Alex's POV

I returned home after Elijah left.

He left for good or for bad.

I was really nervous and when I reached my room I broke.

I couldn't control myself. It is hard to stop crying and all I wanted was Elijah to be with me but God never really blessed me.

That is why parents never come home these days and Elijah left me all alone in this hell.

Only Aiden is there for me but I can't do anything after what we done.

I pulled the bed sheet over my head and waited for sleep to take over but I can't stop crying and my eyes are already red.

I can't sleep and I can't distract myself. I don't feel alive. It is like no one is there for me anymore

I heard a knock in the door. I pretended to be asleep and the door opened.

I peaked to see my brother holding a cup of my favourite.

He knows how to deal with me. At least he is there for me.

He said "Nathaniel get up. I know you are awake and you have been crying non stop".

I got up and he came to me hugging me.

He said "Why are you crying over spilt milk? Just move on Nathaniel. He isn't a guy you can be in love with. He is just a man slut".

I got so angry at him that I pushed the glass he was holding making it fall down on the floor and the sound of shattering glass can be heard.

I yelled "DON'T YOU DARE TALK ABOUT HIM LIKE THAT. HE ISN'T WHAT YOU THINK HE IS. DON'T TALK WITH ME ALLEN".

He sighed and left the room. Soon there was another knock.

Then Aiden entered the room.

He was holding a cup of chocolate ice cream.

He came to me and sat in my bed.

"Alexander please don't cry".

"How can I not cry? He left. I can't have a happy life without him. Only thing I can do is wait for 2 more years. Then I will be 18 and I will leave the country and go to Elijah".

He sighed and said "Your idea is nice but isn't it too long".

"I won't be attending school anymore and I will try to distract myself by searching for new friends".

He smiled genuinely and nodded.

He hugged me tightly and whispered "Will you love me?"

I visibly gulped and shook my head and said "I will only love you like a friend Aiden".

He smiled again before leaving the room.

I ate the ice cream and he entered the room looking at me shocked.

"You ate without me" he said.

I raised my eyebrow and said "You bought it for me right?"

He frowned before sitting next to me and then he started tickling me.

I started laughing loudly and I can't stop laughing and then he stopped before saying "Punsihment".

AFTER A FEW MONTHS (Alex is 17)

"Why are you still not coming to school Nathan?" Aiden complained.

"I don't like that place" I said.

"At least come out and play in the park or let's go to a amusement park".

I sighed.

He is saying this every day and I haven't done anything he said.

Zach and I somehow became friends again and I talked out things with my brother too. So yeah my life is going smooth.

And I forgot to mention Ethan has been coming to my house daily and was teaching me some subjects.

He too asked me but of course I didn't obey.

I haven't contacted Elijah and there wasn't even a message from him.

It is a mystery of what is happening there.

I wonder what he might be doing right now.

Only 1 more year and he is mine.

Yesterday I met this guy in Instagram.

I chatted for a while and he will make a great friend. He shares the same ideas as I do so we talked to each other a lot.

He is gay too and has a handsome boyfriend.

He is so in love with him I can see that.

He is also in the same country as Elijah but I didn't mention him.

I just said I have a friend there.

He didn't question me but from the emoji he sent me the other day I am sure he thought of it as something else.

Recently they have been fighting so he is worried. His lover's family members are in a fight with the lover so he is fighting with him.

And his name is Alan.

"Earth to Nathan".

I sighed. He is been calling me like that since I told him. Of course I didn't say to Ethan my full name.

I actually got over Ethan. I guess it was just crush.

"There are 7 months till your birthday comes".

I nodded.

My birthday is October 14th. So when my birth day comes I will be 18 and I can move.

Away.

From everyone.

From everything.

Only me and Elijah.

I said "It is kinda too long. It feels boring without any friends".

My mom and dad actually started visiting us daily. They eat lunch with us and they talk with us about our life and give advices.

They were more than willing to let me go to Elijah when I become 18.

I even got a Visa, Passport.

I looked into Elijah's social media accounts and I found one and it was private so I gave request and there was no reply.

It has been months.

I sighed.

I said "It is hard to stop loving him".

"Alexander don't worry. You guys will eventually meet up together".

I nodded smiling and closed my eyes.

An image of Elijah came in the black space.

You know the other day I got drunk and threw Aiden's Apple IPhone in the mixer so that I can get apple juice.

Yeah it was random. And I was just kidding.

Aiden would have killed me.

I opened my eyes and saw Elijah standing in front of me with his infamous smirk.

I stood in front of him and tears automatically spilled out of my eyes.

And when I was about to touch his cheeks he vanished.

Hard to stop loving him.

Hard to stop caring about him.

Hard to forget him.

I regret letting him go. I shouldn't have let him go.

I shouldn't have let him leave my life.
I will never fucking ask for anything God. Please bring Elijah to me.

I want to be with him.

You belong with me Elijah Gracia Fred.

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