyes.

'Renee no..!' I had no option but to walk off my seat and walk near her. I sat on the seat beside her. 'No. Don't cry please.' I said wiping her eyes and face. 'Don't. Tears doesn't look good on a beautiful woman like you.' I said wiping her eyes with my thumb.

Renee looked at me blank. 'R.. Really Dean?' she asked in a tear laced voice.

'Really Renee.' I smiled cupping her face. 'And I know your inventions are really powerful. A little darkness and ignorance won't do a thing to them. Just relax.' I said making her look at me.

Renee sobbed. 'I'm getting weak again, ain't I?' she asked in a weak voice.

I was feeling really bad for her now. Renee was actually trying to get cured.

'No Renee. You're looking stronger then ever today. It's just that you're a little too good for the world.' I said brushing her hairs behind her ears.

'You think so?' she asked.

'I know so.' I said with a smile.

'Now, tell me, should I order a coffee for you?' I asked trying to cheer her up.

Renee smiled. 'That'll be two cups then.' she said surprising me. 'You won't be just looking, are you Doctor?' she giggled and I laughed at her sweetness too.

*****

'...and that was so fun that year. I wish I could get those days back.' Renee said giggling as she recalled her  teenage new year experience. 'But, alas! It's all gone now Dean. I don't know if it's me or the society..but things seem so rotten.' she sighed.

'Hey!' I said taking her hands in mine. 'Don't worry! Nothing is rotten Renee. It's just a phase and it'll go. In fact, I see it leaving really fast.' I encouraged.

Renee bit her lips innocently. 'I wish you were right, Dean but those days are gone and..'

'...and you have better days on the way.' I assured. 'Just be happy, do what makes you happy. Renee, the truth is whatever we do, we can't get back the past and you can definitely make our present better and even better than the past.'

Renee looked at me hopelessly. 'So, what do I do now? Forget all my dreams? Forget everything I've worked for all these years?' she said in a monotonous tone.

I smiled. 'Look Renee, I've no control over your thoughts. All I know is it's you who has. Your dreams are yours and only you can see through your reality. You had your weaknesses in that and I'm working on it. I want you to look front, dream again, dream better, build hopes again and live a happy life.' I said squeezing her hands in my grip.

Renee smiled looking at her hands in mine. 'I wish I had more people in my life who thinks like you Dean, I really wish I did.' she said looking up at me.

'Don't worry Renee! You'll always have me on your side.' I assured trying to console her.

Renee smiled. 'I know.' she said in a happier tone. 'I'll always have you on my side.' she said.

It's really great that she has started trusting me. I hope she'll listen to me and do as per I suggest. I hope I can cure her pretty fast this way.

I smiled walking back to my own place across her. 'So, have you decided how will you spend your year ending and new year?' I asked casually.

Renee didn't respond and just looked down. I continued.

'You should try the hill side Renee. It's one of me and Becky's favorite places. In fact, we planned this place for our year ending as well. It replenishes your mood. You can try it.' I suggested.

Psychology says, such sceneries play a great role in healing mental tantrums.

Renee rolled her eyes. 'You still think those animals in my house would ever make a plan with me?' she asked with a sarcastic scoff.

'No Dean. I'll be trapped, as usual, inside the house all alone. At most, I may go see my babies on the tree house. They would be my only solace Dean, that's it.' Renee said hopelessly.

I felt a certain pity for her. 'Don't talk like that. You can ask anytime your friends then. You know friends from school and all..'

Renee chuckled. 'I got none Dean. Those jealous bitches ditched me long ago. They must be happy, doing big jobs, hanging out with their partners and look at me.. I'm so alone..' she said sarcastically.

Renee's eyes were lighter. It screamed solitude in all corners. I studied her expressions more. She had a lot of pent up frustrations for years. I guess she couldn't trust anyone to share them and that made her what she us today.

She was a beautiful angel with a lot of pain and all she needed was a trusted company.

