Becky's P-O-V

This is killing me! I can't take it anymore. He's very near me. I could see him, smiling, talking and laughing with others not even caring at once to turn his neck a bit a give me a stare.

You can curse me, scold me or beat me.. But, please talk to me, talk to me Dean.

It has been nine fucking days that we've stopped communicating. The last time we talked was at the bitch, him urging me to leave with him and me urging him to run away from the spot. It was Valentines day and that was the last we've heard of each other.

Few days ago

Since Bayley was absent for some unknown reason, I was asked to help away with few of her assignments. And trust me, the poor girl does a lot of work.

I was really tired after helping Mr. Rollins in compiling his file for the company's next trip at Davenport. He took pity on me and told me that I can take rest but just then, it was Mr. Reigns who needed me to send few emails to the investors. I guess, he was pretty pissed that Bayley was absent and mostly remained silent. However, he thanked me after I sent those twelve emails.

'You're welcome Mr. Reigns.' I said throwing him a smile.

He smiled and opened the drawer to pick something that looked like a pendrive.

'Can you do me one last favor Becky?' he asked looking at the pendrive.

Quite honestly, I was tired but I still nodded.

'Can you give this to Dean?' he said handing me the pendrive.

My heart jumped just as I heard his name. But, Do I have to go to his cabin? But, I haven't faced him yet.. after that day. My heart started beating fast. I was nervous to see the guy who had my heart, body, mind and soul.

'Here you go Becky.' Mr. Reigns said again.

I looked at him puzzled.

'What? Any problem?' he asked.

'ehm.. No. Sure, I'll do it.' I said taking the pendrive from him.

Mr. Reigns smiled and returned his gaze to the laptop. But, as for me, I don't believe my heart was beating that fast.

I walked out if Mr. Reigns' cabin and started walking towards Dean's cabin. It's like my legs were jellied all ready and my body was getting numb with every step. I was almost melting.

I brushed my fingers through my hairs and swept the excess oil off my skin. I wanted to make sure I look okay. I stood in front of Dean's cabin and knocked.

'Come in.' a voice said almost sending chills down my body.

I pushed the door and entered his room. He did not see me, perhaps. He was too busy studying something on his laptop screen. My heart beat faster with every step towards his desk.

His blue eyes reflected the beams coming from that laptop, making them more vivid. A single glance from those ocean orbs gets me to my knees.

But, right now...

I couldn't say a thing due to the tremors in my inner being. I held the pendrive in front of his eyes, making his gaze shift away from the screen.

'Thank you Bayl..' he said until his head turned towards me.

I felt his expressions loose up as he faced me. Our eyes locked and he caught hold of the pendrive from my hand.

Our fingers brushed in the process, making me shiver and release hold of the pendrive and thus, breaking our gaze.

I looked down as he took the pen drive and turned back to his laptop, though I knew his mind was elsewhere.

The uncomfortable silence with the make speaking to your heart was killing me. So, I decided to break it.

'Well, Bayley is on leave for the day. So, Mr. Reigns asked me to give you the pendrive.' I said, trying to get his attention.

'hmmm..' he said gluing his eyes to the monitor as he did something random with the cursor.

I sighed realizing he was still into ignoring me.

My eyes fell on the red box on his table that had several boxes on cigar in it. There was a single box at the other side of the table too.

Does he still take them? But, that night he promised he won't! What if he ended every promise he made, just like he ended the unknown bond between us.

My eyes fell on the cigarette snuffer immediately. It was empty, implying he might not have taken it recently. But, I was scared, especially after hearing about his mom's death.

Without thinking much, I picked up the red box from the table. I wanted to pick the box of golden El Rico Habano from the other side too. But, Dean's hands were on my way. I lifted my hands over but I felt Dean's head lift a bit towards me and giving me a stare. I ignored it and picked up the red box in my hand starting to walk towards the trash can at the corner of his room.

I reached the can and dumped all the cigar boxes in it without caring what Dean was going to think about it. I felt much better.

I stood there slightly proud of myself but then suddenly my thoughts snapped as something came sharp in the air and landed straight into the trash can. I shuddered a bit as I saw the saw the box of golden El Rico Habano, now thrown into the trash can alongside other boxes I dumped.

A smile developed on the corner of my lips as I realized the direction from where it came. Dean! I looked back at Dean, who just locked his eyes with mine for a second before resuming his work.

A certain satisfaction filled my heart even though Dean was still ignoring me. I walked out of his cabin.

****

That day, I knew he didn't break the promise. But, why is he hating me this way? Just because he saw Randy kissing my cheeks? I mean, yeah, I agreed to go out with Randy this Valentines but why does it even bother him?

