Bray couldn't leave Dean with just anybody. He had to get a hold of Luke and get him back here. He sat with Dean and still no responds from him. Days went on and no luck from Roman, but finally from Luke.

"Luke I need you back here man, when you come back. Check all the hotels and see where and what hotel room Roman is in alright." Bray asked.

"Alright Bray, on my way, and no sign of Seth. Give me a day and I'll be there." Luke said.

Bray was relieved that he got a hold of someone. What made him so mad is that Roman has been here and left. He figured he had a lot of explaining to do and he's gonna do it. He has no idea what to even tell Dean why he's not here and Roman will.

Bray looked up at Dean and seen him move a bit. He got up and moved closer to him.

"Easy man, easy. I need you to hold off for a bit long bro. Roman's not here and his face is who you should see not my ugly mug." Bray said.

The next day, Bray got all his stuff packed and ready to leave, all he was waiting for was word from Luke. And hour later Luke walks in and you can tell he had bad news, but that didn't stop Bray.

"I didn't find Roman in any if the hotel rooms Bray. If he was here then he checked out fast and left in a hurry." Luke said in dismay and disappointed in giving Bray the bad news.

"It is just what I expect man, just what I expected. I need you to stay with Dean alright Luke. Can you do that for me man?" Bray looked down at Dean and then at Luke.

Luke looks at Bray. "Go man, do what you got to do. I'll stay with Dean, and keep you updated."

Bray hugged his friend and said he will be back in a few days and to please keep him updated, and left. He figured out on the road where he could be. He wondered if he went back to the Islands, but he doubt that after what went down. Then he thought about his parents house, he could have went there to think things out. But he would have left by now, then it hit him. Roman went home, back to his house to avoid everything to his safe haven.

Bray knew it would take two days to get there, but it will be worth the drive to get his ass back to Dean. He also wanted to know why he showed up and then leave, and why he even left in the damn first place? He loves Dean and claims he is his first love....then where in the hell is he then?

I finally made it to Roman's place and seen he is home, and he knocked on the door and no answer. It was dark and he knew he was home with the lights on. He heard beer cans being thrown, and he waited a few more minutes. He didn't answer so Bray picked the lock and made his way in. He was shocked at what he saw.

He walked into the living room and saw a drunk Roman, and beer cans everywhere, and broken glass everywhere. His place stunk so bad, well at least the living room. He walked into the kitchen and it was just as a mess as the living room. What happen to his friend, what could have made him turn his self like this? He walked into the living room and stood there and watched Roman. He have no idea if he knew he was there or not but he just stood there.

After an hour Bray watched Roman take 5 shots of whiskey and drink 2 beers straight down. He had his head down and just stared at the floor, again wither he knew if Bray was there or not he was not sure. Bray got tired of standing and went to the chair and sat down and stared at Roman.

"I'm not going back Bray, I couldn't protect Dean, and I can't protect him now." Roman said still looking down at the floor.

Bray plays with his beard, and smiles. "I'm not hear to talk about Dean or how you couldn't protect him Roman......but your going back that's for sure my child."

Roman finally lifted his head, well what he could lift and growled at Bray. "Fuck you Bray, I'm not going back. So you can either have a drink or shut the hell up, before you ruin my buzz man."

Bray smiles at Roman again and just stares at him. "Roman, I know your drunk and frustrated and well honestly I refuse to talk to you in this state, so I'll just wait until tomorrow."

Roman looks at Bray and then lays down and laughs. "I can be sobered up tomorrow man, and I'm still not going back....but you got the two things right. I am frustrated and drunk."

Roman kept laughing and laughing and he laid down and hugged his pillow and called it Dean and fell asleep instantly. He was snoring in a minute and Bray knew he was in a deep sleep.

Bray got up and started to clean up this mess Roman left behind. What he couldn't understand is why he let his self go this long, and not care. He got the living room cleaned and the glass cleaned up...well most of it and went to the kitchen. It wasn't to bad as the living room, but bad enough. You can tell he hasn't washed dishes in a while. He looked in the dish washer, and seen dishes in it, but he just simply quit after a while. He took out the clean dishes and stacked the dishwasher with the dirty dishes and turned it on. He finished the kitchen, and went back to the living room.

He looked around the living room and searched for the vacuum for in the morning. He found it and then took the bag of beer cans out to the back and came back in. He went to the kitchen to wash his hands, and notice the coffee maker. He looked for everything and had the coffee maker ready for the morning. After three hours of cleaning the mess Roman made, he decided to laid down on the other side of the room and lay down on the couch. He went to sleep and he didn't have to worry about convincing Roman to come back with him, cause he know he was already coming back with him.

The Next Morning....

Bray was up and waiting for the coffee to brew and he decided it was time to wake up Roman. He turned on the vacuum, and that woke Roman up and he was holding his head. That brought a smile to Bray's face, and he kept going, and didn't care if it hurt his head. He kept going and when he was finished he went into the kitchen and brought Roman a cup of black of coffee, and sat it in front of him.

"I rather have a beer, and a shot of whiskey. Take this back and get it right Bray." Roman said annoyed.

Bray laughed at him. "Sorry man, but that shit isn't on the menu today. Drink the damn coffee and sober up more. We have a lot to do today, and your ass being drunk will be in the way."

Roman looked at Bray again annoyed. "We have nothing to talk about dude, so I suggest you leave. I have shit to do today, and your not part of it."

"Roman what you have plan is not optional. We have to get packed and back to Dean." Bray said.

Roman was now furious. " What part of not fucking going back don't you understand huh?"

Roman got up and went to the kitchen and Bray followed him. He went to the fridge and grabbed a beer and popped it open and was about to drink it when Bray snatched it out if his hand and dumped it down the sink and smiled the while time as it was going down the drain.

