Zanes Pov

I barely slept the night before. I couldn't? How can I person be expected to sleep after what just happened? You think someone you care about is probably dead and it eats you up inside everyday but the you just see them in a washroom. Where they fall just like they did before. Where they apologize with concern. And you want to scream at them and cry and laugh but you just say goodbye. Because you can't face your fears. Then you don't get any sleep and you don't charge your phone. You're screaming internally wrapped up in dark clothes in a dark room. You're just so happy their alive and well but you're so sad and angry too that you think you'll probably just punch them next time you see them.
I sighed as I got out of bed and ate some cereal. After all I was hungry.

"Ding-Dong"

"Most likely one of my brothers or Aphmau so I have to answer." I thought.

They're ornately just here to ask if I'm ok after my co-worker probably told them I left due to not feeling well.

I opened my door and stopped halfway.

Garroth

~The night before walking home from Olive Garden~

"Travis? Tell me please, what's going on." I asked.
"Well..... As you probably know this isn't the first time me mad Zane kind of just stopped talking. Except the last time I water to stay the last time... However I left again. I didn't take it to seriously at first. But now I realize what it meant. If you love someone they say let them go if they come back they're yours. But I already came back and left again. If Laurence came back to you he'd be yours... But I... I used my chance. No ones going to get back together with someone who left them hanging twice! Even if the second time was an accident. Literally! I nearly got hit by a car.... If Zane sees me now or if I have to see him I now what will happen. He'll be mad at me. I know he is. He was mad at me last time. St least then we kind of left each other's lives on the note that we both hated each other.... This time. We loved each other Garroth. Love is something that takes months or years to form but it can brake in two seconds. I think I did just that. I'm a screw up Garroth! I messed up big time!" He looked so claps to breaking down. Luckily it was night. No one was there to see this.
"Travis... Maybe if you go back to him and talk you can be friends. After all you were friends for years-"
"No Garroth you don't understand! I love Zane! Not just like love! And maybe you can think that it depleted after being gone for months but no! He's the only one on my mind. I minus well even say it's stronger! If I see him and I have to look at him knowing we're just friends.... I'll go mad! I don't enact to see someone just to get punched in the face.... Like i always end up doing...."
"Travis........ Is there more to you and Zanes relationship that your not telling me?"
"No... It was never Zane.... It was everyone else."
"Everyone else?"
"I'm going to be honest with you Garroth. That's because right now I feel your the closest person that will understand. You're feeling it to, missing someone. Right?"
"Yes..."
"Well like I so as I'm going to be honest. At first, I never wanted to be Zanes friend. I never really liked the emo feeling he had. Everyone else seemed to already have someone they wanted to hang out with though. Yes Aphmau was nice... But she was closer to others. Dante yeah he was great, but I couldn't go to his house often and he always had practice I had no one to escape to. So I took last resort. Being at your guys house was really and excuse to not be at mine."
"Why wouldn't you want the at yours?"
"My dad was an alcoholic.... He was the movie description of a bad father. When mom died it just got worse and worse. I never knew what love felt like because I grew up in a place where love was the same thing as get punched in the arm so called 'jokingly'. Where love and life involved sneaking out the fire escape when they invited someone over. Where dodging broken glass just to get into your room was a thing. Where yelling was the only communication, and lying was the only way to survive. He wasn't abusive exactly but.... I never felt safe. I felt if I did stay there to long it would go that far. My life was a mess Garroth! I was the innocent one! But in reality that innocence was fear! I was scared of everything because of him! Soon though, I did feel something different with Zane. He was nice to me. He actually enjoyed my company.... I've never told him what my home life used to be. I never told anyone. Well except you now....."
"So you basically just became his friend to stay away from your father?"
"That's how it started. As we started hanging out more I genuinely. I didn't know what it was. I thought it was friendship. Now... I know, Garroth I've always loved Zane Ro'meave. He taught me what love really was. So not only did I loose that. I lost it twice," He smiled as if uniformed to try and cover his pain as tears dripped down his cheeks.
I don't have words to say, there's so much more to Travis then I thought. I didn't know really what to do. I kind of just patted his shoulder as we walked back to my place.

We watched a movie at least. Then we went to sleep. Well I'm not really sure either of us slept that night.

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BET YOU DIDNT EXPECT THIS TWO CHAPTERS IN ONE DAY

Ok so I just felt uncomfortable with the amount of chapters I had in drafts so I had to get at least one more out.

Also thanks for all the shipper on the last chapter. Who knew writing the 'F you' in a chapter would make everything better. Oh who am I kidding thy song makes almost anything better.

Oki leave you all here to cry over our son Travis.

Actually 75% get scienced

I'm sorry