'...that's right Dean. I'm better with my babies. I'll keep the hills for some other time when you'll be free. You'll take me, right?' Renee asked at the end of her statement.

I was taken aback. There was a hope in her eyes and all I knew was, it was a challenge for me to keep this hope on. And I could do anything to win it, not caring if it might not be a wiser one.

'Ahh.. Renee, I guess you can join me and Becky this time itself. I mean, I'm sure Becky won't mind.' I proposed.

Renee's face lit up. 'Really Dean? Wow!' she said getting excited. 'But, Becky..uhh..your best friend, what if she hates me too. What if she acts just like one of them?' she said with a tinge of insecurity.

I smiled. 'You're wrong Renee. If you know me, that means you know Becky. We are like the same soul with two bodies. She'd never ever hate you. And I'm sure she'll welcome you with open arms.' I said.

Renee smiled. 'Wow! Then, I can't wait to meet her too.' she said giggling.

I don't know why Renee and Becky bonding with each other excited me a lot. But, more weirdly, I was scared too.

'So, what time are you all starting?' Renee asked me getting excited.

'Uhh.. We haven't decided yet but yeah, I'll inform you.' I said.

Renee smiled. 'Wow! I can't believe I'm going out with you again.' she muttered more to herself making me raise my eyebrows in confusion.

'Huh?'

'I mean, I can't believe I am going out with you in the hills. I haven't gone out in the hills in a long time Dean. Thank you. Thanks a lot.' She said gratefully.

I smiled. 'No problem Renee. I just want you to be happy okay. Now, come. I'll see you off to the car.' I said standing up from my seat.

Becky's P-O-V

I set Dean's bed after setting my own. It happens every time he's having an evening shift. I know he'd be too tired to do it after he returns. I prepared our small dinner and took a long shower. Within that, I heard a click at the front door, meaning Dean was home. I felt so excited. I can't wait to start the planning with him.

I changed to a pair of comfy shorts and a tank top after my shower and walked to the living room. Dean was having a shower, as I assumed. I went to the kitchen and brought in the food to the dining table as per the routine.

Soon, I heard footsteps behind me as I served. I smiled knowing the presence. And then, I felt those hands around my waist as he pulled me down to himself.

'Mhmm! Someone had a long shower..' Dean said perhaps, knowing by my wet hair.

I giggled. 'Of course, I only wished I could have a longer one and you could be waiting without a spare key all night.' I said playfully ruffling his wet hairs turning around.

Dean frowned playfully. 'So, you want to keep me waiting?' he asked.

'Of course. It would've been so fun.' I said getting out of his grasp and walking to the other end to take my seat.

'Now, come have the dinner fast. Let's not waste a minute of planning.' I said.

Dean smiled and took his own chair.

'By the way, why did you call me earlier?' he asked raising an eyebrow.

'Oh..' I munched the cucumbers. 'My luck! My car ditched me today and I sent a mechanic a while ago to look at it and he took it for a two days operation.' I said sarcastically.

Dean sighed. 'Poor one! By the way, why did you disconnect then? I would have dropped you and went back to the hospital later!' he said.

Awww!

'Uhh.. No. That wasn't needed actually. I mean, that'd be unprofessional. Plus, I got a ride too.' I said.

Shit! I hope he doesn't ask more.

'Oh!' Dean said scooping his soup. 'Who dropped you then? I could've asked Roman. He was leaving nearly at that time.' he said.

'Ahh.. No. Actually, uhm.. Randy showed up with his car at the exact moment when I was going to call you.' I said fearing an outburst.

'Randy!' Dean's eyes widened and of course, his voice was louder than natural.

'Ahh.. Yeah. He..uh..dropped me. That's it.' I said like it was no big deal.

Dean shook his head almost throwing his spoon on his plate. 'And out of all, you chose to drive with him?' Dean asked visibly annoyed.

