Dean's P-O-V

I tried to keep my eyes wide open as the shower droplets hit me in its highest speed. It has been over 40 minutes that I've entered the bathroom to get a cold shower. Today I had a number of special counseling sessions for the panicked population of the city outside my regular OPD schedule. It was quite tiring but what happened after that, made it more clumsier. I got a call from Renee saying she wasn't feeling well and if I was free for a talk.

I was a little confused if she meant a doc-patient talk or a friend to friend talk. But, after all these days, somewhere I knew it was the latter. I accept the fact that I sometimes get tired of Renee but then she's my patient too. Few days ago, Randy met me in my cabin.

Of course, I felt my being burning even by his mere sight. He even started talking about how him and Becky are having a good time and all, adding further to my pain. Then his expression fell and he went a little serious. He said he was really concerned about his sister.

Even though he has start maturing a little with her behavior with her parents and barely visits the tree house, she is still suffering from sudden outburst issues if things doesn't go her way. These issues often get too violent to resist but they go down with time.

I promised Randy not to worry. And to keep my promise, I decided to speak to Renee. Noticing her tendencies towards me, I don't visit her quite often now. I give her appointments in every two weeks and don't easily meet her outside the Shield. I knew this was good for both me and her.

So, after she called, I told her she can meet me at my place after I come back. As I drove back to my apartment, I saw Renee was already standing near the complex gate flashing me a grin.

'Hey Dean!' She walked to me and hugged.

She isn't as clingy with her hugs now. She's quite contended and her smile seemed patient too.

I welcomed her and asked her if she has had a lunch. When she said no, I suggested her to order noodles or something for the two of us. I too was quite hungry.

But, as soon as I entered the bathroom, and the shower droplets started hitting me, I felt moving back to that zone again. As the droplets started hitting my bare skin, I felt the usual calmness in me. The bathroom was a place of recluse for me. This was the same always. When she was and even when she left.

Every time, I'm under the shower, I feel I'll see her smiling face again after walking out of the bathroom. She'll be there with a towel and rush to dry my hairs with a smile. She'd be cooking for me and place the dinner ever so nicely on the dining table.

But, my hopes dusted every time making me realize I was so alone. That she left me. She was someone else's now and would never ever.. NO.. I don't want to think about it..

I switched off the shower and started took the towel to dry myself off. Since Renee was outside, I didn't want to get out in a towel in front of her. Of course, she's not Becky!

So, I already brought in my clothes while entering the bathroom. I put on my tracks and was about to pull on the T-shirt before I heard a...

'Nooooooooooooooooo...' scream..

Fuck! Is that Renee?

I quickly put on the T-shirt and rushed out of the bathroom.

'No way.. This fucking can't be..!' Renee screamed and simultaneously a smell of burning hit my nostrils..and it came from towards the..

Oh no! Is Renee in the kitchen.

'Renee!' I called her making my way to the kitchen. The smell became more intense as I neared and just as I reached the kitchen, I found the burners on the highest mode with fire rising wild from the oven.

'What the fuck!' I rushed in.

Renee was sitting on the floor. As I entered, she looked at me with wide eyes filled with tears. She frowned. 'Dean, look...the oven just went out of order..' she said standing up.

I didn't respond and went fast to do away with the possible danger.

I took a lid to cover the pan that Renee had in the oven while dealing with the suffocating cough.

I could hear the fire alarm ringing in the whole apartment.

'Shit!' I threw salts all over the oven.

'Dean.. Are..are they gonna arrest me..?' Renee asked panicking with the alarm.

'Renee please...' I only said trying to smother the fire while wetting a towel. I felt restless and nervous. These things never happened in my kitchen. Becky was so expert on dealing with these things.

'Dean.. Woah.. The fire is going down..' Renee exclaimed now as I kept on making the efforts.

Soon, my door bell rang and I knew the reason exactly.

'Renee.. Get the door.' I asked her mostly to get her away while managing things. She shook her head trying to say something but then.. 'Okay..' she said and walked away.

Fuck! The entire kitchen was a mess with the awful steam.

'Dean!' I heard a familiar voice and turned around to see Seth..with Alexa with him. Perhaps, she was there at his place. There were Dr. Molly, Finn and Dr. Michaels as well. There was Hudson, one of the securities of the apartment who had the extinguisher in his hand.

'Oh dear! What happened here?' Dr. Molly said walking near looking around.

'Don't worry.. It's minor..' Dr. Michaels said and motioned to the security guard who switched on the extinguisher over the still burning oven.

'Thanks a lot guys..' I couldn't complete as Seth frowned and..

'How did this happen?' he asked looking at me annoyed while sparing a glance at Renee.

'N.. No.. I.. Dean, tell them the oven..' Renee panicked while holding my shoulder and walking back.

'Oh my gosh! It seems something was being cooked at high flame for a small amount!' Finn said walking near and having a look at the partially cleaned view of the pan in the oven.

As the smokes disappeared, Alexa walked front and removed the lid from the pan to reveal...

'Were you trying to make noodles without adding water?' she asked looking at Renee with frown in her eyes.

Renee's eyes filled with insecurity.

'Did you actually know how to prepare noodles?' Seth asked in a harsher voice making Renee gasp.

'N..No.. I mean yes.. I know how you prepare noodles. I'm very good at it..' Renee said pretending to chuckle. 'And I thought I would s..surprise Dean by making some quick noodles while he takes a shower but the fucking oven..' she was breathing hastily.

I felt a little bad for her. She was doing everything for me!

Seth, however didn't feel the same way. 'And you thought it was a great idea to mess..'

'Seth please..' I urged him to stop.

'Uh.. Guys.. I think we all should stop playing the blame game for the moment and just leave this place for the clean.' Finn said.

'Finn is right guys.' Dr. Molly said. 'Alexa dear, please take Miss Orton out to the living room and others too please leave. I'll stay with Hudson and aid him to clean the kitchen.' she said.

I nodded. 'Dean I..' Renee said trying to grab my arm but soon her arm was grabbed softly by Alexa.

'Let's get out of here Renee. I'll look if you have burnt your fingers.' Alexa said taking Renee's hand.

