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Somewhere on stage , a young handsome guy was hosting the event........

"Thank you so much for the entire media people and audience for being a part of this celebration " the host of the show spoke in a cheerful tone.

"Last but not least.."

"We would like to invite our young director of the successful movie , Mr.karthik Iyer on the stage to share a few words."

"Please give him a big round of applause......"

Karthik's POV:-

As soon as i heard my name I got up from my seat and putting my blazer buttons i trun towords audience and waved my hands to thank them for their love and support. Then walked towards stage ,

Right now , I'm in my movie success meet.

And as a director my happiness has no boundaries.

Audience were continuesly shouting my name and showing their love by whistling and cheerful words.

Once i get to the stage. The host handed me mic and said to share few words.

Taking the mic in my hands i started spoke..

" First of all A very big thank you for all of you. Without you I'm nothing..thank you so much by saying this i give a flying a kiss to all audiences to show my love " i chuckled at my own act.

" As a middle class man, i started my career as assistant director. After lots of struggle and sacrifice today I'm here , on this success meet . Infront of you."

"And once again without you I'm nothing. And i would love to thank the the producer of movie who trusted me. Then my artist specially the lead role artists who gave their hundred percent to bring out such a beautiful charectors. And the musicians who made this movie even batter with their magic.

My team and technicians who worked hard day and night. And the most important audience who celebrates this movie as their own success, like this celebrate and support new telants, spread positivity and love. Once again thank you for being a part of this celebration. " After finishing my speech , i hugged my all team members who were already present on stage. I thank them. And walked back to my seat.

As the event was still going to continue for half hour. But i felt little Annecy. So decide to leave for my home. I informed my assistant director that I'm leaving for home because of headache and talled him to look after me.

And left the event and draw back to home.

Today I felt content.
Yes.... it's like a caring a baby for 9 months.
The pain , the struggle, the sacrifices, the mental pressures, the physical pressure. but still and of the day when you see the baby, when you touch the baby for first time, when you hear her/his cry for the first time. All your pain and struggle with fade away.

I was smiling without reasons.
May be this is called happiness..

I was in my mid way to home and it suddenly started to rain...

Till few minutes back the whether was normal.
And now, heavy raining .
I should drive fast at the same time careful. becouse don't know may be the situation can get worse then this. And i don't want to take risk, after all my life is waiting for me.

Well , it's not like that , i don't like rain.

Infact in my life Rain is my lucky charm .
i love rain.
I love the sound of rain drops.
The smell of rain is heaven.
I read this somewhere.

*The smell of rain can healp reduce stress and improve your mood *

And i personally experienced this ...

In few minutes i reached my house

I parked my car in shelter and locked it.

While heading to main door of house i got a call from mom.. i picked it.

"Helo solu maa " I said and opened the door by using my spear keys and I wonderd why all lights are off... Pushing my thoughts away i switched on the all lights. While talking with mom.

(Translation :- yeah, mom )

" Hey evlo vaati da call pandrdhu ? Call attend pan mate... " Mom was literally shouting on me. But she was right , past few days were hactic for me.

(Transletion :- how many times i have called you, can't you pick up ? )

" Maa sorry ma, movie success meet la konjam busy ah erundhe. En vishiyamnu solung" throwing my car keys somewhere near table i sat on sofa as i was really tired.

(Translation :- sorry mom, i was busy in movie success meet...tell me what happened)

" Nanum un appaum iniki than chennai varalmnu erundhom , ana enga anna kalayanm mudinja kaiyod yen kelmbring inum konjam oru rendu naal thangitu ponganu request panaru da, avara varthayaku madhippu kuduthu nangalum thangitom. Atha than inform panalamnu call pane. Sari nee pathu batharma eru. Romba late ah povadhe veetuku, mudinja vara sikirma veetuku poidu veetuku, yena nangalum ela adhriti thaniya erupa da. Neeyum late ah ponina ava en panuva.." I throw my head back on sofa and closed my eyes. Still listening to mom.

(Translation :- i called you to inform that we both were ready for back to chennai , after completing his doughter's marriage. But my brother instead to stay for 2 more days. And we couldn't refuse him. So we are staying here for 2 more days..and yes try to go home little early, becouse we aren't there....and adhiriti will be alone..... so don't be late .)