I sighed. 'Come on Dean! He was the only one there at that time. Besides my, he has never been bad to me. I mean, if you speak with him for a minute, you'll know he isn't that bad..'

'Enough now. It's fine that he gave you a ride when you needed it but please, don't even try defending him in front of me.' Dean spat.

Oh dear! I only wonder what Dean would say if I tell him what Randy said after that.

But, why does he hate Randy? There's nothing so bad about him!

'Okay Daddy.. Whatever you say. Now, just finish your dinner fast.' I said bringing a smile on my face.

Dean, for some odd reason, gave me a chance to confused look and smirked shaking his head. 'You're such a..' he muttered and continued his dinner.

Thank God! He's tamed.

******

'So, we'll start at 9 and that'd make us reach at around 11 approximately.' I said planning the time.

Dean nodded through a yawn. 'Mhm.. But, isn't 9 too early to start?'

'No lazyhead. It's just perfect. 9 is done.' I said.

Dean rolled his eyes then. 'Okay fine. As my lady wishes.' he said doing a little bow.

I giggled punching his chest lightly. 'And about the food, I'll prepare them beforehand. What's your list?' I asked turning to Dean, who now suddenly placed his lazy head on my shoulder, making me gasp and shiver at the same time.

'Anything you want would be fine.' he said looking into my eyes which were barely few centimeters away from mine.

'Oh.. Okay..' I said moving slightly away, suddenly remembering the stuffs from two nights ago.

'So, we're taking your car since mine ditched me and we are starting at sharp 9. No interruptions or professional commitments and responsibilities on the day, okay.' I said reminding him suggestively about his recent deeds.

Dean scoffed. 'Oh.. Come on! That was just one night. Plus Renee was..' Dean stopped suddenly.

What now!

'Oh freak!' Dean said cupping his jaw. 'I almost forgot Becks. I invited Renee with us. I mean, she said she would be all alone and...'

'WHAT?' I couldn't help but raise my voice. 'You invited Renee with us? On the day I thought would be just us? Dean, how could you? You could have at least asked me before that?' I said burning in rage.

Dean straightened himself and placed his hands on my elbow. 'Becky, you are overreacting. She's a nice girl and..'

'Oh! She's a nice girl, eh?' I said pushing his hand away and standing up from the couch. 'Then you could've just gone out with her, Dean. You should've spared me from all of these.' I burst somehow controlling my tears.

How could he just get her in between us? I even barred Seth from it for the sake of our privacy and after knowing everything, Dean invited Renee!

'Come on Becks!' Dean stood up now. 'Do you even know what you're saying? You are my best friend. We are forever and why can't you accept her for just once?' he asked as if I was the one at wrong side.

'Right.' I said giving him a glare. 'Do you really it's just confined to just once now? Can't you see anything Dean? Can't you see the gap increasing between us ever since...'

'Shut up Becky!' Dean shouted so hard almost making me gasp in fear. 'How could you even speak about Renee like that? You don't even know her well! Yeah, I understand we're best friends and you don't want any third wheel between us and all. But, seriously! We aren't kids anymore. We should socialize with more people. So stop acting like a kid and for once, be a matured one seeing through my place and spare Renee..' he spat furiously.

I was scared. This was the side of Dean I seldom saw. Since when did he get so protective over Renee? Tears spilled out of my eyes.

'Becky..' he walked nearer and  placed his hands on my shoulders. 'Renee is different. She needs to be healed and she's my biggest challenge. You don't know how big it'll be for my career and my confidence, if I could give Renee a new life. She's my biggest challenge Becks. I want to win it.' he said in a calm voice.

I smiled sarcastically wiping my eyes.

'Great Dean! I hope you win your challenge but I also hope you don't lose something big in the process of winning it. I'll be the saddest person in that case.' I said pushing his hands away and walking to my bedroom.

I closed the door and burst into tears.

Was I that wrong today? Was it all my fault? Am I that selfish?

Why do the idea of having Renee with us cringe me?