He would never ask me to be his Valentines! I was never up to his class of ladies. I'm his employee, someone he feels is only good for a fuck.

I can't believe he went to the extent of hitting over Randy. And I feel Randy knows it was Dean and that is making me more scared.

But, now I need to get few answers for him especially why did he hit Randy?

It was the end of the office hours. I knew Dean would be here any moment. I waited for him near the elevator, pacing around.

'Hey! Seems like the angel is waiting for someone!' I heard Randy's voice and there he stood in front of me with a smirk on his face.

To be honest, even though I find Randy slightly mysterious, he is actually been very nice to me. I really appreciate him being with me in my bad times. But, of course, he is just a good friend.

I smiled as I saw him. Randy walked near me holding the same smile.

'So, waiting for someone?' he asked folding his arms on his chest.

I looked away from his gaze. I do it every time I tell a lie.

'Yeah, Bayley. I'm waiting for her.' I said.

'Owh!' Randy said raising an eyebrow. I smiled sheepishly.

After a few seconds of silence, Randy decided to break it again.

'ehm.. I guess you remember what we talked about the other day. I mean..me taking you out.' he said explaining.

I was kind of startled. I never thought he was that serious about it.

'Well, yeah, I do remember. It was quite..quite funny of you to say it when I was sad.' I said trying to shrug off my nervousness.

'Well, it isn't Becky.' Randy said placing his hands on my arms. 'I was damn serious when I said I wanted to take you out.' he said in a serious tone now. He came more closer to me, almost leaning down to my ears.

'.. And it's not because you were sad, it's because I always wanted to.' he said as his hot breath seemed to burn the right side of my face.

I heart was beating fast in fear. But, why was I scared?

Randy withdrew his face away and gave me a smug smile.

I looked down.

'So, next Tuesday? What say?' he asked.

I bit my lip. I was so confused. I really wanted Dean to get away with the confusion that I had anything to do with Randy. But, now, I was going out in a date with him.

'ahhh.. Okay. I'll inform you later.' I said trying to avoid the details. Randy smirked.

'I know you'll say yes anyway.' he said confidently folding his arms on his chest.

I was intimidated by his confidence and did the only thing that I could do to escape.

I smiled at Randy and pressed the elevator button.

'Now, I guess I shouldn't wait for Bayley much.' I said forcing a smile.

The door opened and I went inside the vacant elevator. I saw Randy looking at me keenly, making me feel more intimidated.

I sighed in relief as the doors were about to close but just then I say Randy purge in his hand to stop the door.

'Next Tuesday, 7 pm, at Travis' ' Randy said leaning his head inside.

'ehm.. Yeah.. Okay.' I said. He smiled and went off.

The door was about to close again. But, then again I saw a hand stop it.

It was a smiling Randy again.

'I'll wait for you Becky and I'm damn serious.' He said, his gaze was digging holes in my brain. I nodded.

The door closed. Randy seems really serious about me? Does he have feelings for me? Because in case he does, he'd only end up getting disappointed. My heart belongs to someone else.

The door was about to get closed but someone stopped it with his step at the last moment.

Ugh! Randy!

'Yeah, yeah, I will think about our little date Randy.' I said fast without even seeing his face.

But, just as said, there stood a seemingly indifferent Dean in front of me.

I heart jumped at the very sight. It was him who stopped the elevator. And I said.. Oh no!

We stared at each other for a split second until Dean looked away and pressed the ground floor button.

I kept on looking at him as he took the other extreme side of the elevator not even sparing a glance at me.

I was feeling guilty but it was him I wanted to talk at the first place. And now that I've got him alone, I don't want to miss the chance.

I felt Dean look at me at times through the corners of his eyes but he never glanced directly.

Yes, I got to do it.

'Why are you doing this?' I blurted looking at him.

Dean turned his head towards me but remained silent as I'd he had no idea what I was talking about.

'Excuse me!' he said as if he was surprised.

I gathered some courage and walked near him.

'You know what I'm talking about Dean. Why are you ignoring me this way?' I asked.

Dean shook his head and looked the other way.

'Well, I'm not. We are still talking, you see.' he said somewhat sarcastically.

I was getting impatient now.

'C'mon Dean! You are a complete weirdo. You've been treating me like shit for past few weeks and here I am seeking a single chance to have a talk with you. But, here too, you're staying so indifferent.' I said speaking my heart out.

Dean stared at me intently. I didn't know what emotions those ocean blue eyes had but all I knew was they were enough to get me on my knees right now.

