(Five months later
Btw, the picture is faith!!!)

Faiths P.O.V

I woke up earlier then normal, Bucky was still asleep. I did as I usually did when I woke up before Bucky, I made coffee, and I got ready to go to the gym. I left Bucky a little note on the fridge, telling him were I went. I didn't like to text  a lot. It was still part knew to me... I wasn't vey good at it.
I discovered that Bucky likes to help out in the kitchen, so instead on going out to eat every other night, he helped me make new recipes in a book I'm making. His favorite so far was plum pie. It was my grandmothers recipe, I remembered it when Bucky brought home plums and peaches. The peaches were for me, I loved them. And Bucky, was in love with plums. Every time we went to a local. Farmers market, he'd beg me to get him plums . with the little bit of left over budget I had, working at Starbucks on days me and Bucky didn't have sessions. Days we did, were days I went to the gym, etc.
I also figured that getting these night mares.....these memories... Wasn't going to be the easiest thing to deal with. And with Bucky having the same thing, I didn't tell him  much about what I had nightmares about. I didn't want to burden him with all my shit, while he was going through his.
That's why I  went to a gym. To just let it all out on the punching bags. Sometimes, they wouldn't work, sometimes they did. Buck knew I.went to the.gym, but he didn't know why. Another thing I didn't tell him.
I still was in contact with Bruce and Clint. Those two were always accepting of me. Clint also liked to gamble, which became a habit of mine when me and him hung out.
He had three beautiful children, and a wonderful wife. Bucky would usually go with me to see Clint. Mostly when it was one of Clint's kids birthdays, so they could drink a few beers. I never drank before, and a didn't plan on doing so  at any time in my life.
At least Bucky understood. After hearing how many party's Tony used to throw, Tony wouldn't understand why I didn't drink.

I left to the gym, wearing a hoodie over a sports bra, and I wore leggings. It was slightly chilly, for a normal person. People who went to work early were in high jackets. I only wore a hoodie because I didn't like being out side with work out clothes... Or in any thing that showed my arm... God I hated it...

When I got there, I looked around, it was dark...  Usually when I came here, there was no one there... But I could tell some one was.
I thought nothing of it at first. Even though I could feel them watching me. I left my hoodie on, and I took of my shoes, and set them on the ground. And I went to the line of punching bags. And I went to the first one.
I hit it several times. The bags swung back and forth. I wasn't using half my strength. I used my bare hands.
" you know,  it helps to wear gloves" A male voice said behind me. I stoped. He had a thick Sakovian accent. " yeah... I left mine at home. " I lied. " he put A hand on my shoulder. And leaned down next to my ear, his hot breath on my neck."Nadezda " he Whispered. I grabbed his hand and twisted his arm, pushing him into a wall." Who the hell are you" I half yelled. He grunted in pain."well I'm waiting " I said. I let him go, knowing he wouldn't give me an answer. So I grab my shoes and leave, putting them on out side. And run home.