'Becky, open the door. I'm sorry.' I heard the banging on the other side.

I was in no mood to see him now. For once, I tried being  the mature one and placed myself in Dean's position. He promised to take Renee out with us. He must've had a reason but..

Really Dean! With us!?

Dean's P-O-V

I was fuming in anger as she rejected my calls from inside.

I was angry, very angry and I didn't know if that was on Becky or myself.

I remembered how I said to Renee that Becky and I were the same soul and she'd never have a problem with Renee joining us or any of my decisions. I was angry on myself for my presumptions, on how wrong I was?

I almost felt like my trust on Becky was broken. But, yeah, she had her reasons too. May be she wanted some lonely time with me. She expects that from me. But, we aren't children anymore. We can't just play on our patch of grass and don't let others get near our block houses.

We're grown up. We're social species.

I ran my fingers through my hair in frustration. I hate when I hurt Becky. It kills me from within.

Why are we fighting so much these days? It can't be for Renee? There must be something both me and Becky are failing to see or may be overlooking as well. We need to sort that out.

******

I woke up in the morning in my as usual mood. I took a shower and went to find Becky. Both of us had afternoon shifts. I guess she has calmed down and now, we can talk.

I walked to the dining to see her buttering the toasts.

She lifted her eyes at me once but didn't say a thing.

'Good morning!' I greeted but she didn't speak.

Of course, it's Becky. I surrendered and sat in my place. Becky arranged my plate and walked near me indifferently placing it in front of me. But, before she could leave, I caught her wrist.

Becky looked at me with a frown.

Becky's P-O-V

What the hell does he want now? I looked at him with a frown only to see him smirk as he held my hand up.

'Feed me.' he said.

What on earth!

I rolled my eyes and attempted to leave without a word but to my disbelief, he grabbed me tighter.

'Nah. You aren't going without feeding me at least once.' he shrugged.

I threw him a glare. 'You've gone fucking crazy Ambrose. And, it was you who said you aren't kids now. So, grow up and let me go.' she said jerking the grip.

'Aww! You're still my little doll..' he pouted seeing me struggle.

'What's your problem Dean? You did what you wanted last night and yeah, you won it. What's your problem now?' I asked angrily.

Dean's face went more serious and then he scoffed. 'I guess you know that I can win nothing when you aren't with me Becks. So, drop that winning thing and feed me.' he pouted.

I felt frustrated. 'Okay fine.' I said and got out of his grip. I took a big piece of toast in my hand and shoved it inside his mouth.

'Mmmh..' he choked. 'What the hell!' he said getting up and throwing that out of his mouth.

'That's what you deserve for being an ass.' I chuckled and tried to leave but soon, I was pulled back again and this time, I landed hard on his chest.

'Ouch!' he fake winced. 'You are heavy!' he fake pained on his chest.

'Then let me go..' I said rolling my eyes but Dean just smiled. 'Not before you give me a morning kiss.' he said.

What? No way!

'Come on! You always used to give them when we were younger.' he shrugged.

Oh! That one!

I gritted my teeth and quickly pecked his cheek. 'Happy?' I asked impatiently.

'So much.' Dean said throwing a wink. 'Now about tomorrow...'

Now, I was getting really pissed. 'Dean, you've spoken a lot about that last night and of course, it didn't end well. So..'

As if last night's You're overreacting.. You don't even know her.. You aren't kids anymore weren't enough..

'I can drop Renee if you want.' Dean said. 'I'll just tell her we canceled the trip because we didn't fee like going.' he shrugged.

My eyes widened. 'You'd lie to her?' I asked surprised.

'If that makes you happy, yes.' he said.

I frowned. Wait! It was Dean's idea to add her and now he was going not to just because I wanted it.

That'd all I wanted but, that's not how I wanted to accept Dean's challenge...

'N.. No Dean. You don't have to.' I said walking to my chair. 'I'd never want to let you down in front of your acquaintances.' I said seriously.

