'Lie to me again.' She whispered
'I love you.' He said.
-Unknown

Darcy

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There was something different about this Asha girl, she looked more determined.... but about what? I hadn't a clue.

I exhaled slowly as I watched the door close behind her before putting my car in reverse and headed onto the main road. It was just after eleven yet still I had no desire to return home. My idle gaze found the stars to be more intriguing than the endless, winding, empty road before me and I sighed as I hit eighty.

Tonight was proof enough that Asha wasn't completely submissive and that turned me on more than it should. I loved being a Dom. I loved being in control of my surroundings and people within them but somehow, her defying me and saying those naughty things caused me to think about Jane and how in the beginning, even before we were a thing, she'd not let me have my way. She'd make me work for her and even when I had her I still had to be on my toes.

The reward was however sweet and I bit back my moan as my mind was flooded with visions of the past. Visions of us together, wrapped up in each other's arms, publicly yet secretly as we demonstrated just how much the other meant.

No!

She does not get to act like a complete ass to me, dragging me into her world of crazy just cause mommy no longer spoils her. I'm not about to get sympathetic to the girl I literally fell for just so she could use me again before running back to that model of a boyfriend. I took a deep breath before tightening my hold on the steering wheel.

Work it is.

I took the very familiar road to my workplace and since it was close to Sunday morning, a day when most people didn't work, I knew the place would be packed and my boss would be working The Boardroom while her husband would be overseeing everything else.

Within a few minutes my car was parked and I glanced at my watch as I headed towards the elevator that led to my room. It was almost midnight and sleep was yet to come. Pulling my jumble of curls into a tight ponytail I pushed my door open and walked in, heading directly to the mini fridge to grab a water.

As soon as I gulped most of it down I was aware of a presence in the room with me and thinking it was my boss I turned smiling only for it to freeze at the sight of Jane sitting quietly on my bed.

"You've got to be freaking kidding me!" I snapped as I placed the half empty bottle on my stand.

"You were with her." She stated quietly.

"No! We are not discussing this! I don't know if I should be afraid of your persistence or annoyed by it but for right now I need you to leave so I can change and get to work."

"Darcy I'm sorry. I know I overreact sometimes and blow things out of proportion but I invited you to the wedding so we could talk not so I could get blindsided by another girl who still looks like a teen."

"I don't care what you want Jay. I've wanted you for months, I've needed you... I was the one worried sick that you had fallen in with a bad crowd, that maybe you were hurt or worse... yet here you are, as free and happy as ever flaunting in my face the fact that you pretty much got over me and was with someone else-"

"I-"

"I don't even know why I let you do this to me. When you were with Rylan or whatever his name was, you did the same thing... you used me. You played with my emotions and when you were sure you had me wrapped around your little finger, you just dropped me. No warning, nothing."

"I didn't-"

"But that's over now. There's actually someone that wants me for me. That doesn't toy with me or confuse me or hate my lifestyle. Cause as much as you want to turn a blind eye to it, this is who I am. This is what I love doing."

"And I get that Darce. I get that this is all apart of your life. I was a douche before and I know that. This was all new to me; liking you, what you could do to me, what you made me feel, it was all new and I didn't know how to feel about it. I was confused and conflicted and I didn't want to end up like Carrie. I had just barely started having sex with boys-"

"That's still no excuse! Everyone gets dealt with shit sometimes." I shouted. "That still doesn't excuse what you put me through!"

"And if I could I'd go back and fix it. I was hurt and I didn't know what to do... I didn't... I, I'm sorry. I really am."

"No, you don't get to shed a few tears and have me just forgive you Jay. It doesn't work that way."

I turned away from her as the tears became more and more evident. I'd lie if I said I didn't care. I loved her... I still do but I went through hell when she was gone so she don't get to have me take her back just like that. And she was still with someone else. Why does she get to have her cake and eat it? Why should I bare myself to her once more when it's inevitable that she'd leave me again. I just knew she would.

"Please don't hate me." Jane whimpers and I'm all too aware of how close she'd gotten.

I felt her breasts against my back as she hugs me and when her face is pressed against my back I could feel her tears soaking my dress. Don't break, don't give in. Her hands tighten around me and I close my eyes as she whispered she loved me.

How could she love me? How could she even...

My train of thought was cut short as she placed a kiss to my back.

"Jane stop." I whisper.

"I'd never ask you to choose..." she murmurs back. "But I love you... I want you... please."

Her kisses move from my back to my shoulders and the base of my neck and I knew she was on tiptoes. Her breasts moves with her every movement and I press my palm against the top of the fridge as her hands brushed my breasts above my dress.

"Jane."

Her name was supposed to come out as a warning but my mouth betrayed me as it came as a plea. Her lips touched my neck and she kissed twice before sucking making me all but lose my shit. In no time I had turned around and pushed her against a vacant wall, my mouth devouring hers and my hands causing torment to every unattended inch of her body.

She's using you. A voice inside my head said logically. She'll leave the first chance she gets.

No! She'll stay... she says she loves me.

"Darc... cy ... please." She pleads, pulling me out of my internal battle.

Without thinking I lead her to the bed, pushing her down before hiking her dress upwards as I kiss my way down south. Just as my mouth reaches the top of her sea green lace undies my door opens and my boss walks in without knocking causing us both to sit up and Jane to push her dress down, her cheeks flushing.

"Ms. T-"

"I heard you came to work." She says in her thick accent, completely ignoring my guest. "My clients are requesting your service and since you're here..."

"I.." I looked between the two and Jane reaches a decision for me as she scrambles off the bed. She passes me a quick glance before rushing past Ms. T and I bite back my groan as I glare at my boss.

"Oh please, spare me that look. I did you a favor." She respond before walking out too.

Groaning, I fall back on my bed and closed my eyes as I counted to ten. I hate my life.