Zanes Pov

I guess I'll start us off sense no one else will. I guess it all began five months after I started dating Travis. It was.... Winter. That's it. That's the scene I'm looking for.

"Travis!" I called out to him.
"Yeah!" He said from down stairs in what used to just be my house.
"Oh good you're actually home," I said sarcastically coming down the stairs.
"Hardy har har."
"What are you watching?" I asked plopping on to the couch.
"Nothing really...."
"Something wrong?"
"No I just.. Can't seem to get a job. We can't just live off of what you make besides I feel like I'm making you do all the work....."
"There's no need to feel that way Travis.... Besides you'll find something eventually. Who knows might even be your dream job."
"Would you still love me even if I had my dream job?"
"Of course I would you dweeb."
"I love you too dweeb, now what do you wanna watch?"
"You choose," I said snuggling up to him.
"Alright."

Travis did end up moving in with me. My house used to be movie perfect clean too. Like seriously it was like no one lives there. That changed when Travis moved in though every film bustled with life. Not to mention he used to always open up the blinds so it was very bright. Of course though there came the problem of money. The small pay checks I got only brought us so far, he was always so hard on himself for not being able to get a job. Eventually though.... He did find one. It was close to perfect. It envoy bed everything he liked. It has all the great qualities, Good pay, nice boss everything you can dream of. One problem. One very important problem. It was across the country.
At first he said he didn't really think he should take it but... I had to encourage him. At the time I wasn't thinking straight. I didn't realize what it would be like having the love of your life so far away. We swore to always contact each other but... One day he didn't call. Weeks passed on a trail of nothing. I decided call him but there was no answer. I called and texted him everyday. Until eventually I got that wonderful text saying his number was disconnected. I had no way contacting him.
I can remember so clearly how I dropped my phone against the hard side table. Life was no longer bustling in my house. No blinds were open so that you could see the softly clearing snow. No sticky notes stuck to my fridge. No dishes piled in the sink. No clothes dropped over the side of the bed stand from being to lazy to do laundry. No bright gym clothing laced my dressers. Photos didn't drape desk tops no more. So once again my house was lifeless.

"Knock knock I'm coming in~" Aph chimed as she came in.
"Oh hey aphmau."
"Wow it's spotless.... Here I bright you some cupcakes~"
"Thank you.. Thank you very much."
Aphmau sighed as she sat on the couch. "Wow this couch is some cold."
"Oh I don't really use it often so that's probably why," I said sitting down.

My life really kinda... Just went back to normal.
Oh who am I kidding it was upside down. I made it seem like everything was fine. Everyone knew that I was just the emo of the street so of course they figured if I seemed sad at any point it was just how I acted. It used to be how I acted. But then it was once again how I acted.
I can't say I'm not lonely.
I can't say it doesn't eat me up inside every day.
But I've lost him before. I let him walk out once.
At least I got my second chance.
I got the second chance to find my heart.
But I lost it again.
I lost the heart that was my life.

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It's here it's here! Hello me dudes, I'm super excited rn. So this is a drastic turn from the last book. If you don't get it have a small diagram.

How I felt while writing Book one:

How I feel writing Book two:

Me: MY SONS WHYY

Ok moving on I hope you all enjoyed and if you haven't read the first book make sure you do because there are some things you won't understand with out reading it

Like a certain you know who, who's a little you know what. Maybe some..... Revenge?

Ok but this has been a long ass authors note so excuse me as I go wrote more chapters.