The Rogue’s Love

Chapter Nineteen: Memories 

It was late afternoon by the time I woke up, again. I found myself sprawled across Sasori’s naked chest, his hand tracing invisible patterns on my lower back.

“Good morning,” I sung, pressing my nose against his neck. His scent was completely wrapped around me, only making waking up to him that much more perfect.

Sasori kissed my forehead, firmly wrapping his arms around my waist. “How’re you feeling?” he asked, smoothing down my, no doubt, knotted up hair. Fantastic. Phenomenal. Like I just had the best night of my entire night. Nothing short of wonderful.

“Happy,” I replied, deciding giving him the simplistic version was the better way to go. If I had actually sat her and described everything, we’d be here for days--months. 

Sasori slightly shifted under me, causing a slight tremor of pain to course through my still half sleeping body. Each little movement he made caused me to be painfully aware of how sore I was. Literally. 

I winced when he moved again, just making me realize just how badly I ached. 

“Please,” I whispered, absent mindedly digging my nails into him. “Don’t. Move.”

He sighed, settling for stroking my hair, again. “I’m sorry, Raikou. We shouldn’t have…I shouldn’t have. You’re still so young…” He paused, pressing his lips against my forehead. “You’re in pain, now, and it’s my fault.”

I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing would come out. What’s gotten into him? Sasori being kind and gentle were one thing. But, for him to actually regret last night? That hurt. 

“Sasori, shut up.” I hissed, trying to push myself off of his chest. I could feel the tears starting to build up behind my eyes, threatening to leak out on his chest. It only frustrated me more when he wouldn’t let me move, his hold around my waist to strong for me to even lift myself up so I could look him in the eyes. I closed my eyes, willing myself to calm down. Sasori, stayed calm as ever, never once stopping the soothing stroking on my hair.

“Are you saying you wish that…it never happened?” I whispered, burying my face into his shoulder. Like always, Sasori was making me feel like a small, helpless child. It was quiet for a few minutes as I waited in dread.

“As much as I feel as if I should…I can’t.” He lifted my chin so that he could gaze into my eyes. “You don’t know how long I’ve waited for…that.”

I quirked an eyebrow, “You aren’t telling me you’re a virgin…are you?” he rolled his eyes.

“Don’t be ridiculous. But, after last night, neither are you.” His devilish grin only grew as my eyes did. Before now, I didn’t actually let it sink in. It was hard to believe that anything from last night was real.

I felt my cheeks go read as I remembered minor details of our night together. It wasn’t hard to tell how inexperienced I was. And, how confused. Thankfully, Sasori went slow and easy….at first.

I rested my head back down on his shoulder, letting last night’s events play in my head like a movie. I wonder how it would be, next time, now that I know what I’m doing.

“Was I your first?” I asked, curious to know about Sasori’s former love life. A light smile settled on his lips, before he mutely shook his head. 

I couldn’t help but to feel disappointed as I hid my face from him. “Who was she?” I bitterly muttered. Even if they weren’t in touch anymore, I couldn’t help but to be jealous of her. Sasori was my first everything, and she had him before me. 

“Don’t worry about it. It was way before you were even thought of.”

“No, tell me. I want to know.”

He sighed, pulling the blanket over my back.

“It was before I even knew about the Akatsuki. At that time, I was still living with my grandma; my parents being dead years before then.”

“What happened to them?” I asked, sympathizing with Sasori. I knew what it was like to loose a parent. But, both? It seemed almost unbearable. 

“They were killed on a mission. When I was three.” I winced. So young to have lost a mother’s love, a father’s comfort. 

“I lost my mom…” I mumbled, “she never came back from her mission. She was found, weeks later, her body mangled. Almost beyond recognition.” I shook my head, letting Sasori’s embrace comfort me. “I’m sorry, continue, please.”

Sasori seemed hesitant, but continued regardless. “There was this girl. I didn’t speak to her much. But, one day, she came to me. Her cheeks were filled with tears. She was just a mess. I never bothered to ask what was wrong with her. I’m not even exactly sure what she wanted. But, one thing led to another, and I suddenly wasn’t a virgin.” He let out a humorless laugh, looking down at me.

“And, to be honest, it was horrible. Well, compared to what I’ve experienced, before.” Another wave of jealously raged through me upon hearing him refer to another time.

“What was she like?” I grumbled, wondering just how many girls he’s been with.

“Well…she’s a bit stubborn. And, most times, dense. But, I’ll never forget the first time I saw her, basking half naked in the sun.”

“She sounds like a slut.” I smiled, glad to know he probably didn’t have any emotional attachments with these girls. He couldn’t have liked a slut. Sasori chuckled.

“You wouldn’t even believe,” he whispered, running a seductive hand up my side. “But, she was the best I’ve had.” I scoffed, feeling like a jealous girlfriend. I’ll need her name, address, social security number, and records, please.

“You’re too naïve.” he mused, licking my shoulder blade. “It’s you, brat.”

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Only an hour later did I notice just how disgusting I was. My body was littered with sweat, and a small amount of blood from Sasori’s excessive biting. I honestly didn’t know how Sasori could put up with my filth. He, however, looked perfect. As always. 

“I need a shower,” I stated, wrinkling my nose. Even the sheets had un-namely bodily fluid on them. “Sasori, that’s disgusting. I don’t know how you put up with it.” 

He sighed, rolling his eyes. “I’ll remember that next time, okay?” I quickly shook my head, deciding it wasn’t that disgusting.

“Just take me to a shower.”

Again, he rolled his eyes. “Would you like me to bathe you while I’m at it?” I bit my lip. Well, since he asked…. I nodded, giving him the best innocent look I could muster. 

“You see, I’m kinda broken at the moment. I can barely walk. You did this to me, the least you can do is lather some soap on me.” I smiled, loving the way his eyes raked over my body. It would seem as if soap wasn’t the only thing he wanted to lather on me.

“You know, I think you’re right.” Sasori played along, licking his lips. “You need adult supervision.” He carefully picked me up, walking to the bathroom. Somehow, he had installed working appliances and plumbing into the tree house. In other words, creating the perfect getaway. “You might do something naughty while I’m not there.” He teased, nipping at my skin. I blushed, feeling stupid for still getting embarrassed at that kind of thing. 

“Raikou, seriously. Stop being so dirty. You’re taking a shower, and going to sleep.”

“What? Sasori! That’s--”

“Deal with it.”

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Oh, hi guise! Sorry for lagging /: I’m sick. Lol. To the ones that have not defanned me, yet, and still somehow put up with me, thank you ♥ 

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