'No Becky. It's not about letting down. It's about us. I mean, yeah, I took it for granted that you won't mind her but... I guess I needed to think that more.' he said. 'And I just can't see you sad at any cost. You're my first priority Becks. So, dropping her would make no difference.' Dean said looking at me pleadingly.

Well, that was good.

'I appreciate everything Dean but.. I guess you were right. I don't even know Renee. It was wrong of me to shout on her for no reason last night.' I said recalling my own mistake. 'So, if dropping her makes no difference to you, I'm sure taking her wouldn't make a difference to me too.' I said understanding Dean's emotions in a better light.

Dean raised his eyebrows. 'Becky you don't have to..' he walked near me. I smiled wrapping my hands around his neck. 'It's okay Dean. It's fine.' I said. 'But, in that case, would you mind if I ask someone else with us too?' I asked getting straight to my point.

Dean raised an eye brow out of disbelief.

'Uhh.. You see Deano, if we are three and you and Renee decide to ditch me or me and Renee decide to ditch you or even me and you decide to ditch Renee, someone or the other will feel left out. Besides, I think Renee should need a local guardian other than you too.' I smirked.

Dean's eyes widened. 'You aren't talking about him, are you?' he asked with an annoyed face.

I chuckled pinching his nose. 'Of course, Dean, I mean Randy. He's my friend just like Renee is yours and he's Renee's brother too.' I said battering my eyelashes at him.

Take that Ambrose.

'You got to be fucking kidding me Becks!' Dean burst pushed my haeoff him. 'Randy! Seriously! You know how much I hate him and that was supposed to be our private outing!' he burst.

'But, it's not anymore Dean.' I said holding a fake smile. 'I mean, you, Me, Renee and Randy... Perfect..' I said counting my fingers.

Dean rolled his eyes. 'Randy! Randy! Randy! What do you actually see in him and I can't believe you actually are adding him in our new year celebration Becks.' Dean gritted his teeth as he spoke pacing around the dining.

I sighed and walked to him placing my hands on his arm. 'Come on Dean! You barely talk to him. He's a nice guy. Besides, we aren't kids anymore and we need to socialize with others too.' I said battering my eyelashes again.

Dean's eyes darkened as he threw me a death glare.

'You're doing everything on purpose, aren't you?' he asked in the huskiest voice.

I chuckled. 'Of course, after all we aren't kids and yeah, try looking through my place and try sparing Randy for once..' I said with a shrug  before walking towards my bedroom.

'Oh! I get it now.' I heard Dean yell after me. 'Since he couldn't get a date on Christmas, you gave him on new year, eh? Wow! You guys must be so happy, holding each other's hands in the hills, dancing at the big bash and get your 12 o'clock kiss from him.. Wow! That's amazing Becks.' Dean burst out loud.

I clutched my fists hard at his words but that's not what I was going to show.

I scoffed turning around at him. 'You're right. In fact, that's not a bad idea Dean. I mean, both of us are single after all and .' I you can't deny that Randy's hot.. ' I said throwing him a similar wink he threw me a while ago.

Dean's eyes were shooting venom now.

'I can't believe you Becks. You know how much I hate seeing you with him and despite that..

'Right. Thanks for warning me as a protective best friend Dean. Now, don't act like a jealous boyfriend as well..' I said harshly before walking fast to my bedroom.

As I reached there and closed the door, I realized my heart was racing and my heat emitted from my cheeks..

Dean's P-O-V

5 hours later

I sat signing the release certificate for my third patient today.

But, I still can't believe what Becks said to me this morning.

Right. Thanks for warning me as a protective best friend Dean. Now, don't act like a jealous boyfriend as well..

I mean, how could that even come to her mind. Jealous boyfriend! Seriously!

She knows really well how protective I am about her. I always told her about the negative vibes I get from Randy. And I even don't like the way he's getting closer with my best friend. I always feel there's something wrong in it abdun I fucking hate it.

