French translations in the A/N at the end

June 22, 2020 -Miami, Florida
Cara POV

Cara. -L

Hmm? -C

It's been exactly one month since I gave you the deadline. -L

Yeah... and? -C

And are you and Keanu making babies yet? -L

No... -C

Didn't think so. Time to go into the groupchat! -L

No wait! I still have today! -C

Fine. Because I love you I will give you today. -L

Thanks Lucy! -C

Okay well I'm totally and royally screwed.

Somehow a month has passed? Keanu and I are closer than ever but more importantly my feelings for him are stronger than ever and I'm not sure what to do about it.

Lucy and Ace are still... Lucy and Ace. Everyone's grown accustomed to them breaking up and getting back together the next day. They really love each other I can see it, anyone can see it, but neither of them gave the guts to say it -to anyone else or to each other. I know they'll make it out of this, but both of them have to put on their big people pants and face their problems.

Anyways back to the problem at hand. What am I gonna do? 

•~•~•

"So Cara... you never told me who you liked?" 

Nevermind, I have a plan. Thanks so much Kean!

"I didn't?..." I smirked at him through the phone screen. "Oh."

"No you didn't." He gave me a confused yet amused smirk.

"Well how about this. I'll tell you who I like if you tell me if you like someone and who it is."

"No. I'm not doing that."

"And why not?"

"Because..." He looked around the room trying to look for an excuse or a way out, but there was no excuse. There was no way out. This was going to happen today whether he wants it to or not.

"Because I don't like anyone." He looked at my triumphantly like he just did something.

"I know you're lying."

His face fell and he started stuttering again. "Well- I- uhh..."

"C'mon just tell me! I'm not gonna tell her or anything."

"Well that would be quite hard considering..." He trailed off and I raised my eyebrows.

"Considering what?" I smirked at him.

"Okay now it just feels like you're teasing me."

"Why would I be teasing you Kean?"

He gave me a curious look. "You know don't you?"

"Know what?"

"You're gonna make me say it aren't you?"

"Say what?"

He shook his head and laughed. "There's no way out of this is there?"

"Nope! What was it you were gonna say again?" I put my hand up to my ear, waiting for him to respond.

"Oh just that I'm basically in love with you. No biggie."

All the color drained from my face as soon as the words left his mouth.

In love with me? He can't be in love with me. There's no way that he's in love with me. I've never even been in love how could I even handle someone being in love with me?

"What did you just say?"

His face fell when he saw my expression. "I... did I misinterpret what was going on here? I thought you already knew?"

"I thought you liked me Keanu! I didn't realize you were going to say you loved me."

"Well I can't exactly reverse my feelings."

"There's no way you're in love with me Kean. We've been spending a lot of time together so you think that's what's happening but it's not."

"You don't feel the same way do you?" Keanu was giving me the saddest look I've ever seen on anyone. A face of pure heartbreak.

"It's not like I don't absolutely love hanging out with you, like I don't love hearing your voice. It's not like I don't... like you, but- but kean that's all it is. I don't know what it's like to love someone."

"That's okay. You don't have to love me back. I know that's a lot for you but we can-"

"No Keanu! You can't just give your heart to someone like that! To me like that! You know the pain that comes with it, so why would you do it?"

"Cara just listen-"

"No Kean, let me speak." I couldn't let him try and talk me into this. It wouldn't end well for either of us and I know it. I took a deep breath and got ready to crush Keanu's heart along with my own.

"I... I wanna be with you, I really do but... I'm- I- we- I can't handle that much emotion. You loving me, us being in a relationship... I don't trust myself with all that power. I don't trust myself not to break your heart. I don't know what love feels like but I have come close and I can't imagine having someone feel that way about me and I... I don't wanna hurt you." I couldn't stop it at that point and let out a sob.

"Cara you realize that by doing this you're hurting me more than you could've by dating me." His voice cracked just like my own.

I shook my head, he didn't understand. "No Keanu. I'm not. Maybe you'll realize it in the future but I'm not the girl you need right now. You already had one toxic girlfriend you don't need two."

"Cara you wouldn't be a toxic girlfriend-"

"You don't know that!"

"So you're not even gonna try? You're not even gonna take a chance? You're just... giving up?"

I laughed, not because this was funny just because that was the only way I could stop myself from crying at that point. "Yeah, basically."

"Can you at least think about it?"

"I could say yes, but I would be lying."

He sighed. "I love you Cara... I really do."

I held in my tears to say one last thing.

"Adieu pour toujours Keanu."

I hung up the phone and cried until I literally couldn't anymore.

•~•~• 

Lucía came over after I told her everything that happened. We were done with school and things were starting to open up again so my parents didn't mind. 

Instead of doing the things we normally did at a sleepover we just complained about everything wrong in our lives. Which wasn't that much different than usual just... more tears.

"I did the right thing right? It was the best thing for me?"

Lucía rubbed my back while I cried into her lap. "Only you know what's best for yourself babygirl-"

"Don't call me that."

"Sorry right! Anyway, I probably shouldn't have pressured you into to telling him. Now look what happened."

"Thanks Lucy but it would've happened either way."

"What do you mean?"

"Either way I would've come to the conclusion that I wouldn't be able to handle that much emotion coming from him. That us being in a relationship would only hurt him and by proxy would hurt me as well. It's the truth. It's what's best for me and it's what's best for him."

"You can't tell him what's best for him novia..."

"No, but I can tell him what I know about myself, and I know that I'm unpredictable and even I don't trust myself. I can't let him give me all his love only for me to just rip his heart to shreds."

"Cara..."

"I know, I know! I'm probably doing that right now, but trust me. I'm not that special. He'll get over me before school even starts! You'll see."

She sighed. "C'mon, let's go get my bestie some Ice cream."

"Yay! I like Ice cream!"

"That's why I suggested it let's go!" She slapped my leg and brought me downstairs to have some creamy goodness.

I was going to be okay. Right?

•~•~• 

A/N

Hey guys! 

6 more chapters!! Ugh this story is like my baby and I can't wait to write the next two. 

I hope you guys are liking it so far. I've put so much thought into the different couples and how the books connect and everything. I'm actually so proud of the work I put into this book. Thank you all for reading this far! And thanks for almost 150 reads! It means a lot 

French translations

-'Adieu pour toujours' ~ Goodbye forever

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