I am super confused and a little scared of and kind of hate who I find myself attracted to sometimes. Like Dark and Anti. Yes they look like Mark and Jack and I find them attractive but I usually get attracted to personality and then looks. I had a crush on Dark before I had one on Mark, or at least I told myself I did.

Anti, Jimmy, and Dark are awful so why do I have crushes on them? And why do I think they're...oh gosh...hot? Jimmy doesn't even have a canon appearance, just fanart. *sigh*

And I'll be watching a TV show or something and randomly think "He's kinda cute," or "He's kinda good looking," and I hate that. It makes me uncomfortable. It's only a moment like "Oh hey," but I don't like it. I get it's part of growing up though. Just makes me uncomfortable.