Renee looked at me restlessly for a while before looking at Alexa. 'Oh.. Okay..' Renee said following Alexa.

I sighed watching them.

'Why are you standing? Let's go..' Seth patted my back before urging me out of the kitchen. Dr. Michaels and Finn already left the kitchen.

We sat in the living room as Seth, Finn and Dr. Michaels discussed on how this small incident could have lead to a big disaster if not controlled immediately. They also secretly urged me never to get Renee into the kitchen.

'I never thought that would actually happen in your kitchen. I mean, Becky was always so cautious with all these things. I can still remember, she even advised me on how to deal with high flame situations.' Finn said.

My heart jumped as her name was mentioned.

'Yeah. She was always a kitchen expert.' I spoke softly looking down to avoid their eyes. My memories wondered about sitting many things. The way she never let me handle the grinder because I'd mess up, the way she would always keep at least three clothes around while cooking something, the way..

'... We're done.' I heard Dr. Molly's voice and she and Hudson walked out of the kitchen.

'Well, thank you all..' I stood up. 'I didn't know what would have happened without you all..' I smiled at all.

'Please, Dean! Don't say like this. We all are part of the Shield and we all stand together in everything..' Dr. Michaels smiled.

'... No matter how big a mess you bring into your life..' Seth added sparing a look at the round couch at a distance where Alexa was applying a kind of ointment in Renee's fingers.

I knew what Seth intended. He was never too fond of Renee.

'Okay Dean, I guess I'll leave now. I have to FaceTime my brother.' Dr. Molly said with a smile.

'I guess I'm gonna go to. My son was already too scared with the fire alarm. Got to tell everyone things are fine now.' Dr. Michaels chuckled standing up.

'Yeah.. We've got a lot to tell to people.' Finn too stood up with a smile.

'Uh.. As much as I want you all to stay, I guess I've taken enough time of you already..' I said kinda embarrassed.

'Aww it's okay Dean.. I'm glad things are fine now.' Dr. Molly patted my back. 'Plus, you have still got Seth.' she said with a smile.

'Bye Dean..' Finn said before walking out.

Dr. Michaels and Dr. Molly followed.

'Bye everyone and thank you again.' I said behind them.

As they left, I sighed sitting down only to receive a death glare from Seth.

'I can't believe you man! You brought this girl home again!' he said in annoyance. 'Do you know what would have happened if you were a little late and she set herself on fire. What would you have told the cops?'

'Seth please.. Things are taken care of. Don't speak shit now. Besides, I only asked Renee to come because I thought she had to discuss something about her disorders.' I explained the truth.

'And since when you've opened a clinic in your own apartment?' he cross-questioned.

What's wrong with him?

'Look Seth..' I spoke strongly now. 'I know you never liked Renee but she's my patient as well as a friend. She tried to make noodles only because I told her to order some. She might have thought she'd surprise me by preparing the noodles herself. What's wrong in that? This mistake could've taken place through any of us in hurry.' I explained what I felt.

Seth's eyes frowned. 'I can't believe you..'

'Professor!' Seth was stopped midway by Alexa's voice emerging and making both of us look her way. 'You all must be tired. Should I make you some coffee?' she offered.

I was about to say no but Seth spoke faster. 'Yes please..' he said. 'Things are already giving me a headache.' he said looking at me.

'Alexa, can I come with you?' Renee asked standing up from the couch.

'What?' Seth asked looking at her in sheer irritation.

'Uh.. No. You have an ointment in your fingers, remember?' Alexa reminded Renee in a much matured way.

Renee looked at her finger tips. 'Oh yeah.. You're right.' she said sadly. Alexa smiled. 'I'll just make it.' she said getting towards the kitchen.

'Be careful with the oven..' I warned behind her.

***

After a few minutes, Alexa was back with four cups of coffee. Renee was now sitting on my right and Seth on my left who was still shooting daggers at me. Renee was apologizing a lot while trying to convince me that it wasn't her but the oven that was at fault.

'Here..' Alexa handed me the coffee.

'Thanks..' I said.

I took a sip and...

'How's it?' Alexa asked before taking her own sip.

Seth too took a sip and gave Alexa a surprised look. 'I must say I didn't expect half of it from you..' he said.

'What do you mean?' Alexa asked wide-eyed.

'...no. I mean, it's quite good..' Seth chuckled with a shrug.

I smiled. 'It's really good Alexa.'

'Thanks Professor.' Alexa smiled. 'I really didn't know how to make good coffee. In my initial days in the dorm, Bayley would say I should do anything but make coffee. Then, Dr. Lynch taught me the real way..' she said.

My smile faded. Beck did make the best coffees. She could make as much as 15 types of coffee and would surprise me with something new in the most unexpected moment.

'It's really good Alexa.. You know, even I can make great coffee. Randy always says I'm the best coffee maker in this world.' Renee squealed.

'Seriously!' Seth raised an eyebrow. 'I can imagine the type of weed Randy smoked while saying that..' he chuckled.

I nudged him lightly to stop. I saw Alexa suppressing her chuckle too. 'You have no idea SETH...' Renee spoke and by the way she said 'Seth', you could say she wasn't too impressed with him. I could see her jaw clench in anger.

'Anyway, you have had coffee made by your sister and now, I'm gonna make you something too..' she said smiling at me, as if to prove her point.

But.. Sister..!

'Wait! Who's Dean's sister now?' Seth asked before I could.

Renee looked at Seth offended a bit and then motioned to Alexa. 'Alexa, I won't make noodles. But, tell me what else your brother loves?' She smiled wide.

I almost choked on the coffee.

'Woah! Wait.. Wait..' Seth chuckled. 'Alexa.. So you are the sister..' Seth laughed out loud. 'Oh my God!.. Tell her.. Tell her what your brother loves..' Seth nudged me teasingly.

'Look Renee.. She's not...'

'Come on Dean! Let your sister tell Renee. May be she can really make you tasty stuffs...ya know..' Seth teased.

I gave Seth an offended look. What has he started?

'Yes Alexa, you'll help me with Dean's choices.. Then you all will see my magic..' Renee giggled.

Alexa was as dumbfounded as me.

