Chapter Fourteen

Future

"Adam..." I called his name in a very womanly voice.

Our classes were done, at kakapasok lang namin ni Adam sa loob ng sasakyan niya. I can't forget how we'd secretly hold hands in class and below our desks while our Prof continued with the lecture. Si Adam kasi palaging inaabot ang kamay ko at palagi rin gusto akong hawakan. And I just let him. Because I loved the warmth of his touch, too...

Ngayon nga ay nasa loob na kami ng sasakyan niya. And as if we couldn't wait any longer to touch each other more... Pagkatapos lang masara ang pintuan ng sasakyan ay agad na kaming naghalikan ni Adam sa loob. We kissed and then started touching each other's bodies... Napatigil ako sa paghahalik din pabalik kay Adam, I arched my back, and my lips parted. Soft moans escaped my lips. As Adam's hand started cupping my breast through my bra...

The first few buttons of my uniform top were already unbuttoned. And then my pants already unzipped... Lalong umawang ang labi ko nang maramdaman ko ang kamay ni Adam na pumasok na sa loob ng pants ko at nahawakan ang underwear ko...

Maybe it's the thirst from this thing that we're both just discovering now. And after knowing how it actually feels we couldn't help ourselves anymore...

And then I also moved and started to unbutton his university uniform top as well. But then Adam stopped, he held my hands that were on his chest trying to unbutton his top. Natigilan din kami sa paghahalikan. At nagkatinginan kaming dalawa. "What?" I asked him. Mukha naman siyang natauhan. Habang kumunot naman ang noo ko sa kaniya at nainis...

Napangiti naman siya sa akin at umiling. "We can't do it here. My car's tinted but I don't wanna risk it. I don't care if it's just me. Pero ayaw kong madamay ka at kung ano pa ang maisip sa 'yo ng ibang tao... So let's just go home first, okay?" marahang kausap niya sa akin.

Unti-unti naman akong napatango at parang natauhan din na nasa university grounds pa nga rin pala kami.

Kaya tinulungan pa ako ni Adam sa pagsasarado muli ng mga damit ko. Pagkatapos ay kinabitan niya pa ako ng seatbelts. At ganoon din siya bago nag-drive na siya pagkatapos paalis ng campus at pauwi na sa bahay niya.

And then we continued what happened in his car. Adam even carried me up in his arms to his room upstairs. Napatawa na lang ako. Pagkatapos ay napagmasdan ko na siya habang umaakyat pa kami sa hagdanan. Nagtagal ang pagmamasid ko sa guwapo niyang mukha. And then I realized how much I really love Adam's gentleness towards me. I love how he takes care of me. And I'm very much in love of what we have right now... That I am very happy...

But at the same time I am scared... I can feel it that this will end soon... Itong saya na nararamdaman ko kasama si Adam...

Hiniga ako ni Adam sa malambot na kama niya. At sunod niya akong pinaibababawan... And then he started kissing my lips again. Which I always returned him the pleasure. Bumaba ang halik niya sa panga ko at pababa sa panga ko at bumaba pa sa leeg at dibdib ko...

Napaliyad na lang ako nang maramdaman ko na ang paggapang pa ng mga halik ni Adam sa tiyan ko at pababa pa... Para akong kinikiliti at sobrang pinag-iinitan...

I felt hot all over. Napahawak ako sa ulo ni Adam at napasabunot sa buhok niya nang pagkatapos niya lang maibaba sa legs ko at inalis sa katawan ko ang underwear ko ay naramdaman ko na agad ang mga labi niya sa pagkababae ko...

His hot mouth started devouring my already wet femininity...

I moaned.

I can feel his lips... and his tongue... on me... And it was wonderful...

"Ah..."

When I came Adam went back to massaging my breasts with his hands and his mouth would also suck on my breasts and his tongue licking my hardened nipples...

"Adam..." I called and he knows what I want.

He carefully positioned himself between my legs. He even held my leg up beside him. And then he claimed my lips once more as he started inserting his hard and thick maleness inside my wet hole... I stopped responding to his kisses to part my lips at the sensation...

Adam started moving his body on top of mine... He moaned as well. And I started meeting his thrusts. Until I couldn't anymore when his pace turned faster and harder... And I can only moan in pleasure...

The first time Adam and I were just lucky because I had my monthly period the following days after what happened to us. But we're careful now. Mali na nga itong ginagawa ko kasama si Adam... Hindi na ako mandadamay pa ng isang inosenteng bata... Especially while knowing the reality that there can be no future for me and Adam...

Sumiksik ako sa kaniya sa tabi niya habang natutulog na siya after making love in his house, in his bedroom and on his bed again. While I couldn't sleep because of all the things I'm thinking... My mind just can't rest knowing that this relationship was not all rainbows and butterflies. And that this can be just temporary...

