Dean stares at Roman and doesn't say anything. He did wonder what was going thru the mind of Romans right now. Did he remember what he said or why they even fought for? He loves Roman so much,and he's everything he ever wanted in a man. Just why can't he realized it's not time. He won't lie he missed Roman not holding him and his kisses. He knows Roman would go to the end of the earth for him, but he can't help it. Maybe he does need help?

Damn his grey eyes are memorizing. He could, well could've stared in them for hours. He could have done a lot of things with Roman, but now he is just scared. He wants Roman to wrap his big strong arms around him and tell him that everything is going it be alright. He wanted to feel his hot breathe on his neck while he rested his head on his chest. Hell the kisses he gave him, made him high alone.

Dean got up and slowly walks over to Roman and sat on the table. He still didn't say anything. He stares at him and didn't know what to think. His feelings were hurt last night and still hurting. How can this man, laying on the couch doubt his love for him? Maybe he is right, he doesn't know if his touch still drives him crazy, cause it has been months since he touched him.

"Why are you staring at me like that Dean?" Roman finally spoke.

"I....I want to talk Roman (looks down now)." Dean said.

Roman turns on his side and looks at Dean now. Why now does he want to talk? He asked Dean a lot of shit last night and he didnt want to talk, but now he does. He wasn't even in the mood to talk. He slowly gets up to a sitting position. He stretches and grunts, he gets up and goes to get a shower. He thought it was best not to talk to Dean when he is pissed like he did last night. His anger caused him to drink, but Dean should know he won't hurt him.

He got in the shower and let the hot water hit his sore and achy muscles. He thought about what he wanted and he would never leave Dean. He just wants to hold him in his arms and show him how much he loves him and wants to protect him. Maybe he should have talk to Dean, but he was still pissed about last night. He knows deep down Dean is aching for him to hold him, but just scared. Just one hug and he knows he can convince Dean he won't hurt or leave him and he understands what he's going thru.

Dean got up and went to his bedroom and laid down. He didn't know what to think. He wanted Roman to talk to him about what Roman was feeling, but refused. Is he gonna leave me now or just ignore me? Dean couldn't handle not having someone else leave him.

Roman comes out and gets dried off and then wraps a towel around him and out to their room and puts a pair of boxers on and pair of shorts on and stands there and looks at Dean while he puts his hair in a low bun. He noticed he was thinking about something and goes over to the bed. He slowly touches Deans cheek, and smiles. He loves him so much, and then moves his hand fast. He knew Dean didn't like to be touch.

He stands back up and smiles and goes over to the door to go to the living room and watch some tv. Roman felt a hand on his shoulder and turned around. It was Dean, he put his arms around Roman and hugged him. Roman wrapped his arms around Deans waist and hugged him back. It felt good to hold him again. He didn't even ask him why he decided to hug him, he just held him tight.

Dean saw Roman come out in a towel and watched him dressed. He loved how he put his hair up, and he thought a lot about what he said. He really wanted to talk to Roman and discuss what was going thru his head. He miss Romans arms around him and he felt safe in them. He watched Roman start to leave the bedroom and he got up. He walked behind Roman and tapped his shoulder.

They looked into each other eyes and Dean wrapped his arms around Romans neck and held him tight. He felt Roman's arms go around his waist he felt so safe and so loved and so wanted. Why he waited so long is beyond him, and he squeezed Roman tighter and felt Roman go tighter.

Dean spoke first and released his grip a little and looked into Romans eyes. He didn't say anything right away. Just looked into his eyes. "Roman?" he said before speaking again. He wasn't sure if he knew what he was gonna say, but it had to be perfect and to show Roman he still needs him, so he did the next best thing.

Dean pressed his lips on Romans and kissed him. It was a soft and gentle kiss, he didn't want to go to deep he wasn't ready for that. He removes his lip and smiles at Roman. He hoped at assured Roman all his worries can leave him, and that he loves him and he loves his touches.

Dean lifts his self off Roman and smiles, "I love you Roman and you turn me on and you don't know how bad you do. You still enough for me and give me everything I could ever want and please don't give up on me. I hate being this way I do, it's so frustrating."

"Talk to me Dean, I'm here to listen and hold you and make you feel better. I don't just want sex from you Dean. Just holding you is all I need and I love you and let you know I'm here and won't leave you. It hurts just being away from you."

Dean sighs and looks at the floor, "I know Roman, but it's not that simple. I hear Seth, and it hurts and I hear him over and over in my mind. I have nightmares of what happened, and I want to forget it. I can't and with you I know I can do it, I want to."

Roman lifts Deans face and smiles, "Together Dean we can do it. I love you and I am sorry I left like that and alone. I am being patient with you, but it gets frustrating for me also. I gave you space and slept on the couch, and last night I lost it and I am sorry."

Dean felt Roman kiss his forehead and it felt right and perfect. He felt a small amounts of sparks come thru him when Roman kissed his forehead. He wanted to start over and fresh and hoped he would forget Seth. He laid his head on Romans chest and let him wrap his strong arms around his back and rubbed it.

Roman smiles and holds Dean and knew this was a small step for Dean,"I love you Dean."

Dean stays in Romans arms and nods....

It hurt Roman that Dean didn't say he loved him back....