'Yeah.. Of course, she will tell you. After she's Dean's sister..' Seth nudged me again.

Gosh! Why's he playing with poor Renee!

We all finished the coffee within few minutes. Seth kept on with his banters and even though Renee tried to smile it off, I knew by her body language that she was slowly losing her patience and was going towards an outburst.

'Renee.. It's almost nine. Come I'll drop you home..' I said trying to stand up but Seth cut me off.

'No need Dean. My driver Peter is here tonight. I'll ask him to drop Renee. I hope Renee will understand you're tired anyway..' He said sparing a glance at Renee who didn't react and suddenly looked at me.

'Fine then. I understand Dean is tired.' she said with a mysterious blank look.

I felt a little bad for Renee. To be honest, I don't trust letting Renee go with anyone, considering her mental state but at this moment, I knew Seth was too stubborn about his decision. Seth called up his driver to take out the car.

'Renee!' I placed my hand on her shoulder. 'Please, you can call me if there's any problem..' I said.

'She won't have to.' Seth interrupted again. 'Peter's a 56 years old safe dude and knows all the roads well.' he said looking at me and Renee.

I threw him a look of annoyance again.

What's his problem with Renee?

'Uh.. Professor, I guess he can drop me near my dorm as well. It'll be on the way.' Alexa who was quietly watching, now said.

'Wait!' Seth interjected again. 'Who's asking you to leave? You leave nearby. I can drop you at any time..' he said frowning.

Alexa opened her mouth to say something but..

'It's okay. Alexa must have important works and may be if we go together, we can bond as well..' Renee said giving Seth a mysterious look. 'Right, Alexa?' she smiled at Alexa.

'Sure..I'll go with her Se...Professor.. ' Alexa said quite awkwardly looking at Seth who just looked away displeased.

Seth's phone rang again saying Peter was ready with the car.

'Here you go..' Seth said.

Renee put a smile on her gloomy face and came to hug me. 'Good bye Dean. I promise to make you the best noodles next time.' she whispered kissing my cheek making me feel a little awkward.

'Bye Renee..' I said breaking the hug.

'Uh.. Bye Professor...s..' Alexa said looking at both me and Seth.

'Bye Alexa and sorry for the mess..' I smiled at her.

'No problem Sir.' she said with a smile.

Seth just waved at her without a word. He wasn't pleased. I guess the two were rehearsing or something and that was spoilt because of me.

Gosh! This is all my fault!

The girls walked out. I was about to see them off but..

'I'll go.' Seth said insisting. I let him because I was really too tired.

Renee's P-O-V

I faked a smile as Seth opened the door for the two of us. I hate this guy. Does he have a problem with me? Why..huh? Can't he just mind his own..

I realized my teeth was gritted. No. No. No Renee.. You are a good girl now, remember? You don't act clingy or throw tantrums. Stay normal or else Dean is never gonna take interest in you other than his patient.

Alexa smiled waving her hand at Seth who did the same without any expression. Why is she smiling at him? Ugh! I don't like this guy at all and I don't want my future sister-in-law to be too fond of him. Thankfully, the car started.

'I'm glad that you decided to ride with me. Thank you.' I started the conversation with a smile. I know she did that because she likes me already and that's a big thumbs up.

Alexa smiled. 'Uh.. No problem. I had to go anyway.' she said.

Aww! She's just like her brother. Never takes the name for a help.

I smiled. 'You're such a sweetie, you know..' I said trying to pinch her cheeks but she moved away. 'Thanks..' she said shifting a little away.

What's her problem?

'You know Alexa, I still don't understand why you stay in the dorm and not with your brother. I can't believe Dean is being so irresponsible!' I said to start another conversation.

Alexa frowned and shook her head. 'No. No. You're having the wrong idea. Dr. Ambrose..'

Suddenly it struck me.

'.. You're right. Dean isn't the one who was irresponsible. It was Becky all along. I bet she was the one who wanted Dean all by herself and even pushed his own sister out of his house. Such a.. '

'Don't talk about her like that..' Alexa said getting me surprised. Has Becky got her wrapped around her finger as well?

'Uh..' I chuckled. 'I know. We shouldn't badmouth anyone. But, hey! When me and Dean are together, I'm gonna ask Dean to get you in the house too. We'll make noodles, we'll make snacks.. We're gonna have so much fun..' and Dean's gonna love me so so much.. I squealed imagining the feeling.

Alexa looked away. Aww! She imagined it too..

'By the way, as a well wisher, I would advise you to stay away from Seth.' I said being a good guardian. 'I don't like the way he looks at you. It seemed like you were some sparkling gem he wanted to be steal badly.' I emphasized on the nastiness of stealing. 'So, I want..'

'He looks at me like what?' Alexa asked with wide eyes of disbelief cutting me off.

'Like he wants to..'

'Is that your dorm?' the driver interrupted our conversation.

Alexa looks at the window. 'Fuck..I almost missed it!' she muttered with a slight smile with a sigh. 'Uh.. Yes. It is.. Just stop by at the left..' she instructed.

'As I was saying...' I tried to explain what I meant but Alexa opened the door. 'Uh.. Bye Renee and thanks, I guess..' she smiled a little before closing the door.

Thanks! Oh! Of course let, for warning her.

'Bye Alexa!' I waved my hand at Dean's sister who seemed a little too excited about ran towards her dorm gate all smiling.

Aww! She likes speaking to me. Thumbs up.

'Now, are we going to the address Dr. Rollins said?' the driver asked me.

I thought a little. Should I go back to my own house or..

'Not actually. Take me to the Belinda Apartments, B Block, Dr. Orton's place.' I said as a smile formed on my face.

Becky's P-O-V

'Yes Mom!..Yeah I know..but, it's really tough to take a leave at this moment. You see there are these viruses all around and the people needs us the most right now.' I explained my mom who was urging me to visit her in Dublin.

Even though the small phone screen, I could say mom's face fell. 'Of course, you always have your reason. But, talking of it, don't forget to maintain the precautions. Wear the mask, sanitize your hands frequently and always keep some distance from the patients affected.' she instructed.

