"I know it doesn't make sense to you but that's what really happened. I really did miss you and didn't mean to hurt your feelings!", he replied with the most convincing words he could ever muster.

"Well I don't know how I should feel about this whole situation because here you are making it seem like it's an easy decision to make when it's not!", I said with a firm voice.

"I know Jamie, that's why I'll give you time but I really want to see you on and off again cause I really am back home and want my best friend back", he replied making me feel guilty of my previous statement.

"Okay, you know what? It's fine. Doesn't hurt to talk once in a while right?", I replied with a small smile.

Wrong! I was so wrong but who are we to judge. We all make mistakes once in a while.

So this is where the conversation ended with Andre basically agreeing and us exchanging numbers.

We made a little small talk and it was already time for he and his mother to leave.

While talking, his mother called his phone to let him know that she was ready to go but didn't want to disturb us, which was really kind of her.

We both stood up and then Andre went in for a hug.

Being the weird human being that I am, I backed away and asked "What are you doing?"

"It's just a hug Jamie, relax", he chuckled.

I didn't say anything because I felt so embarrassed but I gave in to the hug and boy was that a big mistake.

Feelings that I thought were long gone came rushing back into my system.

Making me some what loose my train of thought and dismissing from reality.

I snuggled into his arms without acknowledging it and we stayed like this for a few minutes.

When I finally got out of my possessed state, I quicky but gentle escaped from his touch and what I saw on his face was something I didn't quite understand.

Both trying to forget what just happened, we walked into the house and started saying our goodbyes to Andre and his mom with my mom making plans for another dinner date.

Ugh...I don't know how much of this I can take.

After they left, everyone started tidying up and then heading to bed since we had school and work the next day.

I walked up to my room after washing the dishes and took a warm bath before bed.

I don't know if it's just me but I really love steaming hot baths, makes me feel relaxed and allows my brain to be active.

While showering, I think about all the events which occured during the day and I sometimes make plans for the upcoming one.

During tonight's shower, this is exactly what I did and I planned on avoiding Andre at all costs.

May sound weird to you as we recently poured our feelings out to one another, well not totally but you get the point.

But...I just don't know how I'll cope at school with this whole situation.

My house was a safe zone so I was able to talk and control my feelings but what if I blurt something out by accident and infront of millions of his beloved fans.

That would be a huge nightmare and the labeling of a target to most.

Getting out of the shower, I brushed my teeth and rinsed my face which is a habit that I find unnecessary as I wash my face in the shower but oh well.

Grabbed a comfy night gown and went to bed after saying my prayers and taking a minute or two to reflect on I and Andre's talk.

Who would've known that Andre and I would finally start back talking or better yet be friends again.