I've been reading my old book of randomness and I kind of miss that girl I was. That book is the only thing to look back at my old self, to see what I think she would do, to see how pure she seemed. I laugh at how excited I was for Kendlyan and how much I liked  Matthew, both of which are a disaster. Then I thought, oh my depressing thoughts will go away. Look at everything that's happened. I still don't believe she turned into this. Thank you to everyone who has stuck with me through everything.