"Sari da , late aachi Ning sapdung first . Naa nalaiki call pandre . Aprm inor vishiyam iniki adhiriti appa-amma neenaivu naal da..enke endha mari nerathila ava kuda elam poitomenu romba varthama eruku da, nee aval konjam pathuko. Sariya naa vaikren. " as soon as mom said those words i opened my eyes in jerk moment. I ended the call and put the phone on sofa .

(Translation :- ok, first have your dinner, it's alredy late. I'll call you tomorrow. And one more thing today was adhriti mom-dad's shraadh. I feel sad that i couldn't be with her in this weak moment of hers. Behalf of us, you should take care of her...by )

Shit...how can i forgot this date...
10, November

And all above i arranged my movie success meet today ?
God... I was so blind in happiness that didn't recognised this date. ..

And adhiriti ...
She didn't Evan Uttar a word against it.

Past few months my total consantretion was on movie making, then movie release work and after it success meet.. i totally forget her..

After lots of self cursing , the realisation hit me...
It's been half hour that i have been arrived, but till now i didn't find her anywhere here..

Normally she is the one who opens the door for me in this time..but today the door was locked... I thought she must be busy in kitchen.

I got up and walked straight to kitchen... and found kitchen's light were off. It's too dark to even find the switch. I run to hall and grabbed the phone from sofa , so i could use the flashlights.

But i was little taken aback when i reached kitchen.. becouse kitchen's lights were already On. And Kitchen is silent not just kitchen the hole house is hell silent.. like seriously pin drop silent , only the rain drops sound's that i can hear for now.

"Addhu.... Enga eruke......." Calling her...i entered in kitchen but she wasn't there... I was about leave kitchen but something cought my attention.

I bent down to analyse.... What it could be...
But i was horrified to death when i found few blood drops on floor..

I was staring at blood drops....
Hell I'm shocked to the core...
Where is she...

"Addhu...... Enga eruke...."

"Addhu........."

"Addhu......" I was searching her like mad man... I'm not getting any good vibes.

I shouldn't leaved her like this... All alon... In this house. I should have took her with me for the event. But she was the one who refused to come with me.

I ren to upstairs, she might be sleeping in our room.

I opened our room door and find it empty. I heard water sounds from bathroom. I got bit relaxed. Walked near bathroom door and called her..but when i don't get any response i decide to break the door. With 2-3 thrust door was opened by thud sound.

The water tap was on..
God this girl is so irresponsible..
She left the tap on, after using it.
Then i closed the tap and turn around to leave but stopped when something strik me.

If addhu left the tap open....then how come the doors locked by inside..? It's strange.....

I was thinking about. But suddenly i trun towords back. in Swift of the moment i felt like someone was there ...behind me...ahh..must be my imagination...well first i should search her..

I tried to call her on her phone..But her phone is out of reach. So decide to call her friends , but even they don't know her whereabout. And after her mom-dad deaths she isn't touch with her relatives so there's no use in calling them.

Now I'm tensed where is she...?

Why the all shits happening with me only.. i mentally cursed myself..

I have searched the hole house but she isn't here...
This is making me worried.

Should i call police..?
I was thinking about when i heard beep sound from my phone. I checked it.

( author :- 👆😂This fake chat is created by me )

Now I'm relieved...
Let her come...
I have lots of questions to ask her.

"Treeeennn......"
"Treeennnn......"
"Treeennnn......."

I jumped out in fear...just got a heart atach after hearing this sound... Putting hand on my heart. I rubbed that place... because my heart bit is too fast that even i can hear myself.

"Treeennn......."
"Trrrnnnn......"

Taking longer breath...i started to follow the sound.
And surprisingly this sound was coming from my own room.

I'm not fearful of ghost or some negitive aura. But it's just I'm feeling other then me , someone is present here. And I'm being watched by someone in my every movements. Like there's always someone standing behind me. Brushing my thoughts away i walked towords my room.

Aahhh shit this lights were gone...
I after checking my room , first I have to check the lights. Thinking this way i grabbed my phone for flashlights because it's too dark here i can't even see my hands properly. And walked upstairs..

But never know this kind of shock was waiting for me.
I was left speechless. The hole house was dark expect my room.