At tama nga ako nang magpakita sa akin isang araw si Kuya Levi.

I was so nervous as I stood in front of him. Halos nakalimutan ko na iyong taong sinusundan ako rito sa Masbate simula nang nakabalik ako galing sa hacienda Avila. Alam kong hindi bastang tao lang iyong sumusunod sa amin ni Adam na palagi kong nararamdaman noon. But I also didn't expect that it would be Levi Archibald Zachmann.

"I was just away for a while last week. I have another job to attend to..." He said while looking at me.

Akala ko ay nawala na iyong nakasunod sa akin, pero umalis lang pala siya sandali kaya hindi ko siya naramdaman sa nakalipas na linggo.

He sighed. "Mama and Papa asked me to follow you here. And you know what it means..."

Nagkatinginan kami ni Kuya Levi. "They don't trust you anymore. Even Kuya Aldrich." He said.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko habang nakatingin sa kaniya at narinig ang sinabi niya. Umawang din ang labi ko. And for a while I didn't know what to say...

"Asherina and Asher are thinking that you're hiding something... even to them." Kuya Levi added.

Nanatili lang akong nakatingin sa kaniya. My lips parted and I still didn't know what to say...

I didn't expect he'd just show himself to me and will confront me like this...

"And I saw what you're doing here, Aeva."

Nanlaki pang muli ang mga mata ko nang tumingin ako kay Kuya Levi. Umiling-iling ako at agad na natakot nang maisip ko si Adam at ang safety niya. I shook my head. "Kuya Levi, please. Wala namang kasalanan si Adam... Kung ano man ang naging pagkakamali ng mga magulang niya sa client natin, it's his parents fault. Tingin ko ay labas na si Adam doon. Hindi na dapat siya idamay pa ng kliyente natin..." I tried to explain to Kuya Levi.

He just looked at me with his usual emotionless and serious face. "You've become weak." He said.

I looked away. My eyes were wide as I looked at him again. I shook my head again. I was ready to beg for his mercy. "Please, Kuya Levi, walang kasalanan si Adam. Huwag mong sasabihin kanila Mama... At Kuya Aldrich..."

"That you're instead having a romantic relationship now with the supposed target?"

I don't know if he's being sarcastic or what. Noon pa man ay hindi ko na mabasa si Levi. And I also didn't have the chance to know him and get close with him even a little... as siblings...

Pakiramdam ko pa nga noon na ayaw niya sa akin or even that he's angry at me.

He let out another sigh.

I don't know but I feel like with Levi Archibald sighing now in front of me has made him a bit loose... Unlike his usual aloof and strict or serious personality.

"End it with him now. You know that there's no future for you two..." He sighed again. "If you want to save him... Do something for him to go back to the Rozovskys, his family. They can protect him."

Umawang ang labi ko at hindi ako agad nagsalita. Hindi lang dahil sa sinasabi niya ngayon sa akin, kundi dahil sa gulat ko rin na pakiramdam ko pa ay pinagbibigyan o tinutulungan niya ako ngayon...

Among the Zachmann siblings, Levi Archibald was the least I thought I could trust, or even just ask a favor to. Talagang nagbakasakali lang naman ako ngayon... Na kahit papaano ay papakinggan niya pa rin ako. And also out of my desperation to save Adam...

"Kuya Levi..."

"End it before before it's too late." He said.

Iyon ang naging pag-uusap namin ni Kuya Levi... Pagkatapos ay muli siyang umalis at pinaalalahan pa uli ako na gawin iyong sinabi niya. To end my relationship with Adam now. And to let him go...

"Don't you miss your family, Adam...?" And now I was trying to make Adam go back to Germany to his family...

I didn't want to be selfish. Even though I wanted to. I want to be with Adam. I might have really completely lost my mind already, to even think of a future together with Adam...

"Hmm?"

Nagkatinginan kaming dalawa.

"Of course I do miss my family. I miss my Mom and Dad, and my siblings. But..." Tumingin siya sa akin. And then he smiled. "I'm fine here." He said, looking at me. And I knew what he meant... That he's fine here with me...

I looked away. I feel like I wanted to cry. I'm being too emotional right now. No, Adam. You shouldn't be here. You should go...

For him to be saved... To protect him from harm that my family, that I can inflict him... No matter if I wouldn't anymore want to harm him, alam ko na kung hindi ako ay may iba sa pamilya ko o sa mga tao namin ang gagawa ng misyon ko.

Dahil ganoon ang mga Zachmann. We always do and finish our mission...

So we should end this... This relationship doesn't have a future, anyway. And does someone like me really deserves a future? After everything that I've done...

And I'm sure Adam will just hate me the moment he finds out about who I really am...