Why do I feel this way?

So sad, so hopeless, so empty

Longing to finally talk to someone

About everything that makes me want to hide

But it's hard

It's so hard

It's so hard to confess my real feelings

When I don't know how to put them into words

And even if I do, they catch in my throat,

Never to be spoken

I just don't want you to worry, and

I'm so scared of being judged,

Scared of being mocked

It's so hard to let down my walls

And cry in front of you

When I'm so afraid of being weak,

Of being vulnerable, all because of your words

It's so much easier keep quiet and hide my feelings

It's so easy to say "I'm okay"

When really, I'm far from it

I wish I had the courage

To be honest with myself

I wish I had the courage 

To express myself,

Not just in words but to the people I trust most

But it's hard

It's so hard

It's so hard to be happy

When the person you love most

Suffers every day and all their

Happiness has diminished

There's nothing I wouldn't do

If I could make you happy

I wish I could make you happy

I wish I could make myself happy

I can't help that I feel this way,

It just happens

I desperately wish 

I could explain why

But I can't 

It's just too hard