I mean how ....?
It could be some electricity problem, i should not over think.

Grabbing my all self power i opened the door of my room.

And found nothing other then that sound. I glanced at the direction and walked near the table and found alram clock.

Who the hell keeps alram at this time ..

This is all pissing me off.
Passing every minute my insecuritys are growing.

But other then this i found note book on that table. May be it's addhu's.

I never knew addhu writes dairy also.....

Curiosity made me read few pages of her diary.

I flipped some pages and stopped at some rendom page..

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8 July 2017*
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Like every normal day i was waiting for my college bus. But due to heavy rain , local transportation was stopped by govt.
So i took auto to reach home as soon as possible because the whether was so bad.
In a mid way to my house, i saw some people were crowded in road side. Being curious i want to galnce the croweded place .
But after seeing, i got horrified becouse there was a guy painted in blood , and he was in bad state i think due to rain his bike might be sleeped..
No one , literally no one try to healp him. Pushing the crowd away I ran to healp him. And grabbed my phone to call the ambulance.
After calling the ambulance i galnced at the people, and they were already staring at me . I was little confused. I shook my head and looked at around myself. Then i realised it was shooting set... Indeed those People were acting and i spoiled everything..

" Hey Karthik tell her to get out from here...she spoiled everything.." i heard the director was barking. I was really embarrassed for my act. So decide to leave...just then I found a guy who was standing beside director , he was already staring at me ... But i ignored him and walked away..

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After reading this a my lips curled into smile...our first meet....i still remember that day we were shootings the most important scene , and suddenly a girl walked in out of nowhere. And she spoiled our work. But i liked her in very first time when she tried to healp a stranger. With the embarrassing look of her, she was looking damn cute .

I chuckled at my act....i fall in love with her in first sight. But that was one of the worthy work.

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29 September 2017*
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After that day , that guy used to follow me everywhere.
In first few day he was annoying and irritated. But later I got used to for it.
And all of sudden he proposed me today.
He said his name is Krishnan and he's working as assistant director. And he also narrated how he fall in love with me that day when i tried to healp a stranger without any second thought.
I was scared to the core.. becouse if my family found about him stalking me. Then they Will stop me from persuing my study's and i can't afford that.

I tried to make him understand my situation but he was so stubborn. There's no use to argue with him . So left that place without giving him any reply.

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I was hurt , when she refused me. But i didn't gave up on her. But suddenly i got a call and i had to go banglore for work. Those days were hard for me... Nearly 1 month without seeing her , it's was a hell for me.

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11 October 2017*
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It's been 10 days now , that he got disappeared.
Last few day i was waiting for him to stalk me , follow me or disturb me.... But he Never came.

I know I'm being stupidity here. I was the one who insulted him for stalking me. But i never said i don't like him.

Yes i like him...
Because he's the first man , who made me feel special.
He's the first man , with whom i didn't felt uncomfortable even when he was stalking me.

hope he's safe and fine.

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Woahhh.....i never know she prayed for mee...hmm this diary seems intresting.

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3 November 2017 *
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I saw him today.
I was happy and relieved knowing that his fine.
He himself approached me for talk and this time i didnt refuse.
He said he was gone for a movie shooting to banglore , and that was so sudden to inform anyone. I just simply node at him.

We were silent for few minutes, and i could feel his continues stars at me. But i choosed to ignore it.

And when i was about leave he stopped me and asked.

" In all this days , don't you even thought about me for once ? Tell me honestly if your answer is no, then i promise here after I'll not disturb you. " He's voice was so low... Like he was trying to control his emotions.

I shook my head and said no .

He demanded " look into my eyes and say "

But i just can't say that.
Becouse I missed him.
In all this days my only thought was about him.
And i don't know when and how but i fall for him. And I just can't lie looking at his eyes....

I couldn't control my emotions, and burst into tears and hugged him by confessing my love .

He too hugged me...
We were busy in our moment and suddenly it's started to rain....

We both break the hug and mouthed " love you " and chukled.

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How can i forgot this day.....i was in cloud when she hugged me and confessed her love for me.
And after thay everything changed.... afforts in a positive manner.

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28 October 2017*
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As always we were enjoying the view of merina beach. And he was narrating his one of the funny shooting insident. And i was laughing like maniac. But my laugh dead when i saw dad there gawking at us. I gluped hard after seeing him there .

