I've messed up so much. I'm so sorry. You two almost had a friendship going, finally. Then I had to ruin it. I didn't mean to but I ruined it.

I always told myself that I would never let myself hurt anyone I loved again. But I hurt you. And I am so sorry.

I know you probably won't read this but here it is. I'm separating myself from you and if you want to know, you now know exactly why. Because I'm too mad at myself and too scared of hurting you again.