Roman was sleeping and suddenly he felt someone moving around and shaking and feeling like someone was losing their breath. I woke up and looked around here it was Dean. I raised my hand for a stewardess and she came to me.

"I don't know what's wrong with my friend, can you help me please?" Roman ask.

"Omg! He's having a panic attack sir, we have to get him awake. And have him calm down, he could die if he don't calm, I can see his choking." The stewardess said.

Roman shook Dean up slowly, and he woke up.

"Roman my chest hurts real bad, and feel sick to the stomach." Dean said sweating.

The stewardess said. "Lets get him to the bathroom ."

Dean got up with Roman, and went to the bathroom, and Dean went in. They waited out the door.

"You will have to calm him down and reassure him everything will be alright and praise him okay. When he is done, go behind these curtains, it's first class and no one is in there, and he's going to need a quiet place to calm down" The stewardess said and smiled, "I will bring your stuff to you okay."

"Thank you so much." Roman smiled at her.

Suddenly Roman heard something going on in the bathroom. Sounded like Dean fell down, and then he heard something break. He opened the door and Dean was going crazy. He got a hold of Dean and tried to calm him down, but he won't, so Roman had to grab him, and cover his mouth and drag him to first class.

"Dean, listen you have to calm down okay. What's wrong babe, you can tell me, I'm here for you." Roman said.

Dean just looked at him more angry. "You actually left me there Roman, why? I hate you man."

Roman tried to calm him down. "Dean calm down it was a dream, it alright. I'm going help you thru this. Please calm down." He tried to hold him.

The stewardess came back with his stuff and some water. Roman thanked her again, she told them they can stay here for the rest of their flight that it was alright.

"Here Dean take your medicine okay, it will help you relax alright and I'm right here." Roman assured him.

Dean just looked at Roman and wasn't sure to believe him, but took the medicine, and went to sit down on one if the adjoining seats. I went to join him, and he put his head on my shoulder, and I rubbed his back to relax him.

"Your doing great baby, just relax, and breath." Roman said.

Dean lifted his head. "Roman your still taking me to back to Seth right? I still want to go, and that's where I need to be."

Roman still pissed about that fact, and he looked at Dean, and tried to control his anger. "Yes Dean, I am. Are you sure that is what you want still? I want you to be sure." He lifted Dean on his lap, and made him look into his eyes.

Dean looked into his eyes. "Roman I'm sure, you need someone that you never have to worry about and deserves you. I am better off with Seth, because he can handle me, and he knows me, and I am who he says I am. Please don't fight or argue with me okay."

Roman wasn't gonna fight or argue with Dean. He just cupped Dean's face and kissed him, he didn't know what else to do, and Dean kissed him back. It got heated, and Dean wanted him and Roman felt it. He didn't want to freak Dean out so he stopped. They both caught their breath, and stared at each other. This was the guy Roman remembered, this is the guy he wanted back. The love the passion the touch the feeling he gave him. He did it again, he cupped his face and kissed him again, and it got heated again, and this time it didn't stop. Roman wanted him right now and right here, but he knew he couldn't, not like this while Dean was confused. I had to stop, I didn't want to but did. I lifted Dean off of me and walked away to calm down, and let the emotions flow out of me.

Why do I feel this way with Roman? When he kissed me, I wanted more, it got heated and I just wanted him to make love to me, but if he tried I would have freaked out, and then I would have felt bad, but he stopped and was glad he did. We caught our breath, and stared at each other, and he was so handsome, and I know he is a soft gentle man. I hated that I feel this way, but it is how it is. He surprised me again and it got heated again, damn I wanted him to make love to me right here and right now. He stopped and lifted me off of him and walked away from me. I wanted to know why. I got up and walked over to him.

"Roman, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you or get you excited if I did. I don't know what came over me. What can I do to make it better for you?" Dean turned and looked at Roman, and seen tears in his eyes.

Dean turned around and went and sat down, he made Roman cry, down I am stupid worthless pathetic heartless man. I made him cry, all because I kissed him and I liked it, and I teased him, and couldn't go thru all the way. I hate myself, and I just want to die and rid this world of a guy who doesn't deserve to be around a great guy like Roman or people at all. I just sat here on the seat, and prayed and ask God silently to take me away and just let me die and let me leave this world. I'm not worthy if such a wonderful place to live. Seth I'm sorry also, but you deserve better than me also. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

Roman just stood there, and didn't know what to think. He just let the tears flow, he wanted Dean so bad, and wanted to make love to him. But damn it Seth ruined it and just had to be fucking selfish and take everything I wanted. I didn't see Dean or hear what he asked me at first. I was so lost in my emotions, that he was the last person I was thinking about. I still was pissed that he wanted Seth also, I mean why go back to him. Then I realize Dean saw the tears in my eyes and then I try it think what he asked me. Damn it, I should have paid attention, after all he just had a panic attack. I walked over it him.

"Dean what was you asking me?" Roman asked him, and realize he was sleeping. He kissed his forehead, and put a blanket on him.

Seth....

Finally Dean came to his senses and coming back. I knew he would see his cant do it without me. Sure Roman can protect him, but can he actually make Dean feel unwanted and unlove like he made him feel? No all Roman can do is try and fix him, but Dean is unfixable, and mine. I will have to teach him a lesson for leaving with Roman, but I will deal with that when he comes home.

I'm surprise Roman is bringing him, I knew he couldn't handle him. Dean is to fragile to deal with. Roman doesn't know how to deal with a pathetic excuse of a man, and he's such a baby now, Roman cant deal with that. Hell maybe I can talk him into stay with me, and we both can have Dean whenever we want and teach him a lesson, I mean after all he had to bring Dean back here, and I'm sure he is angry and frustrated. He has to get it out one way. This is going to be easy, and I'm excited to have my Dean back.

I went to the basement and made sure I had everything ready and waiting for Dean, but I had a feeling I won't need all of this because Dean will do everything I say from now on, if he doesn't want a whole lot of beatings. I love him so much and he and I were meant for each other, and the sooner he realize that, then he will be use to it. I just hope I can get Roman to join me, like I said he will be mad for having to bring him.

I made sure I had the same collar and same handcuffs I used the last time, I won't want anything new for my love. I want everything the same, so I have everything brought here, and in the basement. Oh how Dean is going to be surprise, I had this room designed just like that room, and he better appreciate all I did for him. I even put the bat where he can see it, I figured if he sees it he won't disobey me so much, and give into whatever I want. If Roman doesn't want to join, well that's his own fault, but he'll return. Seth laughed.

OMG!!!!! DEAN'S FIRST PANIC ATTACK, AND HE THINKS HE MADE ROMAN CRY..... SETH MADE HIS BASEMENT INTO DEAN'S OLD ROOM HE WAS RAPED AND BEATING IN...... WHAT IS GOING ON AND IT'S ALMOST TIME FOR ROMAN TO BRING DEAN TO SETH...... WILL HE ACTUALLY HAND HIM OVER OR WILL HE DO SOMETHING ELSE?????? POOR DEAN THINKS HE ISNT WORTH LIVING......