I chuckled. 'Mom, you've said that like ten times in these ten minutes. Being a doctor, I will take the precautions as much as I can. And you shouldn't forget that too. Don't get out of the house unless it's too urgent, okay.' I said.

Mom nodded. 'Don't worry about me. I can take care of myself. I'm just worried about you Becky.' she sighed. 'I wouldn't be much if you were with Dean but now that..'

'Mom..please, I'm a big girl. I don't need anyone to babysit me or something. I can take care of myself okay..' I protested pretty harshly mostly to hide something within me.

'Okay.. Okay.. As you say..' Mom raised her hands in surrender. 'I won't say that. But, hey! Where's Randy, anyway? He never spoke to me after that one day. Your boyfriend isn't too fond of me, it seems..' mom smiled sarcastically.

I shook my head in defense. 'It's not like that mom. Randy is just quite busy. That's it. And right now, he's on his shift.' I said.

'Oh.. That's cool. Uh.. You spoke to Dean?' Mom asked after a little hesitation.

My heart jumped. I only shook my head. Who knows how he's dealing with this situation? He must be having so many freaked out people to attend. Must be tired. Who knows if he's taking care of himself..?

'He's fine. Don't worry. We spoke this morning. He said he will have a busy day. I asked him to take precautions too.' mom said.

I frowned. 'You guys speak regularly, don't you?' I asked a little surprised and a little not.

Mom chuckled. 'Oh Becky! You know how Dean is right.. He calls me in every three days and if he doesn't, I do... He can't keep himself from talking with his sweetheart..!' mom joked.

I scoffed. I was happy yet sad. A bit jealous too. On my own mother! Mom could talk to Dean. I couldn't. But, at least, she told her take precautions. That relieves me.

'Okay, mom.. I guess I should..'

Ding dong

The doorbell rang taking my attention.

'That must be Randy.' I said to mom who sighed. 'Yeah.. Get the door. We'll talk later.'

'Yeah sure. Bye.' I ended the FaceTime and rushed to the door.

The bell rang again..

'Coming R..' I opened the door to reveal... 'Renee!' I frowned in surprise as I saw Renee standing on the door holding a smile.

Did I say she's really nice to me now? But, the thing is for some reasons, I still don't like her from my heart.

'Come in..' I said holding the door open.

Renee walked in. 'So, Randy isn't home yet?' she asked.

I shook my head closing the door back. 'No. The dialysis section has been going steady for few days due to the virus thing. I think they've chosen it for today. So, Randy might be late.' I said walking towards the living room and motioning Renee for the same.

'Oh! I get it. Even Dean was pretty tired today..' Renee said with a sad face.

Dean!

'Have you been to Dean's today?' I couldn't help asking. For some reasons, I felt so restless.

'Yes actually. He was feeling quite low after the whole shift and when I called, he wished I could see him and that would make him feel better. So, I went to see him.' she said.

I nodded not showing my emotions. The fact that Dean wanted to see Renee when he felt low got my skin clawed. Since when Renee became so close to him? Has he really moved..

'But, Becky you know I'm feeling so bad for something I did. When Dean said he was hungry and we decided to make some noodles together in the kitchen, I did something really stupid with the flame and burnt the whole thing. The fire alarm rang and people came in. I felt so embarrassed.' Renee said with a sigh of guilt.

My eyes were focused on her but my mind stopped wondering as soon as I heard Dean and Renee were trying to cook together. Dean really made cooking plans with her and that too in our kitchen!

I scoffed innerly as I recalled how he'd always forget about our cooking plans or turn up late. But, he always loved it.

He can't replace me so soon, can he?

'Becky! What are you thinking?' Renee nudged me breaking my train of thoughts.

'Huh?'

'I was asking if you could teach me how to make noodles and stuffs. Mat be I can make it up to Dean the next time.' Renee said pouting.

Renee's face had trust and innocence. It seemed like she trusted me. But... How can I tell her that my innerself would never want to help her if that involves her getting affections from Dean. May be I just don't want her to get admired by Dean.

Ugh! I can't act so selfish! No. I can't.. May be Renee is the one for Dean and.. I got to admit she has changed too.

'Okay Renee.. I definitely will..' I said taking her hand in mine with the biggest forced smile ever.

'Aww! You're so nice Becky!' Renee too held my hands. 'I wish I too could be so supportive to Alexa like you are to me!' she said with a fallen face.

'Alexa!' I frowned in surprise. Where did Alexa come from?

'Yeah... She's a lovely girl!' Renee smiled. 'And today, it seemed she had a liking for me too. I just hope she doesn't get much closer to S..' Renee's expression changed and it seemed she somehow stopped herself from saying something. 'Actually, I wanted to be a good friend to Dean's sister too..' she said.

Dean's sister?

'Wait! Which sister are you talking..'

Ding dong..

The doorbell rang breaking our conversation.

'That must be Randy!' I said getting up to open the door. Good that he was here. As much as I know Renee doesn't mean anything negative, I really can't bear her talking about Dean all the time. I feel....so insecured.

*****

Dean's P-O-V

It has been two days since the flame incident and ever since that I've never touched the oven. I order food from restaurants and that's how it goes.

This evening was different. They sky filled with clouds and the wind blew hard. It was definitely going to rain. And I'm one of those people who just cannot stay alone in such days. I just want to talk and feel it with someone close.

After a lot of thought, I decided to visit Seth. May be he was alone too. After his break up with Summer and the gradual decrease in the number of random girls going to his apartment, I kinda feel safe to walk into his apartment without giving a call. So, that is what I did.

I took elevator to the desired floor and just as I reached the door, I unexpectedly heard female giggles accompanied by Seth's familiar laughter.

No way! Don't tell me he has got a girl right now!

But, before I could decide to turn around and leave, the sound of the guitar strings hit my ears accompanied by a beautiful female voice.

Now, Seth never mixes his flings with music... So, it's safe.

I pressed the door bell even after knowing that the door wasn't locked properly. I just wanted to make sure things were decent inside.

'Coming..' I heard Seth's faint voice and soon, the door opened.

'Dean!' Seth said as if he never expected me to be here in million years.

'Yeah.. Uh.. Am I intruding?' I asked surprised.

