Since that night with Roman, Dean has been a little more attentive to him and he let Roman back in bed. He still was shaky when Roman held him, but he fell asleep with Roman holding him. He started to feel safe again, and hardly any nightmares. Roman and Bray left to go to the gym, and he was on the couch watching tv. The mail came and Dean walks out to get it, as he was he walking in and goes thru it, he dropped all the mail when he saw a letter to him, and the name on the top. He goes to the couch and with his shaky hand he opens it up and starts reading it.

Dear Dean, Page 1
It wasn't hard to figure out where you would be. Roman played it smart taking you to Bray's to help you get better. But (sighing here) it been forever since I've went away. I miss you so much..I should be over you (which I'm not), I should known better, but that's just not the case right? Do you think about me? I think about you a lot, but I know it's not the same and if you do its about all the hurt I put you through. I'm wondering right now do you cry yourself to sleep? I do (not like you care), but I deserve it...I had it all and I let it slip away, because I was greedy. When you wake up in the middle of the night, are to calling out for me? I doubt it (only from the nightmares) if you did it would be calling out to a wonderful man like Roman. I guess if I could have waited and not done the stupid things we all could be together right. I reminisce a lot about us a lot, and I know you do from the rapes and beatings. I think about that a lot also and I know sorry (I know won't help).It will never make it better or take away the hurt. I can still feel your kiss, and I know I'm acting crazy (I know I am crazy), but I can't help it.

Page 2
I remember we were one Dean, me and you while Roman was gone (before the rape and beating), you know for a moment in time (chucking here). You'll always be a part of me Dean, and I'm part of you. You know you can't escape me Dean, and no matter what life throws at us you will always be my baby.....listen to me, I'm trying to set you free and ease your mind about me, but I am doing the opposite. Sorry!!! Back on track here....I'm setting you free, and let you live your life Dean, but we both know our love will never die. I'm not trying to get you back or try to kidnap you anymore. I won't lie I am crying (yes while writing this). I won't even beg you to stay or try, cause I don't deserve you, but Roman he does. He loves you so much, but not as much as me. I won't beg you for another chance, we both know it won't happen. I am so determine not to let you leave, so I'm not gonna stand in your way. I want you to be happy, and if it's without me and I hope some day you come back to me and I would treat you better.

Page 3
I wish I could go back in time and undo all that I've done. I am truly sorry. Hope you will eventually forgive me. I am so sorry for hurting you Dean, and someday it will get better. Give Roman a chance and the love he has for you is beyond mine I doubt it. I'm sorry...I know his love is purer than mine, he puts you first instead of his self. He saved you from me...I know your hurting and I know I can never take it back. You can float thru a life created by circumstance, missing day after day, hour after hour. Or you can fight for what you believe in (that's Roman). I know you will make the right choice once your get past this. Have a meaningful life (whatever definition it has for you), and go towards it. Take everything Roman is giving you, and let him help you forget about me. Let him hold you and show you, that it will get better. I will be gone from your life, but you won't be far from my heart.

Page 4
I know you could never forgive me for all the bitterness, anger, fear or distrust. But let Roman help you get thru that, cause hating is jut another way of holding on and you don't deserve that. You deserve to be happy and smiling and laughing. I think it's time..no I know it's time to let you go, and that's so hard to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life. I know you are sitting there in fear and worrying, and it's not healthy. So this is me, cutting the cord. This is me doing what I should have done months ago: "saying goodbye." I know it's hard cause you will constantly look over your shoulders, but don't. Take Romans hand and know he's gonna protect you and never live in fear again. This is my word "Goodbye!" I realized, over all, Roman was the one who will made you happy. There were moments I made you happy, but the rest it was hell. That's why I swear I'll try and get over you. We might have had something really great, but Roman got you and is the better man. I will never forget the good times I had with you (before the hurt), but I also never forget how I hurt you when you trusted me. Don't shut Roman out for the shit I did to you. You can learn to love and trust again with Roman.

Page 5
Dean, sometimes you just have to turn the page to realize there is more to your book of life than the page your stuck on. Please stop being afraid to move on (I know that's what your doing). Close that chapter of hurt (It's hard, I understand), and never re-read it again. It's time to get what you're life deserves (with Roman), and move on from the things you think your don't deserve. Don't spend your days trying to hide and don't let the love Roman has for you slip by, but instead, let go (again I know it's hard) and let Roman better your future. He loves you and wants what you want and to heal you. Let him make you breakfast in bed, and watch movies with you in bed. Wear his hoodie and feel the comforted in it when your cold. Look into his eyes and know he truly loves you. He came into your life and that changed everything. He makes you laugh, and makes you feel special. There's something about him that I know you can't put into words, and even though your with him, don't let him go cause of all the shit I did. So I'll end this letter to let you know I'm leaving you alone and never live in fear of me coming for you (I know you will). You have my word (I know it means shit to you). Goodbye Dean, I will always love you, but you have the better man and cherish him like he cherishes you.
Seth...

P.S. The hardest part about walking away from you is the part where I realized that, no matter how slowly I go, I know you will never run after me.

P.S.S. Please tell Roman I am truly sorry for hurting him also, I know it doesn't mean shit to him either. I truly mean it, he is a great man who gave me a chance and blew it with him also. You two deserve each other so much and I wish you the best Dean, you and Roman. I know you two will be happy forever.

Dean was shocked and actually had tears as he read the letter. Could this be real? Could Seth really be out of his life forever, and he can go on and be happy again? So many mixed emotions and thoughts going thru his head. He was completely lost in thought. When Roman and Bray comes on.

"Dean why is all the mail over the floor man?" Bray picks it up.

Roman goes over to Dean and looks at him, "Dean, you alright?"

Dean didn't say anything his mind was on the letter and thoughts going thru his head, he didn't even hear them come in or what Roman or Bray even said. He just clung to the letter and sits there and stares at the wall.