MISSING YOU

Today, I took myself to that place where I keep all my memories of you. I went through our story in a matter of minutes.

Then out of nowhere, one of my friend sent me a video of his two kids singing, 'Love is a Matter'. The song you introduced me to. The song that got me to start thinking that there is something deeper there for me.

I am all of a sudden sad again.

I am all of a sudden lost again.

I am all of a sudden missing you again.

It's been too long since I last saw you. It's been too long since I last heard your voice.

Will it ever get easier?

I know how to reach you.

I want to.

I want to hear your voice again.

I want to look into your eyes again.

I want to feel your touch again.

But I know you don't want anything to do with me. So even if I want to and even if I can, I cannot because I want to respect your decision to live your life without me. But it doesn't mean that I stop wanting it every damn day of my life.

One day - I hope you'll find your way back to me again.

I miss you.