~JUNGKOOK POV~

If my witch of a wife thinks I'm ever going to have sex with her she can think again. I hate that woman and never would I touch her like that. The last time I was even close to something like that was on our wedding day and I had to kiss her at the alter. The biggest mistake of my life. I wished now I just took y/n and ran away with her and not so what my father said.

I still think of y/n every god damn day of my life, every second of every day she's on my mind. I still love her deeply I just can't show it, I have to act like she means nothing to me. I can't have Sakura hurting her again, not like last time. That day changed everything and made me into this cold person that I don't want to be but I can't help it, it hurts too much, but I know y/n would be hurting more.

I never lost my love for her, ever as I know she thinks I've lost my love for her but I haven't. I don't think I ever will.

"King Jungkook your cousins and friends are here."

I looked up at my now open door to see my advisor Hoseok standing at the door.

"Don't you knock?"

He was taken back from what I said and lowered his gaze to the floor and nervously fiddled with his fingers.

"I'm sorry but I did. I few times so I just came in." Hoseok

I'm not even mad and he's one of my best friends anyway. I tell him everything so he knows of my feelings to Y/n since I trust him with every bone in my body and plus his dad Yoonsoo, my dads last advisor knew of this too.

"It's okay anyway. Just let them in."

I waved in motion to allow my cousins and friends to walk in but Hoseok didn't need to do anything further since my best friend Jimin must of heard and barged in like he own the place.

"Jungkook! My man! You're looking mighty fine this morning." Jimin

I sighed and leaned back in my chair to see him come in and sit on a chair in front of my desk while the others too pile in the room with Hoseok coming in too to close the door behind him.

"What do you want Jimin?"

He only ever butters me up when he wants something.

"I'm offended. Can I not possibly give you a compliment without you thinking I want something from you?" Jimin

He plastered on a fake offended smile with his hand on his chest.

"No."

Yoongi, my other best friend and I said at the same time. We exchanged a glance at each other as he sat down in the chair next to Jimin.

"He wants the number of the last woman you were with. Jimin won't shut up about how hot she was." Taehyung

"Tae! I could of asked myself!" Jimin

Taehyung rolled his eyes and planted his butt on my desk to which I don't mind because he is my cousin after all, just like Jin and Namjoon are my cousins too.

"That's fine I don't care anyway."

"Yes! Thank you!" Jimin

He threw his hands up in the air and I pulled out the girls number from a drawer in my desk and give it to him. Jimin laughed in success and stuck his tongue out at Taehyung who rolled his eyes at his behaviour.

"Hey can I go to your library? I need a new book and none of these books you have here are books that I haven't already read." Namjoon

"Yeah sure."

I waved lazily at him.

"Thanks." Namjoon

He proceeded to leave but Jimin got up and walked out after him.

"I think we better go with Jimin. He's in one of those annoying moods today." Yoongi

Jin scoffs as I agree and stood up from my chair.

"He's a child." Jin

"Yeah well lets go then."

Hoseok was the first to leave the room and rushed down the corridor running quickly like he was in a rush. Weird.

We walked down the corridor and through to the other side of the castle where the library was. Halfway there Taehyung convince Yoongi to get on his back so Tae ended up carrying Yoongi to the library but put him down when we walked inside.

Namjoon was already at the far end looking at the books where as Jimin was lounging on a couch but with his sights on something above on the second landing of the library.

I followed his like of sight to see Hoseok talking with someone. A maid I can tell by the uniform but I had to walk a little further in to get a better look of her face. My heart skipped a beat when I seen it was Y/n. The very same reaction I get every time I see her.

Hoseok was whispering to her before I seen how he noticed we entered the room and said one more thing before walking away from her. She stood there watching him walk away but then turned around and gasped when she seen I was looking right at her.

I didn't move nor did I blink. I wanted to hold that eye contact for as long as I can until she broke it first and moved her sights to something next to me. I looked to the left of me to see Yoongi standing there staring at her with deep concentration on his face taking in every part of her image. I didn't like it.

So I nudged his shoulder to gain his attention. Luckily it worked and he turned his head to look at me with his blank face and then shook his head and walking away to sit beside Jimin on the couch.

I looked back up at y/n to now find her back to me and continued cleaning the shelves.

I know that her changing her duties from serving meals to laundry is all her idea. If she thinks that by doing that she won't have to see a lot of me she's very wrong. In fact it actually gives me a chance to get alone time with her since I could if I really want to keep her in a bedroom with me when she strips it of it sheets or lock her with me in the laundry room and no one can say anything about it. She cants get away from me that easy because I know that's what she's trying to do.

"I know she's pretty but you don't have to stare at her like a little puppy."

Jin whispers in my ear making me flinch in surprise but scoffed pretending that I don't find her attractive when I definitely do.

"I wasn't staring at her. I was thinking how she didn't clean that shelf properly."

I pointed to a shelf beside her and I saw how her shoulders tensed when she heard me speak. The shelf was perfectly fine but I had to think of something. I felt bad for it but I can't have anyone think I like her it's bad enough Sakura knows and I don't know how she does but she's always known since the day we got married.

"Sure okay." Jin

He stepped back squinting his eyes at me like he wasn't convinced. I saw Hoseok coming down the steps giving me an disappointing look but I shrugged my shoulders and took a seat on the singles chair.

"Is it me or does maid Y/n looks extremely fine this morning?" Jimin

He actually knows her name?
I've never heard him say her name, it's always just maid.

I glared at Jimin but he didn't notice because he was looking up at her from behind licking his lips. Yoongi too was looking up at her but not in the same way as Jimin there was something else there but still I didn't like it.

"I agreed Jimin. She has a nice ass." Taehyung

That's when I glared at Taehyung instead to get him to shut up while he stands with his hands in his pockets but also looking at her from behind.

"Here, here." Namjoon

Not him too!
But Namjoon wasn't looking at her thank god he was glued to reading a page inside a book he had in his hands.

Everyone was staring at her except for Hoseok. This was pissing me off. I groaned loudly and kicked over the side table. I bit much I know but I can't help it when I get frustrated like this.

"Woah there." Jimin

I ignored him and stood up angrily and stared up at y/n who was now looking down after I must of frightened her with the kicking of the table.

"You. Leave. Now!"

She was taken back at my raised voice, with that sad hurt look on her face. I immediately felt bad for speaking at her in this way but having her here around my friends and cousins was not helping at all.

Y/n bows and scurried away down the steps near by her and runs past me to get to the door of the library and quickly leaving. She didn't even look at me as she ran past but I sighed heavily and walked over to Hosoek and leaned close to his ear to whisper.

"Could you go check in her please?"

Hoseok nods without a word and leaves the library in search for her. I watched him leave and sat back down again.

"Wow Jungkook. If I didn't know any better I would say you like that maid." Namjoon

"I don't she's just a maid."

My heart hurts at my own words. She's not just a maid she's the love of my life. The one I do desperately want to be with but can't. Not right now.

I looked at Jin as the others began to talk about random things. He was staring at me with a smirk on his face and sat down on the opposite couch without breaking eye contact with me.

I think he's catching on.