I got home sooner then I planed to, but I didn't care.
When I walked inside, Bucky sat in the living room.
"Your back early." He said. " yeah well.... It was crowded, and I didn't want to be there too long. " I said. I hated lieing to Bucky....
" your lieing " he said." " no I'm not" I said. "I can tell when people are lieing... Tell me what happened." he said, grabbing my hand, and pulling me next to him." Fine.... Some one was there.... In the dark.watching me. I didn't care at first... But a few minutes later... He was behind me, he pit his hand on my shoulder and he whispered in my ear." I said. Bucky's eye brows furrowed. " what did he say?" He asks. I took a shaky breath." Nadezda " I said. "I thought you were over hope.... " Bucky said." Well I thought I was too! But every time I close my eyes there she is!" I said standing up. " you have to let her go... You have to let both of them go, your sisters murder was not your fault! " Bucky said. " you have to stop blaming your self for something you couldn't control... That your father couldn't control.... " he continued. "I feel like I could have done more! I feel like... I feel like that if I would have stoped them..." I started, but Bucky cut me off. " Faith just stop. You did what you could do... And you could do nothing more....you did your best and that's all that matters... " he said. Pulling me back next to him." Look.... Did you know what the man looked like." Yeah, green eyes blond hair... Maybe over 30 or 40...." I said. "What happened after that? " Bucky asked. " I..." I stoped. "I grabbed his hand and twisted it... Pining him into a wall..." I finally said." Did you hurt him? " Bucky whispered. " I don't know... I left..." I said. Bucky hugged me.            " Buck?" I asked." Yes?" He replied, playing with my hair.  " I'm going to Clint's  tomorrow.... Can you come with me?" I ask." Of course I will... I have nothing planned  tomorrow... " he said. I looked at the time." Oh shit!" I said. "What?!" Bucky said, I leaked not the couch, and ran to the bathroom the change in to real clothes. " were going to be late for that damn session! " I said, slipping on a long sleeves shit, and jeans, putting on my shoes, and  jacket , along with my gloves. Bucky frowned.            " There not that bad..." He said, throwing on a clean shirt and his shoes. " well, if Christiana didn't ask us so much personal shit, maybe I would like them better " I said, tossing Bucky his jacket, he picked up his gloves, I put some water on my hand and walked over to Bucky," you'll hate me for this, but you need to shower when we get back" I said, running my hand through his hair, it was hard to use my left hand for most things. I was used to using my right, but it was metal... And Fury told me to make using my left hand more natural.
" noted" Bucky said, as we left the apartment, and we walked quickly to our session.

~~~at session ~~~~

"So Mr. Barnes, have you had any nightmares lately?" She asked.
"No" Bucky said.
" what about you miss.kelley? " she said
I said nothing. Bucky nudged me." Umm...small ones." I said." About?" She pressed. " I was in a bank....while I was the winter solider.... And I held a gun to a mans head..." I said. Buckys eyes darkened a bit.
Most of my night mare was about Bucky....most of them were... I never told him about it...and NIW I felt bad...

~~Bucky's P. O. V.~~

The remembered when we had to fight in the bank all those hears ago.
I couldn't admit that I had a nightmare as well. I killed a few men as the winter solider.
And after that nightmare, was the train.... When me and Faith both fell while she tried to same me.
But I'd never tell her my nightmares always ended with her...
I couldn't ask her about he nightmares, because I knew they were about me... And I didn't want her to know that I knew.
God why couldn't I tell her I loved her. Christiana almost called me out the other day, when Christina called me out on being friendless. And mow she was doing the same thing." Phones now" she said. Faith handed both of them to her. She started with mine.  " You don't have ten numbers on this thing.the only person you've talked to is me And Faith...you ignored the texts from Sam, " Christina mused.she tossed it back to me." Well at least Faith talks to people. She  talks to Clint and Bruce, even responds to Sam... Occasionally... " she said handing faith her phone. " you both need to get out more... Make some friends. "
"We have friends! I'm going to see Clint tomorrow with Faith!" I said to her. Faith nodded in agree ment.
"What I'm saying is, that you both need friends your physical age."  She says. "we had friends our physical age, but three of them are dead, besides we  are friends. We don't need a hundred people." Faith said. I nod in agreement. " she takes out her not book." Enough about that, I want to know about your nightmare James. " she says. I sigh, " I didn't have a nightmare " I say." We've done this long enough for me to know when your lying. " she says. Faith looks at her hands. Christiana clicked her pen." Oh come.on your going to do the note book thing? Seriously?.... Passive aggressive..." I say. Faith hides a smile." You don't talk I Wright" Christiana said. I sigh. " look give us a break... We're both new at this. And its not exactly easy. We both just went fight to fight for 90 years... Wakanda was just a Small break. " I said. Faith looked at me. She understood... Thank god someone did." James, Faith, you both have your minds back, your free " she said to us." To do what?"I asked." James... What do you want most in this World? " she says." Peace" me and faith both say. " that... It utter Bullshit. " she says. I sigh. "I Was a good soldier James... I saw a lot of innocent people die, bodys everywhere... I know what people in this world are capable off... And the two of you do as well." She said." The last thing you both could want , is peace." She said. She thought I was joking about peace.... No I wasn't. I've seen people die, I've seen what people in this world could do, and the first thing I wanted really was peace.

After the session, we were walking back home, when I saw yori arguing with one of his next door nabores. " I nod to Faith ,and she keeps.walking home, while I calm Yori down, and offer to take him to lunch.

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Later that night, I smelt something really good in the small kitchen. My hair was wet, I did what Faith told me go do this morning, shower...
I walked into the kitchen with my sweatpants on, and my shirt in my hand. Faith was pulling something out of the oven. " what is it this time?" I ask, " um... Chicken casa roll... With extra cheese," she said, I smile. " it smells really good Faithie" I tease, she turned to face me, her face slightly pink. "good thing to know somethings never changed." I playfully mocked." Oh stop" she laughed getting on her tippy toes to reach the plates. " umm. No I don't think I will shorty" I said. Smirking at her struggle.    " I hate you" she pouted. "Its a emotion, at least it means something." I commented. She sighed. " help " she said, unable to reach." I look at her. " magic word?" I say. She glares at me." Fine fine... Sorry " I say defensively.

After we ate, Faith did the dishes, and put the extra food away. When she came to the living room. I thought about somethings. " what's wrong buck?" She asked,. Sitting next to me." Just thinking... " I reply, looking at her.
" your night mare last night.... I... I didn't mean to, but, I couldn't sleep....but I over heard you sleep talking kinda... " I said. She was quite for a while. "Its fine..." She says." Nothing it going to happen to me" I say." I know.... But its just that little bit of Anxiety that turned into something its not..." She says." I have nightmares about you all the time, if that helps anything... " I say. " wow, am I that scary?" She says. I smile. " yeah, you are terrifying you little grimlin " I say, poking her side. She punched my hand away. " I'm there, I'm gonna head to bed." She says, standing up. " wait... I know this might sound weird... But, if you want... You can stay with me....so we can protect each other from nightmares?" I say. A smile  creeps onto her face,       " fine,  under one condition " she says." And that is?" I ask." I can bring my fuzzy blanket?" She says, making puppy eyes, she knew  liked that blanket, but I pretended to hate it." Deal" I say, and she went to get her blanket.
We both played down on the floor, faith took my brown blanket, because I stole hers in a tickle fight. All night I thought about how adorable she was... How calm she could be... How much I missed her... When she fell asleep, I smiled to myself, " good night Dolly " I Whispered, drifting off. And I thought I heard a soft," good night Buck Buck".
Then I fell into a deeper sleep.

I know, long ass chapter, I.wanted to add this, because my lonely ass wanted to, so, yeah, expect more of it.
With school coming up.I won't be able to post every day, but i'll try my best.
Also, starting g close to Halloween, I plan on doing daily quotes, no clue what the first will bring...
Anyways, I love you all 3000!!!!