But instead of scolding me dad left that place.

But karthik assured me saying he'll talk to his mom dad and will try to talk with my perents.

I trust him, but I'm not sure about my dad.
I'm just scared , what if dad never accept us?
Hope for the best...

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Well , convincing her dad was one of the toughest part of our life. Because i wasn't settled and her dad wasn't ready to give his doughter's hand to a guy like me. But after lots of assuring and promise he agreed. And soon we got engaged.

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14 December 2017*
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Today we shared our first kiss.
Yes ...
Like everyday he dropped me at my home and he was about to leave but it started rain, so i offered him to stay here until whether get's into normal, And he agreed.

Mom dad was out for some relatives birthday party. And after all we are engaged to each other with perents approval, so i don't have any problem to invite him .

We were just having our coffee and a i was blambring something looking at the dark sky . When i don't get any reply from him i looked at him, and found he was staring at me .

Afcource not in Normal way.
In a passionate way,
Full of love and little just little bit lust.
By the time my both cheeks were red like Tomato due to my blush.
Knowing where it will lead us, i awarted my gaze and try to avoid his continues gaze...but in a slip moment he caged me near wall using his both hands..
I couldn't meet his demanding gaze so looked at down and tried to hide my blush.
But he lift my chin by using his thumb and looked into my eyes like he was asking my permission to kiss me. And i was smitten by his small gestures...i know he loves me so much, and i can trust him.
Knowing his intention i closed my eyes and leaned forward to kiss him.
With a jolt he kissed me.
The kiss was passionate yet slow and dominant.
I felt the butterfly effects in my stomach when he nibbled on my lower lip. After few minutes we parted away and i hide my face in his chest .

What an amazing day..
And not to mention a memorable day for both of us.
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Ufff....this girl...she has written all the tiny things in detail..but i loved it.. becouse right now I'm feeling like time traveling to my old days...

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1 January 2018 *
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† Happy New year †

After that day life is just osm...
I happy with him..
It's too creapy but we both were on video call from yesterday night to till this morning...

We just talked about some random stuffs. And a little about future planes.

This is my most happiest new year.

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She is crazy ...but i own the crazy girl....she is special, her smile, her eyes, her smell , her blush... everything is special...and I'm lucky to have this special girl as mine!

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7 February 2018*
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Today I'm dubble happy
Becouse
First it was my graduation day.
Second karishna got a movie to direct .

I'm super excited for his first ever movie as a director.

Karthik's dream is now going to fulfill.

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You know what .... She is making me go crazy for her....how can someone happy for another person success....but she is... I'm happy that i choosed her.

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8 may.... 2018 *
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Due to my job i barly get time to spend with him..
But last few days were very hactic for me.
After getting back to home , i immediately slept and due to tiredness,
This interior designer work looks so easy but it's too tough when it's comes to do.

And he's also upset with me.
Due to this work I'm not able to talk with him properly so he got upset.so i was thinking to take a break from work for him..

I wish soon everything will be fine.

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It's a childish thing but yeah.....i was little upset with her , but i was happy when she took a break from her job for me, she lost her job that's another matter... I behaved so immature back then. But thanks to her.. who composed me in a calm and mature person with her love and care.

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13 August 2018 *
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I can't forget this date...
Because it's my wedding date.
Yeah ....
We got married with the blessings of our perents.
Our happiness has no boundaries now.

But when it's comes to wedding day there's is also wedding night.

And i was so nervous, i love him but I'm just blank and nervous for now.

But he assured me by saying , he will not touch me without my permission. And he will wait until I'm ready for for that deed....

He understands me so well.
I'm really lucky to have him as a life partner.

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Ohhh my baby girl , but here I'm the lucky one...and she deserves much more then this. I still remember how how she was nervous around me on our wedding night...but when i told her that there's no rush to consume our marriage, she jumped out of happiness and hugged me. She was so adorable.

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11 September 2018 *
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All seems intresting and beautiful when you are in love..

Well for me , life is blissful.
Such loveable and caring husband.
My in laws pampers me like their own doughter.
my happy and healthy perents.

I'm just overwhelmed...