Dean closed up the gap between us further and now, our bodies were almost brushing. He did not withdrew his gaze off me by the time.

He lifted his hand up and traced my cheek softly with his fingers.

I whimpered following the long awaited touch. I knew I was flustered already. My eyes closed.

But, suddenly I felt fresh hot air near my face as my eyes opened to see his forehead leaned against mine.

'You don't have to care about how I treat you Becky.' he said. 'I guess you have enough people to care about you now.' he said as his breath fanned my face. His husky, sexy voice almost weakened my legs right there and I was ready to fall on my knees. He withdrew himself softly.

I knew he meant Randy.

'So, you decided to hit Randy with that motor bike? Why?' I asked. Dean scoffed looking at his hands. 'You know how worried I was when the cops..' Dean cut me off.

'Becky..you must not be worried now. Randy is all fine and even set to take you out in a date, if I heard that correct.' he said trailing off with a chuckle.

'Dean you are misund..' I was about to say but the elevator reached the ground floor by then and the door opened.

Dean walked out without even looking at me. But, I wasn't finished with him yet. He needed to hear something and I needed to know something too. I followed him out of the building.

I reached the parking and that's when I thought it was safe to call him.

'Hey Dean!' I yelled, making him look back in surprise.

'Becky, were you following me?' he asked.

I walked near him.

'Yeah..following..whatever you call that but I needed to talk with you.' I said gathering some courage.

'And what would that be about? Look, I've already said that whatever we had for past few years is now over and if you are worried that that would affect your job standard in The Shield, it will not.' he said like a jerk.

My blood boiled as tears were at the verge of falling.

'Wait..first of all, you mean to say that whatever sexual interest you had in me for past two years is now lost. And second of all, it was never we Dean, it was always you. It was you who wanted me in your bed and it's you who decided to end it.' I shouted as I sobbed amidst my tears. '...You never cared what I wanted then and it's damn sure you don't care what I want now.' I screamed.

Dean was perhaps, taken aback. He didn't expect me to burst this way, may be. I was crying hard now. I saw few people looking at us.

Dean opened his mouth to say something but didn't say it. Instead, he looked around the parking and grabbed hold of my arms.

'Becky, people are watching us. Let's get into my car.' he said and wiped my eyes and face clean with his hands. Every touch of him sent chills down my spine.

I did as he said and went to his car and took the passenger's seat.

Dean jumped into the driver's seat. It was the same car that I rode in many times but alas! things are not the same again. Dean sighed and started the car.

There was silence for first ten minutes though it wasn't awkward at all.

'So, you are going out with Randy now, huh?' he asked breaking the silence.

The addition of now made me slightly confused.

I knew Dean for some reasons didn't want me to see Randy. I mean he tried to kill the guy once, but why?

'Yeah. Why? Are you gonna ride your bike over him again?' I asked sarcastically.

Dean chuckled.

'Only if he gives me a reason to do that again.' he said looking at me. 'But, trust me I'll make sure he doesn't survive this time.' he said.

I shook my head. Dean's crazy attitude was getting me crazy.

'And what was the big crime Randy committed to be at your mercy?' I asked annoyed on Dean now.

Dean looked at me blank for few seconds and then focused on driving again.

'It's between me and him Becky. You need not to know everything.' he said.

He's pissing me off now.

'And what if he died? Don't you care about the cops too?' I asked sharply.

Dean just chuckled.

'Nope. But, it seems you are.' he said.

I was really getting on my nerves now. I mean. I was so worried about his crazy ass while he just plans to do it again...Ugh!

'So, when are you to going for your little date?' he asked out of nowhere.

'Next Tuesday, 7 pm at Travis'.' I said but immediately regretted saying it. I mean, you never know Dean.

I looked at Dean nervously who laughed out loud.

'Relax baby, your boyfriend is safe if he wants to be safe.' he said.

Boyfriend!

'Look Dean, Randy and I..' I was about to say but Dean cut me off.

'Wow! We reached your place already.' he said. I looked around realizing he was right.

The thought of being separated from him right now killed me in one blow. I hope he understood any of my feelings.

I nodded and opened the door and got out of the car.

I saw Dean staring at me through the window. His blue orbs were almost inside my heart, seeking for something unknown. I gasped as I remembered the expression. It was the same he had before having our special moments. But, it's so different now. He ended it.

'Bye.' I said still staring deep into his eyes. He nodded.

He started the car and went away as I watched.

A huge burden went off my chest as I was able to talk to him after many days.

**********

'Are you like always into herbals Becks?' Bayley asked as I picked my toothpaste, soaps and shampoos from the store.