Seth shook his head. 'Of course not. Come in. In fact, Alexa made some cheese nuggets. I was going to call you anyway.' he said opening the door open for me.

'So, Alexa's here?' I asked raising my brows walking in.

'Yeah..uh.. We were practicing and there's a pleasant wind around. So, she thought she could make some nuggets.' Seth shrugged.

Okay.... I nodded.

'Who's it Se..Prof?' Alexa walked up only to get frozen on seeing me.

I'd be a fool if I say I didn't realize the fact that Alexa addresses Seth by his first name out of the Shield while they are in a band. But, I guess they're keeping it professional in front of me.

'Hey Alexa! I guessed it'd be you by the sweet voice.' I smiled at her. '.. And damn! I could smell some delicious cheesy stuffs around.' I said sniffing around making an attempt to clear her awkwardness. I really hate when people are awkward around me.

Alexa smiled. 'Yeah. I kinda made some nuggets and Dr. Rollins said they weren't too bad..' she said now displaying a comfortable expression.

Seth chuckled. 'Come on man.. Let's get to our music area.' he invited me to the room where he practices.

One and a half hour later..

To be honest, I felt a lot better coming here. Not only it satisfied my stomach with the nuggets but the discussion also seemed to satisfy my mind. I was somewhat surprised to know that Seth and Alexa got along so well. I mean, I knew by the body language that they were close but now it seemed they were quite fond of each other too.

I scoffed to myself as Seth was arguing with his 19 years old student like he was a fucking teenager again. It kinda reminded me of..

'... Dean, you tell me. Isn't Purple Rain the perfect song for this situation... ? Seth asked nudging me.' I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain..  Perfect lyrics.. ' he added looking at Alexa who rolled her eyes.

'Uh..'

'Of course.. It's always bizarre things for you. See you laughing in the purple rain and watching with red eyes..' Alexa said disagreeing.

'Hey! Don't get red eyes into this. That's gonna be my masterpiece some day.' Seth retaliated.

'Whatever.. But, Professor, don't you love Rihanna's Umbrella..?' Alexa asked desperately to get my support. 'When the sun shines, we'll shine together... Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath, I'ma stick it out till the end..'  she sang it casually.

'Cliché..' Seth commented.

'Way better than your..'

My ears buzzed with the sound of drizzles accompanied by the heavy thunder outside. It was dark..no blue..sometimes red but the rain drops would make things so lively and natural..

'Here Comes the Rain Again' I muttered.

'Huh?' both Seth and Alexa said at the same time.

'Uh.. Eurythmics.. 1984..' I said getting their attention.

The duo's eyes widened aa they looked at each other. 'Wow! Why didn't I think if that. Has been a while since I heard that..' Seth said.

'Even I love that..' Alexa chuckled. 'You have an amazing choice Professor..unlike few..' she spared a glance at Seth and then turned to me.

I chuckled. 'Then, what are you two waiting for..?' I asked.

The two singers adjusted their guitars.. 'But, Professor.. May I request you to please join us in the song..' Alexa said with a smile as she played the strings.

'Of course, he will..' Seth said before starting.

'Here comes the rain again
Raining in my head like a tragedy
Tearing me apart like a new emotion
Oh...
I want to breathe in the open wind..'

'I want to breathe in the open wind
I want to kiss like lovers do
I want to dive into your ocean
Is it raining with you..'

'

Stop it Dean! You sing horrible!' She laughed loud.

'So baby talk to me
Like lovers do...' I continued smiling and lifting her chin to make her look me into the eyes.

She laughed again and her laughter was warm enough to make me heart shine.

'Your song is gonna make this thing even horrible, you know..' she said leaning her body to the bleak walls making sure her head had the small shed in our secret hide out.

'And your boredom isn't gonna make anything better Becks..' I said pouting at her teasingly, making her roll her eyes. 'Hey..! Come on! How many times have you seen a rain this year..? It's so rare. Why can't you enjoy it..' I said extending my hands outside the shed to feel the droplets hit my skin...but soon my hand was caught and pulled in.

'How many times do I tell you not to get yourself wet?' Becky said annoyed. 'You might catch a cold and..'

'...and you're scared that my asthma may return too..' I chuckled mocking her.

'Becky, come on! That was my childhood thing and it's over. The doctors said the same and now that I myself am a doctor, I know that asthma is way beyond my life unless it decides to catch up with my offsprings at some point of time..which of course..isn't happening any time soon..' I sighed and scoffed sarcastically.

Becky looked at me with rage in her eyes. 'You think this is funny, isn't it?' she said.. 'Fine.. Now deal with it..' she said and before I could decipher, ran out away from the shed open under the rain.

'Jeez Becks!' I exclaimed in shock. 'Get inside! You just recovered from that terrible cough!' I shouted getting worried.

My heart paced as she smiled at me from few feet. 'Now you'll know how I feel, Dean..' she chuckled.

But, I couldn't take it anymore and rushed out of the shed myself towards her with the most serious look. No. I can't see her sick. I've seen how disturbed she was few days ago. She couldn't eat, she couldn't sleep..

'Look Dean, I'm not boring anymore.. I want to dive into your ocean
Is it raining with you..' she sang running around as she saw me coming.

I chased after her and caught hold off her wrist.. 'Ouch!' She winced looking back at me unexpectedly seeing my dead serious angry face.

'Get under the shed Becks..' I said looking at her. 'You don't want me to carry you there...do you?' I asked looking into her eyes.

Becky bit her lips that were drenched with rain drops and walked closer, her smile faded and she looked into my eyes as well.

'You're worried about me getting a small cough back, aren't you? Can you imagine how I felt about you getting your asthma back..?' she asked and then I saw a strain of tear rolling down her eyes mixing up with the rain drops hitting her perfect face.

My heart jumped.

I held her by her shoulders. 'Becks, I'm sorry. I know how you feel.. I.. I promise I won't do that again..' I said.

No. I didn't say that because I was scared of that Asthma thing. It was just that I can't see her in pain.

'You are sorry?' she asked raising an eyebrow. I nodded. 'In that case, I want a perfect apology.. Ambrose..' she said wiping her eyes.

'I'll do anything Becks..' I promised.