Of course, it wasn't hidden from my eyes that Becky was getting attracted to that jerk.

But, how could she? I told her not to..

Why isn't she listening to me?

I also feel like she's playing it to get under my skin. She's definitely not happy about me adding Renee to the trip and that's her way to return the favor. Now, I'm not happy too.

But how could she even place Randy and Renee on the same page.

They could be siblings but, Randy is a jerk, an idiotic hook machine who could never do anything genuine for anybody while Renee was so sweet, she has been living with all her pains and she had been so lonely. I'm just trying to support her in it.

I messaged Renee about the timing and details. I wasn't in a mood to speak.

I sighed as my assistant left.

Why can't Becky ever listen to me? Why does she always take the wrong decisions for her life? Why does she suck in her choice of men?

I felt a burning sensation all over my skin as I imagined Randy as the reason of the hickeys in her neck. My insides churned just like that day.. 6 years ago..

Me and Becky were always one soul in two bodies. I always knew what she felt and that was the reason, I pulled her away from every negative energy that attracted her.

In the school, I assumed, she had crush on a boy named Tony. Of course, I hated Tony. He was an asshole at the first place. And when he took her first kiss, I was so pissed that I broke the dude's nose. Later Becky too knew, this jerk was set by our mortal enemy Baron.

My life on the other hand was little too colorful. I've had many girlfriends. Becky, sometimes, complained about a few and even though they were mean to her, she mostly tolerated. But, I didn't. Once I saw them being bad to my best friend, I dumped them right away.

We were soon teenagers and there came my expedition with women. I lost my virginity at the age of fifteen to a girl named Tira on a casual hook up. And ever since then, there was no stopping. Every time I slept m, I used to narrate the tales to my best friend but she used to cringe on that and never used to listen to the full tales.

Becky was still a virgin at that time. A guy named Sheamus came in her life. They had cool Irish bond and they used to go in frequent dates. I always suspected him to be a asshole and then, one day, Becky told me how Sheamus had been forcing her to take it to the bed. My blood boiled instantly and at that time, with my new friends Seth and Roman, I made sure Sheamus never comes back to the States again.

And then I turned 20 and almost had the same count of girlfriends. Becky was 19. There was a guy named Luke, slightly older than us. She met him at the gym and to be honest, I too thought Luke was a good guy just not good for Becky. I often saw them kiss at the corner of the gym and I felt like pins pricking all over my body. Gradually, I started hating him more. I guess, it was all because of my protectiveness for my best friend.

That's my best friend, of course.

And then that was the day..

Luke and Becky had a date. I still remember Seth teasing me about that. Becky even asked me how she looked. Of course, I was less interested to tell her.

I laid on my bed with my med book on my hand but I couldn't concentrate. I felt restless. I didn't know what was happening around.

I took a shower to calm myself. And then, I got the call.. It was Becky. I recieved the call urgently.

Please take me. I'm at the Rosalyn Inn, Room no 1144....was all she said.

My heart paced. I rushed to the location. I couldn't even detect her mood through the voice.

Didn't they go to the McDonald's? How did she end up there?

I found the hotel and rushed to the desired room. I knocked the room but it was already open. I pushed it wide and my heart Stott the scene before me.

'B... Becky!' I could barely say.

I was surprised seeing her sitting on the couch with tears rolling down her eyes as she sat in just her red bra and red panties.

That was the first time I saw her this way ever since we grew up.

'Becky, what..whats going on?' I asked looking around and realizing she was alone in the room.

She sobbed. I was scared as many bad thoughts ran across my mind.

I sat beside her and out of quickly took off my jacket and wrapped it around her. Becky looked at me with her tearfilled eyes and hugged me tightly.

'Dean.. I.. I'm so sorry..' she sobbed.

'What.. What happened Becks?' I said wrapping my hands around and pulling her closer. My heart was beating fast now.