10 September, is karthik's birthday,
Last he celebrated my Birthday with lots of fun ,. movie, outing, restaurant, candle light dinner etc. He treated me like Princess.

But my poor fate , since last 2 day's here in Chennai it's havy rain . So i can't take him out for surprise. But on his birthday i want to treat him as prince.
My prince ....... Who own my heart and soul.

I thought to give him the best surprise on his b'day.
After lots of thinking i decided to give him that, for what he's carving .

Yes....
I'm ready to be his...by heart , soul and body too..
Thank for this Rain..
Because if this rain , we got this opportunity.

His reaction was worth to watch when i said " I'm ready to take this relationship next level "
I gave myself to him..
He was surprised and happiest man .
At first it was hurting little but he assured me that he will try his best to not to hurt me. After sometim bothe were in pool of pleasure. I was a mouning mess . Every time with his feather touches made me moun .
That night he showed me how much he was carving for me, yet he was gentle with me. Becouse for both of us , it was our first time.
How much he loves me ..And i was blushing tomato the hole night.
It was still raining outside, rain drops sound and those thunder made our moment more special . we shared our love , there was only love not lust. But end of the sensation we bothe hugged eachother like there's no tomorrow and slept peacefully.

I was not able to write my diary last night,
So I'm writing now.
I'm writing our every special moments in this diary becouse next year on his birthday I'm going to gift him my diary..

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Ohhhh...but sorry addhu I'm already reading your diary. I know you will forgive me for this act of mine.... after all u can't be angry with more then 2 hours. And once again i recalled our first love making.... skin to skin....mouns and grunts...and lots of love bits....ahhh i should stop here otherwise i have to take cold shower , which i hate.

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13 October 2018 *
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Days are passing likes clouds.
Karthik's first movie got super duper hit.
Seeing his telent and hardwork, many producers offered him movie's.

So nows a day he's Little busy with his works,
But still he manag to get some free time for me.
And I'm happy for that.

But passed 2-3 days I'm feeling Annecy .
Like something bad is going to happen.
I prayed to God , but still I'm having some kind of negative thoughts.

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I don't know, what should i say.... So i just flipped the page. I know what is coming next.

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25 November 2018*
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I curse this day...

my mom dad met with an accident.

They were badly injured and lossed big amount of bloods.

Doctors tried their best ...
But ....

They left me...they left us....
It's hard to believe but ...they left me...

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I never saw her like that, she was badly broken from heart. Evan though she has my perents but still my perents can't replace her perents. Her dad he called me in his last minutes and asked me to do a promise that" I'll never leave her, no matter what happens but never. " And i think i kept my promise

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9 December 2018 *
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Slowly I'm accepting the reality...
Yes.... I'm moving on from my mom dad's death.

My in laws are trying their best..
They always pamper me.
They care for me.
And they loves me like their own doughter.

But in all this i started miss krishna....

Yes... Because of his new movie commitments he's busy ...

But he was there for me, when mom dad left me.
He counsel's me .
He was there for my support.

He left for work after confirming that I'm fine.

I'm just waiting to his arrive.
It's been long that we had dinner together.

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Yeah those were my career trurning point so, was engrossed in my work, becouse I don't wont to lose even one opportunity. Becouse this is the age , that i can chase my dreams and goals. This is flexible age for anything. So i was just using it in proper way.

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1 January 2019 *
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I miss him....

It's more then a month, that we even talked with eachother properly.

It's new year, and that after wedding our first new year.

I thought we will go out , at lest We will have dinner together. But he didn't Evan wished me.

He just msged me *happy new year d *

I'm upset with him...
Still missing him...

I just read it somewhere...........

STAYING in a relationship JUST because you love somebody is not worth it. Love is not all you need.

RESPECT is what you need.
REASSURANCE is what you need.
HAPPINESS is what you need.
KNOWING everyday you are their favourite person is what you need....

YOU don't have to cheat loss to someone.
YOU can loss someone from lack of communication, attention, disrespect and sharing things..

It's not always what you do, sometimes it's about what you didn't do.

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Shit , i was such asshole to forget my own wedding day. But what can i do... I was in mess. Producer was pressuring me to finish the shoot as soon as possible. In that hurry i forgot it. I'm guilty for my act.

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23 june 2019 *
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Now's day everything seems boring .
Even I'm bored with diary writing.

