Holy shit. I am.... so sorry to everyone who was reading this fic and wanted updates. No one messaged me and no one commented asking for an update. But I know some people would have hoped for SOMETHING. It has literally been almost a YEAR since I updated. I can't begin to explain how fucking insane my life got. Also, my creative interests changed a bit. I moved from drawing and writing to wanting to do photography.

School is kinda hell rn, so I have no way of knowing how well I can manage to balance my time if I do say that I'm coming back. I did come across some songs that were apart of the playlist for this fic WHICH YOU CAN LISTEN TO HERE: https://open.spotify.com/user/1278280972/playlist/4SFYu9P0Nqe8QtI4WvjNVE?si=lS1MV00pRLijp4GwGOdMoA

And.... man.... I missed it. I also feel in tune with my lonely depressed self again... like how I was in 2017 kinda. I am super single and have been for a few months now. Had/having a crazy Tinder journey. So many men.... so many d- yeah I'll stop right there. Lmao. 

Life really fucking sucks at this very moment. I have a crush on my fwb. He is going to give me soooooo many things that I want, but he doesn't like me and that's really tough for a multitude of reasons. He's perfect for me too, it's uh.... tragic. He's helped me build self esteem and helped me be happier but somehow managed to take those things away kinda now so that's cute.

Listen yall I gotta finish this thing eventually. I love the ending more than anything in this whole world. I wanna have yall READ that goddamn GOLDEN ending. Just gotta get there, ya know? And after this fic maybe I'll retire from this website. For a bit. I just don't have a strong passion for writing or a love for bandslash pairings much anymore.... I literally lost my fangirl hype. It's super sad, I know.

But anyway, thank you EVERYONE who has been reading it, old and new. Yall are the realist.

pls yell at me to continue this and tell me why you like this fic. boost my ego pls. these are desperate times. pls. motivate me. i need it. i missed my baby aka this fic, i did. aint lyin.