"What the fuck Bray?" Roman said pissed off.

Roman reached for another beer and opened it and Bray took that one and dumped it down the drain and smiling.

"Bray, you snatch another fucking beer from my hand and I will literally kick your ass man, don't push me." Roman said angry.

Roman once again grabbed another and popped it and he looked at Bray and opened his mouth and about ready to drink when Bray snatched and drained it again smiling. Roman had enough and ran towards Bray, and he moves from Roman, and Roman hits on hip on the sink counter.

Bray was laughing. "Boy, we can go at this all day kicking each others asses, but Dean needs us, but if kicking your ass takes that then lets go man." He laughs harder.

Roman didn't like his remark, and ran towards Bray. He pushed him down and started to punch him. He let out his anger and frustration out on Bray. He wanted Bray to feel what he's been feeling since he left. He wanted Bray to know how much he was hurting since he left Dean, and how much he loves Dean, and how he let him down. He just kept punching him and punching him, and Bray punched him one time, and Roman stopped and fell off of him.

"Are we done boy? Like I said we can go at it all day or we can go to Dean." Bray said looking at Roman.

Roman was sitting with his knees to his chest and crying, just finally letting it out for real. All the pain and hurt and anger now just left him, and all he wanted to do was just cry.

Bray scooted over to Roman, and pulled him into his arms, and held him. "Let it out Roman, let it out. I'm here for you man, now you ready to talk?"

Roman cried and then looked up at Bray. "I'm ready Bray, I need to let it out."

"Let it out man, I'm here I'll listen to everything. I'm not here to judge man." Bray said holding Roman still.

"I left the same day I seen Dean (sniffling). I couldn't handle see (coughing) him like that man. Not Dean (crying), I promised him I would protect him (sniffling) and I didn't. I-I-I.....j-j-just.....l-l-let.....(sniffling) S-S-Seth.....r-r-rape.....h-h-him ( crying harder)....I let him down, and well......(wiping his eyes) I couldn't see him (sniffling) hooked to those machines knowing I let........I let......(breaking down).................."

"You don't have to go on Roman, I understand man....I do, and it's not your fault really. Did you rape him?" Bray looked at him.

Roman shook his head no.

"Did you hurt him and put him in that hospital?" Bray again looked at him.

Again Roman shook his head no.

"Then why are you hurting yourself and getting drunk and letting yourself go like this and not caring huh? Do you think this is what Dean wants to see?" Bray looked at him.

Roman wipes his eyes and looks at Bray. "Your right, this isn't what Dean would want. I.....well......I felt I let him down Bray (looking at him). I felt leaving him and not seeing him and knowing your there to protect him then I don't have to worry he's in good hands. I got drunk and let it all go to let the pain go and feel nothing."

Bray understood what Roman was saying in a way he probably done the same. He looked over to the room and saw Roman's phone and got up, and got it. He picked it up and sat back down beside him.

"I see you got my texts and calls and voicemails, but didn't bother to open them or listen to them. I didn't spend half my days texting and dialing for nothing Roman. It was important, very important. Why don't you read this one right here man," Bray smiled and handed Roman his phone.

Roman read the message and the ones before them and tears ran down his cheeks again. He could have missed Dean waking up and not seeing those beautiful baby blue eyes in month. He came across a picture of Dean off of all those machines. His heart started to fall apart, because he missed all of that. He looked at Bray and then at the picture and for the first time in a month he actually had a smile.

"That's the Roman I remember man, now how about this coffee?" Bray handed Roman.

Roman started to drink the coffee, and then looked at Bray.

"I went into the living room and got it to give you privacy man." Bray gave him that devious smile.

Roman gets up and finishes the coffee and leaves the kitchen and heads upstairs and in his room. He goes to the bathroom and turns the water on and strips down and enters the shower. He lets the not water hit every ache on his body and let the silent tears rolls down. He has been so selfish and ignorant this whole month and lost a month of Dean getting better. He would have felt like shit if Dean woke up and it wasn't his face he seen.

He finished his shower and got dressed and sat on his bed to think. Is he ready to go back and face his lover for leaving him? Will Dean forgive him for leaving him cause he was a coward? He went to the bathroom and was about ready to brush his hair when he actually saw his self for the first time in a month. He looked rugged and rough. Sure he got a shower but never cared to look in the mirror, but for the first time it shocked the hell out of him. He was so ashamed he just walked away from the bathroom and back to his bedroom.

He finished packing his bag, and decided to face his self again in the mirror. Who in the hell is this guy in the mirror? Sure in the hell isn't Roman Reigns!!! This guy is someone who just forgot who he was and why he even existed in this world. Did this guy even have a life outside of alcohol? Did this guy even care if he had anyone or wanted anyone? Roman kept looking at this guy in the mirror and couldn't figure out why he let this guy come out. He knew he was severely depressed and hateful and simply gave up, but to not try......it wasn't fair to him to the guy in the mirror.

Roman looked at the razor and shaving cream, and then again at the guy in the mirror. Is it fair to let this guy go and shave him away and never let him figure out what will make him happy? What if keeping him here makes him find his true self? Roman looks down at the sink to think. Dean came into his mind, that beautiful silly grin. Those beautiful baby blue eyes looking at him. His hands touching his face, and touching his beard and smiling at him. Roman looks back into the mirror and actually smiles.

"Your staying man in the mirror(talking to his unshaven face).....simply because I can't let you go just yet. I'm still confused, and even though I'm going back to my love of my life. I can't just......(rubbing his face) shave you. So warning to all mirrors, this is what your going to be looking at." Roman smiled at his self in the mirror, and fixed his hair.