Yeah.... after all I'm going to repeat that "missing him, he's busy " thing again and again...

Sometimes i pretend like who cares... But end of the day i endup in crying ....

Yes , however i tried to ignore this thoughts but still i can't....

Why cant he understands...?

He barly talk with me nows day.
All he could talk is ....
"Addhu I'm getting late serv breakfast."
" Addhu I'll be late , you eat and sleep don't wait for me."
"Addhu I'm going abroad for shooting , take care "
And so on...

I'm tired of all this .....

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By every turning page , i can feel how much I have hurted her. I was blind in my goals and dreams that a failed to notice her.....i was careless.

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7 July 2019*
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Like always ...

Today also i waited for him..
To have dinner with him
To hug him.
To cry on his chest..
To say that ' i can't take this anymore '

But can't say.... Because that's his passion and dream...he loves his work and i love him.
So , i will not say anything emotional to him. That could divert his mind.

I know I'm the one who is being stupid here.
I should understand him...
He's also suffering , lake of sleep and rest.
Now's days he's too tired himself...

But still....i miss him..
It's not like I don't have anyone to talk.. I have, I have my friends and my in laws but still they can't replace my husband.
For a girl her husband is a different thing from other. The bond we share with our husband, the intimacy, the love and care....it's all just special. No one can ever replace that.

Anyway ....

Since he's busy with his work i thought to divert my mind , so i joined a art gallery .

From childhood i was interested in art works but never get opportunity to take part of it.

But i thought, i should build my own career.
So it's going good too.

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God what I have done...shit I'm sure she will not spear me this time... there's lot more then this is waiting for me...and i totally deserve her punishments.

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28 August 2019 *
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Today when i returned home from work, i was shocked to see Karthik in home at this time...he usually comes late . But i was happy to see him...but my happiness got vanished when he said " due to heavy rain shooting got cancelled" i was little hurt when i realised that he came home becouse his shooting got cancelled not for me..
But i thought not to west such a opportunity, so pushing my thoughts away we cooked dinner together and eat in silence.
As my in laws are gone for a movie, they might get late... As it's a night show.

Then we cleaned the kitchen and had back to our room.

We lied peacefully in eachother arms... i placed my head in his chest.
I was talking about my art class incident.. but he was really distribing me by touching me here and there...

Knowing his intention, i lift my head and narrowed my eyebrows in ordet to say . stay quiet..but next second he captured my lips with his..and kissed me. I wrapped my arms around him and he lift my in Swift moment and placed me in his stomach without breaking the kiss.

Soon our clothe were lying somewhere on floors.
This time we both were wild. It was little painful for me yet i felt the pleasured.... panting hard, listing the sounds of thunders and the cool wind hitting our bare skin.. it was pure pleasure.

After our wild make out sation we hugged each other and drift into deep slember.

But somewhere a part of my heart know , this is temporary happiness, again from tomorrow all will be in repeat mode.

Anyway i don't want to spoil my present by thinking of future.

I should thank Rain...
Becouse everytime when we meet its raining...
Or i should say it's raining when we meet.

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That was really a wild make out.....but whatever happened that was pure pleasure of love..... Only she has the power to make me hard just by her moun. And i loved the wild side of hers.

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21 September 2018 *
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I'm scared to go out....

The art class which i joined few days ago..
I left that...
I don't want to go there...
He..the main head of art class ...
He tried to molest me today...
I...i just want hide myself..
The nightmares ... it's torchal for me..
I wont remove his touches from my skin...
He touched me on my back, and stomach. Pushing him hard , I ran form there .
I tried to call karthik but he was not picking my call.
I just want hug him, and cry ...but he's too busy in his own career..
I shouldn't disturb him.
I'll try to fight on my own self .
But will not share this with karthik. He will get distracted. And i don't want that.
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After reading this page...a lone tear escaped from my eyes...
She was suffering ....
I'll kill that bloody bhastred who try to touch my girl.
She was baring all this only because of me....
If she has left that art class , then we're is she now ...? I tried to call her... but her phone number she wasn't picking my call, god this girl what I'm going to do with her.
I promise addhu....here after I'll not let u alone.
And i read further....

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11 October 2019*
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After that day again all in repeat mode...

I'm waiting for him ... All day and night...
But he...