'Did he..did he do something to you? huh? Did he force himself..?' I asked stuttering in my words. 'Did he r

Becky shook her head and burst into tears. 'No. No. No.' she cried in my arms.

'Then tell me Becks, what happened? Why are you sitting this way, alone, in this hotel room? Please, tell me Becky, this is killing me..' I said restlessly.

Becky's tears drenched my T shirt as I held her tighter to my self.

'Dean.. I.. I..had sex with Luke.' she finally spoke freezing me on spot.

'He didn't force me. It was in all my right sense and consent. I gave my virginity to him.' she said through the sobs as she looked up at me with her glossy eyes.

'I.. I'm sorry Dean. I'm so so sorry.' she said.

I didn't know what to say or think. My mind, body, heart, soul everything was frozen. My voice was choked.

'I made a mistake, didn't I Dean?' Becky asked. 'He wasn't the right guy, was he Dean? It shouldn't have been him. It shouldn't have been him.' she sobbed again.

My hands slowly pulled her closer to myself as I rested my chin on her head.

I was feeling sad, angry and many other things I don't even know about.

'Gosh! Say something Dean..' Becky begged holding me tight. 'Please say something.' she said

I gulped wetting my throat and gaining some energy to hold on.

'Where's Luke now?' I asked trying to get rid of my shaken voice.

Becky looked at me through her tears. 'I told him to leave and never come back.' she said.

I looked at her surprised. I was curious about why's and how's but I knew this wasn't the time. Becky was too fragile.

My eyes fell on her clothes scattered at one corner of the bed. I brought them to her.

'Put them on. I'll be waiting outside.' I said.

She nodded and she tried to stand up but..

'ahhh..' she cried holding her abdomen making my heart jump.

'Becky! You're okay?' she looked up at me and nodded through her tears. I helped her up. I didn't realize it due to her red panties. But, she was bleeding due to the popping of her cherry.

'You.. You don't have to g..go. I'll just put it on.' Becky said in a low voice. I nodded knowing her vulnerabilities.

I looked away as she dropped my jacket and put her dress on.

'Let's go.' she said holding my arm.

That night I took her to our place. She slept the whole night holding my hand. I couldn't sleep. I was shocked, perhaps. Perhaps, it was my protectiveness that kept me awake. I wanted to protect her, all my life was all I knew. Perhaps, I failed that night. And that was the reason, I felt like throwing out my stomach.

Becky was pretty disturbed for a month but I distracted her enough, trying to make her forget things. I still don't know why was she so disturbed over losing her virginity.

Does that happen to every girl?

It was almost two years later that she had her next boyfriend Claudio. Of course I dated and broke up with seven more girls in the same time.

Claudio had a good sense of humor but he was too clingy at times. Becky asked me if she should date him and even though I didn't feel like, I said yes because I wanted Becky to be happy. My protectiveness shouldn't hold her for life.

Of course, they had sex a couple of times in their six month relationship and once it was even in the room next to me.

God knows how much I wanted to rip my own hairs off.

I was protective, perhaps, a little too much. I counseled myself. I can't let Becky stay alone and roam around with girls myself.

But, one day, I saw the guy with another girl at a coffee shop. Of course, he couldn't go back home in a single piece that day.

Becky was sad but it took her new Psychiatrist best friend a week to get her back to normal.

That was it. Becky didn't date anyone after that and everything seemed fine. I was fine. She was fine..until this Randy popped out.

Ugh! No. This could be just my protective self. He could be good too..but, why can't I stand him with Becky? Something always tells me he'd be a detrimental factor of her life and mine as well.

I hate this guy. I really do.

But, if Becky wants to take him with us just to get even with me taking Renee, then be it. But, I swear if I sense him trying something I don't like... He'd see another side of Dr. Dean Ambrose.

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Finally! I updated! Hurray!

Thanks for your patience and sorry for being late

What do you think about the chapter?

Do you think Becky did the right thing by getting Randy into it?

What do you think is going on inside Dean? Is he just protective?