Becky bit her lips and smiled in mischief. 'Fine. Since you were too eager a while ago, why don't you really carry me under the shed..' she shrugged.

I was shocked. 'What?' I chuckled.

'No. It's fine. If you say you're tired and rain had made your shirt slippery and... Owhhh..' she couldn't finish her banters before I caught hold of her legs and carried her up bridal style.

'Enjoy the ride my queen..' I smiled making her smile too. 'Any time my king..'

'Dean! Dean!' I felt a nudge on my shoulder. I came back to present immediately. It was Seth looking at me surprised. Alexa was there right beside him equally surprised.

'We finished the damn song man! And we've been asking you like 10 times if you liked it..!' Seth said.

I looked at him confused. When did he ask that? I didn't hear anything.

'Professor! You're okay?' Alexa asked quite concerned.

'Of course he is.. Must've been lost in some moment of his past..' Seth answered her on behalf of me.

'I.. I'm sorry guys. I'm just not feeling the way.. I'm sure you sang really well..' I said looking at Alexa feeling quite embarrassed on how I got lost in my thoughts in front of my student.

'It's fine Professor. But, I think you should take some rest. I know you all are working a lot these days due to the virus outbreak..' she said looking at both me and Seth.

I sighed. 'May be you're right Alexa. Just should get going.' I said standing up. I knew I won't be able to talk straight to them with various thoughts gathering in my head right now.

'Hey man! You're really unwell?' Seth asked standing up surprised.

'I'm good Seth. I just think I need some good rest.' I gave him an assuring smile.

The frown of disbelief was still there on Seth's face but he nodded nonetheless. 'I understand. Go get some rest and call me if you need.' he said patting my arm. I scoffed at his sudden maturity.

'I'll see you later guys..' I said looking at both him and Alexa before walking to the door.

'Bye Professor..' I heard Alexa say.

***

I

sighed in a certain relief as the elevator landed on my floor. I am totally not in a position for socializing right now.

I walked towards my door unminfully when suddenly, I looked straight and my eyes fell on the figure standing in front of my door.

No! My mind is playing with me again..

God! What is happening to me?

I walked closer with my heart in my hand. But, she didn't disappear. Is she real? Has Becky really come to me?

Should I call her? No! There are neighbors who might think I'm crazy!

As I closed up, I felt her turn her head to face me. But, unlike the previous memory, she wasn't smiling. She had a frown written on her face.

'Dean!' she called making my heart stop.

That was when I realized she was drenched in rain head to toe.

'Becky!' I said I'm surprise. 'When did you come?'

'It has been five minutes or so. But, where were you. The door was locked.' she said crossing her hand on her chest to warm herself a little.

'I.. I was at Seth's place.. I'm so sorry that you had to wait..' I said before taking out the key and unlocking the door as fast as I could.

'Oh no.. That's okay.. Uh.. I was kinda stuck in the rain and my car got stuck too. So, I thought may be I can crash in at your place..' she said hesitantly.

Her tone dug thousand knives in my heart. I know the reason for her hesitation were those words from my mouth. The way I hurt her, the way I made her walk away.

I scoffed. 'Since when is it my house Becks? Just because you left, it doesn't mean things changed.' I said wanting to avoid her eyes as much as I could. 'By the way, you left few of your clothes in the store room. You should go change before you catch cold..' I said quite concerned.

Who knows where her car was stuck and how long she walked under the rain.

Becky nodded without a word and walked towards the store room.

*****

As she went to change, I started to prepare myself to pretend to be normal and don't act like a freak like the last time. My best friend was here and I should be happy for that. I sat on the couch and started going through random channels.

She came back after few minutes dressed in a pair of blue leggings and a big white shirt...wait....my shirt!

I was awe-struck and my jaw seemed to hang in surprise as I saw the unexpected sight.

'What? I didn't find any comfortable top out there. So, I decided to borrow yours. Hope you don't mind..' she said casually and walked towards me.

'Did I ever..?' I said still looking at the TV screen in front of me trying not to act out of focus..that was until I felt the couch pressed beside me and I realized Becky just sat beside me churning the memories of old times.

'So, what's on TV?' she asked.

'Nothing interesting..' I sighed. 'You can check yourself?' I said handing her the remote, still not looking properly at her.

She took the remote from my hand and our fingers touched for a while, generation an electric wave within me. I pulled away quickly, not caring how that'd look like to her. I even felt like her giving me a glance of surprise but I was too weak to look.

I wish she understood the emotion of a guy in love with his best friend sitting beside her and in a relationship with someone else.

'Hmm.. Let's watch some horror. The weather would complement it greatly. What say?' Becky smiled looking at me.

I hated myself for not being able to act so normally like her. Of course, I was still her best friend and as for me, she had passed that stage way before.

'Anything you want..' I said pretending to smile at her.

'Yeah.. And let's order a pizza like old times....' she said with a grin. 'Domino's.. You still love the farm house, right?' she asked scrolling through her phone.

But, alas! I had to confess something. 'Uh.. No, don't worry my choice. You give something you like. I already had some homemade nuggets.' I said for making her feel free to go for her favorite pizza but instead the smile on her face faded.

She looked at me for a while and then scoffed more sarcastically if I may add.

'Oh! You didn't make that yourself, did you?' She asked with a mysterious look.

I smiled. 'Come on Becks! You know what a horrible cook I am, right. Of course, not. In fact, someone made it exactly the way you do.. May be you're the one that taught her..' I chuckled mischievously.

Becky blinked a little, a tinge of shock in her appearance. 'Oh! So, she made up for the noodles?' she asked looking away seriously.

'Noodles!' I was surprised. Alexa has nothing to do with noodles. That was Renee!

Wait!

I self chuckled knowing Becky was still insecured about me and Renee. But, I guess I need to break the truth or should I just...?

'Why are you laughing? I'm sure she didn't mess the nuggets like she did with the noodles!' Becky said sarcastically.

I chuckled louder now. 'No. She didn't because she's a sensible girl.'O shrugged.

'Yeah right. Nice and now sensible.' Becky muttered rolling her eyes.

I was really enjoying her mood. It was like reliving our old days!