Ok i tried to understand his situation, i know he has lots of work and responsibilities.

But can't he manage 30 min for me ?

I even tried to visit his shooting spot , so i can get some time to spend with him .
But I'm afaired of crowded places.
And his shootings spot doesn't give me any good vibes so i drop that idea.

He's taking me for granted..

He's a good human being.
He's a good son.
He's a good director.
He's a good Lover.
It's ok if he's not a good husband.
But he should be a good father..I'm talking about future ,
I'm on pills, i know he's not ready to take such a huge responsibility like children's. But one or another day we will have children's. And i don't want him as a bad father....

I'll wait for him .....
I have to talk about this with him...

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The moment i read this page, i was speechless, i don't know what to say.... I'm blank... totally blank..

I just want to hug my addhu...like there's no tomorrow....

"Please addhu i know you are here.... somewhere near me.... please come back to me...I'm sorry for everything i know my sorry is useless now..but please come back to me... without you I'm nothing.... please...." I shouted as i can't take this further... i just want to hug her.... But when i don't get any replies i sighed she hasn't arrived yet, and i continued to read.

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10 November 2019*
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I'm feeling alone....

I'm feeling saffocated.

Missing my mom dad...

Today's the day when they left me.

Done....

I'm done with this relationship....

I'm leaving....

I'm going to my perents...

But one last time i want to say this...

" Love you karthik..."

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After reading her diarys last page...
I was shocked to the core...
What she meant by " leaving and going to my present ? "

I'm horrified....

Did she left me already.....?

"Addhu .....addhu ..... please stop your act. And come to me.....see I'm scared to hell.....drop your act..."

" Addhu ......" Clutching the diary near my chest i started to scream....I'm stupid...i hurted her..
I left her alone....i left her to suffer.....i left her. She is pregnant and i didn't even noticed her changing behaviour, her swallowed eyes..

" Addhu " i screamed....i was in my own tharuma, when i felt someone is behind me...but when i turned back , no one was there. Why I'm getting this type of thoughts....

She left me....
I lost her.....
I couldn't take this anymore i burst into tears.....
I lost my precious thing...

I took out my phone and called her....
Luckily this time she picked the call...

" Addhu.......I'm sorry ....I'm sorry..... please come back to me.....i can't leave without... please..... I'll bare your all punishments..." I got into my kneels and cried hard.....

" You are too late .....the demag already done " she replied in weak tone..

"Addhu ..... please....one last chance...." pleading hard i said....and waited for her reply.

" Why ....? I'm not a toy karthik...i too have feelings, emotions... I felt like left over... You were not there for me , when i needed you the most. I don't know if this separation matter to you or not, but it matter to me. I was alone, scared, dipressed, and molested but you weren't there for.

I was eager to share my day incident wih you
I was eager to share my feelings when it was raining and i missed you.
I was eager to share my thoughts with you.
I was eager to share the feeling of leftover.

But every day and night you killed my eagerness.

I was waiting for you, every day and night,
To talk with me more then 1 hour.
To hug me,
To console me,
To assure me,
To tease me,
To have dinner with me,

I expected us to be a normal married couples, who shares their day with eachother, who cook together, who go for shopping together, who fights with eachother but say sorry the next minute. Who tease eachother, who share some intimacy . Who argue with eachother...but end of the who love eachother the most.

But no ...... You were not...you started to take me granted, you were so careless about me.

You might thought, after all this I'll say a sorry and she will forgive me becouse i didn't done a big mistake, it's just i was busy with works.. what's big in this...right ..?"

" No...it's not like that.....i thought once after finishing my all commitments..... I'll spend my entire time with you... I'll take a break form my work and we will go for a vacation....i was just blind in fame and appreciation.." I said as tears were making there way from my eyes.....i expected her to say something...i was fool to ignore her...but i just thought, if i work hard then our future will secured..i always wished to give her the best life. That's why i was so engrossed in all this and forgot her totally....

She didn't say anything after that nor i. We were just silent...

"Karthik I'm leaving by....." That's all she said, and cut the call.

I got panic and called her again again ...but she didn't picked my call...

"You can't do this to me addhu....." I screamed and fall down on my kneels...

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(Authore :- Hee heee 😜just a lil prank.)

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