'Yes Bay..I just want to stay close to nature.' I said with a smile.

Bayley smiled. 'Cool idea. May be I should try too.' she said and picked up a herbal green tea. I showed her a thumbs up.

I usually shop groceries with Alexa but since she's out in Davenport, I brought Bayley and trust me she's a really cool shop buddy.

We did our little shopping, took our stuffs to the counter and made the payments.

We held the bags in our hands and were about to leave the store but suddenly, Bayley tapped my shoulders.

'What?' I asked and she pointed towards something. I looked at the direction and froze.

..there was Dean, hand in hand with our client Renee as he held the cart with the other hand.

They are together? I mean, Dean never brought me or I guess, any of his fucks for shopping. Is Renee that special in his heart?

'Is that his girlfriend?' Bayley asked me.

Of course, she has to be the one. She has got money, beauty and charms. She is his perfect match while girls like me can only satisfy his sexual desires.

I wanted to scream, to cry but just then, I felt Bayley grab a hold of my hand and drag me at their direction.

'Hey Dean!' she yelled walking towards him and Renee.

Dean looked at us and so did Renee. I could say Dean froze just like me. Renee looked at him as she saw us.

'Someone's into a romantic shopping?' Bayley teased. Dean just smiled awkwardly. I saw Renee throwing me a smile.

'So, both of you are in the Shield?' Renee asked.

Bayley smiled.

'Yeah, I'm Bayley Martinez and I'm Dean's Personal Assistant and this is..' she was about to introduce me but Renee talked fast.

'..She's Becky..I know her. We've met before.' she said. I could say Bayley was slightly confused. But, I guess she thought I must have met her with some professional deals.

'So, you're up with shopping?' Dean asked looking at us. I looked away wven though I felt him still looking.

'Yes, we were just leaving and trust me it was so fun to shop with Becks. And also, I learnt a lot about herbals.' Bayley said excited.

'hmmm..interesting!' Renee said looking at Dean.

'So, you are into herbals, huh?' Renee asked me.

'Yeah, I think that brings us closer to nature.' I said sharply.

Renee just smiled and looked at Dean who looked at her.

'Cool then. I can't wait to decorate your kitchen with all herbals.' she said grabbing hold of Dean's arms more tightly.

What? She's gonna decorate his kitchen! But, Dean's butler said he never brought any woman in his house! Are they going to shift together now? Or even get married!

Of course, they can. She's now his girlfriend and perhaps, that's the reason Dean has stopped sleeping with his fucks.

'As you say..' Dean said and picked Renee's hand up and kissed her knuckles.

Tears stung my eyes. I can't hold it any longer.

'Excuse me guys.' I said and left the store. I ran out to the main gate of the shopping complex and burst into tears.

Dean has found his ideal mate. All my hopes ended in a dust. I was never meant to be with him. She wants someone hotter, smarter, richer. Of course, who would choose to be with his employee?

My phone vibrated. I picked it up to see a text from Randy.

Randy: So, how long will you take to say a yes?

I put my phone down. All in my head was Dean, the person I loved with all my heart. But, the harsh realization hit me now. We can never be together. Dean has a girlfriend and I should never even try to force myself on him again. I should try to move on. I sighed and closed my eyes as Randy's words came to my mind.

If you ever feel you're drowning, remember, there will be one hand extended towards you to pull you up.

I opened my eyes. Yes, I will use Randy as my distraction. He could be the one to pull me out of my adversaries. I remembered how he took care of me when Dean broke my heart.

I picked my phone up and texted Randy back.

Becky: It's a yes only if you agree to wait for more hours outside my house when I get ready.

I smiled at the memories of Valentines Day.

My phone buzzed in a second.

Randy: I can wait all my life for my angel to look more angelic. But, I can't wait till Tuesday.

Becky: Me too. I hope we'll have fun.

I closed my phone. I guess I made the right decision.

But, suddenly I felt Bayley jump on my back.

'Hey! When did you come?' I asked.

'Right now. But, you know Renee is a nice girl. And you know, what the funniest part was..she wa...' I stopped her before she showered more about Renee.

'Okay Bayley. I'll hear you later. I'm feeling tired now. Can we please get back home?' I turned the topic.

'ehm..yeah..sure. I'lll call the cab.' Bayley said.

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Hey friends! I'm sorry for being late.

But, trust me, I had some issues and had to rewrite the chapter

I hope it isn't that bad!

Did you guys like it?

Do you think Becky made the right decision?

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Also,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROMAN REIGNS

Can't wait to write his P-O-V next...