'Indeed! And I guess she's still in the building. You want to see her?' I asked playing around again.

Becky gave me a look of disbelief and annoyance. 'You're kidding me? In this rainy day? Don't you know she's not like any of us and she should be safe home right now..' she spoke.

'Uh.. Yeah she's younger than us.. So, it's our responsibility..' I said more to myself thinking the real situation.

'Younger! Who? Her? No Way! From what Randy told me, she's the same age as you and me.' Becky mentioned in a set of fury again.

The very mention of Randy seemed to shatter the walls of my momentary illusion in an instant. Of course, he's there. He was there. And he will be there...between us..ever..

'By the way, where is your nice girl right now?' Becky said turning to me with a frown. 'She isn't in your bedroom, is she?' Becky asked like my mother.

'My bedroom... No. Seth's bedroom.. May be Yes..' I finally said seeing no other choice.

Becky's eyes seemed to bulge out of the sockets. 'Seth's bedroom! What is she doing there? I thought she hated Seth!' Becky asked in utter confusion.

'Uh.. She did once but now.. I don't think so..' I said scratching the back of my neck.

Becky shook her head. 'But, it was just the other day that she told me crap about Seth and now..'

'.. Now they are singing happily ever after..' I sighed with a mischievous smile.

'Singing! Renee can sing!' Becky looked at me shocked.

'How do I know? Renee never sang in front of me.' I shrugged.

'Then, how come someone as musically sound as Seth singing with Renee?' Becky asked raising her brows.

The very image of Renee singing beside Seth and him throwing daggers at her got me cracking up. 'Oh God Becky...! You're still so..' I laid back of the handles of the couch unable to control.

'What? What did I say wrong? You may like her and she could be a nice girl but as much as I've heard her nagging abd screaming voice, she's definitely not going to be a nice singer.' Becky stood to her point.

'But, you said you love her concerts!' I said innocently.

'Her concerts! She's got concerts too! Ugh! It must've been you who recommended her soar voice to Seth and he couldn't say no to you...' Becky said placing her head on her knees that she hugged closer to her self.

'No Becks. I swear it was Seth. And from what I know, she actually informed you about her concerts with Seth before she informed me.' again I acted innocent.

'What? Dean, you're drunk? I barely talk with her. Yes she's being nice to me recently but I can't fake the fact that I'm not too fond of her..' she said.

And I could guess that really well...

'But, doesn't she see you as her mentor?' I asked sadly. 'Poor girl! Always into Dr. Lynch.. Dr. Lynch..' I said with a sad sigh.

'Dr. Lynch! Poor girl! Dean, when did Renee say that?' Becky was getting impatient now. 'While treating you're patients, I'm sure you've got a little eccentricity in you too.'

'Renee! Who's speaking about Renee? Mhm... Not me but I guess Randy's company has definitely gotten someone a little eccentric.' I played.

'Huh? Weren't we speaking about Renee all this time? You yourself said she made you nuggets.' Becky tried to remind.

'Me! Her nuggets!' I chuckled. 'God forbid if she even tries that..'

Becky's eyes widened. 'That's it. It's either you or me that has gone completely crazy!' she said. 'Wait! Let me just ask Seth if Renee is with him?' she said picking up her phone.

'No. No. No. Don't do that..' I took her phone away. 'Seth might just throw his phone away if if he hears her name..' I laughed hard.

'But, you said they were singing songs..!' Becky said really getting crazy now.

'When did I say that? Seth is rehearsing with Alexa in his bedroom, that's all I said..' I said showing a little fake frustration.

'Alexa!' Becky looked at me confused with the entry of new character into the play.

'Yes. Earlier she hated him and now they are doing concerts together. And you said you loved it too. And yeah, despite how much Alexa admires you, I can't believe you actually criticized her singing like that! Poor girl!' I said sadly.

Becky looked at me shocked and blinked. 'Al... You were talking about Alexa the whole time and not Renee!' she tried to be sure.

'No. Miss know-it-all. Renee was only in your head.' I said smiling.

Becky's mouth opened but nothing came out. She just chuckled loud. 'Oh man! So, Alexa made you nuggets!' she finally realized with a smile of relief.

'Yeah..' I shrugged like a matter of fact. 'Didn't you teach her to cook?' I frowned.

'Yes..but..' Becky's smile was sprouting unconsciously from right within her.

'No buts.. Order a pizza, will you now? May be I'll have a piece too' I winked.

Becky smiled wide to that and nodded picking her phone immediately. 'My choice then.' she said.

And this is the joy I wanted to see I'm her face forever, happy and smiling...may be that meant handling to her insecurities while suppressing my own...doesn't matter. I smiled as she ordered.

'What?' she asked suddenly looking my way.

I shook my head smiling.

****

'.....but I can't believe she actually visits him everyday for that sake! Isn't it just a little too much of proximity?' Becky asked taking a bite on her pizza referring to Alexa visiting Seth.

'Come on Becks! I know Alexa is a really sensible girl and I feel she knows what she's doing! Besides, they are band mates. No problem with few hours of practice.' I explained.

Becky looked at me keenly. 'But, you know Dean... I know Seth and he isn't sensible at all and with his previous records with his students, I really don't trust..'

'Becks.. Relax!' I chuckled. 'Alexa is the girl who almost made sure Fandango's bird could never fly high. If she finds anything offensive, she'll definitely take action herself which of course, I know, would never be needed.'

Becky chuckled. 'Yeah. The whole Shield remembers that. But, what if.. You know Seth is a flirt after all and from what I heard, she has started hanging out with him too much and what if Seth is just trying to play..'

'No Becks.' I said cutting her off seriously. 'I understand your concern for Alexa but I know when my boy is playing around and till now, I haven't found that in his dealing with Alexa.' I explained.

And it was true. I've known Seth since much that I can understand really well what tendency does he bear with whom!

Becky nodded passing me a slice. 'I know. It's just that day Renee said..'

'Wait who!' I scoffed teasingly. Becky rolled her eyes.. 'Come on Dean..' she too scoffed.

'So, you mistrust Seth who has been nothing other than a loyal friend over a talk with someone you say you aren't fond of, eh?' I questioned getting a chance.

'Ugh Dean! I was bothered by the way she placed it..' Becky explained.

It was my turn to frown.

'And you know very well she doesn't share a good rapport with Seth and it's very natural for us to talk trash about people we hate. But, of course you trusted Renee over Seth. Why not? She's your would-be-sister-in-law after all..' I said in annoyance.

Becky's eyes widened. 'What did you just say..?' Becky sat straight and I knew at that moment that like every other time, I messed up.

I didn't say anything.

Becky looked away breathing heavily, throwing the slice she had into the box.

'... Wow Dean! All the while, you were like Renee.. Renee... Renee.. Nice girl, beautiful girl and once I said something, it's just that she became my sister-in-law.. Wow!' Becky fumed sarcastically.

'Becky look.. I didn't mean it that way.. I didn't want you hurt you..' I said placing my hand on her shoulder but she pushed it away.

I was surprised. Did I say something that wrong? Or was she overreacting?

'As usual, isn't it Deano?' she asked in a broken voice. 'You didn't mean anything to hurt me but always hurt me more than anyone did...the most actually..' she said now letting her tears slip.

What the hell is wrong with her now? Oh God!... I just can't see her cry.

I cupped her face after much hesitation and tried wiping her eyes m

'Becks please don't cry. I.. I can't see you..'

'.. You have to Dean..' she said harshly pushing me away. 'I can't just lock myself in a room and cry silently every time you hurt me anymore. I'm done with it. It's for you and only you that I'll never be the same Rebecca Lynch again!' she screamed through her tears.

I was getting confused as well as annoyed with her. Why on earth was she playing the victim card here when it should be me talking about my hidden tears!?

'Stop it Becky!' I said calming myself as much as I could. 'You have no idea what you are talking about? I never did anything in my consciousness ever to hurt you! I even accepted you with that son of a bitch Randy because that'd make you happy!' I stood up from the couch and stood facing her.

'Me happy!' she wiped her tears with both her hands harshly and stood up facing me. 'Did you ever want to know what'd make me happy? Did you try to know if I was happy every time you I had to see you down and out at a bar because some random chick ditched you or when our two month old plan would get canceled only because you thought you found an amazing hot girl by your side? Scratch that.. What about the moment you brought your nice girl Renee into our life? Did you try to know if I was happy with it?' she breathed fast through gritted teeth.

Her frustration was not new with me. At times, I knew I did something she hated momentarily but now that I saw the bigger picture, something definitely ticked in my head.

Becky never liked me with any other woman! But..

I scoffed sarcastically knowing it was the day Roman was suggesting for. A day we need to address every issue we have with each other.

'And what about you? I guess it was you who brought Randy into our life even before I brought Renee!' I couldn't help letting my frustrations out. 'If you never bothered to be with a guy I repeatedly asked you to stay away from, then why you're bothered about Renee? Don't you think that's a little too hypocritical Becks?' I asked sternly.

Becky's facial expression said she was taken aback.

Her lips moved but she didn't say anything. Tears were continuously rolling down her eyes.

My heart clenched.

'You're right. I'm hypocritical Dean. I'm hypocritical because finally I learned to get out of an illusion I held for life.' she said with a sad smile through her tears. 'Yes, I'm the biggest hypocrite who accepted Randy as my boyfriend even after knowing how much you hate him. I've no right to be jealous of you and Renee.. No never.. '

The very mention of the term jealousy made my heart skip. For all I know friendship has no space for jealousy. Insecurity? May be yes and that's what I thought Becky had for me being with other girls!

'Thanks a lot for letting me stay for the rain Dean. I guess I should try looking for a ride and leave now..' she wiped her tears and started walking away.

I froze. She was leaving me! Again! And this time, it was different...it was deep. She said many things I wanted to hear but didn't hear anything I had to say. My heart pounded. No! I can't let her leave now.

'Becky! No!' I blurted out of my subconscious chasing behind her. Becky didn't look back and attempted to unlock the door but before she could my hand reached the knob stopping her.

Becky looked at me angrily. 'Let me go Dean..' she said looking into my eyes.

'I can't..' I said in a mere whisper.

She tried pushing my hand off but I was too strong. She was tussling with my grip with her anger rising and energy fading gradually and finally she quit.

'Why you're doing this man?' she pushed me hard on my chest letting out all her frustration.

'I can't let you go tonight.. Not to him..' I said gulping through my emotional voice.

Becky looked at me keenly and it seemed all rage was now changing into sadness. She looked down breaking into tears. 'Why Dean, why are you so constricted about everything?' she said weakly.

I licked my lips trying to get a grip on my emotions and cupped her cheeks, lifting her face to look up at me.

'...because I'm jealous of him Becky. I really am. I can't bear losing you to him.' I said reaching by breaking point as my head softly rested on hers.

Becky's eyes locked with mine and they had lots of emotions held forcefully within. 'And what if I say it's too late now?' she said softly with a fragile voice as I felt the tears in her skin touch mine.

'It's you who decide your time. Late is just another word.' I said gently running my thumbs over her soft teary cheeks before placing my lips on hers.

It was like a release of all my pent-up feelings at one very moment. My heart stopped. I didn't know what to do yet my heart was doing it for me. Becky's tears rolled down touching my thumb and soon I saw her eyes closed as her soft lips started kissing me back.

I didn't know how long we kissed but it was like a release of a dormant volcano inside both of us. Today I knew something I should've known way before. Those insecurities within us were not something one holds for his/her best friend. The way we nestled each other all the time wasn't what mere best friends do.

Seth was right. He always was.

As I pulled away, I saw Becky slowly open her beautiful brown orbs. She was so beautiful!

My left hand caressed a strand of her hair behind her ear while my right hand slipped off from her face rolling through her arms to hold her palm, clasping my fingers with hers.

Becky looked at me intently softly letting her head rest on my shoulder. I wrapped my arm around her for her comfort as we started walking towards her bedroom.

*****

Hey friends!

How're you?

I initially thought the lockdown is going to give me ample time to write my books but it turned out to make my mood dull and stripped me off all enthusiasm.

What do you think of this chapter?

Do you like it?

What is going to happen in Dean and Becky's life?